Chapter XV

The streets were still empty. Levin went to
the house of the Shtcherbatskys. The visitors’ doors were closed
and everything was asleep. He walked back, went into his room
again, and asked for coffee. The day servant, not Yegor this time,
brought it to him. Levin would have entered into conversation with
him, but a bell rang for the servant, and he went out. Levin tried
to drink coffee and put some roll in his mouth, but his mouth was
quite at a loss what to do with the roll. Levin, rejecting the
roll, put on his coat and went out again for a walk. It was nine
o’clock when he reached the Shtcherbatskys’ steps the second time.
In the house they were only just up, and the cook came out to go
marketing. He had to get through at least two hours more.
All that night and morning Levin lived perfectly
unconsciously, and felt perfectly lifted out of the conditions of
material life. He had eaten nothing for a whole day, he had not
slept for two nights, had spent several hours undressed in the
frozen air, and felt not simply fresher and stronger than ever, but
felt utterly independent of his body; he moved without muscular
effort, and felt as if he could do anything. He was convinced he
could fly upwards or lift the corner of the house, if need be. He
spent the remainder of the time in the street, incessantly looking
at his watch and gazing about him.
And what he saw then, he never saw again after. The
children, especially, going to school, the bluish doves flying down
from the roofs to the pavement, and the little loaves covered with
flour, thrust out by an unseen hand, touched him. Those loaves,
those doves, and those two boys were not earthly creatures. It all
happened at the same time: a boy ran towards a dove and glanced
smiling at Levin; the dove, with a whir of her wings, darted away,
flashing in the sun, amid grains of snow that quivered in the air,
while from a little window there came a smell of fresh-baked bread,
and the loaves were put out. All of this together was so
extraordinarily nice that Levin laughed and cried with delight.
Going a long way round by Gazetny Place and Kislovka, he went back
again to the hotel, and putting his watch before him, he sat down
to wait for twelve o‘clock. In the next room they were talking
about some sort of machines, and swindling, and coughing their
morning coughs. They did not realize that the hand was near twelve.
The hand reached it. Levin went out onto the steps. The
sledge-drivers clearly knew all about it. They crowded round Levin
with happy faces, quarreling among themselves, and offering their
services. Trying not to offend the other sledge-drivers, and
promising to drive with them too, Levin took one and told him to
drive to the Shtcherbatskys’. The sledge-driver was splendid in a
white shirt-collar sticking out over his overcoat and into his
strong, full-blooded red neck. The sledge was high and comfortable,
and altogether such a one as Levin never drove in after, and the
horse was a good one, and tried to gallop but didn’t seem to move.
The driver knew the Shtcherbatskys’ house, and drew up at the
entrance with a curve of his arm and a “Wo!” especially indicative
of respect for his fare. The Shtcherbatskys’ hall-porter certainly
knew all about it. This was evident from the smile in his eyes and
the way he said:
“Well, it’s a long while since you’ve been to see
us, Konstantin Dmitrievitch!”
Not only he knew all about it, but he was
unmistakably delighted and making efforts to conceal his joy.
Looking into his kindly old eyes, Levin realized even something new
in his happiness.
“Are they up?”
“Pray walk in! Leave it here,” said he, smiling, as
Levin would have come back to take his hat. That meant
something.
“To whom shall I announce your honor?” asked the
footman.
The footman, though a young man, and one of the new
school of footmen, a dandy, was a very kind-hearted, good fellow,
and he too knew all about it.
“The princess . . . the prince . . . the young
princess . . .” said Levin.
The first person he saw was Mademoiselle Linon. She
walked across the room, and her ringlets and her face were beaming.
He had only just spoken to her, when suddenly he heard the rustle
of a skirt at the door, and Mademoiselle Linon vanished from
Levin’s eyes, and a joyful terror came over him at the nearness of
his happiness. Mademoiselle Linon was in great haste, and leaving
him, went out at the other door. Directly she had gone out, swift,
swift light steps sounded on the parquet, and his bliss, his life,
himself—what was best in himself, what he had so long sought and
longed for—was quickly, so quickly approaching him. She did not
walk, but seemed, by some unseen force, to float to him. He saw
nothing but her clear, truthful eyes, frightened by the same bliss
of love that flooded his heart. Those eyes were shining nearer and
nearer, blinding him with their light of love. She stopped still
close to him, touching him. Her hands rose and dropped onto his
shoulders.
She had done all she could—she had run up to him
and given herself up entirely, shy and happy. He put his arms round
her and pressed his lips to her mouth that sought his kiss.
She too had not slept all night, and had been
expecting him all the morning.
Her mother and father had consented without demur,
and were happy in her happiness. She had been waiting for him. She
wanted to be the first to tell him her happiness and his. She had
got ready to see him alone, and had been delighted at the idea, and
had been shy and ashamed, and did not know herself what she was
doing. She had heard his steps and voice, and had waited at the
door for Mademoiselle Linon to go. Mademoiselle Linon had gone
away. Without thinking, without asking herself how and what, she
had gone up to him, and did as she was doing.
“Let us go to mamma!” she said, taking him by the
hand. For a long while he could say nothing, not so much because he
was afraid of desecrating the loftiness of his emotion by a word,
as that every time he tried to say something, instead of words he
felt that tears of happiness were welling up. He took her hand and
kissed it.
“Can it be true?” he said at last in a choked
voice. “I can’t believe you love me, dear!”
She smiled at that “dear,” and at the timidity with
which he glanced at her.
“Yes!” she said significantly, deliberately. “I am
so happy!”
Not letting go his hands, she went into the
drawing-room. The princess, seeing them, breathed quickly, and
immediately began to cry and then immediately began to laugh and
with a vigorous step Levin had not expected, ran up to him, and
hugging his head, kissed him, wetting his cheeks with her
tears.
“So it is all settled! I am glad. Love her. I am
glad. . . . Kitty!”
“You’ve not been long settling things,” said the
old prince, trying to seem unmoved; but Levin noticed that his eyes
were wet when he turned to him.
“I’ve long, always wished for this!” said the
prince, taking Levin by the arm and drawing him towards himself.
“Even when this little feather-head fancied...”
“Papa!” shrieked Kitty, and shut his mouth with her
hands.
“Well, I won’t!” he said. “I’m very, very . . .
plea . . . Oh, what a fool I am . . .”
He embraced Kitty, kissed her face, her hand, her
face again and made the sign of the cross over her.
And there came over Levin a new feeling of love for
this man, till then so little known to him, when he saw how slowly
and tenderly Kitty kissed his muscular hand.