Chapter XXVIII

When Alexey Alexandrovitch reached the
race-course, Anna was already sitting in the pavilion beside Betsy,
in that pavilion where all the highest society had gathered. She
caught sight of her husband in the distance. Two men, her husband
and her lover, were the two centers of her existence, and unaided
by her external senses she was aware of their nearness. She was
aware of her husband approaching a long way off, and she could not
help following him in the surging crowd in the midst of which he
was moving. She watched his progress towards the pavilion, saw him
now responding condescendingly to an ingratiating bow, now
exchanging friendly, nonchalant greetings with his equals, now
assiduously trying to catch the eye of some great one of this
world, and taking off his big round hat that squeezed the tips of
his ears. All these ways of his she knew, and all were hateful to
her. “Nothing but ambition, nothing but the desire to get on,
that’s all there is in his soul,” she thought; “as for these lofty
ideals, love of culture, religion, they are only so many tools for
getting on.”
From his glances towards the ladies’ pavilion (he
was staring straight at her, but did not distinguish his wife in
the sea of muslin, ribbons, feathers, parasols and flowers) she saw
that he was looking for her, but she purposely avoided noticing
him.
“Alexey Alexandrovitch!” Princess Betsy called to
him; “I’m sure you don’t see your wife: here she is.”
He smiled his chilly smile.
“There’s so much splendor here that one’s eyes are
dazzled,” he said, and he went into the pavilion. He smiled to his
wife as a man should smile on meeting his wife after only just
parting from her, and greeted the princess and other acquaintances,
giving to each what was due—that is to say, jesting with the ladies
and dealing out friendly greetings among the men. Below, near the
pavilion, was standing an adjutant-general of whom Alexey
Alexandrovitch had a high opinion, noted for his intelligence and
culture. Alexey Alexandrovitch entered into conversation with
him.
There was an interval between the races, and so
nothing hindered conversation. The adjutant-general expressed his
disapproval of races. Alexey Alexandrovitch replied defending them.
Anna heard his high, measured tones, not losing one word, and every
word struck her as false, and stabbed her ears with pain.
When the three-mile steeplechase was beginning, she
bent forward and gazed with fixed eyes at Vronsky as he went up to
his horse and mounted, and at the same time she heard that
loathsome, never-ceasing voice of her husband. She was in an agony
of terror for Vronsky, but a still greater agony was the
never-ceasing, as it seemed to her, stream of her husband’s shrill
voice with its familiar intonations.
“I’m a wicked woman, a lost woman,” she thought;
“but I don’t like lying, I can’t endure falsehood, while as for him
(her husband) it’s the breath of his life—falsehood. He knows all
about it, he sees it all; what does he care if he can talk so
calmly? If he were to kill me, if he were to kill Vronsky, I might
respect him. No, all he wants is falsehood and propriety,” Anna
said to herself, not considering exactly what it was she wanted of
her husband, and how she would have liked to see him behave. She
did not understand either that Alexey Alexandrovitch’s peculiar
loquacity that day, so exasperating to her, was merely the
expression of his inward distress and uneasiness. As a child that
has been hurt skips about, putting all his muscles into movement to
drown the pain, in the same way Alexey Alexandrovitch needed mental
exercise to drown the thoughts of his wife that in her presence and
in Vronsky’s, and with the continual iteration of his name, would
force themselves on his attention. And it was as natural for him to
talk well and cleverly, as it is natural for a child to skip about.
He was saying:
“Danger in the races of officers, of cavalry men,
is an essential element in the race. If England can point to the
most brilliant feats of cavalry in military history, it is simply
owing to the fact that she has historically developed this force
both in beasts and in men. Sport has, in my opinion, a great value,
and as is always the case, we see nothing but what is most
superficial.”
“It’s not superficial,” said Princess Tverskaya.
“One of the officers, they say, has broken two ribs.”
Alexey Alexandrovitch smiled his smile, which
uncovered his teeth, but revealed nothing more.
“We’ll admit, princess, that that’s not
superficial,” he said, “but internal. But that’s not the point,”
and he turned again to the general with whom he was talking
seriously; “we mustn’t forget that those who are taking part in the
race are military men, who have chosen that career, and one must
allow that every calling has its disagreeable side. It forms an
integral part of the duties of an officer. Low sports, such as
prize-fighting or Spanish bull-fights, are a sign of barbarity. But
specialized trials of skill are a sign of development.”
“No, I shan’t come another time; it’s too
upsetting,” said Princess Betsy. “Isn’t it, Anna?”
“It is upsetting, but one can’t tear oneself away,”
said another lady. “If I’d been a Roman woman I should never have
missed a single circus.”
Anna said nothing, and keeping her opera-glass up,
gazed always at the same spot.
At that moment a tall general walked through the
pavilion. Breaking off what he was saying, Alexey Alexandrovitch
got up hurriedly, though with dignity, and bowed low to the
general.
“You’re not racing?” the officer asked, chaffing
him.
“My race is a harder one,” Alexey Alexandrovitch
responded deferentially.
And though the answer meant nothing, the general
looked as though he had heard a witty remark from a witty man, and
fully relished la pointe de la sauce.ai
“There are two aspects,” Alexey Alexandrovitch
resumed: “those who take part and those who look on; and love for
such spectacles is an unmistakable proof of a low degree of
development in the spectator, I admit, but...”
“Princess, bets!” sounded Stepan Arkadyevitch’s
voice from below, addressing Betsy. “Who’s your favorite?”
“Anna and I are for Kuzovlev,” replied Betsy.
“I’m for Vronsky. A pair of gloves?”
“Done!”
“But it is a pretty sight, isn’t it?”
Alexey Alexandrovitch paused while there was
talking about him, but he began again directly.
“I admit that manly sports do not...” he was
continuing.
But at that moment the racers started, and all
conversation ceased. Alexey Alexandrovitch too was silent, and
every one stood up and turned towards the stream. Alexey
Alexandrovitch took no interest in the race, and so he did not
watch the racers, but fell listlessly to scanning the spectators
with his weary eyes. His eyes rested upon Anna.
Her face was white and set. She was obviously
seeing nothing and no one but one man. Her hand had convulsively
clutched her fan, and she held her breath. He looked at her and
hastily turned away, scrutinizing other faces.
“But here’s this lady too, and others very much
moved as well; it’s very natural,” Alexey Alexandrovitch told
himself. He tried not to look at her, but unconsciously his eyes
were drawn to her. He examined that face again, trying not to read
what was so plainly written on it, and against his own will, with
horror read on it what he did not want to know.
The first fall—Kuzovlev‘s, at the stream—agitated
every one, but Alexey Alexandrovitch saw distinctly on Anna’s pale,
triumphant face that the man she was watching had not fallen. When,
after Mahotin and Vronsky had cleared the worst barrier, the next
officer had been thrown straight on his head at it and fatally
injured, and a shudder of horror passed over the whole public,
Alexey Alexandrovitch saw that Anna did not even notice it, and had
some difficulty in realizing what they were talking of about her.
But more and more often, and with greater persistence, he watched
her. Anna, wholly engrossed as she was with the race, became aware
of her husband’s cold eyes fixed upon her from one side.
She glanced round for an instant, looked
inquiringly at him, and with a slight frown turned away
again.
“Ah, I don’t care!” she seemed to say to him, and
she did not once glance at him again.
The race was an unlucky one, and of the seventeen
officers who rode in it more than half were thrown and hurt.
Towards the end of the race every one was in a state of agitation,
which was intensified by the fact that the Tsar was
displeased.