Chapter XXXI

Vronsky had not even tried to sleep all
that night. He sat in his armchair, looking straight before him or
scanning the people who got in and out. If he had indeed on
previous occasions struck and impressed people who did not know him
by his air of unhesitating composure, he seemed now more haughty
and self-possessed than ever. He looked at people as if they were
things. A nervous young man, a clerk in a law-court, sitting
opposite him, hated him for that look. The young man asked him for
a light, and entered into conversation with him, and even pushed
against him, to make him feel that he was not a thing, but a
person. But Vronsky gazed at him exactly as he did at the lamp, and
the young man made a wry face, feeling that he was losing his
self-possession under the oppression of this refusal to recognize
him as a person.
Vronsky saw nothing and no one. He felt himself a
king, not because he believed that he had made an impression on
Anna—he did not yet believe that—but because the impression she had
made on him gave him happiness and pride.
What would come of it all he did not know, he did
not even think. He felt that all his forces, hitherto dissipated,
wasted, were centered on one thing, and bent with fearful energy on
one blissful goal. And he was happy at it. He knew only that he had
told her the truth, that he had come where she was, that all the
happiness of his life, the only meaning in life for him, now lay in
seeing and hearing her. And when he got out of the carriage at
Bologova to get some seltzer water, and caught sight of Anna,
involuntarily his first word had told her just what he thought. And
he was glad he had told her it, that she knew it now and was
thinking of it. He did not sleep all night. When he was back in the
carriage, he kept unceasingly going over every position in which he
had seen her, every word she had uttered, and before his fancy,
making his heart faint with emotion, floated pictures of a possible
future.
When he got out of the train at Petersburg, he felt
after his sleepless night as keen and fresh as after a cold bath.
He paused near his compartment, waiting for her to get out. “Once
more,” he said to himself, smiling unconsciously, “once more I
shall see her walk, her face; she will say something, turn her
head, glance, smile, maybe.” But before he caught sight of her, he
saw her husband, whom the station-master was deferentially
escorting through the crowd. “Ah, yes! The husband.” Only now for
the first time did Vronsky realize clearly the fact that there was
a person attached to her, a husband. He knew that she had a
husband, but had hardly believed in his existence, and only now
fully believed in him, with his head and shoulders, and his legs
clad in black trousers; especially when he saw this husband calmly
take her arm with a sense of property.
Seeing Alexey Alexandrovitch with his Petersburg
face and severely self-confident figure, in his round hat, with his
rather prominent spine, he believed in him, and was aware of a
disagreeable sensation, such as a man might feel tortured by
thirst, who, on reaching a spring, should find a dog, a sheep, or a
pig, who has drunk of it and muddied the water. Alexey
Alexandrovitch’s manner of walking, with a swing of the hips and
flat feet, particularly annoyed Vronsky. He could recognize in no
one but himself an indubitable right to love her. But she was still
the same, and the sight of her affected him the same way,
physically reviving him, stirring him, and filling his soul with
rapture. He told his German valet, who ran up to him from the
second-class, to take his things and go on, and he himself went up
to her. He saw the first meeting between the husband and wife, and
noted with a lover’s insight the signs of slight reserve with which
she spoke to her husband. “No, she does not love him and cannot
love him,” he decided to himself.
At the moment when he was approaching Anna
Arkadyevna he noticed too with joy that she was conscious of his
being near, and looked round, and seeing him, turned again to her
husband.
“Have you passed a good night?” he asked, bowing to
her and her husband together, and leaving it up to Alexey
Alexandrovitch to accept the bow on his own account, and to
recognize it or not, as he might see fit.
“Thank you, very good,” she answered.
Her face looked weary, and there was not that play
of eagerness in it, peeping out in her smile and her eyes; but for
a single instant, as she glanced at him, there was a flash of
something in her eyes, and although the flash died away at once, he
was happy for that moment. She glanced at her husband to find out
whether he knew Vronsky. Alexey Alexandrovitch looked at Vronsky
with displeasure, vaguely recalling who this was. Vronsky’s
composure and self-confidence here struck, like a scythe against a
stone, upon the cold self-confidence of Alexey
Alexandrovitch.
“Count Vronsky,” said Anna.
“Ah! We are acquainted, I believe,” said Alexey
Alexandrovitch indifferently, giving his hand.
“You set off with the mother and you return with
the son,” he said, articulating each syllable, as though each were
a separate favor he was bestowing.
“You’re back from leave, I suppose?” he said, and
without waiting for a reply, he turned to his wife in his jesting
tone: “Well, were a great many tears shed at Moscow at
parting?”
By addressing his wife like this he gave Vronsky to
understand that he wished to be left alone, and, turning slightly
towards him, he touched his hat; but Vronsky turned to Anna
Arkadyevna.
“I hope I may have the honor of calling on you,” he
said.
Alexey Alexandrovitch glanced with his weary eyes
at Vronsky.
“Delighted,” he said coldly. “On Mondays we’re at
home. Most fortunate,” he said to his wife, dismissing Vronsky
altogether, “that I should just have half an hour to meet you, so
that I can prove my devotion,” he went on in the same jesting
tone.
“You lay too much stress on your devotion for me to
value it much,” she responded in the same jesting tone,
involuntarily listening to the sound of Vronsky’s steps behind
them. “But what has it to do with me?” she said to herself, and she
began asking her husband how Seryozha had got on without her.
“Oh, capitally! Mariette says he has been very
good, and . . . I must disappoint you . . . but he has not missed
you as your husband has. But once more merci,u my
dear, for giving me a day. Our dear Samovar1
will be delighted.” (He used to call the Countess Lidia Ivanovna,
well known in society, a samovar, because she was always bubbling
over with excitement.) “She has been continually asking after you.
And, do you know, if I may venture to advise you, you should go and
see her to-day. You know how she takes everything to heart. Just
now, with all her own cares, she’s anxious about the Oblonskys
being brought together.”
The Countess Lidia Ivanovna was a friend of her
husband’s, and the center of that one of the coteries of the
Petersburg world with which Anna was, through her husband, in the
closest relations.
“But you know I wrote to her?”
“Still she’ll want to hear details. Go and see her,
if you’re not too tired, my dear. Well, Kondraty will take you in
the carriage, while I go to my committee. I shall not be alone at
dinner again,” Alexey Alexandrovitch went on, no longer in a
sarcastic tone. “You wouldn’t believe how I’ve missed . . .” And
with a long pressure of her hand and a meaning smile, he put her in
her carriage.