CHAPTER LVII
The Emigrants
ONE THING MORE I HAD TO DO, BEFORE YIELDING
MYSELF to the shock of these emotions. It was to conceal what had
occurred, from those who were going away, and to dismiss them on
their voyage in happy ignorance. In this, no time was to be
lost.
I took Mr. Micawber aside that same night, and
confided to him the task of standing between Mr. Peggotty and
intelligence of the late catastrophe. He zealously undertook to do
so, and to intercept any newspaper through which it might, without
such precautions, reach him.
“If it penetrates to him, sir,” said Mr. Micawber,
striking himself on the breast, “it shall first pass through this
bodyl”
Mr. Micawber, I must observe, in his adaptation of
himself to a new state of society, had acquired a bold buccaneering
air, not absolutely lawless, but defensive and prompt. One might
have supposed him a child of the wilderness, long accustomed to
live out of the confines of civilization, and about to return to
his native wilds.
He had provided himself, among other things, with a
complete suit of oilskin, and a straw-hat with a very low crown,
pitched or caulked on the outside. In this rough clothing, with a
common mariner’s telescope under his arm, and a shrewd trick of
casting up his eye at the sky as looking out for dirty weather, he
was far more nautical, after his manner, than Mr. Peggotty. His
whole family, if I may so express it, were cleared for action. I
found Mrs. Micawber in the closest and most uncompromising of
bonnets, made fast under the chin, and in a shawl which tied her up
(as I had been tied up, when my aunt first received me) like a
bundle, and was secured behind at the waist, in a strong knot. Miss
Micawber I found made snug for stormy weather, in the same manner,
with nothing superfluous about her. Master Micawber was hardly
visible in a Guernsey shirt, and the shaggiest suit of slops I ever
saw, and the children were done up, like preserved meats, in
impervious cases. Both Mr. Micawber and his eldest son wore their
sleeves loosely turned back at the wrists, as being ready to lend a
hand in any direction, and to “tumble” up or sing out,
“Yeo—Heave—Yeo!” on the shortest notice.
Thus Traddles and I found them at nightfall,
assembled on the wooden steps, at that time known as Hungerford
Stairs, watching the departure of a boat with some of their
property on board. I had told Traddles of the terrible event, and
it had greatly shocked him, but there could be no doubt of the
kindness of keeping it a secret, and he had come to help me in this
last service. It was here that I took Mr. Micawber aside, and
received his promise.
The Micawber family were lodged in a little, dirty,
tumble-down public-house, which in those days was close to the
stairs, and whose protruding wooden rooms overhung the river. The
family, as emigrants, being objects of some interest in and about
Hungerford, attracted so many beholders, that we were glad to take
refuge in their room. It was one of the wooden chambers upstairs,
with the tide flowing underneath. My aunt and Agnes were there,
busily making some little extra comforts, in the way of dress, for
the children. Peggotty was quietly assisting, with the old
insensible work-box, yard measure, and bit of wax-candle before
her, that had now outlived so much.
It was not easy to answer her inquiries, still less
to whisper Mr. Peggotty, when Mr. Micawber brought him in, that I
had given the letter, and all was well. But I did both, and made
them happy. If I showed any trace of what I felt, my own sorrows
were sufficient to account for it.
“And when does the ship sail, Mr. Micawber?” asked
my aunt.
Mr. Micawber considered it necessary to prepare
either my aunt or his wife, by degrees, and said, sooner than he
had expected yesterday.
“The boat brought you word, I suppose?” said my
aunt.
“It did, ma‘am,” he returned.
“Well?” said my aunt. “And she sails—”
“Madam,” he replied, “I am informed that we must
positively be on board before seven tomorrow morning.”
“Heyday!” said my aunt, “that’s soon. Is it a
sea-going fact, Mr. Peggotty?”
“‘Tis so, ma’am. She’ll drop down the river with
that theer tide. If Mas‘r Davy and my sister comes aboard at
Gravesen’, arternoon o’ next day, they’ll see the last on
us.”
“And that we shall do,” said I, “be sure!”
“Until then, and until we are at sea,” observed Mr.
Micawber, with a glance of intelligence at me, “Mr. Peggotty and
myself will constantly keep a double look-out together, on our
goods and chattels. Emma, my love,” said Mr. Micawber, clearing his
throat in his magnificent way, “my friend Mr. Thomas Traddles is so
obliging as to solicit, in my ear, that he should have the
privilege of ordering the ingredients necessary to the composition
of a moderate portion of that Beverage which is peculiarly
associated, in our minds, with the Roast Beef of Old England. I
allude to—in short, Punch. Under ordinary circumstances, I should
scruple to entreat the indulgence of Miss Trotwood and Miss
Wickfield, but—”
“I can only say for myself,” said my aunt, “that I
will drink all happiness and success to you, Mr. Micawber, with the
utmost pleasure.”
“And I too!” said Agnes, with a smile.
Mr. Micawber immediately descended to the bar,
where he appeared to be quite at home, and in due time returned
with a steaming jug. I could not but observe that he had been
peeling the lemons with his own clasp-knife, which, as became the
knife of a practical settler, was about a foot long, and which he
wiped, not wholly without ostentation, on the sleeve of his coat.
Mrs. Micawber and the two elder members of the family I now found
to be provided with similar formidable instruments, while every
child had its own wooden spoon attached to its body by a strong
line. In a similar anticipation of life afloat, and in the Bush,
Mr. Micawber, instead of helping Mrs. Micawber and his eldest son
and daughter to punch in wine-glasses, which he might easily have
done, for there was a shelf-full in the room, served it out to them
in a series of villainous little tin pots, and I never saw him
enjoy anything so much as drinking out of his own particular pint
pot, and putting it in his pocket at the close of the
evening.
“The luxuries of the old country,” said Mr.
Micawber, with an intense satisfaction in their renouncement, “we
abandon. The denizens of the forest cannot, of course, expect to
participate in the refinements of the land of the Free.”
Here, a boy came in to say that Mr. Micawber was
wanted downstairs.
“I have a presentiment,” said Mrs. Micawber,
setting down her tin pot, “that it is a member of my family!”
“If so, my dear,” observed Mr. Micawber, with his
usual suddenness of warmth on that subject, “as the member of your
family—whoever he, she, or it, may be—has kept us waiting
for a considerable period, perhaps the Member may now wait my
convenience.”
“Micawber,” said his wife, in a low tone, “at such
a time as this—”
“ ‘It is not meet,’ ” said Mr. Micawber, rising, “
‘that every nice offence should bear its comment!’ Emma, I stand
reproved.”
“The loss, Micawber,” observed his wife, “has been
my family‘s, not yours. If my family are at length sensible of the
deprivation to which their own conduct has, in the past, exposed
them, and now desire to extend the hand of fellowship, let it not
be repulsed.”
“My dear,” he returned, “so be it!”
“If not for their sakes, for mine, Micawber,” said
his wife.
“Emma,” he returned, “that view of the question is,
at such a moment, irresistible. I cannot, even now, distinctly
pledge myself to fall upon your family’s neck, but the member of
your family, who is now in attendance, shall have no genial warmth
frozen by me.”
Mr. Micawber withdrew, and was absent some little
time, in the course of which Mrs. Micawber was not wholly free from
an apprehension that words might have arisen between him and the
Member. At length the same boy reappeared, and presented me with a
note written in pencil, and headed, in a legal manner, “Heep v.
Micawber.” From this document, I learned that Mr. Micawber being
again arrested, was in a final paroxysm of despair, and that he
begged me to send him his knife and pint pot, by bearer, as they
might prove serviceable during the brief remainder of his existence
in jail. He also requested, as a last act of friendship, that I
would see his family to the Parish Workhouse, and forget that such
a Being ever lived.
Of course I answered this note by going down with
the boy to pay the money, where I found Mr. Micawber sitting in a
corner, looking darkly at the Sheriff’s Officer who had effected
the capture. On his release, he embraced me with the utmost
fervour, and made an entry of the transaction in his
pocket-book—being very particular, I recollect, about a half penny
I inadvertently omitted from my statement of the total.
This momentous pocket-book was a timely reminder to
him of another transaction. On our return to the room upstairs
(where he accounted for his absence by saying that it had been
occasioned by circumstances over which he had no control), he took
out of it a large sheet of paper, folded small, and quite covered
with long sums, carefully worked. From the glimpse I had of them, I
should say that I never saw such sums out of a school
ciphering-book. These, it seemed, were calculations of compound
interest on what he called “the principal amount of forty-one, ten,
eleven and a half,” for various periods. After a careful
consideration of these, and an elaborate estimate of his resources,
he had come to the conclusion to select that sum which represented
the amount with compound interest to two years, fifteen calendar
months, and fourteen days, from that date. For this he had drawn a
note of hand with great neatness, which he handed over to Traddles
on the spot, a discharge of his debt in full (as between man and
man), with many acknowledgments.
“I have still a presentiment,” said Mrs. Micawber,
pensively shaking her head, “that my family will appear on board,
before we finally depart.”
Mr. Micawber evidently had his presentiment on the
subject too, but he put it in his tin pot and swallowed it.
“If you have any opportunity of sending letters
home, on your passage, Mrs. Micawber,” said my aunt, “you must let
us hear from you, you know.”
“My dear Miss Trotwood,” she replied, “I shall only
be too happy to think that anyone expects to hear from us. I shall
not fail to correspond. Mr. Copperfield, I trust, as an old and
familiar friend, will not object to receive occasional
intelligence, himself, from one who knew him when the twins were
yet unconscious?”
I said that I should hope to hear, whenever she had
an opportunity of writing.
“Please Heaven, there will be many such
opportunities,” said Mr. Micawber. “The ocean, in these times, is a
perfect fleet of ships, and we can hardly fail to encounter many,
in running over. It is merely crossing,” said Mr. Micawber,
trifling with his eye-glass, “merely crossing. The distance is
quite imaginary.”
I think, now, how odd it was, but how wonderfully
like Mr. Micawber that, when he went from London to Canterbury, he
should have talked as if he were going to the farthest limits of
the earth, and, when he went from England to Australia, as if he
were going for a little trip across the channel.
“On the voyage, I shall endeavour,” said Mr.
Micawber, “occasionally to spin them a yarn, and the melody of my
son Wilkins will, I trust, be acceptable at the galley-fire. When
Mrs. Micawber has her sea-legs on—an expression in which I hope
there is no conventional impropriety—she will give them, I dare
say, ”Little Tafflin.“ Porpoises and dolphins, I believe, will be
frequently observed athwart our Bows, and, either on the Starboard
or the Larboard Quarter, objects of interest will be continually
described. In short,” said Mr. Micawber, with the old genteel air,
“the probability is, all will be found so exciting, alow and aloft,
that when the look-out, stationed in the main-top, cries Land-oh!
We shall be very considerably astonished!”
With that he flourished off the contents of his
little tin pot, as if he had made the voyage, and had passed a
first-class examination before the highest naval authorities.
“What I chiefly hope, my dear Mr.
Copperfield,” said Mrs. Micawber, “is that, in some branches of our
family we may live again in the old country. Do not frown,
Micawber! I do not now refer to my own family, but to our
children’s children. However vigorous the sapling,” said Mrs.
Micawber, shaking her head, “I cannot forget the parent-tree, and
when our race attains to eminence and fortune, I own I should wish
that fortune to flow into the coffers of Britannia.”
“My dear,” said Mr. Micawber, “Britannia must take
her chance. I am bound to say that she has never done much for me,
and that I have no particular wish upon the subject.”
“Micawber,” returned Mrs. Micawber, “there you are
wrong. You are going out, Micawber, to this distant clime, to
strengthen, not to weaken, the connexion between yourself and
Albion.”
“The connexion in question, my love,” rejoined Mr.
Micawber, “has not laid me, I repeat, under that load of personal
obligation, that I am at all sensitive as to the formation of
another connexion.”
“Micawber,” returned Mrs. Micawber, “there, I again
say, you are wrong. You do not know your power, Micawber. It is
that which will strengthen, even in this step you are about to
take, the connexion between yourself and Albion.”
Mr. Micawber sat in his elbow-chair with his
eyebrows raised, half-receiving and half-repudiating Mrs.
Micawber’s views as they were stated, but very sensible of their
foresight.
“My dear Mr. Copperfield,” said Mrs. Micawber, “I
wish Mr. Micawber to feel his position. It appears to me highly
important that Mr. Micawber should, from the hour of his
embarkation, feel his position. Your old knowledge of me, my dear
Mr. Copperfield, will have told you that I have not the sanguine
disposition of Mr. Micawber. My disposition is, if I may say so,
eminently practical. I know that this is a long voyage. I know that
it will involve many privations and inconveniences. I cannot shut
my eyes to those facts. But, I also know what Mr. Micawber is. I
know the latent power of Mr. Micawber. And therefore I consider it
vitally important that Mr. Micawber should feel his
position.”
“My love,” he observed, “perhaps you will allow me
to remark that it is barely possible that I do feel my
position at the present moment.”
“I think not, Micawber,” she rejoined. “Not fully.
My dear Mr. Copperfield, Mr. Micawber’s is not a common case. Mr.
Micawber is going to a distant country expressly in order that he
may be fully understood and appreciated for the first time. I wish
Mr. Micawber to take his stand upon that vessel’s prow, and firmly
say, This country I am come to conquer! Have you honours? Have you
riches? Have you posts of profitable pecuniary emolument? Let them
be brought forward. They are mine!‘ ”
Mr. Micawber, glancing at us all, seemed to think
there was a good deal in this idea.
“I wish Mr. Micawber, if I make myself understood,”
said Mrs. Micawber, in her argumentative tone, “to be the Caesar of
his own fortunes. That, my dear Mr. Copperfield, appears to me to
be his true position. From the first moment of this voyage, I wish
Mr. Micawber to stand upon that vessel’s prow and say, ‘Enough of
delay, enough of disappointment, enough of limited means. That was
in the old country. This is the new. Produce your reparation. Bring
it forward!’ ”
Mr. Micawber folded his arms in a resolute manner,
as if he were then stationed on the figure-head.
“And doing that,” said Mrs. Micawber, “—feeling his
position—am I not right in saying that Mr. Micawber will
strengthen, and not weaken, his connexion with Britain? An
important public character arising in that hemisphere, shall I be
told that its influence will not be felt at home? Can I be so weak
as to imagine that Mr. Micawber, wielding the rod of talent and of
power in Australia, will be nothing in England? I am but a woman,
but I should be unworthy of myself, and of my papa, if I were
guilty of such absurd weakness.”
Mrs. Micawber’s conviction that her arguments were
unanswerable, gave a moral elevation to her tone which I think I
had never heard in it before.
“And therefore it is,” said Mrs. Micawber, “that I
the more wish, that, at a future period, we may live again on the
parent soil. Mr. Micawber may be—I cannot disguise from myself that
the probability is, Mr. Micawber will be—a page of History, and he
ought then to be represented in the country which gave him birth,
and did not give him employment!”
“My love,” observed Mr. Micawber, “it is impossible
for me not to be touched by your affection. I am always willing to
defer to your good sense. What will be—will be. Heaven forbid that
I should grudge my native country any portion of the wealth that
may be accumulated by our descendants!”
“That’s well,” said my aunt, nodding towards Mr.
Peggotty, “and I drink my love to you all, and every blessing and
success attend youl”
Mr. Peggotty put down the two children he had been
nursing, one on each knee, to join Mr. and Mrs. Micawber in
drinking to all of us in return, and, when he and the Micawbers
cordially shook hands as comrades, and his brown face brightened
with a smile, I felt that he would make his way, establish a good
name, and be beloved, go where he would.
Even the children were instructed, each to dip a
wooden spoon into Mr. Micawber’s pot, and pledge us in its
contents. When this was done, my aunt and Agnes rose, and parted
from the emigrants. It was a sorrowful farewell. They were all
crying, the children hung about Agnes to the last, and we left poor
Mrs. Micawber in a very distressed condition, sobbing and weeping
by a dim candle, that must have made the room look, from the river,
like a miserable lighthouse.
I went down again next morning to see that they
were away. They had departed, in a boat, as early as five o‘clock.
It was a wonderful instance to me of the gap such partings make,
that although my association of them with the tumble-down
public-house and the wooden stairs dated only from last night, both
seemed dreary and deserted, now that they were gone.
In the afternoon of the next day, my old nurse and
I went down to Gravesend. We found the ship in the river,
surrounded by a crowd of boats, a favourable wind blowing, the
signal for sailing at her mast-head. I hired a boat directly, and
we put off to her, and, getting through the little vortex of
confusion of which she was the centre, went on aboard.
Mr. Peggotty was waiting for us on deck. He told me
that Mr. Micawber had just now been arrested again (and for the
last time) at the suit of Heep, and that, in compliance with a
request I had made to him, he had paid the money, which I repaid
him. He then took us down between decks, and there, any lingering
fears I had of his having heard any rumours of what had happened,
were dispelled by Mr. Micawber’s coming out of the gloom, taking
his arm with an air of friendship and protection, and telling me
that they had scarcely been asunder for a moment, since the night
before last.
It was such a strange scene to me, and so confined
and dark, that, at first, I could make out hardly anything, but, by
degrees, it cleared, as my eyes became more accustomed to the
gloom, and I seemed to stand in a picture by Ostade. Among the
great beams, bulks, and ringbolts of the ship, and the
emigrant-berths, and chests, and bundles, and barrels, and heaps of
miscellaneous baggage—lighted up, here and there, by dangling
lanterns, and elsewhere by the yellow daylight straying down a
windsail or a hatchway—were crowded groups of people, making new
friendships, taking leave of one another, talking, laughing,
crying, eating and drinking, some, already settled down into the
possession of their few feet of space, with their little households
arranged, and tiny children established on stools, or in dwarf
elbow-chairs, others, despairing of a resting-place, and wandering
disconsolately. From babies who had but a week or two of life
behind them, to crooked old men and women who seemed to have but a
week or two of life before them, and from ploughmen bodily carrying
out soil of England on their boots, to smiths taking away samples
of its soot and smoke upon their skins, every age and occupation
appeared to be crammed into the narrow compass of the ‘tween
decks.
As my eye glanced round this place, I thought I saw
sitting, by an open port, with one of the Micawber children near
her, a figure like Emily’s; it first attracted my attention by
another figure parting from it with a kiss, and as it glided calmly
away through the disorder, reminding me of—Agnes! But in the rapid
motion and confusion, and in the unsettlement of my own thoughts, I
lost it again, and only knew that the time was come when all
visitors were being warned to leave the ship, that my nurse was
crying on a chest beside me, and that Mrs. Gummidge, assisted by
some younger stooping woman in black, was busily arranging Mr.
Peggotty’s goods.
“Is there any last wured, Mas‘r Davy?” said he. “Is
there any one forgotten thing afore we parts?”
“One thing!” said I. “Martha!”
He touched the younger woman I have mentioned on
the shoulder, and Martha stood before me.
“Heaven bless you, you good man!” cried I. “You
take her with you!”
She answered for him, with a burst of tears. I
could speak no more, at that time, but I wrung his hand, and if
ever I have lov d and honoured any man, I loved and honoured that
man in my soul.
The ship was clearing fast of strangers. The
greatest trial that I had, remained. I told him what the noble
spirit that was gone, had given me in charge to say at parting. It
moved him deeply. But when he charged me, in return, with many
messages of affection and regret for those deaf ears, he moved me
more.
The time was come. I embraced him, took my weeping
nurse upon my arm, and hurried away. On deck, I took leave of poor
Mrs. Micawber. She was looking distractedly about for her family,
even then, and her last words to me were that she never would
desert Mr. Micawber.
We went over the side into our boat, and lay at a
little distance to see the ship wafted on her course. It was then
calm, radiant sunset. She lay between us, and the red light, and
every taper line and spar was visible against the glow. A sight at
once so beautiful, so mournful, and so hopeful, as the glorious
ship, lying, still, on the flushed water, with all the life on
board her crowded at the bulwarks, and there clustering, for a
moment, bare-headed and silent, I never saw.
Silent, only for a moment. As the sails rose to the
wind, and the ship began to move, there broke from all the boats
three resounding cheers, which those on board took up, and echoed
back, and which were echoed and re-echoed. My heart burst out when
I heard the sound, and beheld the waving of the hats and
handkerchiefs—and then I saw her!
Then I saw her, at her uncle’s side, and trembling
on his shoulder. He pointed to us with an eager hand, and she saw
us, and waved her last good-bye to me. Aye, Emily, beautiful and
drooping, cling to him with the utmost trust of thy bruised heart,
for he has clung to thee, with all the might of his great
love!
Surrounded by the rosy light, and standing high
upon the deck, apart together, she clinging to him, and he holding
her, they solemnly passed away. The night had fallen on the Kentish
hills when we were rowed ashore—and fallen darkly upon me.