CHAPTER LI
The Beginning of a Longer
Journey
IT WAS YET EARLY IN THE MORNING OF THE
FOLLOWING DAY, when, as I was walking in my garden with my aunt
(who took little other exercise now, being so much in attendance on
my dear Dora), I was told that Mr. Peggotty desired to speak with
me. He came into the garden to meet me half-way, on my going
towards the gate, and bared his head, as it was always his custom
to do when he saw my aunt, for whom he had a high respect. I had
been telling her all that had happened overnight. Without saying a
word, she walked up with a cordial face, shook hands with him, and
patted him on the arm. It was so expressively done that she had no
need to say a word. Mr. Peggotty understood her quite as well as if
she had said a thousand.
“I’ll go in now, Trot,” said my aunt, “and look
after Little Blossom, who will be getting up presently.”
“Not along of my being heer, ma‘am, I hope?” said
Mr. Peggotty. “Unless my wits is gone a bahd’s neezing”—by which
Mr. Peggotty meant to say bird’s-nesting—“this morning, ‘tis along
of me as you’re a-going to quit us?”
“You have something to say, my good friend,”
returned my aunt, “and will do better without me.”
“By your leave, ma‘am,” returned Mr. Peggotty, “I
should take it kind, pervising you doen’t mind my clicketten, if
you’d bide heer.”
“Would you?” said my aunt, with short good-nature.
“Then I am sure I will!”
So, she drew her arm through Mr. Peggotty‘s, and
walked with him to a leafy little summer-house there was at the
bottom of the garden, where she sat down on a bench, and I beside
her. There was a seat for Mr. Peggotty too, but he preferred to
stand, leaning his hand on the small rustic table. As he stood,
looking at his cap for a little while before beginning to speak, I
could not help observing what power and force of character his
sinewy hand expressed, and what a good and trusty companion it was
to his honest brow and iron-grey hair.
“I took my dear child away last night,” Mr.
Peggotty began, as he raised his eyes to ours, “to my lodging,
wheer I have a long time been expecting of her and preparing fur
her. It was hours afore she knowed me right, and when she did, she
kneeled down at my feet, and kiender said to me, as if it was her
prayers, how it all come to be. You may believe me, when I heerd
her voice, as I had heerd at home so playful—and see her humbled,
as it might be in the dust our Saviour wrote in with His blessed
hand—I felt a wownd go to my ‘art, in the midst of all its
thankfulness.”
He drew his sleeve across his face, without any
pretence of concealing why, and then cleared his voice.
“It warn’t for long as I felt that, for she was
found. I had on‘y to think as she was found, and it was gone. I
doen’t know why I do so much as mention of it now, I’m sure. I
didn’t have it in my mind a minute ago, to say a word about myself,
but it come up so nat’ral, that I yielded to it afore I was
aweer.”
“You are a self-denying soul,” said my aunt, “and
will have your reward.”
Mr. Peggotty, with the shadows of the leaves
playing athwart his face, made a surprised inclination of the head
towards my aunt, as an acknowledgment of her good opinion, then,
took up the thread he had relinquished.
“When my Em‘ly took flight,” he said, in stern
wrath for the moment, “from the house wheer she was made a pris’ner
by that theer spotted shake as Mas‘r Davy see—and his story’s trew,
and may GOD confound him!—she took flight in the night. It was a
dark night, with a many stars a-shining. She was wild. She ran
along the sea-beach, believing the old boat was theer, and calling
out to us to turn away our faces, for she was a-coming by. She
heerd herself a-crying out, like as if it was another person, and
cut herself on them sharp-pinted stones and rocks, and felt it no
more than if she had been rock herself. Ever so fur she run, and
there was fire afore her eyes, and roarings in her ears. Of a
sudden—or so she thowt, you unnerstand—the day broke, wet and
windy, and she was lying b’low a heap of stone upon the shore, and
a woman was a-speaking to her, saying, in the language of that
country, what was it as had gone so much amiss?”
He saw everything he related. It passed before him,
as he spoke, so vividly, that, in the intensity of his earnestness,
he presented what he described to me, with greater distinctness
than I can express. I can hardly believe, writing now long
afterwards, but that I was actually present in these scenes: they
are impressed upon me with such an astonishing air of
fidelity.
“As Em‘ly’s eyes—which was heavy—see this woman
better,” Mr. Peggotty went on, “she know’d as she was one of them
as she had often talked to on the beach. Fur, though she had run
(as I have said) ever so fur in the night, she had oftentimes
wandered long ways, partly afoot, partly in boats and carriages,
and know’d all that country, ’long the coast, miles and miles. She
hadn’t no children of her own, this woman, being a young wife, but
she was a-looking to have one afore long. And may my prayers go up
to Heaven that ‘twill be a happ’ness to her, and a comfort, and a
honour, all her life! May it love her and be dootiful to her, in
her old age, helpful of her at the last, a Angel to her heer, and
heerafter!”
“Amen!” said my aunt.
“She had been summat timorous and down,” said Mr.
Peggotty, “and had sat, at first, a little way off, at her
spinning, or such work as it was, when Em‘ly talked to the
children. But Em’ly had took notice of her, and had gone and spoke
to her, and as the young woman was partial to the children herself,
they had soon made friends. Sermuchser, that when Em‘ly went that
way, she always giv Em’ly flowers. This was her as now asked what
it was that had gone so much amiss. Em‘ly told her, and she—took
her home. She did indeed. She took her home,” said Mr. Peggotty,
covering his face.
He was more affected by this act of kindness, than
I had ever seen him affected by anything since the night she went
away. My aunt and I did not attempt to disturb him.
“It was a little cottage, you may suppose,” he
said, presently, “but she found space for Em‘ly in it—her husband
was away at sea and she kep it secret, and prevailed upon such
neighbours as she had (they was not many near) to keep it secret
too. Em’ly was took bad with fever, and what is very strange to me
is—maybe ‘tis not so strange to scholars—the language of that
country went out of her head, and she could only speak her own,
that no one unnerstood. She recollects, as if she had dreamed it,
that she lay there, always a-talking her own tongue, always
believing as the old boat was round the next pint in the bay, and
begging and imploring of ’em to send theer and tell how she was
dying, and bring back a message of forgiveness, if it was on‘y a
wured. A’most the whole time, she thowt—now, that him as I made
mention on just now was lurking for her unnerneath the winder, now
that him as had brought her to this was in the room—and cried to
the good young woman not to give her up, and know’d at the same
time, that she couldn’t unnerstand, and dreaded that she must be
took away. Likewise the fire was afore her eyes, and the roarings
in her ears, and there was no today, nor yesterday, nor yet
tomorrow, but everything in her life as ever had been, or as ever
could be, and everything as never had been, and as never could be,
was a-crowding on her all at once, and nothing clear nor welcome,
and yet she sang and laughed about it! How long this lasted, I
doen’t know, but then there come a sleep, and in that sleep, from
being a many times stronger than her own self, she fell into the
weakness of the littlest child.”
Here he stopped, as if for relief from the terrors
of his own description. After being silent for a few moments, he
pursued his story.
“It was a pleasant arternoon when she awoke, and so
quiet, that there warn’t a sound but the rippling of that blue sea
without a tide, upon the shore. It was her belief, at first, that
she was at home upon a Sunday morning, but, the vine leaves as she
see at the winder, and the hills beyond, warn’t home, and
contradicted of her. Then, come in her friend, to watch alongside
of her bed, and then she know’d as the old boat warn’t round that
next pint in the bay no more, but was fur off, and know’d where she
was, and why, and broke out a-crying on that good young woman’s
bosom, wheer I hope her baby is a-lying now, a-cheering of her with
its pretty eyes!”
He could not speak of this good friend of Emily’s
without a flow of tears. It was in vain to try. He broke down
again, endeavouring to bless her!
“That done my Em‘ly good,” he resumed, after such
emotion as I could not behold without sharing in, and as to my
aunt, she wept with all her heart, “that done Em’ly good, and she
begun to mend. But, the language of that country was quite gone
from her, and she was forced to make signs.-So she went on, getting
better from day to day, slow, but sure, and trying to learn the
names of common things—names as she seemed never to have heerd in
all her life—till one evening come, when she was a setting at her
window, looking at a little girl at play upon the beach. And of a
sudden this child held out her hand, and said, what would be in
English, ‘Fisherman’s daughter, here’s a shell!’—for you are to
unnerstand that they used at first to call her ‘Pretty lady,’ as
the general way in that country is, and that she had taught ‘em to
call her ’Fisherman’s daughter’ instead. The child says of a
sudden, ‘Fisherman’s daughter, here’s a shell!’ Then Em‘ly
unnerstands her, and she answers, bursting out a-crying, and it all
comes backl
“When Em‘ly got strong again,” said Mr. Peggotty,
after another short interval of silence, “she casts about to leave
that good young creetur, and get to her own country. The husband
was come home, then, and the two together put her aboard a small
trader bound to Leghorn, and from that to France. She bad a little
money, but it was less than little as they would take for all they
done. I’m a’most glad on it, though they was so poor! What they
done is laid up wheer neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and wheer
thieves do not break through nor steal. Mas‘r Davy, it’ll outlast
all the treasure in the wureld.
“Em‘ly got to France, and took service to wait on
travelling ladies at a inn in the port. Theer, theer come, one day,
that snake.—Let him never come nigh me. I doen’t know what hurt I
might do him!—Soon as she see him, without him seeing her, all her
fear and wildness returned upon her, and she fled afore the very
breath he draw’d. She come to England, and was set ashore at
Dover.
“I doen’t know,” said Mr. Peggotty, “for sure, when
her ‘art begun to fail her, but all the way to England she had
thowt to come to her dear home. Soon as she got to England she
turned her face tow’rds it. But, fear of not being forgiv, fear of
being pinted at, fear of some of us being dead along of her, fear
of many things, turned her from it, kiender by force, upon the
road. ‘Uncle, Uncle,’ she says to me, ‘the fear of not being worthy
to do what my torn and bleeding breast so longed to do, was the
most fright’ning fear of all! I turned back, when my ‘art was full
of prayers that I might crawl to the old doorstep, in the night,
kiss it, lay my wicked face upon it, and theer be found dead in the
morning.’
“She come,” said Mr. Peggotty, dropping his voice
to an awe-stricken whisper, “to London. She—as had never seen it in
her life—alone—without a penny—young—so pretty—come to London.
A‘most the moment as she lighted heer, all so desolate, she found
(as she believed) a friend, a decent woman as spoke to her about
the needlework as she had been brought up to do, about finding
plenty of it fur her, about a lodging for the night, and making
secret inquiration concerning of me and all at home, tomorrow. When
my child,” he said aloud, and with an energy of gratitude that
shook him from head to foot, “stood upon the brink of more than I
can say or think on—Martha, trew to her promise, saved her!”
I could not repress a cry of joy.
“Mas‘r Davyl” he said, gripping my hand in that
strong hand of his, “it was you as first made mention of her to me.
I thankee, sir! She was arnest. She had know’d of her bitter
knowledge wheer to watch and what to do. She had done it. And the
Lord was above all! She come, white and hurried, upon Em’ly in her
sleep. She says to her, ‘Rise up from worse than death, and come
with me!’ Them belonging to the house would have stopped her, but
they might as soon have stopped the sea. ‘Stand away from me,’ she
says, ‘I am a ghost that calls her from beside her open grave!’ She
told Em‘ly she had seen me, and know’d I loved her, and forgive
her. She wrapped her, hasty, in her clothes. She took her, faint
and trembling, on her arm. She heeded no more what they said, than
if she had had no ears. She walked among ’em with my child, minding
only her, and brought her safe out, in the dead of the night, from
that black pit of ruin!
“She attended on Em‘ly,” said Mr. Peggotty, who had
released my hand, and put his own hand on his heaving chest, “she
attended to my Em’ly, lying wearied out, and wandering betwixt
whiles, till late next day. Then she went in search of me, then in
search of you, Mas‘r Davy. She didn’t tell Em’ly what she come out
fur, lest her ‘art should fail, and she should think of hiding of
herself. How the cruel lady know’d of her being theer, I can’t say.
Whether him as I have spoke so much of, chanced to see ’em going
theer, or whether (which is most like to my thinking) he had heerd
it from the woman, I doen’t greatly ask myself. My niece is
found.
“All night long,” said Mr. Peggotty, “we have been
together, Em‘ly and me. ’Tis little (considering the time) as she
has said, in wureds, through them broken-hearted tears, ‘tis less
as I have seen of her dear face, as grow’d into a woman’s at my
hearth. But, all night long, her arms has been about my neck, and
her head has laid heer, and we knows full well, as we can put our
trust in one another ever more.”
He ceased to speak, and his hand upon the table
rested there in perfect repose, with a resolution in it that might
have conquered lions.
“It was a gleam of light upon me, Trot,” said my
aunt, drying her eyes, “when I formed the resolution of being
godmother to your sister Betsey Trotwood, who disappointed me, but,
next to that, hardly anything would have given me greater pleasure
than to be godmother to that good young creature’s baby!”
Mr. Peggotty nodded his understanding of my aunt’s
feelings, but could not trust himself with any verbal reference to
the subject of her commendation. We all remained silent, and
occupied with our own reflections (my aunt drying her eyes, and now
sobbing convulsively, and now laughing and calling herself a fool),
until I spoke.
“You have quite made up your mind,” said I to Mr.
Peggotty, “as to the future, good friend? I need scarcely ask
you.”
“Quite, Mas‘r Davy,” he returned, “and told Em’ly.
There’s mighty countries, fur from heer. Our future life lays over
the sea.”
“They will emigrate together, Aunt,” said I.
“Yes!” said Mr. Peggotty, with a hopeful smile. “No
one can’t reproach my darling in Australia. We will begin a new
life over theer!”
I asked him if he yet proposed to himself any time
for going away.
“I was down at the Docks early this morning, sir,”
he returned, “to get information concerning of them ships. In about
six weeks or two months from now, there’ll be one sailing—I see her
this morning—went aboard—and we shall take our passage in
her.”
“Quite alone?” I asked.
“Aye, Mas‘r Davy!” he returned. “My sister, you
see, she’s that fond of you and yourn, and that accustomed to think
on’y of her own country, that it wouldn’t be hardly fair to let her
go. Besides which, theer’s one she has in charge, Mr. Davy, as
doen’t ought to be forgot.”
“Poor Ham!” said I.
“My good sister takes care of his house, you see,
ma‘am, and he takes kindly to her,” Mr. Peggotty explained for my
aunt’s better information. “He’ll set and talk to her, with a calm
spirit, wen it’s like he couldn’t bring himself to open his lips to
another. Poor fellow!” said Mr. Peggotty, shaking his head,
“theer’s not so much left him, that he could spare the little as he
has!”
“And Mrs. Gummidge?” said I.
“Well, I’ve had a mort of consideration, I do tell
you,” returned Mr. Peggotty, with a perplexed look which gradually
cleared as he went on, “concerning of Missis Gummidge. You see, wen
Missis Gummidge falls a-thinking of the old ‘un, she an’t what you
may call good company. Betwixt you and me, Mas’r Davy—and you,
ma‘am—wen Mrs. Gummidge takes to wimicking,”—our old county word
for crying—“she’s liable to be considered to be, by them as didn’t
know the old ’un, peevish-like. Now I did know the old ‘un,”
said Mr.
Peggotty, “and I know’d his merits, so I unnerstan’
her, but ‘tan’t entirely so, you see, with others—nat’rally can’t
be!”
My aunt and I both acquiesced.
“Wheerby,” said Mr. Peggotty, “my sister might—I
doen’t say she would, but might—find Missis Gummidge give her a
leetle trouble now-and-again. Theerfur ‘tan’t my intentions to moor
Missis Gummidge ’long with them, but to find a Bein! fur her wheer
she can fisherate for herself.” (A Bein’ signifies, in that
dialect, a home, and to fisherate is to provide.) “Fur which
purpose,” said Mr. Peggotty, “I means to make her a ‘lowance afore
I go, as’ll leave her pretty comfort’ble. She’s the faithfullest of
creeturs. Tan’t to be expected, of course, at her time of life, and
being lone and lorn, as the good old Mawther is to be knocked about
aboardship, and in the woods and wilds of a new and fur-away
country. So that’s what I’m a-going to do with her.”
He forgot nobody. He thought of everybody’s claims
and strivings, but his own.
“Em‘ly,” he continued, “will keep along with
me—poor child, she’s sore in need of peace and rest!—until such
time as we goes upon our voyage. She’ll work at them clothes, as
must be made, and I hope her troubles will begin to seem longer ago
than they was, wen she finds herself once more by her rough but
loving uncle.”
My aunt nodded confirmation of this hope, and
imparted great satisfaction to Mr. Peggotty.
“Theer’s one thing furder, Mas‘r Davy,” said he,
putting his hand in his breast-pocket, and gravely taking out the
little paper bundle I had seen before, which he unrolled on the
table. “Theer’s these .heer bank-notes—fifty pound, and ten. To
them I wish to add the money as she come away with. I’ve asked her
about that (but not saying why) and have added of it up, I an’t a
scholar. Would you be so kind as see how ’tis?”
He handed me, apologetically for his scholarship, a
piece of paper, and observed me while I looked it over. It was
quite right.
“Thankee, sir,” he said, taking it back. “This
money, if you doen’t see objections, Mas‘r Davy, I shall put up
jest afore I go, in a cover d’rected to him, and put that up in
another, d‘rected to his mother. I shall tell her, in no more
wureds than I speak to you, what it’s the price on, and that I’m
gone, and past receiving of it back.”
I told him that I thought it would be right to do
so—that I was thoroughly convinced it would be, since he felt it to
be right.
“I said that theer was on‘y one thing furder,” he
proceeded with a grave smile, when he had made up his little bundle
again, and put it in his pocket, “but theer was two. I warn’t sure
in my mind, wen I come out this morning, as I could go and break to
Ham, of my own self, what had so thankfully happened. So I writ a
letter while I was out, and put it in the post-office, telling of
’em how all was as ‘tis, and that. I should come down tomorrow to
unload my mind of what little needs a-doing of down theer, and,
most-like, take my farewell leave of Yarmouth.”
“And do you wish me to go with you?” said I, seeing
that he left something unsaid.
“If you could do me that kind favour, Mas‘r Davy,”
he replied, “I know the sight on you would cheer ’em up a
bit.”
My little Dora being in good spirits, and very
desirous that I should go—as I found on talking it over with her—I
readily pledged myself to accompany him in accordance with his
wish. Next morning, consequently, we were on the Yarmouth coach,
and again travelling over the old ground.
As we passed along the familiar street at night—Mr.
Peggotty, in despite of all my remonstrances, carrying my bag—I
glanced into Omer and Joram’s shop, and saw my old friend Mr. Omer
there, smoking his pipe. I felt reluctant to be present when Mr.
Peggotty first met his sister and Ham, and made Mr. Omer my excuse
for lingering behind..
“How is Mr. Omer after this long time?” said I,
going in.
He fanned away the smoke of his pipe, that he might
get a better view of me, and soon recognized me with great
delight.
“I should get up, sir, to acknowledge such an
honour as this visit,” said he, “only my limbs are rather out of
sorts, and I am wheeled about. With the exception of my limbs and
my breath, hows‘ever, I am as hearty as a man can be, I’m thankful
to say.”
I congratulated him on his contented looks and his
good spirits, and saw, now, that his easy-chair went on
wheels.
“It’s an ingenious thing, ain’t it?” he inquired,
following the direction of my glance, and polishing the elbow with
his arm. “It runs as light as a feather, and tracks as true as a
mail coach. Bless you, my little Minnie—my grand-daughter you know,
Minnie’s child—puts her little strength against the back, gives it
a shove, and away we go, as clever and merry as ever you see
anything! And I tell you what—it’s a most uncommon chair to smoke a
pipe in.”
I never saw such a good old fellow to make the best
of a thing, and find out the enjoyment of it, as Mr. Omer. He was
as radiant as if his chair, his asthma, and the failure of his
limbs, were the various branches of a great invention for enhancing
the luxury of a pipe.
“I see more of the world, I can assure you,” said
Mr. Omer, “in this chair, than ever I see out of it. You’d be
surprised at the number of people that looks in of a day to have a
chat. You really would! There’s twice as much in the newspaper,
since I’ve taken to this chair, as there used to be. As to general
reading, dear me, what a lot of it I do get through! That’s what I
feel so strong, you know! If it had been my eyes, what should I
have done? If it had been my ears, what should I have done? Being
my limbs, what does it signify? Why, my limbs only made my breath
shorter when I used ‘em. And now, if I want to go out into the
street or down to the sands, I’ve only got to call Dick, Joram’s
youngest ’prentice, and away I go in my own carriage, like the Lord
Mayor of London.”
He half suffocated himself with laughing
here.
“Lord bless you!” said Mr. Omer, resuming his pipe,
“a man must take the fat with the lean, that’s what he must make up
his mind to, in this life. Joram does a fine business. Excellent
business!”
“I am very glad to hear it,” said I.
“I knew you would be,” said Mr. Omer. “And Joram
and Minnie are like valentines. What more can a man expect? What’s
his limbs to that!”
His supreme contempt for his own limbs, as he sat
smoking, was one of the pleasantest oddities I have ever
encountered.
“And since I’ve took to general reading, you’ve
took to general writing, eh, sir?” said Mr. Omer, surveying me
admiringly. “What a lovely work that was of yours! What expressions
in it! I read it every word—every word. And as to feeling sleepy!
Not at all!”
I laughingly expressed my satisfaction, but I must
confess that I thought this association of ideas significant.
“I give you my word and honour, sir,” said Mr.
Omer, “that when I lay that book upon the table, and look at it
outside, compact in three separate and indiwidual wollumes—one,
two, three, I am as proud as Punch to think that I once had the
honour of being connected with your family. And dear me, it’s a
long time ago, now, ain’t it? Over at Blunderstone. With a pretty
little party laid along with the other party. And you quite a small
party then, yourself. Dear, dear!”
I changed the subject by referring to Emily. After
assuring him that I did not forget how interested he had always
been in her, and how kindly he had always treated her, I gave him a
general account of her restoration to her uncle by the aid of
Martha, which I knew would please the old man. He listened with the
utmost attention, and said, feelingly, when I had done:
“I am rejoiced at it, sir! It’s the best news I
have heard for many a day. Dear, dear, dear! And what’s going to be
undertook for that unfortunate young woman, Martha, now?”
“You touch a point that my thoughts have been
dwelling on since yesterday,” said I, “but on which I can give you
no information yet, Mr. Omer. Mr. Peggotty has not alluded to it,
and I have a delicacy in doing so. I am sure he has not forgotten
it. He forgets nothing that is disinterested and good.”
“Because you know,” said Mr. Omer, taking himself
up, where he had left off, “whatever is done, I should wish to be a
member of. Put me down for anything you may consider right, and let
me know. I never could think the girl all bad, and I am glad to
find she’s not. So will my daughter Minnie be. Young women are
contradictory creatures in some things —her mother was just the
same as her—but their hearts are soft and kind. It’s all show with
Minnie, about Martha. Why she should consider it necessary to make
any show, I don’t undertake to tell you. But it’s all show, bless
you. She’d do her any kindness in private. So, put me down for
whatever you may consider right, will you be so good?—and drop me a
line where to forward it. Dear me!” said Mr. Omer, “when a man is
drawing on to a time of life, where the two ends of life meet, when
he finds himself, however hearty he is, being wheeled about for the
second time, in a speeches of go-cart, he should be over-rejoiced
to do a kindness if he can. He wants plenty. And I don’t speak of
myself, particular,” said Mr. Omer, “because, sir, the way I look
at it is that we are all drawing on to the bottom of the hill,
whatever age we are, on account of time never standing still for a
single moment. So let us always do a kindness, and be
over-rejoiced. To be sure!”
He knocked the ashes out of his pipe, and put it on
a ledge in the back of his chair, expressly made for its
reception.
“There’s Em‘ly’s cousin, him that she was to have
been married to,” said Mr. Omer, rubbing his hands feebly, “as fine
a fellow as there is in Yarmouth! He’ll come and talk or read to
me, and in the evening, for an hour together sometimes. That’s a
kindness, I should call it! All his life’s a kindness.”
“I am going to see him now,” said I.
“Are you?” said Mr. Omer. “Tell him I was hearty,
and sent my respects. Minnie and Joram’s at a ball. They would be
as proud to see you as I am, if they was at home. Minnie won’t
hardly go out at all, you see, ‘on account of Father,’ as she says.
So I swore tonight, that if she didn’t go, I’d go to bed at six. In
consequence of which,” Mr. Omer shook himself and his chair, with
laughter at the success of his device, “she and Joram’s at a
ball.”
I shook hands with him, and wished him good
night.
“Half-a-minute, sir,” said Mr. Omer. “If you was to
go without seeing my little elephant, you’d lose the best of
sights. You never see such a sight! Minnie!”
A musical little voice answered, from somewhere
upstairs, “I am coming, Grandfather!” and a pretty little girl with
long, flaxen, curling hair, soon came running into the shop.
“This is my little elephant, sir,” said Mr. Omer,
fondling the child. “Siamese breed, sir. Now, little
elephant!”
The little elephant set the door of the parlour
open, enabling me to see that, in these latter days, it was
converted into a bedroom for Mr. Omer, who could not be easily
conveyed upstairs, and then hid her pretty forehead, and tumbled
her long hair, against the back of Mr. Omer’s chair.
“The elephant butts, you know, sir,” said Mr. Omer,
winking, “when he goes at a object. Once, elephant. Twice. Three
times!”
At this signal, the little elephant, with a
dexterity that was next to marvellous in so small an animal,
whisked the chair round with Mr. Omer in it, and rattled it off,
pell-mell, into the parlour, without touching the doorpost, Mr.
Omer indescribably enjoying the performance, and looking back at me
on the road as if it were the triumphant issue of his life’s
exertions.
After a stroll about the town, I went to Ham’s
house. Peggotty had now removed here for good, and had let her own
house to the successor of Mr. Barkis in the carrying business, who
had paid her very well for the goodwill, cart, and horse. I believe
the very same slow horse, that Mr. Barkis drove, was still at
work.
I found them in the neat kitchen, accompanied by
Mrs. Gummidge, who had been fetched from the old boat by Mr.
Peggotty himself. I doubt if she could have been induced to desert
her post, by anyone else. He had evidently told them all. Both
Peggotty and Mrs. Gummidge had their aprons to their eyes, and Ham
had just stepped out “to take a turn on the beach.” He presently
came home, very glad to see me, and I hope they were all the better
for my being there. We spoke, with some approach to cheerfulness,
of Mr. Peggotty’s growing rich in a new country, and of the wonders
he would describe in his letters. We said nothing of Emily by name,
but distantly referred to her more than once. Ham was the serenest
of the party.
But, Peggotty told me, when she lighted me to a
little chamber where the crocodile book was lying ready for me on
the table, that he always was the same. She believed (she told me,
crying) that he was broken-hearted, though he was as full of
courage as of sweetness, and worked harder and better than any
boat-builder in any yard in all that part. There were times, she
said, of an evening, when he talked of their old life in the
boat-house, and then he mentioned Emily as a child. But he never
mentioned her as a woman.
I thought I had read in his face that he would like
to speak to me alone. I therefore resolved to put myself in his way
next evening, as he came home from his work. Having settled this
with myself, I fell asleep. That night, for the first time in all
those many nights, the candle was taken out of the window, Mr.
Peggotty swung in his old hammock in the old boat, and the wind
murmured with the old sound round his head.
All next day, he was occupied in disposing of his
fishing-boat and tackle, in packing up, and sending to London by
waggon, such of his little domestic possessions as he thought would
be useful to him, and in parting with the rest, or bestowing them
on Mrs. Gummidge. She was with him all day. As I had a sorrowful
wish to see the old place once more, before it was locked up, I
engaged to meet them there in the evening. But I so arranged it, as
that I should meet Ham first.
It was easy to come in his way, as I knew where he
worked. I met him at a retired part of the sands, which I knew he
would cross, and turned back with him, that he might have leisure
to speak to me if he really wished. I had not mistaken the
expression of his face. We had walked but a little way together,
when he said, without looking at me:
“Mas‘r Davy, have you seen her?”
“Only for a moment, when she was in a swoon,” I
softly answered.
We walked a little farther, and he said:
“Mas‘r Davy, shall you see her, d’ye think?”
“It would be too painful to her, perhaps,” said
I.
“I have thowt of that,” he replied. “So ‘twould,
sir, so ’twould.”
“But, Ham,” said I, gently, “if there is anything
that I could write to her, for you, in case I could not tell it, if
there is anything you would wish to make known to her through me, I
should consider it a sacred trust.”
“I am sure on’t. I thankee, sir, most kind! I think
theer is something I could wish said or wrote.”
“What is it?”
We walked a little farther in silence, and then he
spoke.
“Tan’t that I forgive her. ‘Tan’t that so much.
’Tis more as I beg of her to forgive me, for having pressed my
affections upon her. Odd times, I think that if I hadn’t had her
promise fur to marry me, sir, she was that trustful of me, in a
friendly way, that she’d have told me what was struggling in her
mind, and would have counselled with me, and I might have saved
her.”
I pressed his hand. “Is that all?”
“Theer’s yet a-something else,” he returned, “if I
can say it, Mas‘r Davy.”
We walked on, farther than we had walked yet,
before he spoke again. He was not crying when he made the pauses I
shall express by lines. He was merely collecting himself to speak
very plainly.
“I loved her—and I love the mem‘ry of her—too
deep—to be able to lead her to believe of my own self as I’m a
happy man. I could only be happy—by forgetting of her—and I’m
afeerd I couldn’t hardly bear as she should be told I done that.
But if you, being so full of learning, Mas’r Davy, could think of
anything to say as might bring her to believe I wasn’t greatly
hurt, still loving of her, and mourning for her, anything as might
bring her to believe as I was not tired of my life, and yet was
hoping fur to see her without blame, wheer the wicked cease from
troubling and the weary are at rest—anything as would ease her
sorrowful mind, and yet not make her think as I could ever marry,
or as ‘twas possible that anyone could ever be to me what she was—I
should ask of you to say that—with my prayers for her—that was so
dear.”
I pressed his manly hand again, and told him I
would charge myself to do this as well as I could.
“I thankee, sir,” he answered. “‘Twas kind of you
to meet me. Twas kind of you to bear him company down. Mas’r Davy,
I unnerstan’ very well, though my aunt will come to Lon‘on afore
they sail, and they’ll unite once more, that I am not like to see
him agen. I fare to feel sure on’t. We doen’t say so, but so’t will
be, and better so. The last you see on him —the very last—will you
give him the lovingest duty and thanks of the orphan, as he was
ever more than a father to?”
This I also promised, faithfully.
“I thankee agen, sir,” he said, heartily shaking
hands. “I know wheer you’re a-going. Good-bye!”
With a slight wave of his hand, as though to
explain to me that he could not enter the old place, he turned
away. As I looked after his figure, crossing the waste in the
moonlight, I saw him turn his face towards a strip of silvery light
upon the sea, and pass on, looking at it, until he was a shadow in
the distance.
The door of the boat-house stood open when I
approached, and, on entering, I found it emptied of all its
furniture, saving one of the old lockers, on which Mrs. Gummidge,
with a basket on her knee, was seated, looking at Mr. Peggotty. He
leaned his elbow on the rough chimney-piece, and gazed upon a few
expiring embers in the grate, but he raised his head, hopefully, on
my coming in, and spoke in a cheery manner.
“Come, according to promise, to bid farewell to‘t,
eh, Mas’r Davy?” he said, taking up the candle. “Bare enough, now,
an’t it?”
“Indeed you have made good use of the time,” said
I.
“Why, we have not been idle, sir. Missis Gummidge
has worked like a—I doen’t know what Missis Gummidge an’t worked
like,” said Mr. Peggotty, looking at her, at a loss for a
sufficiently approving simile.
Mrs. Gummidge, leaning on her basket, made no
observation.
“Theer’s the very locker that you used to sit on,
‘long with Em’ly!” said Mr. Peggotty, in a whisper. “I’m a-going to
carry it away with me, last of all. And heer’s your old little
bedroom, see, Mas‘r Davy? A’most as bleak tonight, as ‘art could
wish!”
In truth, the wind, though it was low, had a solemn
sound, and crept around the deserted house with a whispered wailing
that was very mournful. Everything was gone, down to the little
mirror with the oyster-shell frame. I thought of myself, lying
here, when that first great change was being wrought at home. I
thought of the blue-eyed child who had enchanted me. I thought of
Steerforth, and a foolish, fearful fancy came upon me of his being
near at hand, and liable to be met at any turn.
“‘Tis like to be long,” said Mr. Peggotty, in a low
voice, “afore the boat finds new tenants. They look upon’t down
heer, as being unfort’nate now!”
“Does it belong to anybody in the neighbourhood?” I
asked.
“To a mast-maker up town,” said Mr. Peggotty. “I’m
a-going to give the key to him tonight.”
We looked into the other little room, and came back
to Mrs. Gummidge, sitting on the locker, whom Mr. Peggotty, putting
the light on the chimney-piece, requested to rise, that he might
carry it outside the door before extinguishing the candle.
“Dan‘l,” said Mrs. Gummidge, suddenly deserting her
basket, and clinging to his arm, “my dear Dan’l, the parting words
I speak in this house is, I mustn’t be left behind. Doen’t ye think
of leaving me behind, Dan‘l! Oh, doen’t ye ever do it!”
Mr. Peggotty, taken aback, looked from Mrs.
Gummidge to me, and from me to Mrs. Gummidge, as if he had been
awakened from a sleep.
“Doen’t ye, dearest Dan‘I, doen’t ye!” cried Mrs.
Gummidge, fervently. “Take me ’long with you, Dan‘l, take me ’long
with you and Em‘ly! I’ll be your servant, constant and trew. If
there’s slaves in them parts where you’re a-going, I’ll be bound to
you for one, and happy, but doen’t ye leave me behind, Dan’l,
that’s a deary dear!”
“My good soul,” said Mr. Peggotty, shaking his
head, “you doen’t know what a long voyage, and what a hard life
‘tis!”
“Yes I do, Dan‘l! I can guess!” cried Mrs.
Gummidge. “But my parting words under this roof is, I shall go into
the house and die, if I am not took. I can dig, Dan’l. I can work.
I can live hard. I can be loving and patient now—more than you
think, Dan‘l, if you’ll on’y try me. I wouldn’t touch the ‘lowance,
not if I was dying of want, Dan’l Peggotty, but I’ll go with you
and Em‘ly, if you’ll on’y let me, to the world’s end! I know how
‘tis, I know you think that I am lone and lorn, but, deary love,
’tan’t so no more! I ain’t sat here, so long, a-watching, and
a-thinking of your trials, without some good being done me. Mas‘r
Davy, speak to him for me! I knows his ways, and Em’ly‘s, and I
knows their sorrows, and can be a comfort to ’em, some odd times,
and labour for ‘em allus! Dan’l, deary Dan‘l, let me go ’long with
you!”
And Mrs. Gummidge took his hand, and kissed it with
a homely pathos and affection, in a homely rapture of devotion and
gratitude, that he well deserved.
We brought the locker out, extinguished the candle,
fastened the door on the outside, and left the old boat close shut
up, a dark speck in the cloudy night. Next day, when we were
returning to London outside the coach, Mrs. Gummidge and her basket
were on the seat behind, and Mrs. Gummidge was happy.