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Cleopatra waited for Sekhmet’s arrow. She’d
seen it crossing the sky hours before, arcing downward into a
mountain village and eventually returning to the heavens. She’d
draped herself in her cloak and hidden herself in the mouth of a
cave in the area known as Cumæ. The sun still burned her skin
slightly as she gazed out over the landscape. She did not
care.
Her task would be accomplished tonight.
She sheltered in the ancient lair of the Sibyl of
Cumæ, who had once called out prophecies to loyal citizens, her
voice echoing from the crater walls. She’d asked for an extended
life but had forgotten to ask for eternal youth, and as a thousand
years passed, as many years as the grains of sand she’d foolishly
demanded equal her days, she’d grown smaller and smaller, older and
older, until all that was left of her was a voice, and a body so
tiny that it had to be kept inside a bottle to avoid being lost. At
last, even those things had gone. She was long absent from here
now.
Cleopatra had listened for her when she arrived and
heard nothing, only the whispers of bats roosting in the dark cave
corners.
She closed her eyes and felt the Slaughterer
journeying. She felt Sekhmet, her back stretched against the sky,
catlike, taking the light of the sun as succor while she awaited
sacrifices by Cleopatra and by her arrow.
Cleopatra had sacrificed more to her on the journey
here. A shepherd calling to his sheep, his blood tasting of an old
grudge against a scholarly brother. A prostitute painting her face
for evening, her blood tasting of the time she fell down a flight
of stairs and was picked up and bandaged by a man who turned out
not to love her. A slave drawing water for an evening meal, his
blood tasting of a spice market, of a wooden cage shared with a
dying friend. A fisherman reeling in his nets, his blood tasting of
a mistress in another port, mother to several bastard children. An
old widowed man left outdoors to see the stars, who looked up at
Cleopatra with dazzled eyes, smiling in the face of his death. He
had no secrets left.
Each one of her killings weighed on her.
She’d never thought of these things when she was in
power, when she was mortal. Thousands had died in battle, acting on
her orders or killed by her soldiers. She’d ordered killings of the
families of traitors, of opponents. She had been a queen, and as
queen she had done what she thought necessary, regardless of the
human cost.
She’d never thought about where their souls
went.
Now, since Hades, it was all she could think of. As
she drank of their blood, she knew all of their hidden things, all
of their failures and glories, and she tried to send their souls to
wherever they should go. There was no time for ritual. She left
their bodies in the open so that they might be found and buried, so
that they might not wait on the shores of Acheron, unmourned.
Having seen that place, she could not doom souls to it
knowingly.
A light appeared in the sky, brighter than the
dying sun, brighter than the rising moon, moving toward the Cumæan
temple as she watched.
Cleopatra leapt from her hiding place and bounded
out into the daylight, her skin searing, her eyes blurring as she
ran at the murderous grandchild of the sun god.
“You will not kill here!” she shouted.
It hissed at her, and its mouth was infinite, deep
and black as the heavens and filled with uncountable fangs.
Cleopatra knew, horribly, that her soul was bonded with this
creature as well as with its mother.
What was she giving up to kill it? Her soul weighed
heavier, heavier yet.
The Slaughterer shifted its face toward her, and
she saw its mindless eyes. It did not care what she said. Once it
had hissed, it did not bother to truly acknowledge her again.
She threw herself upon it as it turned its back to
fly toward the temple and to its killing task there.
Cleopatra clutched its pulsating throat, its
burning body, feeling its knife-sharp feathers cutting into her
palms. She gasped as it twisted and bit her hand—and this was true
pain, unlike the echo of pain her bloodless body had experienced
since her transformation—but she held it still tighter, straining
all of her muscle and bone against its escape. Its feathers sliced
into her as it struggled, and its slender, arrow body twisted in
her grasp.
“You will not kill,” she told it, and for the first
time, she heard its voice, faint, strangely musical.
And what of you? Will you not
kill?
She screamed with rage, feeling a tearing pain as
she broke the Slaughterer’s back, snapping its spine.
Her fury was replaced with devastating agony as she
held the broken arrow up to the light, Sekhmet’s roar of sorrow
rattling her own bones.
“I dedicate this soul to Hades,” Cleopatra shouted,
and then she hurled the body of the Slaughterer down, into the dark
waters of Avernus, as she’d promised the god of the Underworld she
would.
Cleopatra waited for the sky to open and strike her
down, but nothing happened.
The waters steamed and boiled as Plague sank into
them.
Her skin blistered, her body smoking, her
hands burning, and healing cruelly even as they burned, Cleopatra
limped back into the cave of the sibyl, sobbing at the loss of the
thing she had killed. She did not love it, no, she did not,
but Sekhmet did, and what Sekhmet felt, Cleopatra felt. The loss of
a child. A dear one.
And what was she? A betrayer. A child killer. Was
she not the same as the creature she had murdered? Was she not
herself a murderer? At the same time, she had torn herself from
Sekhmet. She had done something on her own, something in opposition
to the goddess. She had delivered the first portion of her bargain.
One more act, the sacrifice of Chrysate, and she would win Antony’s
soul and those of her children as well. They would go to the Duat.
If that was all she could do, it would be enough. She might be a
slave to a goddess, but they would be in heaven.
She stretched herself on the cold stones of the
sibyl’s cave. The bats looked down upon her, their faces curious.
Their high-pitched song filled her ears and gave her no
comfort.
At last, she slept, dreamless.
As she slept, snakes slithered into the cave. Cats
twined their sleek forms against the rock walls. In the valley
beyond the crater, a bear trundled down a hillside, and a tiger
traveled silently across the field. The rhinoceros immersed itself
in the lake of Avernus, washing the dust of the road from its rough
skin. A small splash, and a crocodile surfaced in the lake, having
traveled by water through underground caverns and along coastlines
for days.
An elderly lion, toothless and mangy, padded across
the mouth of the cave, lashing its tail, and guarding the queen who
slept within.