9
The soldiers pressed meat into Cleopatra’s
mouth as though she were a fattening fowl, and then left her, still
chained. She vomited again and again, her maid tending her, bathing
her face and throat with cool water.
Hours passed, and with each of them, Cleopatra’s
fury grew stronger. Her wrists burned where the chain rubbed
against them, her body revolting against the metal. The voice in
her head now sounded like her own. No matter how she struggled with
the metal, it did not give, and her skin tore and mended, seared
invisibly, scalded and wounded. She howled with exhaustion and rage
as dawn came, as the night birds took themselves back to their
nests, as the cocks crowed and the city began to speak.
“I will say I have eaten,” she growled when the
soldiers returned. “I’ll swear to it. Release me from these chains.
Your master will not know.”
One soldier eyed the other and shrugged.
“Some of the food must have gone in,” he said. “She
swallowed it, at least.”
Cleopatra looked into the soldier’s eyes. So
slender, a boy. A virgin yet.
“Release me,” she whispered, and the soldier came
toward her. She could smell him now, his sweet flesh, the nick in
his skin where the blood had come to the razor’s edge. His home, a
small structure made of trees his father had felled, high on a
hill. The village girl he loved, a cobbler’s daughter, and the
taste of her lips on his, only once, the day before he left for
war. The two of them had lain in a meadow of wildflowers, watching
the clouds drift across the sky, just as Cleopatra had once done,
long ago, with Antony at her side—
No. She would not think of Antony.
The soldier came closer still, looking at her, his
face open as a child’s. He reached out a hand.
The other boy swallowed nervously.
“We’re not to converse with the prisoner,” he
reminded his companion. “She’s clever, this one. She snared Mark
Antony, wrapped her legs around his waist and took him to her bed.
You saw what happened at Actium. She deserted him and fled with her
own ships, leaving him to die. And what did he do? He left his men
and followed her back here. It was no wonder he killed
himself.”
Cleopatra bit her lip to keep from screaming at
him. He was wrong. Everyone was wrong.
“I only want to touch her,” stammered the first
soldier. “Just to see what a queen feels like.”
Cleopatra laughed her most seductive laugh, but
from afar, she watched herself, horrified by her own actions. What
was she trying to do? Surely not.
“Free my wrists,” she cooed. “And see if the
stories you’ve heard are true.”
He bent closer, closer still. She felt her lips
parting, as she inhaled the smell of his skin.
“She’s supposed to be beautiful, but she doesn’t
look beautiful to me,” the other soldier complained.
Her wrists were free. She spread her hands and
readied herself. The boy’s pale throat was inches from her mouth.
His sweet smell was in her nostrils. She pressed her fingers
against his chest and leaned toward the glorious, pulsing vein in
his neck.
At that moment, the other soldier drew the curtain
back, and the newborn sun came in, a blinding rise as it broke over
the horizon.
“There,” he said. “Now we’ll get a look at
her.”
But the queen was cringing away from the burning
light, stunned by what she had almost done. She threw her body into
the shadows and turned her face to the wall. Her hands trembled,
and with effort, she forced her muscles to be still. She was
salivating, and her tongue felt rough, like that of a cat.
“Leave me,” she said, and when they hesitated, she
screamed the words again. “LEAVE ME!”
They left, disgruntled. Changeable things, women.
One moment ready for love, the next for war, and men never knew
which was coming. They muttered their way down the corridor, their
long bodies banging against the tapestries, the smell of their
histories fading.
The queen drew a breath. The danger was over.
In the window, a bird appeared, and before
Cleopatra knew what she was doing, her hand had snatched it from
the sunrise, its hollow bones shattering in her grasp. The softness
of its feathers. The throb of its racing heart. It still
lived.
She would not—
She could not—
She sobbed as she drank the swallow’s blood.