17
The night before the venatio, the emperor
was too frightened to leep. The thought of Cleopatra in his city
caused his heart to race. He kept seeing her outside his window,
outside his door, in his bed, her scaled skin slipping across his
naked chest.
He tossed for hours, his eyes clenched shut, the
pillow lumpy beneath his head, his cot as tight and hard as a
stone-covered hillside. At last he rose. It had been months since
he’d slept through the night, since his ship waited outside the
Alexandrian harbor. He cursed Cleopatra and Antony. They had stolen
his sleep, and now he walked, half waking, half delirious, through
the halls.
Usem, patrolling outside the emperor’s chambers,
heard bare feet shuffling across the stones toward him.
He turned and found the emperor behind him, dressed
in only a thin tunic, his eyes wild, his skin clammy.
Augustus blinked, as though looking at a bright
light.
“You will live a long life, she told me,” he
whispered. “Now she means to take it. She smells of lemons and
fire. Her perfume is the same as it ever was, and I smell it in
Rome.”
“She is not in the house,” Usem said, taking pity
on the man, but the emperor shook his head frantically, as though
trying to rid himself of an insect.
“Tell me a story,” he asked the Psylli. “Tell me
something to make the night come.”
Usem laughed, a dry sound of curious pleasure,
something that calmed the emperor vaguely. If the man still
laughed, all could not be lost.
“It is night already,” the Psylli told him. “It is
hours until dawn.”
“It is not night in my mind,” the emperor
replied.
“I will tell you a story,” Usem said. “But there is
a price.”
“There is always a price,” the emperor said
wearily. “I will pay it.”
Augustus was now convinced that any fee owed to the
Psylli and his tribe would never need to be paid, at least not by
him. His death would no doubt occur long before he paid his debts,
and Usem wanted peace. Who could promise such a thing in a world
where creatures like Cleopatra existed?
The two walked back to the emperor’s room, where
Augustus lay down again and Usem settled into a crouch beside his
cot. The Psylli began to speak, his voice low and even.
“A young man was in the desert one day, walking
over the sand and dreaming of his future. He had reached the age of
marriage, but the neighboring tribes would not surrender their
daughters. They were afraid of his people, who consorted with
poisonous serpents. When other tribes saw the Psylli coming near,
they fled, leaving even their camels behind. The Psylli grew rich
on abandoned possessions, but their own tribe became smaller and
smaller. This boy longed for a bride, but he did not wish to take a
woman against her will. He knew that he would have to walk for days
to find a tribe who knew nothing of his people, but he swore to
himself that he would not return to the snake people until he had
found his wife.
“He walked for seven days and six nights, sleeping
in caves dug amongst the serpents. On the seventh night, as dawn
neared, the boy saw something spinning on the horizon, dancing and
throwing light across the darkness. The boy walked closer,
wondering.”
The emperor turned his head toward the Psylli and
saw the man’s eyes glitter.
“As the young man neared the tornado, he could see
a graceful hand twisting in and out of the sand, its long fingers
bedecked with sparkling rings, the source of the light he had
seen.
“As he got closer still, shielding his eyes to
protect them, he saw a slender form in the center of the sandstorm,
her long hair twirling and whipping through the air to cover her
naked body. The young man cried out in wonder, and a rapturous,
startled face turned toward him for only a moment. Then she was
gone, across the desert, away from him.
“The boy had caught a glimpse of the youngest
daughter of the Western Wind,” the Psylli said. “She was the most
beautiful woman on earth, and he was instantly determined that he
would take her for his bride.”
Augustus shifted in his coverlets. The moon
outside, though it was but a crescent, crept through his window,
leaving a slice of brightness on the Psylli’s face. He could see
only the man’s eyes, which were so black he could not discern their
expression. The Psylli continued.
“The young man chased after the wind, but she
disappeared from his view, whipping the sand into new dunes to
block his passage as she fled. The sun laughed from above as the
young man walked the day long, sizzling in the still air, searching
for his love. At last he saw her far across the sand, but she blew
away as soon as he was close enough to ask her name. This time,
however, she smiled at him before she was gone, and he heard her
laughter echoing over the desert. The young man kept following,
sometimes seeing flowering branches from far-off places left in the
sand, and sometimes watching exotic birds ride on the wind’s back,
high over his head. Once, she left him an empty ship dropped gently
from above, with its sails billowing, but she would not speak to
him, nor would she come near enough that he might touch her
hand.
“At last, after twelve days and nights without
sleep, without water, with nothing but his hopeless love to sustain
him, the young man collapsed on the sand, exhausted, his skin
parched and his tongue swollen. He closed his eyes.”
Augustus’s eyes closed as well, though only for a
moment. He lay back against his pillow, cursing silently, his very
soul twisting inside him. Love stories. What did he care about
love?
“When the young man woke, he found himself in the
center of a tornado. All around him was the daughter of the Western
Wind, and she lifted him into her arms and held him to her lips.
She kissed him, and her kisses filled his lungs with air. She
brought him to an oasis and poured water into his mouth. She
wrapped herself around him and took him high into the sky.
“With her, the young man traveled from end to end
of the world. He listened to her whispers and howls, her screams
and laughter, and he fell more and more deeply in love with
her.
“In the North, she blew up a blizzard, sending
white drifts across ice floes, whistling a trilling song as she
sent enormous blue ice mountains crashing across the sea. He
watched a pale bear and her cubs swimming across the freezing water
and then capering in the snow. The daughter of the Western Wind
played with them, flinging herself in and out of the water, making
waves that splashed over the ice, bringing fish to their shore,
until the young man, unused to the cold, was nearly frozen to
death.
“She picked him up and carried him South, to an
island where the trees bent to make a leafy bower for their wedding
bed. There, the daughter of the Western Wind and the son of the
Psylli made love, and the young man gloried in her, watching her
inhale and exhale gently, her skin smooth and warm, her long hair
wrapping around him. The young man asked his bride about her
family, and she told him that she did not wish to share him. It was
her nature to travel over sea and land, and she could not be still
for long. If she stayed in his arms, the oceans would go still, and
the bees would cease drinking from the flowers. If she stayed in
his arms, the storms would stop filling the rivers, and the snow
would stay in the sky. She told him that she would have to leave
him soon, or risk the wrath of her father.”
Augustus had fallen into sleep at last, his dreams
dark and twisting, as ever they were, his hands clenching invisible
weapons and his mouth forming inaudible words. Around him, the
world exploded and showered down upon itself, shining and searing.
Inside him, the world ended, again and again.
“The young man did not wish to let his wife leave
his side. He tied himself to her body as she slept, and he was thus
entwined with her when her father appeared, a roaring rush of fury,
tearing the palm trees from the sand, and sending tremendous waves
crashing over the shore. Those who lived on the island ran out from
their homes and over the beach, but the Western Wind was merciless.
He lifted his daughter up from where she lay sleeping and soared
into the sky with her. As he flew, waves shook themselves up from
the oceans and broke over the land, destroying everything in their
paths. Entire forests were uprooted and flew into the clouds,
landing in the heavens, where eventually they settled and became
shelter for the stars. The young man clung to his bride as she
warred against her father, screaming at him and beating him with
her fists. Three mountain ranges turned to plains. Seven rivers
turned to rain. A shooting star found itself blown off course and
into the fingers of a child, where it became a shining
plaything.
“At last, the father landed on the sands of Libya,
where the young man’s tribe was camped. He swept their camels into
the air, and threw their tents from end to end of the desert. He
strew their possessions across the mountains and tossed their
serpents into the sky. Later, they would rain down, poisonous,
mysterious, and full of rage, onto the heads of a neighboring
tribe.
“The Western Wind turned his wrath onto the wells
of the Psylli, and directed his hot breath into them until they
were dry. The young man’s tribe was left without water, and they
spoke angrily to their wayward son. He knew he’d hurt his people by
falling in love with the Western Wind’s daughter, but this did not
stop him from loving her.”
A soft breeze began to blow into the emperor’s
windows, rattling the shutters and easing them open.
“The young man refused to give up his bride. Her
father snatched her from his arms and took her back to his home at
the edge of the world. The young man spoke with his tribe and
convinced them to go to war. Though they were angry with him for
inciting the rage of the Western Wind, they were angrier still at
the wind, for drying their wells and for stealing a rightful bride
from one of their own.”
Augustus thrashed in his sleep as the breeze passed
over his bed, tearing his coverlet from his body and chilling him
to the bones. Usem looked up and smiled as the breeze passed over
his face.
“The Western Wind had stolen not only a bride but a
baby, for the daughter of the Western Wind was with child. The
tribe of the snake people armed themselves and rode out across the
desert, with their serpents beside them. They rode day and night
and never saw the Western Wind’s daughter. The Western Wind himself
tormented them with sandstorms, pushing waves of dust up over the
desert so that they engulfed the warring tribe, their mounts, and
their serpents. Convinced that he had buried them so deeply they
would never recover, the Western Wind went off to his other
business at the far side of the world. The warriors and their
serpents dug themselves up out of the sand and rode on until they
reached the world’s edge.”
The window was opened entirely to the elements now,
and the wind blew in, tossing the curtains, ruffling the scrolls.
It blew into the emperor’s mouth, and out again. It perched on the
Psylli’s shoulder.
“They stood looking out across the nothing that
awaited them there, and far in the distance, balancing on a
platform of the thinnest air, they could see the lighted castle of
the Western Wind. In the doorway of the castle, the young man could
just see his bride, her hair twirling around her, her eyes flashing
lightning. She was tied to the castle wall. The young man despaired
of reaching her. He did not know how to walk on air, and the
distance was too far for him to leap. His bride’s voice, however,
was light enough to travel across the distance between them, and
she whispered into his ear that she loved him.
“The young man thought hard for a moment, and then
he called to his serpents. They twined themselves together, tail to
throat and throat to tail. Soon, the young man and his tribe had a
coiled rope of snakes as long as the distance from the edge of the
world to the castle of the Western Wind. The young man threw the
rope across the divide, and his bride pursed her lips and gave the
rope a breeze to carry it the last few lengths across the gap and
to the castle doorway. The young man did not hesitate. He stepped
instantly onto the serpent’s backs, and ran across the tightrope to
his beloved.
“Thus it was that the tribe of the Psylli traveled
across thinnest air and arrived at the castle of the Western Wind.
Thus it was that the tribe of the Psylli waited for the Western
Wind and captured him with their ropes and their magic, slicing at
him with their swords until the wind surrendered and gave over his
daughter.”
The Psylli stood, his body shining dark and lean in
the moonlight. He looked down at the emperor’s form. The man’s
eyelids fluttered, and Usem knew he was only pretending to sleep.
The Psylli placed his hand on Augustus’s chest.
“Thus it was, by going to war against the Western
Wind, that I won my wife. We became parents and I came here, to
Rome, to protect my family from war and trouble, from pain and
sorrow, as any father should protect his children.”
The Psylli looked at the emperor, and his jaw
clenched slightly.
“Any father,” he repeated. “Any ruler of any tribe,
any ruler of any country. That is the responsibility of a leader.
But a leader should understand that the loss of love can be more
dangerous than the loss of a kingdom. He should understand that he
risks himself when he tangles his city in such a thing. A broken
heart can destroy as surely as a knife, and there are broken hearts
in Rome. There are stolen lives in Rome. It would be no shame to
give her children back to her. My wife believes that it would calm
Cleopatra, and a calm enemy is easier to best. It would be no shame
to relinquish the ghost you hold captive. She wants peace for him
and for herself. She wants it more than vengeance, at least for the
moment.”
The emperor stopped breathing for a moment, feeling
the Psylli’s gaze upon him. He said nothing. Then the man removed
his hand from the emperor’s chest and turned away.
The breeze became a woman, her hair twirling, her
hands outstretched to touch the snake charmer’s. Together, the wind
and the Psylli left the room.
In the dark, Augustus’s eyes opened. His heart felt
broken and furious at once. Love. Who was this man to talk to him
about love? Who was this man to say Augustus did not understand
it?
Cleopatra had not been broken by love. She had been
broken by her hunger for power, and by her desire to be the queen
of more than her own country. Augustus knew it, just as he knew
that he himself had the same hunger. He ruled, just as she had.
He’d climbed up over obstacles of kin, of friends and warriors,
just as she had, and now, here in the Palatine, he stood at the top
of the world. She was far below him. He had only to kill her
now.
The emperor stepped out of bed, weary to his
bones.
He had never loved anyone but Rome, and Rome needed
him.