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They filled the room, arriving from beneath
the floor, slipping through impossibly small cracks and portals.
They came from above, nearly deafening Cleopatra with their shrill
song.
She cringed, her rage gone as quickly as it had
arrived. Now she was terrified of the pain that would surely come.
They’d tear her skin, and she’d live. They would wound her flesh,
and she would remain awake, feeling each ripping movement. Feeling
each creature—and she knew them now, not birds but bats—diving
toward her heart. Their tiny fangs, their scrabbling claws. Her
body, though it was changed, was still hers. It was her only
possession, and these were thieves coming to break it apart.
They would find her empty.
Something else was coming, though. She could smell
a musky, dry odor. Snakes slithering across the stone, their sleek
bodies blending into a rippling surface, roiling as a storming sea.
And rats, their skeletons bending against the narrow passages,
their fur glittering black, their eyes glowing.
Her subjects.
She laughed, the sound mixing with a sob. Queen of
Egypt, in her lost, gilded robes. Naked before her true citizens,
she must offer them her last words. Oh, the proclamations she might
make, here in the dark.
“Save me,” she whispered. “Your queen commands
you.”
She laughed again, feeling hysteria rising. Nothing
to calm her here, no wines or potions, no Antony to press his
fingertips against her lips. She felt the rasp of snakeskin on her
ankle. The brush of leather wings on her face. The lash of a rat’s
tail, whipping through her fingers.
This is how it would end, then. This is how it
would be, from here until the end of time. The queen and her
creatures. Eaten, but not consumed.
A snake pressed its skull beneath her breast,
fitting its triangular head under the chain and then flowing over
her skin. It slipped up her throat, and appeared before her, its
eyes glittering in the dark, gazing at her with what seemed to be
intention.
She was mad to think the snake might understand
her. More were coming. She felt them writhing across her limbs like
a living mantle.
The snake stared into her eyes, waiting for
something. She tried to move but could not.
“Free me!” she shouted, giving in to the madness.
“I am your queen! The queen of Egypt calls upon you!”
The snake slithered away, and Cleopatra laughed and
cried at once. She was insane, and worse, she knew it. Her
predictions had come true. She, who was the daughter of generations
of kings, now thought that she could talk to animals.
The rats began to gnaw at something. Let it not be
her bones. She couldn’t feel anything anymore, couldn’t tell where
the animals were.
The chain shifted around her, burning, burning, but
she didn’t care. Let it burn. Anything was better than this, these
beasts of the night pressing against her body, the sounds of
hissing and hungering. Another serpent slithered across her
abdomen, pressing into the curve of her waist, where once a jeweled
belt had hung, tempting kings, tempting warriors.
The chain shifted again.
She could hear the rats gnawing at the wood beneath
her, furrowing its surface. She’d commissioned the pyre, just as
she’d commissioned the box that held Antony’s ashes. Now the rats
were turning it to dust. Everything would go to dust, everything
but Cleopatra.
The chain loosened. She stretched her arm and
touched a serpent. She moved her leg and felt another. The room was
dark, but all around her was the sound of movement.
Bats rose through the dark, singing. A moth glowed
in a sudden spark of light and was taken, struggling against
claws.
The chain lifted from her skin and hung in the air
above her.
She lay there for a moment, amazed, and then she
felt the creatures waiting, all around her.
“Thank you,” she whispered.
The only reply she heard was the soft swishing of
serpents making their way back to where they’d come from, bats
singing their way back out into the sky, and rats channeling their
bodies into the cracks in the walls. Like ghosts, they returned
invisibly to the waking world, populating the hidden spaces,
filling the shadows. She realized that she was as good as a ghost
herself, and as she listened to the departure of her saviors, she
learned from their quiet. There were secret places in her city,
places the Romans would not think to look for her.
She eased herself up from the slab, naked and
exultant. Whatever it meant, whatever it would mean, she was
free.
It was a simple matter to leave the
mausoleum, pressing the stone with her fingers and waiting for the
hidden tunnel to the palace to open. How had they imagined she’d
gotten into the place to begin with? All the tombs were connected
to the palaces, and had been for centuries.
She slipped back in through the slave’s quarters,
taking only the silver box that contained Antony’s ashes, wrapped
in a cloth to protect her fingers from the strange, scalding pain
the metal caused her skin. She hid in a cellar. It was daylight,
and she could not go out into the sun, particularly not as she was.
She would need dark clothing, and something to swath her
face.
She found herself confused, uncertain where to go
next, and so she stayed hidden. Her city was a great unknown,
though it had always cradled her in the past. She had no servants,
no trusted friends, no messengers. She had no dresser, no woman to
paint her skin and braid her hair.
She was dead to all of them.
She thought of this with a kind of wonder as she
crouched, naked and filthy, against the cool stone wall of the
cellar. She was no longer a queen. She could do exactly as she
pleased now. No more politics, no more advisors, no more
declarations of war.
What was it she wanted? What would she do now that
she was dead? She was dead, that much was certain. Dead to
her country, in any case.
The things she loved had been taken from her, but
some of them still lived. Her children. She would find them. Her
enemies still lived as well. A whisper of memory came back to her
as she thought of Octavian. She saw him as he knelt over her in her
bedchamber, thinking her dead, speaking to her as though she could
forgive him. He’d confessed his sins to her. He was the one who’d
told Antony she was dead. He was the one who had told her armies to
desert her husband.
All of this had been set in motion by Octavian’s
lies.
When she found him, she would hurt him as he had
hurt her.
The palace seethed with activity when first she
entered, servants running from room to room, the foul scent of
roasting meat, excited gossip, but as the day passed, the place
quieted. Octavian had left the palaces just before she’d arrived,
or so she gleaned from listening to the chatter. He’d taken a mass
of his soldiers, bodyguards, and armor, kindling, and firepots, and
gone out into the tombs. Starting a tiny war somewhere in her city,
she imagined.
When at last she emerged from the cellar, creeping
along a kitchen wall, the place was nearly empty. The creature she
finally spoke with was ancient, a blind crone hovering over a
basin, scrubbing away at some vile root.
“Where are the other servants?” Cleopatra asked
her.
“Are you not one of us?” the crone asked.
“I’ve been away,” Cleopatra said, trying to repress
her regal tone. This was not the sort of conversation she would
normally have with a slave.
“They’ve gone to the execution,” the servant
said.
This was a stroke of luck, though who might
Octavian be killing now? His own soldiers? She would not be
surprised by such an act. He would kill his trusted allies.
Antony had been his friend, his teacher, and look at what he’d done
to him.
There was no one left to war against. The city had
surrendered. Mark Antony was dead, and so was she, for all Octavian
knew. She looked forward to seeing his face when she proved that
assumption wrong. Her mouth filled with saliva. Hunger. She still
could not remember the last time she’d eaten. Something about the
shock of her false burial, she concluded. There were gaps in her
memory. It was a blur of light, a glimpse of red that failed to
resolve into anything clear.
Cleopatra found a kitchen knife. In the dark, she
held out a lock of her hair and sawed it off, shuddering as it
drifted to the floor, braided strands and loose ones. A single
shining twist of silver. Her hair had been beautiful, and the coif
she’d been buried with, dressed by Charmian, was complex, each knot
signifying something specific. Those things were gone. She grieved
them as much as she gloried in her new state. Free, she
reminded herself. Free.
Soon, it was all sheared, cut into a rough tumble,
and her head bound up in a swath of dirty cloth. She washed the
paints from her face with cold, greasy water. She looked like a
slave. None of the assembled would know her for their queen. Still,
she would cover herself fully, for though the day was waning, the
sun shone low in the sky, and she did not imagine she would be
immune to its rays. She wrapped the box containing Antony’s ashes
in a piece of cloth and slung it over her shoulder before dressing
herself in a robe, a pair of leather sandals, and a rough traveling
cloak stolen from one of the cook’s chambers.
At last, she veiled her head and made her way into
the city, following the sounds of reveling.
Her enemy would be at the execution. She looked
forward to seeing his face when she appeared before him.