Chapter 42
Had Elizabeth's opinion been all drawn from her own family, she
could not have formed a very pleasing opinion of conjugal felicity
or domestic comfort. Her father, captivated by youth and beauty,
and that appearance of good humour which youth and beauty generally
give, had married a woman whose weak understanding and illiberal
mind had very early in their marriage put and end to all real
affection for her. Respect, esteem, and confidence had vanished for
ever; and all his views of domestic happiness were overthrown. But
Mr. Bennet was not of a disposition to seek comfort for the
disappointment which his own imprudence had brought on, in any of
those pleasures which too often console the unfortunate for their
folly of their vice. He was fond of the country and of books; and
from these tastes had arisen his principal enjoyments. To his wife
he was very little otherwise indebted, than as her ignorance and
folly had contributed to his amusement. This is not the sort of
happiness which a man would in general wish to owe to his wife; but
where other powers of entertainment are wanting, the true
philosopher will derive benefit from such as are given. Elizabeth,
however, had never been blind to the impropriety of her father's
behaviour as a husband. She had always seen it with pain; but
respecting his abilities, and grateful for his affectionate
treatment of herself, she endeavoured to forget what she could not
overlook, and to banish from her thoughts that continual breach of
conjugal obligation and decorum which, in exposing his wife to the
contempt of her own children, was so highly reprehensible. But she
had never felt so strongly as now the disadvantages which must
attend the children of so unsuitable a marriage, nor ever been so
fully aware of the evils arising from so ill-judged a direction of
talents; talents, which, rightly used, might at least have
preserved the respectability of his daughters, even if incapable of
enlarging the mind of his wife. When Elizabeth had rejoiced over
Wickham's departure she found little other cause for satisfaction
in the loss of the regiment. Their parties abroad were less varied
than before, and at home she had a mother and sister whose constant
repinings at the dullness of everything around them threw a real
gloom over their domestic circle; and, though Kitty might in time
regain her natural degree of sense, since the disturbers of her
brain were removed, her other sister, from whose disposition
greater evil might be apprehended, was likely to be hardened in all
her folly and assurance by a situation of such double danger as a
watering-place and a camp. Upon the whole, therefore, she found,
what has been sometimes been found before, that an event to which
she had been looking with impatient desire did not, in taking
place, bring all the satisfaction she had promised herself. It was
consequently necessary to name some other period for the
commencement of actual felicity— to have some other point on which
her wishes and hopes might be fixed, and by again enjoying the
pleasure of anticipation, console herself for the present, and
prepare for another disappointment. Her tour to the Lakes was now
the object of her happiest thoughts; it was her best consolation
for all the uncomfortable hours which the discontentedness of her
mother and Kitty made inevitable; and could she have included Jane
in the scheme, every part of it would have been perfect. "But it is
fortunate," thought she, "that I have something to wish for. Were
the whole arrangement complete, my disappointment would be certain.
But here, by carrying with me one ceaseless source of regret in my
sister's absence, I may reasonably hope to have all my expectations
of pleasure realised. A scheme of which every part promises delight
can never be successful; and general disappointment is only warded
off by the defence of some little peculiar vexation." When Lydia
went away she promised to write very often and very minutely to her
mother and Kitty; but her letters were always long expected, and
always very short. Those to her mother contained little else than
that they were just returned from the library, where such and such
officers had attended them, and where she had seen such beautiful
ornaments as made her quite wild; that she had a new gown, or a new
parasol, which she would have described more fully, but was obliged
to leave off in a violent hurry, as Mrs. Forster called her, and
they were going off to the camp; and from her correspondence with
her sister, there was still less to be learnt— for her letters to
Kitty, though rather longer, were much too full of lines under the
words to be made public. After the first fortnight or three weeks
of her absence, health, good humour, and cheerfulness began to
reappear at Longbourn. Everything wore a happier aspect. The
families who had been in town for the winter came back again, and
summer finery and summer engagements arose. Mrs. Bennet was
restored to her usual querulous serenity; and, by the middle of
June, Kitty was so much recovered as to be able to enter Meryton
without tears; an event of such happy promise as to make Elizabeth
hope that by the following Christmas she might be so tolerably
reasonable as not to mention an officer above once a day, unless,
by some cruel and malicious arrangement at the War Office, another
regiment should be quartered in Meryton. The time fixed for the
beginning of their northern tour was now fast approaching, and a
fortnight only was wanting of it, when a letter arrived from Mrs.
Gardiner, which at once delayed its commencement and curtailed its
extent. Mr. Gardiner would be prevented by business from setting
out till a fortnight later in July, and must be in London again
within a month, and as that left too short a period for them to go
so far, and see so much as they had proposed, or at least to see it
with the leisure and comfort they had built on, they were obliged
to give up the Lakes, and substitute a more contracted tour, and,
according to the present plan, were to go no farther northwards
than Derbyshire. In that county there was enough to be seen to
occupy the chief of their three weeks; and to Mrs. Gardiner it had
a peculiarly strong attraction. The town where she had formerly
passed some years of her life, and where they were now to spend a
few days, was probably as great an object of her curiosity as all
the celebrated beauties of Matlock, Chatsworth, Dovedale, or the
Peak. Elizabeth was excessively disappointed; she had set her heart
on seeing the Lakes, and still thought there might have been time
enough. But it was her business to be satisfied— and certainly her
temper to be happy; and all was soon right again. With the mention
of Derbyshire there were many ideas connected. It was impossible
for her to see the word without thinking of Pemberley and its
owner. "But surely," said she, "I may enter his county without
impunity, and rob it of a few petrified spars without his
perceiving me." The period of expectation was now doubled. Four
weeks were to pass away before her uncle and aunt's arrival. But
they did pass away, and Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner, with their four
children, did at length appear at Longbourn. The children, two
girls of six and eight years old, and two younger boys, were to be
left under the particular care of their cousin Jane, who was the
general favourite, and whose steady sense and sweetness of temper
exactly adapted her for attending to them in every way—teaching
them, playing with them, and loving them. The Gardiners stayed only
one night at Longbourn, and set off the next morning with Elizabeth
in pursuit of novelty and amusement. One enjoyment was certain—
that of suitableness of companions; a suitableness which
comprehended health and temper to bear inconveniences— cheerfulness
to enhance every pleasure— and affection and intelligence, which
might supply it among themselves if there were disappointments
abroad. It is not the object of this work to give a description of
Derbyshire, nor of any of the remarkable places through which their
route thither lay; Oxford, Blenheim, Warwick, Kenilworth,
Birmingham, &c., are sufficiently known. A small part of
Derbyshire is all the present concern. To the little town of
Lambton, the scene of Mrs. Gardiner's former residence, and where
she had lately learned some acquaintance still remained, they bent
their steps, after having seen all the principal wonders of the
country; and within five miles of Lambton, Elizabeth found from her
aunt that Pemberley was situated. It was not in their direct road,
nor more than a mile or two out of it. In talking over their route
the evening before, Mrs. Gardiner expressed an inclination to see
the place again. Mr. Gardiner declared his willingness, and
Elizabeth was applied to for her approbation. "My love, should not
you like to see a place of which you have heard so much?" said her
aunt; "a place, too, with which so many of your acquaintances are
connected. Wickham passed all his youth there, you know." Elizabeth
was distressed. She felt that she had no business at Pemberley, and
was obliged to assume a disinclination for seeing it. She must own
that she was tired of seeing great houses; after going over so
many, she really had no pleasure in fine carpets or satin curtains.
Mrs. Gardiner abused her stupidity. If it were merely a fine house
richly furnished," said she, "I should not care about it myself;
but the grounds are delightful. They have some of the finest woods
in the country." Elizabeth said no more— but her mind could not
acquiesce. The possibility of meeting Mr. Darcy, while viewing the
place, instantly occurred. It would be dreadful! She blushed at the
very idea, and thought it would be better to speak openly to her
aunt than to run such a risk. But against this there were
objections; and she finally resolved that it could be the last
resource, if her private inquiries to the absence of the family
were unfavourably answered. Accordingly, when she retired at night,
she asked the chambermaid whether Pemberley were not a very fine
place? what was the name of its proprietor? and, with no little
alarm, whether the family were down for the summer? A most welcome
negative followed the last question— and her alarms now being
removed, she was at leisure to feel a great deal of curiosity to
see the house herself; and when the subject was revived the next
morning, and she was again applied to, could readily answer, and
with a proper air of indifference, that she had not really any
dislike to the scheme. To Pemberley, therefore, they were to go.