Chapter 53
Mr. Wickham was so perfectly satisfied with this conversation that
he never again distressed himself, or provoked his dear sister
Elizabeth, by introducing the subject of it; and she was pleased to
find that she had said enough to keep him quiet. The day of his and
Lydia's departure soon came, and Mrs. Bennet was forced to submit
to a separation, which, as her husband by no means entered into her
scheme of their all going to Newcastle, was likely to continue at
least a twelvemonth. "Oh! my dear Lydia," she cried, "when shall we
meet again?" "Oh, lord! I don't know. Not these two or three years,
perhaps." "Write to me very often, my dear." "As often as I can.
But you know married women have never much time for writing. My
sisters may write to me. They will have nothing else to do." Mr.
Wickham's adieus were much more affectionate than his wife's. He
smiled, looked handsome, and said many pretty things. "He is as
fine a fellow," said Mr. Bennet, as soon as they were out of the
house, "as ever I saw. He simpers, and smirks, and makes love to us
all. I am prodigiously proud of him. I defy even Sir William Lucas
himself to produce a more valuable son-in-law." The loss of her
daughter made Mrs. Bennet very dull for several days. "I often
think," said she, "that there is nothing so bad as parting with
one's friends. One seems so forlorn without them." "This is the
consequence, you see, Madam, of marrying a daughter," said
Elizabeth. "It must make you better satisfied that your other four
are single." "It is no such thing. Lydia does not leave me because
she is married, but only because her husband's regiment happens to
be so far off. If that had been nearer, she would not have gone so
soon." But the spiritless condition which this event threw her into
was shortly relieved, and her mind opened again to the agitation of
hope, by an article of news which then began to be in circulation.
The housekeeper at Netherfield had received orders to prepare for
the arrival of her master, who was coming down in a day or two, to
shoot there for several weeks. Mrs. Bennet was quite in the
fidgets. She looked at Jane, and smiled and shook her head by
turns. "Well, well, and so Mr. Bingley is coming down, sister,"
(for Mrs. Phillips first brought her the news). "Well, so much the
better. Not that I care about it, though. He is nothing to us, you
know, and I am sure I never want to see him again. But, however, he
is very welcome to come to Netherfield, if he likes it. And who
knows what may happen? But that is nothing to us. You know, sister,
we agreed long ago never to mention a word about it. And so, is it
quite certain he is coming?" "You may depend on it," replied the
other, "for Mrs. Nicholls was in Meryton last night; I saw her
passing by, and went out myself on purpose to know the truth of it;
and she told me that it was certain true. He comes down on Thursday
at the latest, very likely on Wednesday. She was going to the
butcher's, she told me, on purpose to order in some meat on
Wednesday, and she has got three couple of ducks just fit to be
killed." Miss Bennet had not been able to hear of his coming
without changing colour. It was many months since she had mentioned
his name to Elizabeth; but now, as soon as they were alone
together, she said, "I saw you look at me to-day, Lizzy, when my
aunt told us of the present report; and I know I appeared
distressed. But don't imagine it was from any silly cause. I was
only confused for the moment, because I felt that I should be
looked at. I do assure you that the news does not affect me either
with pleasure or pain. I am glad of one thing, that he comes alone;
because we shall see the less of him. Not that I am afraid of
myself, but I dread other people's remarks." Elizabeth did not know
what to make of it. Had she not seen him in Derbyshire, she might
have supposed him capable of coming there with no other view than
what was acknowledged; but she still thought him partial to Jane,
and she wavered as to the greater probability of his coming there
with his friend's permission, or being bold enough to come without
it. "Yet it is hard," she sometimes thought, "that this poor man
cannot come to a house which he has legally hired, without raising
all this speculation! I will leave him to himself." In spite of
what her sister declared, and really believed to be her feelings in
the expectation of his arrival, Elizabeth could easily perceive
that her spirits were affected by it. They were more disturbed,
more unequal, than she had often seen them. The subject which had
been so warmly canvassed between their parents, about a twelvemonth
ago, was now brought forward again. "As soon as ever Mr. Bingley
comes, my dear," said Mrs. Bennet, "you will wait on him of
course." "No, no. You forced me into visiting him last year, and
promised, if I went to see him, he should marry one of my
daughters. But it ended in nothing, and I will not be sent on a
fool's errand again." His wife represented to him how absolutely
necessary such an attention would be from all the neighbouring
gentlemen, on his returning to Netherfield. "'Tis an etiquette I
despise," said he. "If he wants our society, let him seek it. He
knows where we live. I will not spend my hours in running after my
neighbours every time they go away and come back again." "Well, all
I know is, that it will be abominably rude if you do not wait on
him. But, however, that shan't prevent my asking him to dine here,
I am determined. We must have Mrs. Long and the Gouldings soon.
That will make thirteen with ourselves, so there will be just room
at table for him." Consoled by this resolution, she was the better
able to bear her husband's incivility; though it was very
mortifying to know that her neighbours might all see Mr. Bingley,
in consequence of it, before they did. As the day of his arrival
drew near, "I begin to be sorry that he comes at all," said Jane to
her sister. "It would be nothing; I could see him with perfect
indifference, but I can hardly bear to hear it thus perpetually
talked of. My mother means well; but she does not know, no one can
know, how much I suffer from what she says. Happy shall I be, when
his stay at Netherfield is over!" "I wish I could say any thing to
comfort you," replied Elizabeth; "but it is wholly out of my power.
You must feel it; and the usual satisfaction of preaching patience
to a sufferer is denied me, because you have always so much." Mr.
Bingley arrived. Mrs. Bennet, through the assistance of servants,
contrived to have the earliest tidings of it, that the period of
anxiety and fretfulness on her side might be as long as it could.
She counted the days that must intervene before their invitation
could be sent; hopeless of seeing him before. But on the third
morning after his arrival in Hertfordshire, she saw him, from her
dressing-room window, enter the paddock and ride towards the house.
Her daughters were eagerly called to partake of her joy. Jane
resolutely kept her place at the table; but Elizabeth, to satisfy
her mother, went to the window — she looked, — she saw Mr. Darcy
with him, and sat down again by her sister. "There is a gentleman
with him, mamma," said Kitty; "who can it be?" "Some acquaintance
or other, my dear, I suppose; I am sure I do not know." "La!"
replied Kitty, "it looks just like that man that used to be with
him before. Mr. what's-his-name. That tall, proud man." "Good
gracious! Mr. Darcy! — and so it does, I vow. Well, any friend of
Mr. Bingley's will always be welcome here, to be sure; but else I
must say that I hate the very sight of him." Jane looked at
Elizabeth with surprise and concern. She knew but little of their
meeting in Derbyshire, and therefore felt for the awkwardness which
must attend her sister, in seeing him almost for the first time
after receiving his explanatory letter. Both sisters were
uncomfortable enough. Each felt for the other, and of course for
themselves; and their mother talked on, of her dislike of Mr.
Darcy, and her resolution to be civil to him only as Mr. Bingley's
friend, without being heard by either of them. But Elizabeth had
sources of uneasiness which could not be suspected by Jane, to whom
she had never yet had courage to shew Mrs. Gardiner's letter, or to
relate her own change of sentiment towards him. To Jane, he could
be only a man whose proposals she had refused, and whose merit she
had undervalued; but to her own more extensive information, he was
the person to whom the whole family were indebted for the first of
benefits, and whom she regarded herself with an interest, if not
quite so tender, at least as reasonable and just as what Jane felt
for Bingley. Her astonishment at his coming — at his coming to
Netherfield, to Longbourn, and voluntarily seeking her again, was
almost equal to what she had known on first witnessing his altered
behaviour in Derbyshire. The colour which had been driven from her
face, returned for half a minute with an additional glow, and a
smile of delight added lustre to her eyes, as she thought for that
space of time that his affection and wishes must still be unshaken.
But she would not be secure. "Let me first see how he behaves,"
said she; "it will then be early enough for expectation." She sat
intently at work, striving to be composed, and without daring to
lift up her eyes, till anxious curiosity carried them to the face
of her sister as the servant was approaching the door. Jane looked
a little paler than usual, but more sedate than Elizabeth had
expected. On the gentlemen's appearing, her colour increased; yet
she received them with tolerable ease, and with a propriety of
behaviour equally free from any symptom of resentment or any
unnecessary complaisance. Elizabeth said as little to either as
civility would allow, and sat down again to her work, with an
eagerness which it did not often command. She had ventured only one
glance at Darcy. He looked serious, as usual; and, she thought,
more as he had been used to look in Hertfordshire, than as she had
seen him at Pemberley. But, perhaps he could not in her mother's
presence be what he was before her uncle and aunt. It was a
painful, but not an improbable, conjecture. Bingley, she had
likewise seen for an instant, and in that short period saw him
looking both pleased and embarrassed. He was received by Mrs.
Bennet with a degree of civility which made her two daughters
ashamed, especially when contrasted with the cold and ceremonious
politeness of her curtsey and address to his friend. Elizabeth,
particularly, who knew that her mother owed to the latter the
preservation of her favourite daughter from irremediable infamy,
was hurt and distressed to a most painful degree by a distinction
so ill applied. Darcy, after enquiring of her how Mr. and Mrs.
Gardiner did, a question which she could not answer without
confusion, said scarcely any thing. He was not seated by her;
perhaps that was the reason of his silence; but it had not been so
in Derbyshire. There he had talked to her friends, when he could
not to herself. But now several minutes elapsed without bringing
the sound of his voice; and when occasionally, unable to resist the
impulse of curiosity, she raised he eyes to his face, she as often
found him looking at Jane as at herself, and frequently on no
object but the ground. More thoughtfulness and less anxiety to
please, than when they last met, were plainly expressed. She was
disappointed, and angry with herself for being so. "Could I expect
it to be otherwise!" said she. "Yet why did he come?" She was in no
humour for conversation with any one but himself; and to him she
had hardly courage to speak. She enquired after his sister, but
could do no more. "It is a long time, Mr. Bingley, since you went
away," said Mrs. Bennet. He readily agreed to it. He readily agreed
to it. "I began to be afraid you would never come back again.
People did say you meant to quit the place entirely at Michaelmas;
but, however, I hope it is not true. A great many changes have
happened in the neighbourhood, since you went away. Miss Lucas is
married and settled. And one of my own daughters. I suppose you
have heard of it; indeed, you must have seen it in the papers. It
was in The Times and The Courier, I know; though it was not put in
as it ought to be. It was only said, ''Lately, George Wickham, Esq.
to Miss Lydia Bennet,'' without there being a syllable said of her
father, or the place where she lived, or any thing. It was my
brother Gardiner's drawing up too, and I wonder how he came to make
such an awkward business of it. Did you see it?" Bingley replied
that he did, and made his congratulations. Elizabeth dared not lift
up her eyes. How Mr. Darcy looked, therefore, she could not tell.
"It is a delightful thing, to be sure, to have a daughter well
married," continued her mother, "but at the same time, Mr. Bingley,
it is very hard to have her taken such a way from me. They are gone
down to Newcastle, a place quite northward, it seems, and there
they are to stay I do not know how long. His regiment is there; for
I suppose you have heard of his leaving the ——shire, and of his
being gone into the regulars. Thank Heaven! he has some friends,
though perhaps not so many as he deserves." Elizabeth, who knew
this to be levelled at Mr. Darcy, was in such misery of shame, that
she could hardly keep her seat. It drew from her, however, the
exertion of speaking, which nothing else had so effectually done
before; and she asked Bingley whether he meant to make any stay in
the country at present. A few weeks, he believed. "When you have
killed all your own birds, Mr. Bingley," said her mother, "I beg
you will come here, and shoot as many as you please on Mr. Bennet's
manor. I am sure he will be vastly happy to oblige you, and will
save all the best of the covies for you." Elizabeth's misery
increased, at such unnecessary, such officious attention! Were the
same fair prospect to arise at present as had flattered them a year
ago, every thing, she was persuaded, would be hastening to the same
vexatious conclusion. At that instant, she felt that years of
happiness could not make Jane or herself amends for moments of such
painful confusion. "The first wish of my heart," said she to
herself, "is never more to be in company with either of them. Their
society can afford no pleasure that will atone for such
wretchedness as this! Let me never see either one or the other
again!" Yet the misery, for which years of happiness were to offer
no compensation, received soon afterwards material relief, from
observing how much the beauty of her sister re-kindled the
admiration of her former lover. When first he came in, he had
spoken to her but little; but every five minutes seemed to be
giving her more of his attention. He found her as handsome as she
had been last year; as good natured, and as unaffected, though not
quite so chatty. Jane was anxious that no difference should be
perceived in her at all, and was really persuaded that she talked
as much as ever. But her mind was so busily engaged, that she did
not always know when she was silent. When the gentlemen rose to go
away, Mrs. Bennet was mindful of her intended civility, and they
were invited and engaged to dine at Longbourn in a few days time.
"You are quite a visit in my debt, Mr. Bingley," she added, "for
when you went to town last winter, you promised to take a family
dinner with us, as soon as you returned. I have not forgot, you
see; and I assure you, I was very much disappointed that you did
not come back and keep your engagement." Bingley looked a little
silly at this reflection, and said something of his concern at
having been prevented by business. They then went away. Mrs. Bennet
had been strongly inclined to ask them to stay and dine there that
day; but, though she always kept a very good table, she did not
think any thing less than two courses could be good enough for a
man on whom she had such anxious designs, or satisfy the appetite
and pride of one who had ten thousand a year.