My Voice
How long has she been past that
last curve into the trees? I'm running so hard, my lungs are on
fire.
"Melita!"
The only sounds I hear in return are the
slap of my feet, the clatter of spewing pebbles, my ragged
breath.
But as I round the bend, there's a terrible
new sound: a growling so deep, it's like the bottom of the ocean, a
snarl from three throats joined in a fearsome chord.
I shudder to a stop. There's Melita, up to
her thighs in the dark, eddying Styx. It swirls her chiton around
her legs, trying to tug her under. And on the close shore stands
Cerberus, but Cerberus as I've never seen him. He's like a huge
arrow drawn taut in the bow, about to be released toward its
target. Six eyes flicker bits of flame; three heads bare teeth in
hypnotic snarls.
Suddenly the invisible string twangs and
Cerberus leaps. The raging water parts before him as easy as air.
Melita raises her hands, screaming, and Cerberus is splashing and
snarling and Melita's cries soar skyward—
And then a third voice splits the air down
the middle. A voice of power. A voice of command.
My voice.
"Cerberus! Stop!"
The beast pauses, ears pricked. He turns one
head my way. The other two are still growling at Melita, but at
least he sees me.
"Come here. Now, Cerberus."
He turns reluctantly, clambers out of the
Styx, and trots to my side. There's still fire in his eyes, but he
forces himself to sit like a well-trained hunting dog, waiting for
the words that release him to capture his prey.
I hear his hoarse panting, and the
relentless river, and then:
"Who are you?" asks Melita.
Her eyes are full moons. Her skin has gone
dead white. And she's staring, not at Cerberus, but at me. Me,
standing there, my hand on the great beast's head.
"Who are you?" she demands again.
"Persephone," I say softly.
"I don't believe you! You're not a servant
or a gardener. Who are you?"
I say it again, louder this time. "I'm
Persephone."
I didn't think her eyes could get any wider,
but they do, the instant the truth hits her.
"You mean you're . . ."
"Yes. I'm that Persephone."
I cringe at what might come next. Will she
fall to her knees in that surging water?
"I should have told you," I say, almost
pleading, as I watch the thoughts racing across her face—the angry
eyes that call me a traitor; giving way to the gasp and lowering
head that call me a queen—but suddenly her head flies back up in
revelation.
"If you're a goddess, you can save
Philomena!" she says eagerly. "Fly across! Make sure she's
safe!"
I sigh, a gust of wind. "I can't go back,
either."
"Of course you can! You're a goddess. You're
queen of the underworld. You can do anything you want."
"I'll try to send a message—"
"A message! Philomena will be dead by the
time you do that. She'll never grow up or know love or have
children. There's no time for a message."
As she speaks, her face hardens with a new
realization. "You don't care, do you?" she says. "I thought we were
friends, but it was just a big game to you. You, complaining gods
don't respect mortals, and all the time you were tricking
me!"
"I was scared I'd lose you!"
Her words are icicle-sharp. "Demeter is your
mother! You could have gone back anytime you wanted and made her
stop. Then my mother would still be alive. My
daughter would be safe. But you never did a thing. No, you were
just pretending to care."
Cerberus growls and I tighten my grip on the
center collar, trying to find words to explain.
"If you were ever my friend," Melita says,
"if it wasn't all a lie, go to Earth and save my child."
"Melita, I can't!" I cry. "I can't cross the
Styx! I can't talk to my mother! I can't do anything!"
"Can't," she says bitterly. "That's
all you ever say. Can't even try. But it looks like there is one
thing you can do." She stares at my hand on the collar. "Hold him
so I can cross."
Cerberus feels the desperation building in
me. He tugs, whining.
Melita turns against the furious water. "Me,
I don't have time for can't. Show me now there was
friendship between us. Hold that beast back so I can save my
child."
Once she takes a step, Cerberus can't
restrain himself any longer. With an earsplitting bark he bursts
from my grip and into the river.
"Melita," I shout, "stop!"
Cerberus lunges at her, grabbing a mouthful
of floating chiton. He shakes the fabric from his teeth—a flash of
white rushing downstream. She keeps struggling forward. He leaps
again and this time he rakes her arm. Blood oozes up in bright red
lines and starts to flow toward the roiling water. He's readying
himself for the next attack and still she isn't stopping, and the
blood is swirling downstream, weaving into the dark strands of the
water, and I open my mouth and scream so loud the air
shakes.
"I'll do it!"
Melita stops and turns to me. Cerberus,
fangs bared, holds still.
"I'll get Philomena," I say. "I'll make sure
she's safe. I don't know how, but I'll do it. Just come back,
please."
"Promise," she says.
"I promise."
"Make it a vow that can't be
broken."
"I make this sacred vow. I'll return to
Earth and find Philomena. I'll make sure she's safe."