The Problem with Immortality
"Stay here, Persephone," says my
mother. "I have some work to do."
As if I could go anywhere.
She's all dressed up in her goddess
clothes—the chiton dyed purple with rare sea snails; the golden
girdle embossed with waving wheat; the emeralds dripping like green
leaves from her neck, her arms, her golden hair. She looks about
twenty feet tall.
Off to rescue the world, probably. Mrs.
Black-soilsprings-from-my-footsteps. Mrs.
Even-the-grain-greets-mewith-lowered-head.
Is that what she wants me to do, bow down
and worship her? That's for mortals, not me.
"I'll be back tomorrow afternoon," she says.
"You'll be safe here in our beautiful vale."
Our vale? It's hers. This
place has nothing to do with me. It's all about her flowers,
her waters, her rich earth.
"While I'm gone, make sure you thread the
loom. And watch your yarn choice this time." She reaches up and
fingers the fabric near my shoulder. "Pale colors are so
unattractive with your black hair."
She's always giving me advice.
It's not like it used to be when I was
little. Back when she still smiled at me. When she didn't always
pinch her mouth like she's trying to keep her temper trapped
inside. I remember sitting by her knee, watching her nimble fingers
turn fleece into long, silky threads. "Coax fine cloth from fresh
wool," she used to say in her flowery way.
But these days her advice isn't about
teaching me things. It's about tamping me down, squashing me into
the right shape, like a potter slaps clay around until it's his
idea of a beautiful vase.
I could take it for a day, or a week, or a
month. But we're immortal.
Here's the problem with immortality. Every
day is exactly the same. I'm stuck forever with my mother telling
me to comb my hair, put my clothes away, stand up straight. I
always sleep in the same bed. I always walk by the same olive trees
down to the same lake, its pebbles worn smooth by an eternity of
lapping water.
My mother bends to fix her sandal strap and
catches sight of my legs. She comes up with a disapproving
expression. "That dress is too revealing, dear. Go
change."
"But—"
She doesn't wait to listen. Turning to
leave, she calls over her shoulder, "And remember not to step on
the thyme: it's blooming."
As if I hadn't noticed.
Why should she care if my dress is too
revealing? She's created a world devoid of men. The only men I see
are painted on vases. The only men I hear about are in the stories
my friends tell.
I've spent my whole life here. I'm sick of it.