Shutters
There's darkness all around me, an
ocean of it. And I'm adrift in a raft of a bed.
"Hades?" I whisper.
Nothing. No answer.
"Hades? Where are you?"
I reach blindly across the bed, but no
matter which way I grope, I find no reassuring arm, no broad
shoulder to shake.
I don't believe it! He's left me alone to
the dark.
To the dark—and what else? I shiver into
fine-spun sheets and strain my ears, trying to hear something,
anything. What sounds do shapeless wraiths make? Do they even speak
once they leave their mortal bodies, or are they only wavering bits
of mist? And where are those flickering torches I was counting on
to give me light?
When Hades talked about the darkness beneath
the earth, I didn't think he meant this.
"Hades? Anybody?"
As if in answer to my call, a faint golden
rectangle emerges from the darkness, floating like four lines
sketched with a glowing ember. Like a door.
I scoot to the side of the bed and swing my
feet down until they meet cold, polished stone. My arms
outstretched like a sleepwalker, I totter toward the glimmering
outline. One careful step, two, three, four . . . and then my
fingers touch wood.
Shutters! The golden rectangle is a window
frame!
I fumble the latch open, and the room floods
with glorious, blinding light. The sun, here in the underworld!
That's the last thing I expected to find. I blink until I can make
out sky and hills covered with tawny grass.
No smoky caverns, no dripping stalactites—I
sigh with relief. Maybe I can handle this after all.
Now I can see the room. The bed looks like it's carved from the trunk of a single, gigantic tree. Sinuous roots, polished to a rich red-brown, disappear into the floor, as if slurping up nourishment from the land below. It's gorgeous.
But the rest of the room reels with gaudy
decorations: frescoed deer cavort on the walls, geometric mosaics
dance underfoot, spirals and rosettes swirl across a distant
ceiling like the leaves of some towering tree. I could fit ten of
my bedrooms in here. I could fit my entire courtyard.
I wrap myself in a sheet, shuffle over, and
open two more windows. Below me stretches a hill speckled with
rocks and bushes. Halfway down, a broad oak beckons. And farther
still, there's a curving strip of green where trees—tiny from this
distance—trail leafy fingers in a river. People are swimming. Well,
not people; shades, I suppose. But even from this distance they
look distinctly human, not wraithlike at all.
The scrub grass calls to me. We never had
brown grass in the vale. I need to see how it feels under my feet.
And those squat, scraggly bushes—I want to rub their leaves, lift
my fingers, and breathe in their scent.
But where's Hades? Last night it felt like
he'd never leave my side again. And now . . .
Well, if he can go off alone, I can, too. I
straighten my shoulders, firming up my courage. I'm going to
explore my new home. All I need is my clothes.
I look across the polished floor, but it's
bare. A row of wooden chests lines the wall across from the
windows. Maybe Hades tossed my chiton in there.
I throw open the first trunk. Mountains of
jewels glare out at me: diamonds, lapis, rubies, amber, little
white pearls and black pearls the size of olives, and a huge golden
crown slashed with rubies. A necklace dangles emeralds as fat as
green plums. I run my fingers through the glittering
treasure.
The second trunk is a tangle of shoes, with
spun-silver laces, and diamonds encrusted like barnacles, and
threeheaded dogs worked in golden filigree. I slip the last pair on
under my sheet. They fit perfectly, as if they were made for me.
But I catch myself. If I spend all morning getting lost in this
stuff, I'll never feel the grass under my feet. I toss the shoes
back and drop the lid.
Finally, in the third trunk, I find
chitons—dozens and dozens of them. A tumble of color grows at my
feet as I pull them out, searching for mine: saffron, persimmon,
gold, a deeper purple than my mother's finest. And the decorations,
the patterns! Silver seashells scattered on ocean blue, blackwinged
horses flying over grass-green linen. Palace gowns, far too grand
for a barefoot stroll.
One yellow dress looks plainer than the
rest. I slip it on. Once I belt the waist, the hem skims the tops
of my feet, just the way I like it.
Then I see the brooches are marked with the
letter P. So is the girdle.
I grab some necklaces from the jewelry trunk
and dump them on the bed. There it is on the clasps: P. And woven
into the hem of the grass-green chiton. And the blazing ruby
crown—yes, here it is.
Of course. They're mine.
"Queen Persephone," I say out loud, and my
voice echoes in the vast room.
The crown is too heavy in my hands; I fling
it on the growing pile with a shiver.
Wait a minute. What am I nervous about? Any
of my friends would love to have these clothes. And when it comes
time to wear them, Hades will help me learn my way around. What was
it he said? "Ruling is easy. I'll teach you."
I take a deep breath. Right now I'm going to
discover my new home and its grasses, its leaves, its trees. I'll
find my way down to that river and go for a swim. Then I'll come
back, find Hades, and ask how he could leave me to wake up
alone.
The halls twist and tangle like octopus arms, and there must
be thousands of rooms: reception rooms with gilded couches, and
storage rooms stacked with trunks and amphorae of wine or oil, and
warrens of workrooms. I pass the same red marble bathtub four
times.
Then I glance down a hall. Finally! There's
Hades, standing with his hand on the three-headed dog's back. I run
up, but he stands still and unmoving— Damn. It's only a statue,
frozen forever in painted marble.
But the statue is next to a stair, and at
the bottom of the stair is a door, and the door leads me out into
bright morning sunlight.
And there are people everywhere.
Shades, I remind myself, shades. But they
look as solid as I do, and their voices ring in the air, and I can
hear their feet pattering across the stone forecourt. You couldn't
tell they were different from me just by looking.
Then I see two of them heading right toward
me: a gray-haired man and an elegant younger woman, their eyes
respectfully lowered, their steps slow and thoughtful. They know
who—what—I am!
My breath comes in short, shallow bursts.
The shades are already worshiping me! I don't know how to do this!
I don't know how to be a queen yet; nobody's told me anything! And
I didn't even dress up like I probably should have, not a single
piece of jewelry. I bet I was supposed to wear a crown. Soon
they'll be close enough to kneel before me on the hard stones. What
do I do? My head is scrambling. I try to picture my mother.
She'd never bow—maybe tilt her head in acknowledgement? That's it.
I'll tilt my head. And my voice will fail me if I try to speak, I
know it will—I'll have to use my hands to bid them rise. Oh,
why didn't I wait for Hades to come?
I straighten the folds of my chiton, pull my
shoulders down, and prepare to incline my head.
The man nods at me. "Good day," he says, and
the woman smiles as they pass right by. Right by, on their way to a
bench a few steps behind me. They sit and start talking to each
other.
I deflate like the throat of a bullfrog all
done croaking.
All that panic for nothing! I look down at
my bare feet, my plain chiton, my ringless hands. They must think
I'm one of them. Being a queen seems to be all in the
clothes.
I walk near a group of young women with
their arms around each other's waists. Carefully covering the P on
my brooch, I smile and say hello. They grin back and one beckons. I
wave my hand but keep walking.
It's true, then. No one knows who I
am!
Relief floods through me. I don't have to be
a queen right away. If I dress like this, I can learn bit by bit,
and in between I can be as normal as any mortal.