The Journey Back
Hermes grips the reins, his eyes
glued to the horizon. Below us, the ocean rolls, endless,
inexorable. Waves and wind and the mew of a gull are the only
sounds. The gull arcs up below the chariot and tilts sideways to
peer at me with an inquiring eye. Her curiosity satisfied, she
zooms back down. Her wings shift the air.
A thin white ribbon of land begins to unfurl
at the ocean's edge. My breath catches, fear and hope mingling
together. I've looked down on that land from a chariot exactly once
before— down on green hills speckled with sheep, and lakes shining
like jewels in the sun, and towns of white houses clustered
together like chattering girls. And this time? What will I
see?
The white ribbon broadens into a swathe of
sand rimming a cove. It's scattered with bright dots like
brilliantly colored beetles. But as we come closer, the beetles
grow and grow, until suddenly they become broken fishing boats. A
tiny figure tugs a dinghy like an ant pulling an oversized leaf.
Around him, painted boards lie splintered on the sand.
Beyond the beach, everything is brown and
gray under the leaden sky. At first I think this is a rocky area,
but then I see twigs strewn across the ground—no, not twigs, tree
trunks. Thin lines twist through mud, so many letters etched in
clay; they turn into battered stone walls. That's where fields and
houses used to stand. There's no green anywhere, not a leaf, or a
bud, or a shoot.
Even when the shades in the throne room
spoke of crops withering away, of rain stripping the land, even
when I saw how many newcomers crowded the floor, I never thought it
would be like this: the earth's insides churned up and strewn
around like bodies after a grisly battle.
A battle fought in my name.
My hands open and close—I need my spade so I
can work that soil! I need plows and hoes and rakes! I need to be a
hundred bodies, a thousand, with enough hands to reach into that
earth and urge it back toward life.
We fly over a hut that somehow survived
intact. A small figure appears at the door, tossing out a bucket of
mud. Another flap of the horses' wings and I see someone tugging on
a rope, trying to clear away a bloated animal carcass. I feel my
stomach rising in my throat.
She was trying to rescue me, I tell
myself. She did this in the name of love.
But how can I make the leap from that word,
love, to the carnage spread out below me? My mother cared
about rescuing one life: mine. To save me she was willing to starve
and suffocate and bury mankind.
How did anyone survive?
The thought fills me with a sense of
urgency. Melita was right! A young child alone, what hope would she
have down there? How much time do I have to reach her? Am I already
too late?
I stare at the earth below, searching for
the rock like a rooster's comb, the one Melita said towers over her
house. Maybe I can land and find Philomena before we even reach
Mount Olympus.
"Go faster," I say.
Hermes shrugs. He must think we're going
fast enough. And he's not that good with the horses, anyway, not
like Hades.
I've seen them do better. I grab the reins
out of Hermes' hands and bring them down with a slap on the horses'
backs, urging them on. The air starts whipping by; the ground
blurs.
"What do you think you're doing?" shouts
Hermes, snatching back the reins. The chariot jolts sideways,
throwing me against the railing.
"Don't you see?" I shout back. "There's no
time! Look down there!"
"You forget," he says in a calmer voice.
"I've been here every day. That"—he nods down at a man slogging
through the mud—"is an improvement."
If Hermes and Hades are right, if I never
return to my husband's side, maybe it's what I deserve. Me, the
girl who couldn't bother to leave her mother a note: "Ran away with
the man I love. All is well. Don't worry."
But wait. Is it all my fault? What
about Hades? How could he revel in this? And my mother . .
.
Guilt, anger, and hope are shoving around
inside me like a herd of hungry goats, each demanding a
turn.
"Anyway, we're almost there," says
Hermes.
The land is rising higher and higher to meet
us. Craggy rock faces jut into the clouds, and on one of the
uppermost peaks, a gold-pillared temple flashes through sunless
skies. Mount Olympus, home of the gods.