Melita's Story
Melita is straightforward and
practical with plants, like a brisk mother duck keeping her
ducklings in line. There's no nonsense in the way she trims a
branch or plops a new plant in its freshly dug hole. It's so
different from the way my mother caresses every leaf as if they
were getting drunk together.
Now Melita is standing, hands on hips, in
front of the bush that burst from the juicy, red seed.
"What do you want to plant near this?" she
asks.
A hummingbird zips in front of her, hovers
near a scarlet trumpet-blast of a flower, then darts its beak into
the flaming center, searching for the sweetness hiding
inside.
You've never seen anything grow as fast as
this bush. It's already chest-high, with spiky little leaves
jutting off everywhere. Green suckers crowd greedily from the base,
as if it's too eager to settle for one trunk. Everything about it
is uneven and sprouty, but I can't bring myself to trim it back. I
love its exuberance—flowers already! It needs to keep sprouting and
stretching until it figures out where it's going and why.
"Let's put a carpet of something low around
it," I suggest. "Maybe mint. At this rate the bush will be taller
than us in a month. Then we can move in some hyacinths or
lavender."
"Lavender, so we can rub it on our hands and
dresses! I used to do that for my daughter." She stops, looking
inward with a sigh, then shakes her head. "At least my mother's
there to do it for her now. She's taking good care of Philomena. I
thank the gods for that."
She starts pulling up weeds from around the
bush.
"Too bad we don't have goats," she
says.
"What for?"
"To eat the weeds, of course. We had a herd
back home. We named them after the gods. I hope you don't think
that's rude. Zeus is the randy one. Athena's so smart, she always
finds the path to the first flowers, the tenderest leaves. And we
named Aphrodite because of her long, silky hair and her huge eyes.
She has a son. He scrambles on the rocks like a bouncing spring,
all four feet leaping at the same time. Once he even climbed on top
of the big crag that rises behind our house. It's shaped like a
rooster's comb. There he stood on the tallest of the five points,
looking proud as could be. He's named Eros, of course."
"Eros the love goat!" I laugh. "That seems
just right somehow."
She shrugs. "You know, their names aren't a
joke. When their milk gushes into my bowl, all sweet and warm, it
really is a gift from the gods. We make it into cheese, two kinds—
one softer and one harder. The hard one ages longer, so it sells
for more."
She looks up apologetically. "I guess my
head's stuck back home today. Sorry."
"Melita, I love hearing about your life on
Earth."
And that's the absolute truth. I'm greedy to
know what it's like for mortals up there—the people my mother said
need us like little children. Well, Melita certainly wasn't some
helpless child. I want to learn everything I can.
"Tell me more about the cheese."
"The cheese?"
"Sure."
"My husband built a storeroom where we aged
the rounds, lined up on shelves. All those perfect circles. Pick
one up and sniff, and you can still make out the smell of sweet
grass by the riverbank and the herbs that cling higher on the
crags. That's where the goats go foraging. Athena always finds the
sweet herbs first."
"Didn't you ever wish for an easier
life?"
She shakes her head emphatically. "I
wouldn't have traded it for anything in the world. My mother always
said she's sorry I couldn't have been a fine lady in town. She
hoped I'd marry someone richer. Attract a rich man, me? I'm no
beauty. And I'm glad I didn't live that way, trapped in a house,
never getting outside except for a festival day now and then. The
only fresh air a rich woman gets is in her own courtyard. No, I
liked working hard and being outside near the goats and the garden,
like my mother always did. She taught me everything I needed to
know."
Her voice slows down. "Sometimes I miss her
so much, I think it's going to hollow me out inside."
I worry she's going to get moody and stop
talking, so I prompt her. "Tell me about your husband."
"He's a good man. He cared for me. He let me
keep Philomena, even though she was small and he hoped for a son.
'She can help with the goats soon enough,' he said. 'You don't have
to be big for that.'"
"Let you keep her?"
"You always have to wonder, don't you? I
mean, since fathers get to decide their babies' fates. My friend's
husband made her leave her newborn on the hillside. He said they
had too many mouths to feed already. And what good was another
girl, who'd only go to her husband's family instead of staying to
care for the farm? But my husband isn't like that. He's kind and
hardworking. He built the cheese room as soon as he saw we needed
the space. And he agreed right away when I begged him to let my
mother move in with us. He said, 'We can use another pair of hands
around here.'"
She checks that she hasn't missed a single
weed, then starts separating some creeping mint to move
over.
"And that was the truth, because the three
of us worked from the second the old rooster crowed until we banked
the embers in the hearth at night. When I had Philomena, my mother
did her work and mine both. She never complained. She never once
said, 'Hurry up and get to work.' No, she said, 'You stay there
with your nursling, dear. You get her good and fat.' And then she'd
go off washing, or cooking, or gathering firewood."
I've stopped working. I'm just sitting there
listening. I can practically see Melita's mother bustling around,
tending the fire, pausing only to gaze with warm eyes at her
daughter and the newborn child.
"Does Philomena look like you?"
"She's much prettier. Her head is covered
with dark ringlets, and her eyes are a rich green, like olives
hanging on a tree in the sun. She was born with a mark on her
shoulder that looks like a flower with four petals, so we call her
our little blossom. You never saw such pink cheeks! It's a good
life." Then she catches herself and adds, so softly I can barely
hear her, "I mean, it was."
She pauses, nestling clumps of roots into
their new spot. As she pats them down, she sighs, as if trying to
settle herself back down, too.
"It couldn't stay like that forever," she
goes on. "Everything changes, right? My husband heard they were
looking for oarsmen, and he signed up. 'A year will go fast,' he
said. 'You and your mother can care for the goats and the garden
and the baby between you, and I'll come home with gold jingling in
my pocket and we'll have a bigger farm.'
"What could I say to that? So off he went,
taking those strong arms to work the oars day in and day out. I
said to my mother, 'Won't he have nice shoulders when he comes
back?' And she said, 'You're the lucky girl.'
"And it did go well, at first. Philomena
grew plump, and in no time at all she was toddling after the goats.
We piled cabbages in the storeroom and enough garlic and onions to
see us through a winter. And my mother and I took our cheeses into
market every market day. We came home with coins to put in a little
red pot in the kitchen, to add to the bag of gold my husband would
bring. And then . . ."
"Don't stop, Melita. And then
what?"
"One day I was in the garden with Philomena,
and I felt so dizzy I had to sit down. It came over me like a wave
knocking me off my feet. My mother put her rough hand on my
forehead. 'You're burning up, girl,' she said. 'In you
go.'
"She took Philomena on her hip and put her
other arm around my waist to prop me up, and we tottered like that
into the house and over to my bed, my mother shooing the chickens
out of the way.
"I could hardly sit up, it came on so fast.
I was burning and coughing and the room was spinning. Sometimes I
woke and the room was dark. Sometimes the sun was shining so hard
it hurt my eyes, and my mother covered them with a damp strip of
cloth. My bed was soaked through with sweat. When I woke my mother
cooed, 'Never you worry, dear. Everything's fine. You just
rest.'
"'But my baby!'
"'She's old enough for goat's milk. She
won't go hungry. You sleep.'
"'But the garden! Milking!'
"'Everything's fine. You rest.'"
Melita lifts a corner of her chiton to wipe
her eyes.
"And then one day I didn't wake up. No,
that's not right. One day I felt clearheaded again. A man with
wings was there saying, 'Let's go.'
"I pleaded with him not to take me. I told
him my baby needed me to keep her safe, that she couldn't live
without me.
"But he just said, 'Look,' and pointed.
There was my mother, snoring away on her cot, with Philomena
cuddled up in her arms as round and rosy as an apple. What could I
say? Philomena will be all right. She has my mother to love her and
feed her and teach her right from wrong, like she did for me.
They'll hold on until my husband comes home."
I'm so deep in her story, I can't see
anything but a simple bed; a strong, warm arm; and that
dark-haired, pink-cheeked child.
Melita wipes a last tear away, and shakes
her head firmly, as if to dislodge the sorrow. Then she says in a
brisk, determined voice, "Haven't I gone on!" And the garden floods
back to life around me.
"I know this sounds strange," I say,
thinking out loud, "but do you ever think it might be good that
you're here? You don't have to work so hard anymore. And you know
your baby's well cared for, so you don't have to worry."
She stares at me. "Have you lost your mind?
I'd be back with Philomena in a second. I miss hugging her all soft
and warm, smelling the sweet milkiness of her. And I miss my mother
so much! I ache for the way it felt when she put her arm around me
and I knew she'd make everything all right. I'd be building my farm
again with my own two hands if I could, and welcoming my handsome
husband home."
So much to love—and to lose.
Too moved to say anything, I reach up and
pluck one of the orange-red flowers from the bush. It's shapely,
like a woman draped in a bright, snug dress. I trace the curve of
her breasts and the wider curve of her hips, where the tight petals
split, revealing a ruffled swirl of underskirts, dancing. One of
the pesky hummingbirds comes exploring, so I swoosh him away, his
quiet buzz the only sound.
I try to concentrate on my weaving, but the shuttle is playing
tricks on me. Nothing's smooth today. I'm like a dog that keeps
losing a scent and ends up circling back, lost and
confused.
I can't stop thinking about Melita and her
mother. And every time I see them together in my mind, I get the
strangest feeling: prickly and sinking at the same time.
I didn't know anyone could welcome a
mother's help that way.
I stop for the tenth time to untangle my
thread, and suddenly I picture my mother's face. Just look at her!
She's the epitome of a powerful woman. I think back to when I was
little and I still used to beg her not to go off to the fields.
Time and time again she explained how crucial her work was to the
world, so she couldn't stay and talk. Maybe after this
festival, dear, or once harvest season is over.
Sometimes mortals are the lucky
ones.