The Sapling
Thanatos brings me a
just-awakening sapling of a lemon tree.
"Here," he says, "I think you dropped
this."
"Very funny."
He never lets me forget the time I tripped
on my way to the throne, when he helped me up and handed me my
crown. It's an old joke now.
He grins, pleased with himself, and the
stark planes of his face burst into light. He's a handsome fellow.
His muscled shoulders shine almost as brightly as his breastplate,
and the legs under his short tunic are strong, like those of a
warrior back from months on the march. That's not why the calves
behind those bronze greaves are so shapely, though. After all, he
flies everywhere. Wings like an eagle's fold gracefully behind
him.
"Do you like it?" he asks.
"I love it. It's lucky for me you get to
travel between the worlds. And that you're so
thoughtful."
Thanatos. His name means death. Mortals know
all about him, how he frees the soul birds to fly from their
earthly bodies and introduces them to Hermes, their guide to
Charon's boat. But do they know what a handsome man he is, or how
eager to be helpful?
Come to think of it, they probably wish he
were a little less helpful.
He gazes approvingly at my garden, now
densely carpeted with thyme and chamomile. The fountain burbles in
the center, spilling water onto mossy rocks, and reeds sprout from
a small pool.
"Isn't it time you took a rest, Persephone?
You're always working out here in the garden."
"This isn't work. This is my idea of
fun."
"All right. Just so you don't go collapsing
from exhaustion," he says. "Wouldn't want to have to pick you
up."
"Ha-ha."
He grins and turns, raising a hand in
farewell.
"And Thanatos—thank you."
"It's entirely my pleasure."
His easy stride swallows up the path to the
castle. He's probably on his way to give Hades another report about
conditions on Earth. Apparently it's a very dry season and harvests
are so scanty, people don't have enough to eat. There's more
sickness, even starvation. When I first came, I was in the throne
room once a week, dressed in an elaborate chiton with the jeweled
crown perched on my head. Now it's twice as often, and so many
shades are coming, they pack the room from wall to wall.
The weird thing is that Hades doesn't seem
tired by the extra work, or cross to be called away from his
horses. He actually seems invigorated by the hordes of new
arrivals. I try to follow his lead, but there's a part of me that
keeps getting stuck. Maybe it's because I know what it's like to
leave something behind forever. Every time I look out over the
throne room, I think, each one of these shades misses someone, and
is missed in return.
I hope the dry season ends soon.
I look at my rosemary bush; it's already
waist-high. When I first got here, it never occurred to me that the
underworld could be greener than Earth. But my garden is thriving.
Everything I plant seems to sprout and spread the instant I put it
in new soil.
I worried for a while that I was being
selfish, making this as a refuge for myself, some kind of greedy
pleasure. But then I realized the garden isn't just for me. It
helps everyone in the underworld. I've put a bench in a private
little spot near lavender bushes. Shades come wandering over and
sit, resting. I can see the pleasure on their faces and how
relaxation softens their shoulders. They find peace in my garden,
without having to lose themselves in the Lethe. It's good for
them.
And it's good for me, too. You see, people
only realize I'm a queen when I'm wearing my royal regalia, as if
they're honoring the trappings themselves: Hail to the golden
bracelets! Bow before the purple chiton! That's why
everyone is so stiff and formal in the throne room. But out here I
work quietly in my plainest clothes and people ignore me, talking
with each other and saying what's on their minds. I'm finding out a
lot about mortals this way.
Like yesterday. I was weeding on the far
side of the lavender bushes when an old man pulled a younger man
down beside him on the bench.
"Sit," he said, "and tell me what brought
you here before your time."
The younger man mumbled something, and the
old one shouted, "Speak up! I could have sworn you said something
about birds."
"You heard me right!" shouted the young man.
I could have been halfway to the palace and still heard him.
"Birds!"
He then related the strangest tale. He'd
saved a little grain, he said, and decided to sow it even though
the soil was bone dry. But no sooner did he toss out a handful of
seeds then crows swooped in and started pecking. Flocks of
songbirds fluttered down to join them. Dark clouds appeared on the
horizon, and he thought, Rain! But no, it was clouds of seabirds
swarming inland. Soon the soil was seething with birds, their claws
digging up the dirt, their beaks remorselessly plucking out every
last seed.
And birds kept coming. They landed on the
plow, and the shed, and then finally all over the young man
himself, digging their claws into his flesh. He tried to run; wings
blinded him and he tripped, striking his head on the
plow.
"That's the wildest story I ever heard!"
shouted the old man. "What a way to die! Sounds like you could use
a good game of dice to distract you!"
Grasping the young man's arm, he hoisted
himself, and they headed downhill toward the green grass, where a
lively game was in the works.
So you see? I wouldn't know any of this if
it weren't for my garden. Or if I told everyone who I am. The more
I hear people's voices, the better I understand them.
I have to wonder about that young man. He
must have done something outrageous to anger the gods or why would
they punish him in such a bizarre way? All right, not just the gods
in general. My mother—because those birds made sure he'd have no
harvest. And she always said mortals are like children, needing us
to show them right from wrong. I wonder what he did.
The whole thing is making me uncomfortable
somehow. I cross my arms, warding off the sensation. It's probably
just that I'm thinking about it from down here, and it's a new
perspective, so everything looks different. That's all. Like lying
on your back and staring at the sky, dizzy with the feeling of
falling into the clouds.
I shrug my hands back down and set about
planting the sapling. Earth is in other gods' hands. I live here
now.