Secrets Dark and
Deep
My bag felt too light on my shoulder.
I’d gotten used to Butch’s slight weight on top
of my stuff. He was a good dog, well trained, polite, and he
listened uncommonly well. In fact, he was almost too smart.
For that reason, it made no sense for him to run
off into the woods with the sky scowling thunderclouds. It looked
like it might pour buckets on us any minute. That didn’t stop us
from setting out, calling quietly.
Skeletal trees closed in around us as we passed
from the overgrown yard into the woods. A small animal like Butch
wouldn’t leave a trail. He could cut right through the underbrush
and go any way he wanted. I’d never noticed a propensity in him for
chasing squirrels, but he was a dog.
I felt half a step from coming unglued.
Find Butch. Get Chance. I repeated the four
words like a mantra as we passed deeper into the forest. Even in
late fall, it felt dank and oppressive, as if it had been years
since sunlight had last touched the ground. We had no choice but to
follow the rough trail, which came to a parting of ways, east and
west, at a big lightning-scarred tree. The limbs were twisted and
blackened, dropping away in dead chunks of wood. Ahead, the trees
formed a nearly impenetrable barrier, ancient live oaks growing in
tight knots, shrouded in Spanish moss in funereal fashion.
“Any idea which way?” Jesse asked.
I shook my head. I couldn’t read the forest, a
network of living things. My gift applied only to inanimate
objects. To make matters worse, if we went deep enough, the area
shifted to swampland, and then we were talking about an enormous
ecosystem full of creatures, some of which could devour Butch in
one bite. A sick feeling coiled in the pit of my stomach.
“Can you feel him?”
Saldana gazed at me with an expression that said
he thought I’d lost my mind; then he shrugged. “I can try.”
His bitter chocolate eyes went odd and distant,
much as I imagined I looked when I handled something. I tried to be
patient, but I didn’t know much about his gift. Should he be able
to tune right in? Did he visualize the person (or animal) and then
try to pluck an emotional state out of the ether?
At last he came out of it, looking dazed. “Never
tried that before. I’m not eager to repeat it.” Jesse rubbed his
head and pinned on a smile, but I saw it had caused him pain.
“You all right?” I reached out a hand,
tentative, and he took it, pressing my palm to his temple. That
roused definite warmth. I liked his simplicity. He didn’t
prevaricate or pretend not to hurt when he did. I wasn’t used to
things being that uncomplicated.
In response, I shifted and cupped his head in my
hands, massaging with my thumbs and fingertips. It seemed like the
least I could do, given he’d hurt himself trying to find my dog.
Jesse leaned down into my touch, nuzzling his head into my hands.
We spent a few moments like that before he groaned and rolled his
shoulders, as if I’d given him a full body massage.
“Better,” he said, smiling. “Nothing a few Advil
won’t cure.”
But he didn’t step back. Instead, he leaned his
brow against mine, as if I held his head in anticipation of a kiss.
Awareness kindled. I remembered how sweet his mouth tasted and how
he knew exactly where to touch me. Such knowledge came from his
empathy, no doubt, but that made it no less delicious.
“You came all that way,” I whispered. “Are you
going to get in trouble?”
He shrugged, his hands coming up to frame my
waist. “Maybe, but it doesn’t matter. I knew you were hurt and
scared.”
“And you had to come riding in like the white
knight?”
“It’s not about my being a hero, Corine. It’s
about keeping you safe.”
That struck a deep chord; I’d been on my own so
long. “You think you can do the job? I can be a handful.”
His voice deepened, roughening with desire. If
only I could be sure he wanted me—and not
because of my feelings. “I’d like to try.”
“I . . .” This is not the
time. Focus. “Did you find him?”
Jesse stepped back, accepting the deferral. “I
think . . . he’s to the east. And he’s excited about something; not
frightened at all. I got the impression he’s waiting for us.”
Astonishment washed over me. “You’re
kidding.”
“I could be wrong.” He spread his hands. “But
unless a wolf smelled us coming and is looking forward to eating
us, I’m pretty sure that was Butch.”
I smiled reluctantly over that. “East it
is.”
Our steps turned in tandem, crunching over
fallen tree limbs that sounded like bones breaking underfoot.
Navigating the trail took most of my attention as I tried not to
get caught on stickers or slapped in the face with a wayward
branch. The wan sunlight didn’t penetrate in here, and I snuggled
deeper into my jacket.
My tennis shoes would be worthless after this,
stained green and black. I didn’t even want to look at the hem of
my jeans. I sensed he wanted to say something, but I didn’t hurry
him. I’d like to know how he’d sensed my feelings from so far
away—and whether it had hurt him like scanning for Butch, but I’d
let him go first.
After a few minutes of walking, he finally
spoke. “What’s next for you? After this?”
“Home,” I said, right off.
That word conjured an immediate image of
mountains, terraced houses, winding roads, and blue skies. I lived
in a white adobe building that housed a pawnshop on the lower level
and my bi-level flat on the upper two floors. I loved the glorious,
sun-drenched warmth of Mexico City, nestled in the northern end,
near Atizapan.
It had been far too long since I’d been there,
and I would be lucky if the man I’d asked to run the place hadn’t
absconded with all my profits by now. Sadly, Senor Alvarez probably
made up the most reliable aspect of my life. When I got back—if I
ever did—he’d give an honest accounting of business since I left,
and go on his way.
He showed a flicker of disappointment, quickly
masked. “So back to Mexico?”
I raised a brow. “Yeah. Where else?”
“I thought you might consider settling in
Laredo.”
“Why? Because you’re there?”
“Not only that,” he
muttered. “It’s just not a good idea for you to stay in Mexico. You
know how easily Montoya can get to you there?”
Montoya. The name
chilled me. We’d made an enemy when we rescued Chance’s mother from
men with a score to settle. If Diego Montoya ever figured out who I
was—and he would in time, as the man had limitless resources—my
life wouldn’t be worth as much as a fake Versace shirt in China. I
knew we were running on borrowed time. That’s why it was so
important for me to figure out what happened here in Kilmer; I
might not get another chance.
“He can get to me anywhere,” I pointed
out.
I tried not to think about all the reasons I had
to worry. Right now, I could focus on only one problem at a time.
Find Butch. Then go get Chance.
Saldana narrowed his eyes on me. Nice to know I
could cut through his patient persona. “Oh, right. Thanks for
pointing that out, Corine. I’ll just stop worrying.”
I made my tone flip as I pushed through a
natural archway of entwined branches. “Are we fighting already,
honey? You just got here.”
“You drive me out of my mind,” he bit out. “I
can tell you’re scared to death, and here we are, marching through
trees that terrify you for reasons I don’t even understand, looking
for a dog that—”
“What am I supposed to do, Jesse?” I stopped
walking then and whirled on him. “Melt, just because you know how I
feel? Is this where the little woman confides in you, making you
feel strong and manly because you can shoulder her problems? Well,
listen up: That approach doesn’t work for me. Not on any
level.”
He glared at me. Between his sugar-sweet drawl,
his tawny good looks, and his gentle charm, I was sure women rarely
responded to him this way. But I couldn’t let past precedent
inhibit a really good rant; I was working up a good head of steam,
and that anger was distracting me from my worry, so I encouraged
it.
“I just met you. You come running because you
felt something about me from miles away?
Okay, so that was nice, but—in general, I don’t like your knowing how I feel. I don’t like anyone
knowing anything about me that I didn’t choose to tell them. How
would you like it if I invaded your
privacy?”
Running on automatic, I grabbed his wrist,
ignoring the tiny shock, and permitted an impression from his
watch. It stung—there was always pain—but the intensity depended on
what memory was stored in the charge. His emotions surged into me,
raw and tumultuous. I’d suspected that he felt things more
intensely as a result of his gift and it charged his personal
effects right off, but now I had confirmation. I was too angry to
let a little pain stop me from making my point.
“How would you like it if I found out—without your telling me—that you think I’m cute when
I’m mad and you want to kiss me?” I’d meant this as an object
lesson about invading other people’s privacy, but he didn’t look
discomfited.
Instead, he smiled. “I don’t mind at all. I
guess you have something to think about while we walk, don’t you?
Unless you’re angling for that kiss now?”
Ten minutes ago, yeah, I’d wanted it. Now I was
too angry.
Wordless, I spun and stalked along the overgrown
trail, hoping we were, in fact, headed toward Butch and not a
hungry wolf. I found myself grinding my teeth in frustration, which
was in some ways better than blind terror, but not good at all for
my dental work. I forced myself to calm down and put one foot in
front of the other. All too soon, the outrage started draining
away, and I was left with gnawing worry once more. It was
impossible to stay mad at Jesse Saldana for acting according to his
nature.
We walked another fifteen minutes in silence. I
noticed belatedly we had come into a tomb, or at least, it felt
that way. The ambient forest noises had died away; no animals
skittering through the brush, chattering, or birds chirping. Even
the wind seemed loath to stir the trees.
I could smell the dankness of the swamp from
here. We were close to the border, where the ground could give way
suddenly, sucking you into hidden sinkholes. I studied my feet as
we walked, cursing Butch silently. When we found him, he was in
so much trouble. How did you punish a dog
for running off, anyway?
We passed another of those natural arches; this
one reminded me oddly of a gazebo, as if we were entering someone’s
yard. I stepped into a small clearing. I saw evidence of passage in
flattened grass and churned earth; nothing so subtle as paw
prints.
Something big had traveled this way, though I
didn’t know how long ago. Judging from the depressions in the dirt,
it was heavy, as the channels sank almost six inches. I didn’t want
to think about what could have made them, although to my morbid
imagination, it looked like massive talons had raked through the
soil.
I so didn’t need to be thinking along those
lines.
Plants had been blackened all along this unholy
trail, and a low-grade stench wafted from the dead greenery.
Apparently this thing killed whatever it touched, causing wilt,
wither, and rot. Where the hell was my
dog?
Bile rose in my throat, preventing me from
calling out. As if in answer, Butch pranced around a huge split
tree that was covered in gray-green lichens. The ground around the
dead tree sank inward, as if a meteor had crashed there. He barked
as if to say, What took you so long?
It was nice to know the dog had so much faith in
us, but why had he brought us out here? I took a step toward him.
Then I knew.
Inside the dead tree sat a madman’s jumble of
lost possessions: necklace, bracelet, ivory hairbrush, a china doll
with its face half charred. Every item looked as though it had been
plucked from a conflagration. I could almost smell the smoke.
“They’re trophies,” Jesse whispered.
“Yeah.” Even from a distance I could tell
that.
This place reeked of death, solitude, and decay.
I felt numb as I came forward. I thought I recognized one of the
items half buried toward the back, and I could no more resist
kneeling than I could have stopped breathing. Jesse stopped me from
reaching out with a hand on my arm.
“You don’t want to touch those, Corine.” He left
the subtext unspoken, but I suspected he was right. I’d never seen
so much evil heaped in one place.
“No. I’m sorry,” I said. “I wasn’t thinking.
Will you get it for me? Please?” I pointed to a delicate chain. If
I was right, when he pulled it free, it would have a flower
pentacle on it.
As if he sensed the import, Saldana didn’t
argue, though he had to be reluctant to poke through the pile.
Butch actually brought him a stick, which drew a second look from
both of us. Jesse leaned in and raked a few items aside, and then,
after a few abortive attempts, raised the necklace into the
light.
I forgot to breathe. Tears rose in my eyes, hot
and searing. The last time I’d seen this, it shone silver at my
mother’s throat. Fire blackened now, yes, and filthy from the years
it languished in this unholy place, but it was hers,
undoubtedly.
“Oh God,” I whispered. My lower lip trembled,
and I snatched the chain before Saldana could stop me.
The world dissolved in fire.