MR. BINKS’ DAY OFF
A STUDY OF A CLERK’S HOLIDAY
WHEN BINKS WAS COMING up town in a Broadway cable
car one afternoon he caught some superficial glimpses of Madison
squareax as he
ducked his head to peek through between a young woman’s bonnet and
a young man’s newspaper. The green of the little park vaguely
astonished Binks. He had grown accustomed to a white and brown
park; now, all at once, it was radiant green. The grass, the
leaves, had come swiftly, silently, as if a great green light from
the sky had shone suddenly upon the little desolate hued
place.
The vision cheered the mind of Binks. It cried to
him that nature was still supreme; he had begun to think the
banking business to be the pivot on which the universe turned.
Produced by this wealth of young green, faint, faraway voices
called to him. Certain subtle memories swept over him. The million
leaves looked into his soul and said something sweet and pure in an
unforgotten song, the melody of his past. Binks began to
dream.
When he arrived at the little Harlemay flat
he sat down to dinner with an air of profound dejection, which Mrs.
Binks promptly construed into an insult to her cooking, and to the
time and thought she had expended in preparing the meal. She
promptly resented it. “Well, what’s the matter now?” she demanded.
Apparently she had asked this question ten thousand times.
“Nothin’,” said Binks, shortly, filled with gloom.
He meant by this remark that his ailment was so subtle that her
feminine mind would not be enlightened by any explanation.
The head of the family was in an ugly mood. The
little Binkses suddenly paused in their uproar and became very wary
children. They knew that it would be dangerous to do anything
irrelevant to their father’s bad temper. They studied his face with
their large eyes, filled with childish seriousness and speculation.
Meanwhile they ate with the most extraordinary caution. They
handled their little forks with such care that there was barely a
sound. At each slight movement of their father they looked
apprehensively at him, expecting the explosion.
The meal continued amid a somber silence. At last,
however, Binks spoke, clearing his throat of the indefinite rage
that was in it and looking over at his wife. The little Binkses
seemed to inwardly dodge, but he merely said: “I wish I could get
away into the country for awhile!”
His wife bristled with that brave anger which
agitates a woman when she sees fit to assume that her husband is
weak spirited. “If I worked as hard as you do, if I slaved over
those old books the way you do, I’d have a vacation once in awhile
or I’d tear their old office down.” Upon her face was a Roman
determination. She was a personification of all manner of courages
and rebellions and powers.
Binks felt the falsity of her emotion in a vague
way, but at that time he only made a sullen gesture. Later,
however, he cried out in a voice of sudden violence: “Look at
Tommie’s dress! Why the dickens don’t you put a bib on that
child?”
His wife glared over Tommie’s head at her husband,
as she leaned around in her chair to tie on the demanded bib. The
two looked as hostile as warring redskins. In the wife’s eyes there
was an intense opposition and defiance, an assertion that she now
considered the man she had married to be beneath her in intellect,
industry, valor. There was in this glance a jeer at the failures of
his life. And Binks, filled with an inexpressible rebellion at what
was to him a lack of womanly perception and sympathy in her,
replied with a look that called his wife a drag, an uncomprehending
thing of vain ambitions, the weight of his existence.
The baby meanwhile began to weep because his
mother, in her exasperation, had yanked him and hurt his neck. Her
anger, groping for an outlet, had expressed itself in the nervous
strength of her fingers. “Keep still, Tommie,” she said to him. “I
didn’t hurt you. You neen’t cry the minute anybody touches you!” He
made a great struggle and repressed his loud sobs, but the tears
continued to fall down his cheeks and his under lip quivered from a
baby sense of injury, the anger of an impotent child who seems as
he weeps to be planning revenges.
“I don’t see why you don’t keep that child from
eternally crying,” said Binks, as a final remark. He then arose and
went away to smoke, leaving Mrs. Binks with the children and the
dishevelled table.
Later that night, when the children were in bed,
Binks said to his wife: “We ought to get away from the city for
awhile at least this spring. I can stand it in the summer, but in
the spring—” He made a motion with his hand that represented the
new things that are born in the heart when spring comes into the
eyes.
“It will cost something, Phil,” said Mrs.
Binks.
“That’s true,” said Binks. They both began to
reflect, contemplating the shackles of their poverty. “And besides,
I don’t believe I could get off,” said Binks after a time.
Nothing more was said of it that night. In fact, it
was two or three days afterward that Binks came home and said:
“Margaret, you get the children ready on Saturday noon and we’ll
all go out and spend Sunday with your Aunt Sarah!”
When he came home on Saturday his hat was far back
on the back of his head from the speed he was in. Mrs. Binks was
putting on her bonnet before the glass, turning about occasionally
to admonish the little Binkses, who, in their new clothes, were
wandering around, stiffly, and getting into all sorts of small
difficulties. They had been ready since 11 o’clock. Mrs. Binks had
been obliged to scold them continually, one after the other, and
sometimes three at once.
“Hurry up,” said Binks, immediately, “ain’t got
much time. Say, you ain’t going to let Jim wear that hat, are you?
Where’s his best one? Good heavens, look at Margaret’s dress! It’s
soiled already! Tommie, stop that, do you hear? Well, are you
ready?”
Indeed, it was not until the Binkses had left the
city far behind and were careering into New Jersey that they
recovered their balances. 1 Then
something of the fresh quality of the country stole over them and
cooled their nerves. Horse cars and ferryboats were maddening to
Binks when he was obliged to convoy a wife and three children. He
appreciated the vast expanses of green, through which ran golden
hued roads. The scene accented his leisure and his lack of
responsibility.
Near the track a little river jostled over the
stones. At times the cool thunder of its roar came faintly to the
ear. The Ramapo Hillsaz were
in the background, faintly purple, and surrounded with little peaks
that shone with the luster of the sun. Binks began to joke heavily
with the children. The little Binkses, for their part, asked the
most superhuman questions about details of the scenery. Mrs. Binks
leaned contentedly back in her seat and seemed to be at rest, which
was a most extraordinary thing.
When they got off the train at the little rural
station they created considerable interest. Two or three loungers
began to view them in a sort of concentrated excitement. They were
apparently fascinated by the Binkses and seemed to be indulging in
all manner of wild and intense speculation. The agent, as he walked
into his station, kept his head turned. Across the dusty street,
wide at this place, a group of men upon the porch of a battered
grocery store shaded their eyes with their hands. The Binkses felt
dimly like a circus and were a trifle bewildered by it. Binks gazed
up and down, this way and that; he tried to be unaware of the stare
of the citizens. Finally, he approached the loungers, who
straightened their forms suddenly and looked very expectant.
“Can you tell me where Miss Pattison lives?”
The loungers arose as one man. “It’s th’ third
house up that road there.”
“It’s a white house with green shutters!”
“There, that’s it—yeh can see it through th’
trees!” Binks discerned that his wife’s aunt was a well known
personage, and also that the coming of the Binkses was an event of
vast importance. When he marched off at the head of his flock, he
felt like a drum-major. His course was followed by the unwavering,
intent eyes of the loungers.
The street was lined with two rows of austere and
solemn trees. In one way it was like parading between the plumes on
an immense hearse. These trees, lowly sighing in a breath-like
wind, oppressed one with a sense of melancholy and dreariness. Back
from the road, behind flower beds, controlled by box-wood borders,
the houses were asleep in the drowsy air. Between them one could
get views of the fields lying in a splendor of gold and green. A
monotonous humming song of insects came from the regions of
sunshine, and from some hidden barnyard a hen suddenly burst forth
in a sustained cackle of alarm. The tranquillity of the scene
contained a meaning of peace and virtue that was incredibly
monotonous to the warriors from the metropolis. The sense of a city
is battle. The Binkses were vaguely irritated and astonished at the
placidity of this little town. This life spoke to them of no
absorbing nor even interesting thing. There was something
unbearable about it. “I should go crazy if I had to live here,”
said Mrs. Binks. A warrior in the flood-tide of his blood, going
from the hot business of war to a place of utter quiet, might have
felt that there was an insipidity in peace. And thus felt the
Binkses from New York. They had always named the clash of the
swords of commerce as sin, crime, but now they began to imagine
something admirable in it. It was high wisdom. They put aside their
favorite expressions: “The curse of gold,” “A mad passion to get
rich,” “The rush for the spoils.” In the light of their contempt
for this stillness, the conflicts of the city were exalted. They
were at any rate wondrously clever.
But what they did feel was the fragrance of the
air, the radiance of the sunshine, the glory of the fields and the
hills. With their ears still clogged by the tempest and fury of
city uproars, they heard the song of the universal religion, the
mighty and mystic hymn of nature, whose melody is in each
landscape. It appealed to their elemental selves. It was as if the
earth had called recreant and heedless children and the mother
world, of vast might and significance, brought them to sudden
meekness. It was the universal thing whose power no one escapes.
When a man hears it he usually remains silent. He understands then
the sacrilege of speech.
When they came to the third house, the white one
with the green blinds, they perceived a woman, in a plaid sun
bonnet, walking slowly down a path. Around her was a riot of
shrubbery and flowers. From the long and tangled grass of the lawn
grew a number of cherry trees. Their dark green foliage was thickly
sprinkled with bright red fruit. Some sparrows were scuffling among
the branches. The little Binkses began to whoop at the sight of the
woman in the plaid sun bonnet.
“Hay-oh, Aunt Sarah, hay-oh!” they shouted.
The woman shaded her eyes with her hand. “Well,
good gracious, if it ain’t Marg’ret Binks! An’ Phil, too! Well, I
am surprised!”
She came jovially to meet them. “Why, how are yeh
all? I’m awful glad t’ see yeh!”
The children, filled with great excitement, babbled
questions and ejaculations while she greeted the others.
“Say, Aunt Sarah, gimme some cherries!”
“Look at th’ man over there!”
“Look at th’ flowers!”
“Gimme some flowers, Aunt Sarah!”
And little Tommie, red faced from the value of his
information, bawled out: “Aunt Sah-wee, dey have horse tars where I
live!” Later he shouted: “We come on a twain of steam tars!”
Aunt Sarah fairly bristled with the most
enthusiastic hospitality. She beamed upon them like a sun. She made
desperate attempts to gain possession of everybody’s bundles that
she might carry them to the house. There was a sort of a little
fight over the baggage. The children clamored questions at her; she
tried heroically to answer them. Tommie, at times, deluged her with
news.
The curtains of the dining room were pulled down to
keep out the flies. This made a deep, cool gloom in which corners
of the old furniture caught wandering rays of light and shone with
a mild luster. Everything was arranged with an unspeakable neatness
that was the opposite of comfort. A branch of an apple tree moved
by the gentle wind, brushed softly against the closed blinds.
“Take off yer things,” said Aunt Sarah.
Binks and his wife remained talking to Aunt Sarah,
but the children speedily swarmed out over the farm, raiding in
countless directions. It was only a matter of seconds before Jimmie
discovered the brook behind the barn. Little Margaret roamed among
the flowers, bursting into little cries at sight of new blossoms,
new glories. Tommie gazed at the cherry trees for a few moments in
profound silence. Then he went and procured a pole. It was very
heavy, relatively. He could hardly stagger under it, but with
infinite toil he dragged it to the proper place and somehow managed
to push it erect. Then with a deep earnestness of demeanor he began
a little onslaught upon the trees. Very often his blow missed the
entire tree and the pole thumped on the ground. This necessitated
the most extraordinary labor. But then at other times he would get
two or three cherries at one wild swing of his weapon.
Binks and his wife spent the larger part of the
afternoon out under the apple trees at the side of the house. Binks
lay down on his back, with his head in the long lush grass. Mrs.
Binks moved lazily to and fro in a rocking chair that had been
brought from the house. Aunt Sarah, sometimes appearing, was
strenuous in an account of relatives, and the Binkses had only to
listen. They were glad of it, for this warm, sleepy air, pulsating
with the sounds of insects, had enchained them in a great
indolence.
It was to this place that Jimmie ran after he had
fallen into the brook and scrambled out again. Holding his arms out
carefully from his dripping person, he was roaring tremendously.
His new sailor suit was a sight. Little Margaret came often to
describe the wonders of her journeys, and Tommie, after a frightful
struggle with the cherry trees, toddled over and went to sleep in
the midst of a long explanation of his operations. The breeze
stirred the locks on his baby forehead. His breath came in long
sighs of content. Presently he turned his head to cuddle deeper
into the grass. One arm was thrown in childish abandon over his
head. Mrs. Binks stopped rocking to gaze at him. Presently she
bended and noiselessly brushed away a spear of grass that was
troubling the baby’s temple. When she straightened up she saw that
Binks, too, was absorbed in a contemplation of Tommie. They looked
at each other presently, exchanging a vague smile. Through the
silence came the voice of a plowing farmer berating his horses in a
distant field.
The peace of the hills and the fields came upon the
Binkses. They allowed Jimmie to sit up in bed and eat cake while
his clothes were drying. Uncle Daniel returned from a wagon journey
and recited them a ponderous tale of a pig that he had sold to a
man with a red beard. They had no difficulty in feeling much
interest in the story.
Binks began to expand with enormous appreciation.
He would not go into the house until they compelled him. And as
soon as the evening meal was finished he dragged his wife forth on
a trip to the top of the hill behind the house. There was a great
view from there, Uncle Daniel said.
The path, gray with little stones in the dusk,
extended above them like a pillar. The pines were beginning to
croon in a mournful key, inspired by the evening winds. Mrs. Binks
had great difficulty in climbing this upright road. Binks was
obliged to assist her, which he did with a considerable care and
tenderness. In it there was a sort of a reminiscence of their
courtship. It was a repetition of old days. Both enjoyed it because
of this fact, although they subtly gave each other to understand
that they disdained this emotion as an altogether un-American
thing, for she, as a woman, was proud, and he had great esteem for
himself as a man.
At the summit they seated themselves upon a fallen
tree, near the edge of a cliff The evening silence was upon the
earth below them. Far in the west the sun lay behind masses of corn
colored clouds, tumbled and heaved into crags, peaks and canyons.
On either hand stood the purple hills in motionless array. The
valley lay wreathed in somber shadows. Slowly there went on the
mystic process of the closing of the day. The corn colored clouds
faded to yellow and finally to a faint luminous green,
inexpressibly vague. The rim of the hills was then an edge of
crimson. The mountains became a profound blue. From the night,
approaching in the east, came a wind. The trees of the mountain
raised plaintive voices, bending toward the faded splendors of the
day.
This song of the trees arose in low, sighing melody
into the still air. It was filled with an infinite sorrow—a sorrow
for birth, slavery, death. It was a wail telling the griefs, the
pains of all ages. It was the symbol of agonies. It celebrated all
suffering. Each man finds in this sound the expression of his own
grief. It is the universal voice raised in lamentation.
As the trees huddled and bended as if to hide from
their eyes a certain sight the green tints became blue. A faint
suggestion of yellow replaced the crimson. The sun was dead.
The Binkses had been silent. These songs of the
trees awe. They had remained motionless during this ceremony, their
eyes fixed upon the mighty and indefinable changes which spoke to
them of the final thing—the inevitable end. Their eyes had an
impersonal expression. They were purified, chastened by this
sermon, this voice calling to them from the sky. The hills had
spoken and the trees had crooned their song. Binks finally
stretched forth his arm in a wondering gesture.
“I wonder why,” he said; “I wonder why the dickens
it—why it—why—”
Tangled in the tongue was the unformulated question
of the centuries, but Mrs. Binks had stolen forth her arm and
linked it with his. Her head leaned softly against his
shoulder.