Chapter 18
The first week of their return was soon gone. The
second began. It was the last of the regiment’s stay in Meryton,
and all the young ladies in the neighbourhood were drooping apace.
The dejection was almost universal. The elder Miss Bennets alone
were still able to eat, drink, and sleep, and pursue the usual
course of their employments. Very frequently were they reproached
for this insensibility by Kitty and Lydia, whose own misery was
extreme, and who could not comprehend such hard-heartedness in any
of the family.
“Good Heaven! What is to become of us? What are we
to do?” would they often exclaim in the bitterness of woe. “How can
you be smiling so, Lizzy?” Their affectionate mother shared all
their grief; she remembered what she had herself endured on a
similar occasion five-and-twenty years ago.
“I am sure,” said she, “I cried for two days
together when Colonel Millar’s regiment went away. I thought I
should have broke my heart.”
“I am sure I shall break mine,” said
Lydia.
“If one could but go to Brighton!” observed Mrs.
Bennet.
“Oh yes!—if one could but go to Brighton! But papa
is so disagreeable.”
“A little sea-bathing would set me up for
ever.”
“And my aunt Philips is sure it would do me
a great deal of good,” added Kitty.
Such were the kind of lamentations resounding
perpetually through Longbourn House. Elizabeth tried to be diverted
by them; but all sense of pleasure was lost in shame. She felt anew
the justice of Mr. Darcy’s objections; and never had she before
been so much disposed to pardon his interference in the views of
his friend.
But the gloom of Lydia’s prospect was shortly
cleared away; for she received an invitation from Mrs. Forster, the
wife of the colonel of the regiment, to accompany her to Brighton.
This invaluable friend was a very young woman, and very lately
married. A resemblance in good-humour and good spirits had
recommended her and Lydia to each other, and out of their
three months’ acquaintance they had been intimate
two.
The rapture of Lydia on this occasion, her
adoration of Mrs. Forster, the delight of Mrs. Bennet, and the
mortification of Kitty, are scarcely to be described. Wholly
inattentive to her sister’s feelings, Lydia flew about the house in
restless ecstasy, calling for every one’s congratulations, and
laughing and talking with more violence than ever; whilst the
luckless Kitty continued in the parlour repining at her fate in
terms as unreasonable as her accent was peevish.
“I cannot see why Mrs. Forster should not ask
me as well as Lydia,” said she, “though I am not her
particular friend. I have just as much right to be asked as she
has, and more too, for I am two years older.”
In vain did Elizabeth attempt to make her
reasonable, and Jane to make her resigned. As for Elizabeth
herself, this invitation was so far from exciting in her the same
feelings as in her mother and Lydia, that she considered it as the
death-warrant of all possibility of common sense for the latter;
and detestable as such a step must make her, were it known, she
could not help secretly advising her father not to let her go. She
represented to him all the improprieties of Lydia’s general
behaviour, the little advantage she could derive from the
friendship of such a woman as Mrs. Forster, and the probability of
her being yet more imprudent with such a companion at Brighton,
where the temptations must be greater than at home. He heard her
attentively, and then said,—
“Lydia will never be easy till she has exposed
herself in some public place or other, and we can never expect her
to do it with so little expense or inconvenience to her family as
under the present circumstances.”
“If you were aware,” said Elizabeth, “of the very
great disadvantage to us all, which must arise from the public
notice of Lydia’s unguarded and imprudent manner, nay, which has
already arisen from it, I am sure you would judge differently in
the affair.”
“Already arisen!” repeated Mr. Bennet. “What! has
she frightened away some of your lovers? Poor little Lizzy! But do
not be cast down. Such squeamish youths as cannot bear to be
connected with a little absurdity are not worth a regret. Come, let
me see the list of the pitiful fellows who have been kept aloof by
Lydia’s folly.”
“Indeed you are mistaken. I have no such injuries
to resent. It is not of peculiar, but of general evils, which I am
now complaining. Our importance, our respectability in the world
must be affected by the wild volatility, the assurance and disdain
of all restraint which mark Lydia’s character. Excuse me,—for I
must speak plainly. If you, my dear father, will not take the
trouble of checking her exuberant spirits, and of teaching her that
her present pursuits are not to be the business of her life, she
will soon be beyond the reach of amendment. Her character will be
fixed; and she will, at sixteen, be the most determined flirt that
ever made herself and her family ridiculous. A flirt, too, in the
worst and meanest degree of flirtation; without any attraction
beyond youth and a tolerable person; and, from the ignorance and
emptiness of her mind, wholly unable to ward off any portion of
that universal contempt which her rage for admiration will excite.
In this danger Kitty is also comprehended. She will follow wherever
Lydia leads. Vain, ignorant, idle, and absolutely uncontrolled! Oh,
my dear father, can you suppose it possible that they will not be
censured and despised wherever they are known, and that their
sisters will not be often involved in the disgrace?”
Mr. Bennet saw that her whole heart was in the
subject; and affectionately taking her hand, said, in reply,—
“Do not make yourself uneasy, my love. Wherever you
and Jane are known, you must be respected and valued; and you will
not appear to less advantage for having a couple of—or I may say,
three—very silly sisters. We shall have no peace at Longbourn if
Lydia does not go to Brighton. Let her go, then. Colonel Forster is
a sensible man, and will keep her out of any real mischief; and she
is luckily too poor to be an object of prey to any body. At
Brighton she will be of less importance even as a common flirt than
she has been here. The officers will find women better worth their
notice. Let us hope, therefore, that her being there may teach her
her own insignificance. At any rate, she cannot grow many degrees
worse, without authorising us to lock her up for the rest of her
life.”
With this answer Elizabeth was forced to be
content; but her own opinion continued the same, and she left him
disappointed and sorry. It was not in her nature, however, to
increase her vexations by dwelling on them. She was confident of
having performed her duty; and to fret over unavoidable evils, or
augment them by anxiety, was no part of her disposition.
Had Lydia and her mother known the substance of her
conference with her father, their indignation would hardly have
found expression in their united volubility. In Lydia’s
imagination, a visit to Brighton comprised every possibility of
earthly happiness. She saw, with the creative eye of fancy, the
streets of that gay bathing-place covered with officers. She saw
herself the object of attention to tens and to scores of them at
present unknown. She saw all the glories of the camp: its tents
stretched forth in beauteous uniformity of lines, crowded with the
young and the gay, and dazzling with scarlet; and to complete the
view, she saw herself seated beneath a tent, tenderly flirting with
at least six officers at once.
Had she known that her sister sought to tear her
from such prospects and such realities as these, what would have
been her sensations? They could have been understood only by her
mother, who might have felt nearly the same. Lydia’s going to
Brighton was all that consoled her for the melancholy conviction of
her husband’s never intending to go there himself.
But they were entirely ignorant of what had passed;
and their raptures continued, with little intermission, to the very
day of Lydia’s leaving home.
Elizabeth was now to see Mr. Wickham for the last
time. Having been frequently in company with him since her return,
agitation was pretty well over; the agitations of former partiality
entirely so. She had even learnt to detect, in the very gentleness
which had first delighted her, an affectation and a sameness to
disgust and weary. In his present behaviour to herself, moreover,
she had a fresh source of displeasure; for the inclination he soon
testified of renewing those attentions which had marked the early
part of their acquaintance could only serve, after what had since
passed, to provoke her. She lost all concern for him in finding
herself thus selected as the object of such idle and frivolous
gallantry; and while she steadily repressed it, could not but feel
the reproof contained in his believing, that however long, and for
whatever cause, his attentions had been withdrawn, her vanity would
be gratified, and her preference secured at any time, by their
renewal.
On the very last day of the regiment’s remaining in
Meryton, he dined, with others of the officers, at Longbourn; and
so little was Elizabeth disposed to part from him in good-humour,
that on his making some enquiry as to the manner in which her time
had passed at Hunsford, she mentioned Colonel Fitzwilliam’s and Mr.
Darcy’s having both spent three weeks at Rosings, and asked him if
he were acquainted with the former.
He looked surprised, displeased, alarmed: but with
a moment’s recollection, and a returning smile, replied, that he
had formerly seen him often; and, after observing that he was a
very gentleman-like man, asked her how she had liked him. Her
answer was warmly in his favour. With an air of indifference, he
soon afterwards added, “How long did you say that he was at
Rosings?”
“Nearly three weeks.”
“And you saw him frequently?”
“Yes, almost every day.”
“His manners are very different from his
cousin’s.”
“Yes, very different; but I think Mr. Darcy
improves on acquaintance.”
“Indeed!” cried Wickham, with a look which did not
escape her. “And pray may I ask—” but checking himself, he added,
in a gayer tone, “Is it in address that he improves? Has he deigned
to add aught of civility to his ordinary style? for I dare not
hope,” he continued, in a lower and more serious tone, “that he is
improved in essentials.”
“Oh, no!” said Elizabeth. “In essentials, I
believe, he is very much what he ever was.”
While she spoke, Wickham looked as if scarcely
knowing whether to rejoice over her words or to distrust their
meaning. There was a something in her countenance which made him
listen with an apprehensive and anxious attention, while she
added,—
“When I said that he improved on acquaintance, I
did not mean that either his mind or manners were in a state of
improvement; but that from knowing him better, his disposition was
better understood.”
Wickham’s alarm now appeared in a heightened
complexion and agitated look; for a few minutes he was silent;
till, shaking off his embarrassment, he turned to her again, and
said in the gentlest of accents,—
“You, who so well know my feelings towards Mr.
Darcy, will readily comprehend how sincerely I must rejoice that he
is wise enough to assume even the appearance of what is
right. His pride, in that direction, may be of service, if not to
himself, to many others, for it must deter him from such foul
misconduct as I have suffered by. I only fear that the sort of
cautiousness to which you, I imagine, have been alluding, is merely
adopted on his visits to his aunt, of whose good opinion and
judgment he stands much in awe. His fear of her has always
operated, I know, when they were together; and a good deal is to be
imputed to his wish of forwarding the match with Miss De Bourgh,
which I am certain he has very much at heart.”
Elizabeth could not repress a smile at this, but
she answered only by a slight inclination of the head. She saw that
he wanted to engage her on the old subject of his grievances, and
she was in no humour to indulge him. The rest of the evening passed
with the appearance, on his side, of usual cheerfulness, but
with no further attempt to distinguish Elizabeth; and they parted
at last with mutual civility, and possibly a mutual desire of never
meeting again.
When the party broke up, Lydia returned with Mrs.
Forster to Meryton, from whence they were to set out early the next
morning. The separation between her and her family was rather noisy
than pathetic. Kitty was the only one who shed tears; but she did
weep from vexation and envy. Mrs. Bennet was diffuse in her good
wishes for the felicity of her daughter, and impressive in her
injunctions that she would not miss the opportunity of enjoying
herself as much as possible,—advice which there was every reason to
believe would be attended to; and in the clamorous happiness Lydia
herself in bidding farewell, the more gentle adieus of her sisters
were uttered without being heard.