Chapter 17
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Elizabeth’s impatience to acquaint Jane with what
had happened could no longer be overcome; and at length resolving
to suppress every particular in which her sister was concerned, and
preparing her to be surprised, she related to her the next morning
the chief of the scene between Mr. Darcy and herself.
Miss Bennet’s astonishment was soon lessened by the
strong sisterly partiality which made any admiration of Elizabeth
appear perfectly natural; and all surprise was shortly lost in
other feelings. She was sorry that Mr. Darcy should have delivered
his sentiments in a manner so little suited to recommend them; but
still more was she grieved for the unhappiness which her sister’s
refusal must have given him.
“His being so sure of succeeding was wrong,” said
she, “and certainly ought not to have appeared; but consider how
much it must increase his disappointment.”
“Indeed,” replied Elizabeth, “I am heartily sorry
for him; but he has other feelings which will probably soon drive
away his regard for me. You do not blame me, however, for refusing
him?”
“Blame you! Oh, no.”
“But you blame me for having spoken so warmly of
Wickham?”
“No—I do not know that you were wrong in saying
what you did.”
“But you will know it, when I have told you
what happened the very next day.”
She then spoke of the letter, repeating the whole
of its contents as far as they concerned George Wickham. What a
stroke was this for poor Jane! who would willingly have gone
through the world without believing that so much wickedness existed
in the whole race of mankind as was here collected in one
individual. Nor was Darcy’s vindication, though grateful to her
feelings, capable of consoling her for such discovery. Most
earnestly did she labour to prove the probability of error, and
seek to clear one, without involving the other.
“This will not do,” said Elizabeth; “you never will
be able to make both of them good for any thing. Take your choice,
but you must be satisfied with only one. There is but such a
quantity of merit between them; just enough to make one good sort
of man; and of late it has been shifting about pretty much. For my
part, I am inclined to believe it all Mr. Darcy’s, but you shall do
as you choose.”
It was some time, however, before a smile could be
extorted from Jane.
“I do not know when I have been more shocked,” said
she. “Wickham so very bad! It is almost past belief. And poor Mr.
Darcy! dear Lizzy, only consider what he must have suffered. Such a
disappointment! and with the knowledge of your ill opinion too! and
having to relate such a thing of his sister! It is really too
distressing. I am sure you must feel it so.”
“Oh no, my regret and compassion are all done away
by seeing you so full of both. I know you will do him such ample
justice, that I am growing every moment more unconcerned and
indifferent. Your profusion makes me saving; and if you lament over
him much longer, my heart will be as light as a feather.”
“Poor Wickham! there is such an expression of
goodness in his countenance! such an openness and gentleness in his
manner.”
“There certainly was some great mismanagement in
the education of those two young men. One has got all the goodness,
and the other all the appearance of it.”
“I never thought Mr. Darcy so deficient in the
appearance of it as you used to do.”
“And yet I meant to be uncommonly clever in taking
so decided a dislike to him, without any reason. It is such a spur
to one’s genius, such an opening for wit, to have a dislike of that
kind. One may be continually abusive without saying any thing just;
but one cannot be always laughing at a man without now and then
stumbling on something witty.”
“Lizzy, when you first read that letter, I am sure
you could not treat the matter as you do now.”
“Indeed, I could not. I was uncomfortable enough. I
was very uncomfortable—I may say unhappy. And with no one to speak
to of what I felt, no Jane to comfort me, and say that I had not
been so very weak, and vain, and nonsensical as I knew I had! Oh
how I wanted you!”
“How unfortunate that you should have used such
very strong expressions in speaking of Wickham to Mr. Darcy, for
now they do appear wholly undeserved.”
“Certainly. But the misfortune of speaking with
bitterness is a most natural consequence of the prejudices I had
been encouraging. There is one point on which I want your advice. I
want to be told whether I ought, or ought not, to make our
acquaintance in general understand Wickham’s character.”
Miss Bennet paused a little, and then replied,
“Surely there can be no occasion for exposing him so dreadfully.
What is your own opinion?”
“That it ought not to be attempted. Mr. Darcy has
not authorised me to make his communication public. On the
contrary, every particular relative to his sister was meant to be
kept as much as possible to myself; and if I endeavour to undeceive
people as to the rest of his conduct, who will believe me? The
general prejudice against Mr. Darcy is so violent, that it would be
the death of half the good people in Meryton, to attempt to place
him in an amiable light. I am not equal to it. Wickham will soon be
gone; and therefore it will not signify to any body here what he
really is. Some time hence it will be all found out, and then we
may laugh at their stupidity in not knowing it before. At present I
will say nothing about it.”
“You are quite right. To have his errors made
public might ruin him for ever. He is now, perhaps, sorry for what
he has done, and anxious to re-establish a character. We must not
make him desperate.”
The tumult of Elizabeth’s mind was allayed by this
conversation. She had got rid of two of the secrets which had
weighed on her for a fortnight, and was certain of a willing
listener in Jane, whenever she might wish to talk again of either.
But there was still something lurking behind, of which prudence
forbad the disclosure. She dared not relate the other half of Mr.
Darcy’s letter, nor explain to her sister how sincerely she had
been valued by his friend. Here was knowledge in which no one could
partake; and she was sensible that nothing less than a perfect
understanding between the parties could justify her in throwing off
this last encumbrance of mystery. “And then,” said she, “if that
very improbable event should ever take place, I shall merely be
able to tell what Bingley may tell in a much more agreeable manner
himself. The liberty of communication cannot be mine till it has
lost all its value!”
She was now, on being settled at home, at leisure
to observe the real state of her sister’s spirits. Jane was not
happy. She still cherished a very tender affection for Bingley.
Having never even fancied herself in love before, her regard had
all the warmth of first attachment, and from her age and
disposition, greater steadiness than first attachments often boast;
and so fervently did she value his remembrance, and prefer him to
every other man, that all her good sense, and all her attention to
the feelings of her friends, were requisite to check the indulgence
of those regrets which must have been injurious to her own health
and their tranquillity.
“Well, Lizzy,” said Mrs. Bennet, one day, “what is
your opinion now of this sad business of Jane’s? For my
part, I am determined never to speak of it again to any body. I
told my sister Philips so the other day. But I cannot find out that
Jane saw any thing of him in London. Well, he is a very undeserving
young man—and I do not suppose there is the least chance in the
world of her ever getting him now. There is no talk of his coming
to Netherfield again in the summer; and I have enquired of every
body, too, who is likely to know.”
“I do not believe that he will ever live at
Netherfield any more.”
“Oh, well! it is just as he chooses. Nobody wants
him to come; though I shall always say that he used my daughter
extremely ill; and, if I was her, I would not have put up with it.
Well, my comfort is, I am sure Jane will die of a broken heart, and
then he will be sorry for what he has done.”
But as Elizabeth could not receive comfort from any
such expectation she made no answer.
“Well, Lizzy,” continued her mother, soon
afterwards, “and so the Collinses live very comfortable, do they?
Well, well, I only hope it will last. And what sort of table do
they keep? Charlotte is an excellent manager, I dare say. If she is
half as sharp as her mother, she is saving enough. There is nothing
extravagant in their housekeeping, I dare say.”
“No, nothing at all.”
“A great deal of good management, depend upon it.
Yes, yes. They will take care not to outrun their income.
They will never be distressed for money. Well, much good may
it do them! And so, I suppose, they often talk of having Longbourn
when your father is dead. They look upon it quite as their own, I
dare say, whenever that happens.”
“It was a subject which they could not mention
before me.”
“No; it would have been strange if they had. But I
make no doubt they often talk of it between themselves. Well, if
they can be easy with an estate that is not lawfully their own, so
much the better. I should be ashamed of having one that was
only entailed on me.”