CHAPTER 52
Squire Hamley’s Sorrow
It seemed very long before Mr. Gibson came
down. He went and stood with his back to the empty fire-place, and
did not speak for a minute or two.
‘He’s gone to bed,’ said he at length. ‘Robinson
and I have got him there. But just as I was leaving him he called
me back, and asked me to let you stop. I’m sure I don’t know—but
one doesn’t like to refuse at such a time.’
‘I wish to stay,’ said Molly.
‘Do you? There’s a good girl. But how will you
manage?’
‘Oh, never mind that. I can manage. Papa’—she
paused—‘what did Osborne die of?’ She asked the question in a low,
awe-stricken voice.
‘Something wrong about the heart. You wouldn’t
understand if I told you. I apprehended it for some time; but it’s
better not to talk of such things at home. When I saw him on
Thursday week, he seemed better than I’ve seen him for a long time.
I told Dr. Nicholls so. But one never can calculate in these
complaints.’
‘You saw him on Thursday week? Why, you never
mentioned it!’ said Molly.
‘No. I don’t talk of my patients at home. Besides,
I didn’t want him to consider me as his doctor, but as a friend.
Any alarm about his own health would only have hastened the
catastrophe.’
‘Then didn’t he know that he was ill—ill of a
dangerous complaint, I mean: one that might end as it has
done?’
‘No; certainly not. He would only have been
watching his symptoms—accelerating matters, in fact.’
‘Oh, papa!’ said Molly, shocked.
‘I’ve no time to go into the question,’ Mr. Gibson
continued. ‘And until you know what has to be said on both sides,
and in every instance, you are not qualified to judge. We must keep
our attention on the duties in hand now. You sleep here for the
remainder of the night, which is more than half gone
already?’
‘Yes.’
‘Promise me to go to bed just as usual. You may not
think it, but most likely you’ll go to sleep at once. People do at
your age.’
‘Papa, I think I ought to tell you something. I
know a great secret of Osborne’s, which I promised solemnly not to
tell; but the last time I saw him I think he must have been afraid
of something like this.’ A fit of sobbing came upon her, which her
father was afraid would end in hysterics. But suddenly she mastered
herself, and looked up into his anxious face, and smiled to
reassure him.
‘I could not help it, papa!’
‘No. I know. Go on with what you were saying. You
ought to be in bed; but if you’ve a secret on your mind you won’t
sleep.’
‘Osborne was married,’ said she, fixing her eyes on
her father. ‘That is the secret.’
‘Married! Nonsense. What makes you think so?’
‘He told me. That’s to say, I was in the
library—was reading there, some time ago; and Roger came and spoke
to Osborne about his wife. Roger did not see me, but Osborne did.
They made me promise secrecy. I don’t think I did wrong.’
‘Don’t worry yourself about right or wrong just
now; tell me more about it, at once.’
‘I knew no more till six months ago—last November,
when you went up to Lady Cumnor. Then he called, and gave me his
wife’s address, but still under promise of secrecy; and, excepting
those two times, I have never heard any one mention the subject. I
think he would have told me more that last time, only Miss Phoebe
came in.’
‘Where is this wife of his?’
‘Down in the south; near Winchester, I think. He
said she was a Frenchwoman and a Roman Catholic; and I think he
said she was a servant,’ added Molly.
‘Phew!’ Her father made a long whistle of
dismay.
‘And,’ continued Molly, ‘he spoke of a child. Now
you know as much as I do, papa, except the address. I have it
written down safe at home.’
Forgetting, apparently, what time of night it was,
Mr. Gibson sat down, stretched out his legs before him, put his
hands in his pockets, and began to think. Molly sat still without
speaking, too tired to do more than wait.
‘Well!’ said he at last, jumping up, ‘nothing can
be done to-night; by to-morrow morning, perhaps, I may find out.
Poor little pale face!’—taking it between both his hands and
kissing it; ‘poor, sweet, little pale face!’ Then he rang the bell,
and told Robinson to send some maid-servant to take Miss Gibson to
her room.
‘He won’t be up early,’ said he, in parting. ‘The
shock has lowered him too much to be energetic. Send breakfast up
to him in his own room. I’ll be here again before ten.’
Late as it was before he left, he kept his
word.
‘Now, Molly,’ he said, ‘you and I must tell him the
truth between us. I don’t know how he will take it; it may comfort
him, but I have very little hope: either way, he ought to know it
at once.’
‘Robinson says he has gone into the room again, and
he is afraid he has locked the door on the inside.’
‘Never mind. I shall ring the bell, and send up
Robinson to say that I am here, and wish to speak to him.’
The message returned was, ‘The squire’s kind love,
and could not see Mr. Gibson just then.’ Robinson added, ‘It was a
long time before he’d answer at all, sir.’
‘Go up again, and tell him I can wait his
convenience. Now that’s a lie,’ Mr. Gibson said, turning round to
Molly as soon as Robinson had left the room. ‘I ought to be far
enough away at twelve; but, if I’m not much mistaken, the innate
habits of a gentleman will make him uneasy at the idea of keeping
me waiting his pleasure, and will do more to bring him out of that
room into this than any entreaties or reasoning.’ Mr. Gibson was
growing impatient, though, before they heard the squire’s footstep
on the stairs; he was evidently coming, slowly and unwillingly. He
came in almost like one blind, groping along, and taking hold of
chair or table for support or guidance till he reached Mr. Gibson.
He did not speak when he held the doctor by the hand; he only hung
down his head, and kept on a feeble shaking of welcome.
‘I’m brought very low, sir. I suppose it’s God’s
doings; but it comes hard upon me. He was my firstborn child.’ He
said this almost as if speaking to a stranger, and informing him of
facts of which he was ignorant.
‘Here’s Molly,’ said Mr. Gibson, choking a little
himself, and pushing her forwards.
‘I beg your pardon; I did not see you at first. My
mind is a good deal occupied just now.’ He sat heavily down, and
then seemed almost to forget they were there. Molly wondered what
was to come next. Suddenly her father spoke—
‘Where’s Roger?’ said he. ‘Is he not likely to be
soon at the Cape?’dz He
got up and looked at the directions of one or two unopened letters
brought by that morning’s post; among them was one in Cynthia’s
handwriting. Both Molly and he saw it at the same time. How long it
was since yesterday! But the squire took no notice of their
proceedings or their looks.
‘You will be glad to have Roger at home as soon as
may be, I think, sir. Some months must elapse first; but I’m sure
he will return as speedily as possible.’
The squire said something in a very low voice. Both
father and daughter strained their ears to hear what it was. They
both believed it to be, ‘Roger isn’t Osborne!’ And Mr. Gibson spoke
on that belief. He spoke more quietly than Molly had ever heard him
do before.
‘No! we know that. I wish that anything that Roger
could do, or that I could do, or that any one could do, would
comfort you; but it is past human comfort.’
‘I do try to say, God’s will be done, sir,’ said
the squire, looking up at Mr. Gibson for the first time, and
speaking with more life in his voice; ‘but it’s harder to be
resigned than happy people think.’ They were all silent for a
while. The squire himself was the first to speak again,—‘He was my
first child, sir; my eldest son. And of late years we weren’t‘—his
voice broke down, but he controlled himself—‘we weren’t quite as
good friends as could be wished; and I’m not sure—not sure that he
knew how I loved him.’ And now he cried aloud with an exceeding
bitter cry.ea
‘Better so!’ whispered Mr. Gibson to Molly. ‘When
he’s a little calmer, don’t be afraid; tell him all you know,
exactly as it happened.’
Molly began. Her voice sounded high and unnatural
to herself, as if some one else was speaking, but she made her
words clear. The squire did not attempt to listen at first, at any
rate.
‘One day when I was here, at the time of Mrs.
Hamley’s last illness’ (the squire here checked his convulsive
breathing), ‘I was in the library, and Osborne came in. He said he
had only come in for a book, and that I was not to mind him, so I
went on reading. Presently, Roger came along the flagged
garden-path just outside the window (which was open). He did not
see me in the corner where I was sitting, and said to Osborne,
“Here’s a letter from your wife!” ’
Now the squire was all attention; for the first
time his tear-swollen eyes met the eyes of another, and he looked
at Molly with searching anxiety, as he repeated, ‘His wife! Osborne
married!’ Molly went on:
‘Osborne was angry with Roger for speaking out
before me, and they made me promise never to mention it to any one;
or to allude to it to either of them again. I never named it to
papa till last night.’
‘Go on,’ said Mr. Gibson. ‘Tell the squire about
Osborne’s call—what you told me!’ Still the squire hung on her
lips, listening with open mouth and eyes.
‘Some months ago Osborne called. He was not well,
and wanted to see papa. Papa was away, and I was alone. I don’t
exactly remember how it came about, but he spoke to me of his wife
for the first and only time since the affair in the library’ She
looked at her father, as if questioning him as to the desirableness
of telling the few further particulars that she knew. The squire’s
mouth was dry and stiff, but he tried to say, ‘Tell me
all—everything.’ And Molly understood the half-formed words.
‘He said his wife was a good woman, and that he
loved her dearly; but she was a French Roman Catholic, and
a’—another glance at her father—‘she had been a servant once. That
was all; except that I have her address at home. He wrote it down
and gave it me.’
‘Well, well!’ moaned the squire. ‘It’s all over
now. All over. All past and gone. We’ll not blame him,—no; but I
wish he’d ha’ told me; he and I to live together with such a secret
in one of us. It’s no wonder to me now—nothing can be a wonder
again, for one never can tell what’s in a man’s heart. Married so
long! and we sitting together at meals—and living together. Why, I
told him everything! Too much, maybe, for I showed him all my
passions and ill tempers! Married so long! Oh, Osborne, Osborne,
you should have told me!’
‘Yes, he should!’ said Mr. Gibson. ‘But I dare say
he knew how much you would dislike such a choice as he had made.
But he should have told you!’
‘You know nothing about it, sir,’ said the squire,
sharply. ‘You don’t know the terms we were on. Not hearty or
confidential. I was cross to him many a time; angry with him for
being dull, poor lad—and he with all this weight on his mind. I
won’t have people interfering and judging between me and my sons.
And Roger too! He could know it all, and keep it from me!’
‘Osborne evidently had bound him down to secrecy,
just as he bound me,’ said Molly; ‘Roger could not help
himself.’
‘Osborne was such a fellow for persuading people,
and winning them over,’ said the squire, dreamily. ‘I remember—but
what’s the use of remembering? It’s all over, and Osborne’s dead
without opening his heart to me. I could have been tender to him, I
could. But he’ll never know it now!’
‘But we can guess what wish he had strongest in his
mind at the last, from what we do know of his life,’ said Mr.
Gibson.
‘What, sir?’ said the squire, with sharp suspicion
of what was coming.
‘His wife must have been his last thought, must she
not?’
‘How do I know she was his wife? Do you think he’d
go and marry a French baggage of a servant? It may be all a tale
trumped up.’
‘Stop, squire. I don’t care to defend my daughter’s
truth or accuracy. But, with the dead man’s body lying upstairs—his
soul with God—think twice before you say more hasty words,
impugning his character; if she was not his wife, what was
she?’
‘I beg your pardon. I hardly know what I’m saying.
Did I accuse Osborne? Oh, my lad, my lad—thou might have trusted
thy old dad! he used to call me his “old dad” when he was a little
chap not bigger than this,’ indicating a certain height with his
hand. ‘I never meant to say he was not—not what one would wish to
think him now-his soul with God, as you say very justly—for I’m
sure it is there—’
‘Well! but, squire,’ said Mr. Gibson, trying to
check the other’s rambling, ‘to return to his wife—’
‘And the child,’ whispered Molly to her father. Low
as the whisper was, it struck on the squire’s ear.
‘What?’ said he, turning round to her suddenly,
‘—child? You never named that? Is there a child? Husband and
father, and I never knew! God bless Osborne’s child! I say, God
bless it!’ He stood up reverently, and the other two instinctively
rose. He closed his hands as if in momentary prayer. Then exhausted
he sat down again, and put out his hand to Molly.
‘You’re a good girl. Thank you.—Tell me what I
ought to do, and I’ll do it.’ This to Mr. Gibson.
‘I’m almost as much puzzled as you are, squire,’
replied he. ‘I fully believe the whole story; but I think there
must be some written confirmation of it, which perhaps ought to be
found at once, before we act. Most probably this is to be
discovered among Osborne’s papers. Will you look over them at once?
Molly shall return with me, and find the address that Osborne gave
her, while you are busy—’
‘She’ll come back again?’ said the squire, eagerly.
‘You—she won’t leave me to myself?’
‘No! She shall come back this evening. I’ll manage
to send her somehow. But she has no clothes but the habit she came
in, and I want my horse that she rode away upon.’
‘Take the carriage,’ said the squire. ‘Take
anything. I’ll give orders. You’ll come back again, too?’
‘No! I’m afraid not, to-day. I’ll come to-morrow,
early. Molly shall return this evening, whenever it suits you to
send for her.’
‘This afternoon; the carriage shall be at your
house at three. I dare not look at Osborne’s—at the papers without
one of you with me; and yet I shall never rest till I know
more.’
‘I’ll send the desk in by Robinson before I leave.
And—can you give me some lunch before I go?’
Little by little he led the squire to eat a morsel
or so of food; and so, strengthening him physically, and
encouraging him mentally, Mr. Gibson hoped that he could begin his
researches during Molly’s absence.
There was something touching in the squire’s
wistful looks after Molly as she moved about. A stranger might have
imagined her to be his daughter instead of Mr. Gibson’s. The meek,
broken-down, considerate ways of the bereaved father never showed
themselves more strongly than when he called them back to his
chair, out of which he seemed too languid to rise, and said, as if
by an after-thought: ‘Give my love to Miss Kirkpatrick; tell her I
look upon her as quite one of the family. I shall be glad to see
her after—after the funeral. I don’t think I can before.’
‘He knows nothing of Cynthia’s resolution to give
up Roger,’ said Mr. Gibson as they rode away. ‘I had a long talk
with her last night, but she was as resolute as ever. From what
your mamma tells me, there is a third lover in London, whom she’s
already refused. I’m thankful that you’ve no lover at all, Molly,
unless that abortive attempt of Mr. Coxe’s at an offer, long ago,
can be called a lover.’
‘I never heard of it, papa!’ said Molly.
‘Oh, no; I forgot. What a fool I was! Why, don’t
you remember the hurry I was in to get you off to Hamley Hall, the
very first time you ever went? It was all because I got hold of a
desperate love-letter from Coxe, addressed to you.’
But Molly was too tired to be amused, or even
interested. She could not get over the sight of the straight body
covered with a sheet, which yet let the outlines be seen—all that
remained of Osborne. Her father had trusted too much to the motion
of the ride, and the change of scene from the darkened house. He
saw his mistake.
‘Some one must write to Mrs. Osborne Hamley,’ said
he. ‘I believe her to have a legal right to the name; but whether
or no, she must be told that the father of her child is dead. Shall
you do it, or I?’
‘Oh, you, please, papa!’
‘I will, if you wish. But she may have heard of you
as a friend of her dead husband’s; while of me—a mere country
doctor—it’s very probable she has never heard the name.’
‘If I ought, I will do it.’ Mr. Gibson did not like
this ready acquiescence, given in so few words, too.
‘There’s Hollingford church-spire,’ said she,
presently, as they drew near the town, and caught a glimpse of the
church through the trees. ‘I think I never wish to go out of sight
of it again.’
‘Nonsense!’ said he. ‘Why, you’ve all your
travelling to do yet; and if these new-fangled railways spread, as
they say they will, we shall all be spinning about the world;
“sitting on tea-kettles,” as Phoebe Browning calls it. Miss
Browning wrote such a capital letter of advice to Miss Hornblower.
I heard of it at the Millers’. Miss Hornblower was going to travel
by railroad for the first time; and Dorothy was very anxious, and
sent her directions for her conduct; one piece of advice was not to
sit on the boiler.’
Molly laughed a little, as she was expected to do.
‘Here we are at home, at last.’
Mrs. Gibson gave Molly a warm welcome. For one
thing, Cynthia was in disgrace; for another, Molly came from the
centre of news; for a third, Mrs. Gibson was really fond of the
girl, in her way, and sorry to see her pale heavy looks.
‘To think of it all being so sudden at last. Not
but what I always expected it! And so provoking! Just when Cynthia
had given up Roger! If she had only waited a day! What does the
squire say to it all?’
‘He is beaten down with grief,’ replied
Molly.
‘Indeed! I should not have fancied he had liked the
engagement so much.’
‘What engagement?’
‘Why, Roger to Cynthia, to be sure. I asked you how
the squire took her letter, announcing the breaking of it
off?’
‘Oh—I made a mistake. He hasn’t opened his letters
to-day. I saw Cynthia’s among them.’
‘Now that I call positive disrespect.’
‘I don’t know. He did not mean it for such. Where
is Cynthia?’
‘Gone out into the meadow-garden. She’ll be in
directly. I wanted her to do some errands for me, but she flatly
refused to go into the town. I am afraid she mismanages her affairs
badly. But she won’t allow me to interfere. I hate to look at such
things in a mercenary spirit, but it is provoking to see her throw
over two such good matches. First Mr. Henderson, and now Roger
Hamley. When does the squire expect Roger? Does he think he will
come back sooner for poor dear Osborne’s death?’
‘I don’t know. He hardly seems to think of anything
but Osborne. He appears to me to have almost forgotten everyone
else. But perhaps the news of Osborne’s being married, and of the
child, may rouse him up.’
Molly had no doubt that Osborne was really and
truly married, nor had she any idea that her father had never
breathed the facts of which she had told him on the previous night,
to his wife or Cynthia. But Mr. Gibson had been slightly dubious of
the full legality of the marriage, and had not felt inclined to
speak of it to his wife until that had been ascertained one way or
another. So Mrs. Gibson exclaimed, ‘What do you mean, child?
Married! Osborne married. Who says so?’
‘Oh, dear! I suppose I ought not to have named it.
I’m very stupid to-day.Yes! Osborne has been married a long time;
but the squire did not know of it till this morning. I think it has
done him good. But I don’t know.’
‘Who is the lady? Why, I call it a shame to go
about as a single man, and be married all the time! If there is one
thing that revolts me, it is duplicity. Who is the lady? Do tell me
all you know about it, there’s a dear.’
‘She is French, and a Roman Catholic,’ said
Molly.
‘French! They are such beguiling women; and he was
so much abroad! You said there was a child—is it a boy or a
girl?’
‘I did not hear. I did not ask.’
Molly did not think it necessary to do more than
answer questions ; indeed, she was vexed enough to have told
anything of what her father evidently considered it desirable to
keep secret. Just then Cynthia came wandering into the room with a
careless, hopeless look in her face, which Molly noticed at once.
She had not heard of Molly’s arrival, and had no idea that she was
returned until she saw her sitting there.
‘Molly, darling! Is that you? You’re as welcome as
the flowers in May, though you’ve not been gone twenty-four hours.
But the house is not the same when you are away!’
‘And she brings us such news too!’ said Mrs.
Gibson. ‘I’m really almost glad you wrote to the squire yesterday,
for if you had waited till to-day—I thought you were in too great a
hurry at the time—he might have thought you had some interested
reason for giving up your engagement. Osborne Hamley was married
all this time unknown to everybody, and has got a child too.’
‘Osborne married!’ exclaimed Cynthia. ‘If ever a
man looked a bachelor, he did. Poor Osborne! with his fair delicate
elegance—he looked so young and boyish!’
‘Yes! it was a great piece of deceit, and I can’t
easily forgive him for it. Only think! If he had paid either of you
any particular attention, and you had fallen in love with him! Why,
he might have broken your heart, or Molly’s either. I can’t forgive
him, even though he is dead, poor fellow!’
‘Well, as he never did pay either of us any
particular attention, and as we neither of us did fall in love with
him, I think I only feel sorry that he had all the trouble and
worry of concealment.’ Cynthia spoke with a pretty keen
recollection of how much trouble and worry her concealment had cost
her.
‘And now of course it is a son, and will be the
heir, and Roger will just be as poorly off as ever. I hope you’ll
take care and let the squire know Cynthia was quite ignorant of
these new facts that have come out when she wrote those letters,
Molly? I should not like a suspicion of worldliness to rest upon
any one with whom I had any concern.’
‘He has not read Cynthia’s letter yet. Oh, do let
me bring it home unopened,’ said Molly. ‘Send another letter to
Roger—now—at once; it will reach him at the same time; he will get
both when he arrives at the Cape, and make him understand which is
the last—the real one. Think! he will hear of Osborne’s death at
the same time—two such sad things! Do, Cynthia!’
‘No, my dear,’ said Mrs. Gibson. ‘I could not allow
that, even if Cynthia felt inclined for it. Asking to be re-engaged
to him! At any rate, she must wait now until he proposes again, and
we see how things turn out.’
But Molly kept her pleading eyes fixed on
Cynthia.
‘No!’ said Cynthia, firmly, but not without
consideration. ‘It cannot be. I’ve felt more content this last
night than I’ve done for weeks past. I’m glad to be free. I dreaded
Roger’s goodness, and learning, and all that. It was not in my way,
and I don’t believe I should have ever married him, even without
knowing of all these ill-natured stories that are circulating about
me, and which he would hear of, and expect me to explain, and be
sorry for, and penitent and humble. I know he could not have made
me happy, and I don’t believe he would have been happy with me. It
must stay as it is. I would rather be a governess than married to
him. I should get weary of him every day of my life.’
‘Weary of Roger!’ said Molly to herself ‘It is best
as it is, I see,’ she answered aloud. ‘Only I am very sorry for
him, very. He did love you so. You will never get any one to love
you like him!’
‘Very well. I must take my chance. And too much
love is rather oppressive to me, I believe. I like a great deal,
widely spread about; not all confined to one individual
lover.’
‘I don’t believe you,’ said Molly. ‘But don’t let
us talk any more about it. It is best as it is. I thought—I almost
felt sure you would be sorry this morning. But we will leave it
alone now.’ She sat silently looking out of the window, her heart
sorely stirred, she scarcely knew how or why. But she could not
have spoken. Most likely she would have begun to cry if she had
spoken. Cynthia stole softly up to her after a while.
‘You are vexed with me, Molly,’ she began, in a low
voice. But Molly turned sharply round.
‘I! I have no business at all in the affair. It is
for you to judge. Do what you think right. I believe you have done
right. Only I don’t want to discuss it, and paw it over with talk.
I’m very much tired, dear’—gently now she spoke—‘and I hardly know
what I say. If I speak crossly, don’t mind it.’ Cynthia did not
reply at once. Then she said,—
‘Do you think I might go with you, and help you? I
might have done yesterday; and you say he hasn’t opened my letter,
so he has not heard as yet. And I was always fond of poor Osborne,
in my way, you know.’
‘I cannot tell; I have no right to say,’ replied
Molly, scarcely understanding Cynthia’s motives, which, after all,
were only impulses in this case. ‘Papa would be able to judge; I
think, perhaps, you had better not. But don’t go by my opinion; I
can only tell what I should wish to do in your place.’
‘It was as much for your sake as any one’s, Molly,’
said Cynthia.
‘Oh, then, don’t! I am tired to-day with sitting
up; but to-morrow I shall be all right; and I should not like it,
if, for my sake, you came into the house at so solemn a
time.’
‘Very well!’ said Cynthia, half-glad that her
impulsive offer was declined; for, as she said, thinking to
herself, ‘It would have been awkward after all.’ So Molly went back
in the carriage alone, wondering how she should find the squire;
wondering what discoveries he had made among Osborne’s papers, and
at what conviction he would have arrived.