CHAPTER 48
An Innocent Culprit
With his head bent down—as if he were
facing some keen-blowing wind—and yet there was not a breath of air
stirring—Mr. Gibson went swiftly to his own home. He rang at the
door-bell; an unusual proceeding on his part. Maria opened the
door. ‘Go and tell Miss Molly she’s wanted in the dining-room.
Don’t say who it is that wants her.’ There was something in Mr.
Gibson’s manner that made Maria obey him to the letter, in spite of
Molly’s surprised question—
‘Wants me? Who is it, Maria?’
Mr. Gibson went into the dining-room, and shut the
door, for an instant’s solitude. He went up to the chimney-piece,
took hold of it, and laid his head on his hands, and tried to still
the beating of his heart.
The door opened. He knew that Molly stood there
before he heard her tone of astonishment.
‘Papa!’
‘Hush!’ said he, turning round sharply. ‘Shut the
door. Come here.’
She came to him, wondering what was amiss. Her
thoughts went to the Hamleys immediately. ‘Is it Osborne?’ she
asked, breathless. If Mr. Gibson had not been too much agitated to
judge calmly, he might have deduced comfort from these three
words.
But instead of allowing himself to seek for comfort
from collateral evidence, he said,—‘Molly, what is this I hear?
That you have been keeping up a clandestine intercourse with Mr.
Preston—meeting him in out-of-the-way places; exchanging letters
with him in a stealthy way?’
Though he had professed to disbelieve all this, and
did disbelieve it at the bottom of his soul, his voice was hard and
stern, his face was white and grim, and his eyes fixed Molly’s with
the terrible keenness of their research. Molly trembled all over,
but she did not attempt to evade his penetration. If she was silent
for a moment, it was because she was rapidly reviewing her relation
with regard to Cynthia in the matter. It was but a moment’s pause
of silence; but it seemed long minutes to one who was craving for a
burst of indignant denial. He had taken hold of her two arms just
above her wrists, as she had just advanced towards him; he was
unconscious of this action; but, as his impatience for her words
grew upon him, he grasped her more and more tightly in his
vice-like hands, till she made a little involuntary sound of pain.
And then he let go; and she looked at her soft bruised flesh, with
tears gathering fast to her eyes to think that he, her father,
should have hurt her so. At the instant, it appeared to her
stranger that he should inflict bodily pain upon his child, than
that he should have heard the truth—even in an exaggerated form.
With a childish gesture she held out her arm to him; but if she
expected pity, she received none.
‘Pooh!’ said he, as he just glanced at the mark,
‘that is nothing—nothing. Answer my question. Have you—have you met
that man in private?’
‘Yes, papa, I have; but I don’t think it was
wrong.’
He sat down now. ‘Wrong!’ he echoed, bitterly. ‘Not
wrong? Well! I must bear it somehow. Your mother is dead. That’s
one comfort. It is true, then, is it? Why, I did not believe it—not
I. I laughed in my sleeve at their credulity; and I was the dupe
all the time!’
‘Papa, I cannot tell you all. It is not my secret,
or you should know it directly. Indeed, you will be sorry some
time—I have never deceived you yet, have I!’ trying to take one of
his hands; but he kept them tightly in his pockets, his eyes fixed
on the pattern of the carpet before him. ‘Papa!’ said she, pleading
again, ‘have I ever deceived you?’
‘How can I tell? I hear of this from the town’s
talk. I don’t know what next may come out!’
‘The town’s talk,’ said Molly, in dismay. ‘What
business is it of theirs?’
‘Every one makes it their business to cast dirt on
a girl’s name who has disregarded the commonest rules of modesty
and propriety.’
‘Papa, you are very hard. Modesty disregarded! I
will tell you exactly what I have done. I met Mr. Preston
once,—that evening when you put me down to walk over Croston
Heath,—and there was another person with him. I met him a second
time—and that time by appointment—nobody but our two selves,—in the
Towers’ Park. That is all, papa. You must trust me. I cannot
explain more. You must trust me indeed.’
He could not help relenting at her words; there was
such truth in the tone in which they were spoken. But he neither
spoke nor stirred for a minute or two. Then he raised his eyes to
hers for the first time since she had acknowledged the external
truth of what he charged her with. His face was very white, but it
bore the impress of the final sincerity of death, when the true
expression prevails without the poor disguises of time.
‘The letters?’ he said—but almost as if he were
ashamed to question that countenance any further.
‘I gave him one letter,—of which I did not write a
word,—which, in fact, I believe to have been merely an envelope,
without any writing whatever inside. The giving that letter,—the
two interviews I have named,—make all the private intercourse I
have had with Mr. Preston. Oh! papa, what have they been saying
that has grieved—shocked you so much?’
‘Never mind. As the world goes, what you say you
have done, Molly, is ground enough. You must tell me all. I must be
able to refute these rumours point by point.’
‘How are they to be refuted; when you say that the
truth which I have acknowledged is ground enough for what people
are saying?’
‘You say you were not acting for yourself, but for
another. If you tell me who the other was,—if you tell me
everything out fully, I will do my utmost to screen her—for of
course I guess it was Cynthia—while I am exonerating you.’
‘No, papa!’ said Molly, after some little
consideration; ‘I have told you all I can tell; all that concerns
myself; and I have promised not to say one word more.’
‘Then your character will be impugned. It must be,
unless the fullest explanation of these secret meetings is given.
I’ve a great mind to force the whole truth out of Preston
himself!’
‘Papa! once again I beg you to trust me. If you ask
Mr. Preston you will very likely hear the whole truth; but that is
just what I have been trying so hard to conceal, for it will only
make several people very unhappy if it is known, and the whole
affair is over and done with now.’
‘Not your share in it. Miss Browning sent for me
this evening to tell me how people were talking about you. She
implied that it was a complete loss of your good name. You don’t
know, Molly, how slight a thing may blacken a girl’s reputation for
life. I’d hard work to stand all she said, even though I didn’t
believe a word of it at the time. And now you’ve told me that much
of it is true.’
‘But I think you are a brave man, papa. And you
believe me, don’t you? We shall outlive those rumours, never
fear.’
‘You don’t know the power of ill-natured tongues,
child,’ said he.
‘Oh, now you’ve called me “child” again I don’t
care for anything. Dear, dear papa, I’m sure it is best and wisest
to take no notice of these speeches. After all, they may not mean
them ill-naturedly. I am sure Miss Browning would not. By and by
they’ll quite forget how much they made out of so little,—and even
if they don’t, you would not have me break my solemn word, would
you?’
‘Perhaps not. But I cannot easily forgive the
person who, by practising on your generosity, led you into this
scrape. You are very young, and look upon these things as merely
temporary evils. I have more experience.’
‘Still I don’t see what I can do now, papa. Perhaps
I’ve been foolish; but what I did, I did of my own self. It was not
suggested to me. And I’m sure it was not wrong in morals, whatever
it might be in judgment. As I said, it’s all over now; what I did
ended the affair, I am thankful to say; and it was with that object
I did it. If people choose to talk about me, I must submit; and so
must you, dear papa.’
‘Does your mother—does Mrs. Gibson—know anything
about it?’ asked he, with sudden anxiety.
‘No; not a bit; not a word. Pray don’t name it to
her. That might lead to more mischief than anything else. I have
really told you everything I am at liberty to tell.’
It was a great relief to Mr. Gibson to find that
this sudden fear that his wife might have been privy to it all was
ill-founded. He had been seized by a sudden dread that she, whom he
had chosen to marry in order to have a protectress and guide for
his daughter, had been cognizant of this ill-advised adventure with
Mr. Preston; nay, more, that she might even have instigated it to
save her own child; for that Cynthia was, somehow or other, at the
bottom of it all he had no doubt whatever. But now, at any rate,
Mrs. Gibson had not been playing a treacherous part; that was all
the comfort he could extract out of Molly’s mysterious admission,
that much mischief might result from Mrs. Gibson’s knowing anything
about these meetings with Mr. Preston.
‘Then, what is to be done?’ said he. ‘These reports
are abroad,—am I to do nothing to contradict them? Am I to go about
smiling and content with all this talk about you, passing from one
idle gossip to another?’
‘I’m afraid so. I’m very sorry, for I never meant
you to have known anything about it, and I can see now how it must
distress you. But surely when nothing more happens, and nothing
comes of what has happened, the wonder and the gossip must die
away. I know you believe every word I have said, and that you trust
me, papa? Please, for my sake, be patient with all this gossip and
cackle.’
‘It will try me hard, Molly,’ said he.
‘For my sake, papa!’
‘I don’t see what else I can do,’ replied he,
moodily, ‘unless I get hold of Preston.’
‘That would be the worst of all. That would make a
talk. And, after all, perhaps he was not so much to blame. Yes! he
was. But he behaved well to me as far as that goes,’ said she,
suddenly recollecting his speech when Mr. Sheepshanks came up in
the Towers’ Park—‘Don’t stir, you have done nothing to be ashamed
of.’
‘That’s true. A quarrel between men which drags a
woman’s name into notice is to be avoided at any cost. But sooner
or later I must have it out with Preston. He shall find it not so
pleasant to have placed my daughter in equivocal
circumstances.’
‘He didn’t place me. He didn’t know I was coming,
didn’t expect to meet me either time; and would far rather not have
taken the letter I gave him, if he could have helped
himself.’
‘It’s all a mystery. I hate to have you mixed up in
mysteries.’
‘I hate to be mixed up. But what can I do? I know
of another mystery which I’m pledged not to speak about. I cannot
help myself.’
‘Well, all I can say is, never be the heroine of a
mystery that you can avoid, if you can’t help being an accessory.
Then, I suppose, I must yield to your wishes and let this scandal
wear itself out without any notice from me?’
‘What else can you do under the
circumstances?’
‘Aye; what else, indeed? How shall you bear
it?’
For an instant the quick hot tears sprang into her
eyes; to have everybody—all her world, thinking evil of her, did
seem hard to the girl who had never thought or said an unkind thing
of them. But she smiled as she made answer—
‘It’s like tooth-drawing, it will be over some
time. It would be much worse if I really had been doing
wrong.’
‘Cynthia shall beware’—he began; but Molly put her
hand before his mouth.
‘Papa, Cynthia must not be accused, or suspected;
you will drive her out of your house if you do, she is so proud,
and so unprotected, except by you. And Roger,—for Roger’s sake, you
will never do or say anything to send Cynthia away, when he has
trusted us all to take care of her, and love her in his absence.
Oh! I think if she were really wicked, and I did not love her at
all, I should feel bound to watch over her, he loves her so dearly.
And she is really good at heart, and I do love her dearly. You must
not vex or hurt Cynthia, papa,—re—member she is dependent upon
you!’
‘I think the world would get on tolerably well, if
there were no women in it. They plague the life out of one. You’ve
made me forget, amongst you—poor old Job Houghton that I ought to
have gone to see an hour ago.’
Molly put up her mouth to be kissed. ‘You’re not
angry with me now, papa, are you?’
‘Get out of my way’ (kissing her all the same). ‘If
I’m not angry with you, I ought to be; for you’ve caused a great
deal of worry, which won’t be over yet awhile, I can tell
you.’
For all Molly’s bravery at the time of this
conversation, it was she that suffered more than her father. He
kept out of the way of hearing gossip; but she was perpetually
thrown into the small society of the place. Mrs. Gibson herself had
caught cold, and moreover was not tempted by the quiet
old-fashioned visiting which was going on just about this time,
provoked by the visit of two of Mrs. Dawes’ pretty unrefined
nieces, who laughed, and chattered, and ate, and would fain have
flirted with Mr. Ashton, the vicar, could he have been brought by
any possibility to understand his share in the business. Mr.
Preston did not accept the invitations to Hollingford tea-drinkings
with the same eager gratitude as he had done a year before: or else
the shadow which hung over Molly would not have extended to him,
her co-partner in the clandestine meetings which gave such umbrage
to the feminine virtue of the town. Molly herself was invited,
because it would not do to pass any apparent slight on either Mr.
or Mrs. Gibson; but there was a tacit and underhand protest against
her being received on the old terms. Every one was civil to her,
but no one was cordial; there was a very perceptible film of
difference in their behaviour to her from what it was formerly;
nothing that had outlines and could be defined. But Molly, for all
her clear conscience and her brave heart, felt acutely that she was
only tolerated, not welcomed. She caught the buzzing whispers of
the two Miss Oakeses, who, when they first met the heroine of the
prevailing scandal, looked at her askance, and criticized her
pretensions to good looks, with hardly an attempt at undertones.
Molly tried to be thankful that her father was not in the mood for
visiting. She was even glad that her stepmother was too much of an
invalid to come out, when she felt thus slighted, and, as it were,
degraded from her place. Miss Browning herself, that true old
friend, spoke to her with chilling dignity, and much reserve; for
she had never heard a word from Mr. Gibson since the evening when
she had put herself to so much pain to tell him of the disagreeable
rumours affecting his daughter.
Only Miss Phoebe would seek out Molly with even
more than her former tenderness; and this tried Molly’s calmness
more than all the slights put together. The soft hand, pressing
hers under the table;—the continual appeals to her, so as to bring
her back into the conversation—touched Molly almost to shedding
tears. Sometimes the poor girl wondered to herself whether this
change in the behaviour of her acquaintances was not a mere fancy
of hers; whether, if she had never had that conversation with her
father, in which she had borne herself so bravely at the time, she
should have discovered the difference in their treatment of her.
She never told her father how she felt these perpetual small
slights: she had chosen to bear the burden of her own free will;
nay; more, she had insisted on being allowed to do so; and it was
not for her to grieve him now by showing that she shrank from the
consequences of her own act. So she never even made an excuse for
not going into the small gaieties, or mingling with the society of
Hollingford. Only she suddenly let go the stretch of restraint she
was living in, when one evening her father told her that he was
really anxious about Mrs. Gibson’s cough, and should like Molly to
give up a party at Mrs. Goodenough’s, to which they were all three
invited, but to which Molly alone was going. Molly’s heart leaped
up at the thoughts of stopping at home, even though the next moment
she had to blame herself for rejoicing at a reprieve that was
purchased by another’s suffering. However, the remedies prescribed
by her husband did Mrs. Gibson good; and she was particularly
grateful and caressing to Molly.
‘Really, dear!’ said she, stroking Molly’s head, ‘I
think your hair is getting softer, and losing that disagreeable
crisp curly feeling.’
Then Molly knew that her stepmother was in high
good humour; the smoothness or curliness of her hair was a sure
test of the favour in which Mrs. Gibson held her at the
moment.
‘I am so sorry to be the cause of detaining you
from this little party, but dear papa is so over-anxious about me.
I have always been a kind of pet with gentlemen, and poor Mr.
Kirkpatrick never knew how to make enough of me. But I think Mr.
Gibson is even more foolishly fond: his last words were, “Take care
of yourself, Hyacinth”; and then he came back again to say, “If you
don’t attend to my directions I won’t answer for the consequences.”
I shook my forefinger at him, and said, “Don’t be so anxious, you
silly man.” ’
‘I hope we have done everything he told us to do,’
said Molly.
‘Oh, yes! I feel so much better. Do you know, late
as it is, I think you might go to Mrs. Goodenough’s yet! Maria
could take you, and I should like to see you dressed; when one has
been wearing dull warm gowns for a week or two one gets quite a
craving for bright colours, and evening dress. So go and get ready,
dear, and then perhaps you’ll bring me back some news; for really,
shut up as I have been with only papa and you for the last
fortnight, I’ve got quite moped and dismal, and I can’t bear to
keep young people from the gaieties suitable to their age.’
‘Oh, pray, mamma! I had so much rather not
go!’
‘Very well! very well! Only I think it is rather
selfish of you, when you see I am so willing to make the sacrifice
for your sake.’
‘But you say it is a sacrifice to you, and I don’t
want to go.’
‘Very well; did I not say you might stop at home?
only pray don’t chop logic; nothing is so fatiguing to a sick
person.’
Then they were silent for some time. Mrs. Gibson
broke the silence by saying, in a languid voice—
‘Can’t you think of anything amusing to say,
Molly?’
Molly pumped up from the depths of her mind a few
little trivialities which she had nearly forgotten, but she felt
that they were anything but amusing, and so Mrs. Gibson seemed to
feel them; for presently she said—
‘I wish Cynthia was at home.’ And Molly felt it as
a reproach to her own dullness.
‘Shall I write to her and ask her to come
back?’
‘Well, I’m not sure; I wish I knew a great many
things. You’ve not heard anything of poor dear Osborne Hamley
lately, have you?’
Remembering her father’s charge not to speak of
Osborne’s health, Molly made no reply, nor was any needed, for Mrs.
Gibson went on thinking aloud—
‘You see, if Mr. Henderson has been as attentive as
he was in the spring—and the chances about Roger—I shall be really
grieved if anything happens to that young man, uncouth as he is;
but it must be owned that Africa is not merely an unhealthy—it is a
savage—and even in some parts a cannibal country. I often think of
all I’ve read of it in geography books, as I lie awake at night,
and if Mr. Henderson is really becoming attached! The future is
hidden from us by infinite wisdom, Molly, or else I should like to
know it; one would calculate one’s behaviour at the present time so
much better if one only knew what events were to come. But I think,
on the whole, we had better not alarm Cynthia. If we had only known
in time we might have planned for her to have come down with Lord
Cumnor and my lady’
‘Are they coming? Is Lady Cumnor well enough to
travel?’
‘Yes, to be sure. Or else I should not have
considered whether or no Cynthia could have come down with them; it
would have sounded very well—more than respectable, and would have
given her a position among that lawyer set in London.’
‘Then Lady Cumnor is better?’
‘To be sure. I should have thought papa would have
mentioned it to you; but, to be sure, he is always so scrupulously
careful not to speak about his patients. Quite right too—quite
right and delicate. Why, he hardly ever tells me how they are going
on.Yes! the Earl and the Countess, and Lady Harriet and Lord and
Lady Cuxhaven, and Lady Agnes; and I’ve ordered a new winter bonnet
and a black satin cloak.’