Chapter 29
My captor’s eyes were bright blue, angled
over high, strong cheekbones and topped by a shock of platinum
hair. She was wearing a thick, hand-knit turtleneck and a pair of
tight-fitting jeans. No black robes or brooms, but she
was—unmistakably—a witch.
With a contemptuous flick of her fingers, she
stopped the sound of my scream before it broke free. Her arm swept
to the left, carrying us more horizontally than vertically for the
first time since she’d plucked me from the garden at
Sept-Tours.
Matthew would wake up and find me gone. He would
never forgive himself for falling asleep, or me for going outside.
Idiot, I told myself.
“Yes you are, Diana Bishop,” the witch said in a
strangely accented voice.
I slammed shut the imaginary doors behind my eyes
that had always kept out the casual, invasive efforts of witches
and daemons.
She laughed, a silvery sound that chilled me to the
bone. Frightened, and hundreds of feet above the Auvergne, I
emptied my mind in hopes of leaving nothing for her to find once
she breached my inadequate defenses. Then she dropped me.
As the ground flew up, my thoughts organized
themselves around a single word—Matthew.
The witch caught me up in her grip at my first
whiff of earth. “You’re too light to carry for one who can’t fly.
Why won’t you, I wonder?”
Silently I recited the kings and queens of England
to keep my mind blank.
She sighed. “I’m not your enemy, Diana. We are both
witches.”
The winds changed as the witch flew south and west,
away from Sept-Tours. I quickly grew disoriented. The blaze of
light in the distance might be Lyon, but we weren’t headed toward
it. Instead we were moving deeper into the mountains—and they
didn’t look like the peaks Matthew had pointed out to me
earlier.
We descended toward something that looked like a
crater set apart from the surrounding countryside by yawning
ravines and overgrown forests. It proved to be the ruin of a
medieval castle, with high walls and thick foundations that
extended deep into the earth. Trees grew inside the husks of
long-abandoned buildings huddled in the fortress’s shadow. The
castle didn’t have a single graceful line or pleasing feature.
There was only one reason for its existence—to keep out anyone who
wished to enter. The poor dirt roads leading over the mountains
were the castle’s only link to the rest of the world. My heart
sank.
The witch swung her feet down and pointed her toes,
and when I didn’t do the same, she forced mine down with another
flick of her fingers. The tiny bones complained at the invisible
stress. We slid along what remained of the gray tiled roofs without
touching them, headed toward a small central courtyard. My feet
flattened out suddenly and slammed into the stone paving, the shock
reverberating through my legs.
“In time you’ll learn to land more softly,” the
witch said matter-of-factly.
It was impossible to process my change in
circumstances. Just moments ago, it seemed, I had been lying,
drowsy and content, in bed with Matthew. Now I was standing in a
dank castle with a strange witch.
When two pale figures detached themselves from the
shadows, my confusion turned to terror. One was Domenico Michele.
The other was unknown to me, but the freezing touch of his eyes
told me he was a vampire, too. A wave of incense and brimstone
identified him: this was Gerbert of Aurillac, the
vampire-pope.
Gerbert wasn’t physically intimidating, but there
was evil at the core of him that made me shrink instinctively.
Traces of that darkness were in brown eyes that looked out from
deep sockets set over cheekbones so prominent that the skin
appeared to be stretched thin over them. His nose hooked slightly,
pointing down to thin lips that were curled into a cruel smile.
With this vampire’s dark eyes pinned on me, the threat posed by
Peter Knox paled in comparison.
“Thank you for this place, Gerbert,” the witch said
smoothly, keeping me close by her side. “You’re right—I won’t be
disturbed here.”
“It was my pleasure, Satu. May I examine your
witch?” Gerbert asked softly, walking slowly to the left and right
as if searching for the best vantage point from which to view a
prize. “It is difficult, when she has been with de Clermont, to
tell where her scents begin and his end.”
My captor glowered at the reference to Matthew.
“Diana Bishop is in my care now. There is no need for your presence
here any longer.”
Gerbert’s attention remained fixed on me as he took
small, measured steps toward me. His exaggerated slowness only
heightened his menace. “It is a strange book, is it not, Diana? A
thousand years ago, I took it from a great wizard in Toledo. When I
brought it to France, it was already bound by layers of
enchantment.”
“Despite your knowledge of magic, you could not
discover its secrets.” The scorn in the witch’s voice was
unmistakable. “The manuscript is no less bewitched now than it was
then. Leave this to us.”
He continued to advance. “I knew a witch then whose
name was similar to yours—Meridiana. She didn’t want to help me
unlock the manuscript’s secrets, of course. But my blood kept her
in thrall.” He was close enough now that the cold emanating from
his body chilled me. “Each time I drank from her, small insights
into her magic and fragments of her knowledge passed to me. They
were frustratingly fleeting, though. I had to keep going back for
more. She became weak, and easy to control.” Gerbert’s finger
touched my face. “Meridiana’s eyes were rather like yours, too.
What did you see, Diana? Will you share it with me?”
“Enough, Gerbert.” Satu’s voice crackled with
warning, and Domenico snarled.
“Do not think this is the last time you will see
me, Diana. First the witches will bring you to heel. Then the
Congregation will decide what to do with you.” Gerbert’s eyes bored
into mine, and his finger moved down my cheek in a caress. “After
that, you will be mine. For now,” he said with a small bow in
Satu’s direction, “she is yours.”
The vampires withdrew. Domenico looked back,
reluctant to leave. Satu waited, her gaze vacant, until the sound
of metal meeting up with wood and stone signaled that they were
gone from the castle. Her blue eyes snapped to attention, and she
fixed them on me. With a small gesture, she released her spell that
had kept me silent.
“Who are you?” I croaked when it was possible to
form words again.
“My name is Satu Järvinen,” she said, walking
around me in a slow circle, trailing a hand behind her. It
triggered a deep memory of another hand that had moved like hers.
Once Sarah had walked a similar path in the backyard in Madison
when she’d tried to bind a lost dog, but the hands in my mind did
not belong to her.
Sarah’s talents were nothing compared to those
possessed by this witch. It had been evident she was powerful from
the way she flew. But she was adept at spells, too. Even now she
was restraining me inside gossamer filaments of magic that
stretched across the courtyard without her uttering a single word.
Any hope of easy escape vanished.
“Why did you kidnap me?” I asked, trying to
distract her from her work.
“We tried to make you see how dangerous Clairmont
was. As witches, we didn’t want to go to these lengths, but you
refused to listen.” Satu’s words were cordial, her voice warm. “You
wouldn’t join us for Mabon, you ignored Peter Knox. Every day that
vampire drew closer. But you’re safely beyond his reach now.”
Every instinct screamed danger.
“It’s not your fault,” Satu continued, touching me
lightly on the shoulder. My skin tingled, and the witch smiled.
“Vampires are so seductive, so charming. You’ve been caught in his
thrall, just as Meridiana was caught by Gerbert. We don’t blame you
for this, Diana. You led such a sheltered childhood. It wasn’t
possible for you to see him for what he is.”
“I’m not in Matthew’s thrall,” I insisted. Beyond
the dictionary definition, I had no idea what it might involve, but
Satu made it sound coercive.
“Are you quite sure?” she asked gently. “You’ve
never tasted a drop of his blood?”
“Of course not!” My childhood might have been
devoid of extensive magical training, but I wasn’t a complete
idiot. Vampire blood was a powerful, life-altering substance.
“No memories of a taste of concentrated salt? No
unusual fatigue? You’ve never fallen deeply asleep when he was in
your presence, even though you didn’t want to close your
eyes?”
On the plane to France, Matthew had touched his
fingers to his own lips, then to mine. I’d tasted salt then. The
next thing I knew, I was in France. My certainty wavered.
“I see. So he has given you his blood.” Satu
shook her head. “That’s not good, Diana. We thought it might be the
case, after he followed you back to college on Mabon and climbed
through your window.”
“What are you talking about?” My blood froze in my
veins. Matthew would never give me his blood. Nor would he violate
my territory. If he had done these things, there would have been a
reason, and he would have shared it with me.
“The night you met, Clairmont hunted you down to
your rooms. He crept through an open window and was there for
hours. Didn’t you wake up? If not, he must have used his blood to
keep you asleep. How else can we explain it?”
My mouth had been full of the taste of cloves. I
closed my eyes against the recollection, and the pain that
accompanied it.
“This relationship has been nothing more than an
elaborate deception, Diana. Matthew Clairmont has wanted only one
thing: the lost manuscript. Everything the vampire has done and
every lie he’s told along the way have been a means to that
end.”
“No.” It was impossible. He couldn’t have been
lying to me last night. Not when we lay in each other’s arms.
“Yes. I’m sorry to have to tell you these things,
but you left us no other choice. We tried to keep you apart, but
you are so stubborn.”
Just like my father, I thought. My eyes
narrowed. “How do I know that you’re not lying?”
“One witch can’t lie to another witch. We’re
sisters, after all.”
“Sisters?” I demanded, my suspicions sharpening.
“You’re just like Gillian—pretending sisterhood while gathering
information and trying to poison my mind against Matthew.”
“So you know about Gillian,” Satu said
regretfully.
“I know she’s been watching me.”
“Do you know she’s dead?” Satu’s voice was suddenly
vicious.
“What?” The floor seemed to tilt, and I felt myself
sliding down the sudden incline.
“Clairmont killed her. It’s why he took you away
from Oxford so quickly. It’s yet another innocent death we haven’t
been able to keep out of the press. What did the headlines say . .
. ? Oh, yes: ‘Young American Scholar Dies Abroad While Doing
Research.’” Satu’s mouth curved into a malicious smile.
“No.” I shook my head. “Matthew wouldn’t kill
her.”
“I assure you he did. No doubt he questioned her
first. Apparently vampires have never learned that killing the
messenger is pointless.”
“The picture of my parents.” Matthew might have
killed whoever sent me that photo.
“It was heavy-handed for Peter to send it to you
and careless of him to let Gillian deliver it,” Satu continued.
“Clairmont’s too smart to leave evidence, though. He made it look
like a suicide and left her body propped up like a calling card
against Peter’s door at the Randolph Hotel.”
Gillian Chamberlain hadn’t been a friend, but the
knowledge that she would never again crouch over her glass-encased
papyrus fragments was more distressing than I would have
expected.
And it was Matthew who had killed her. My mind
whirled. How could Matthew say he loved me and yet keep such things
from me? Secrets were one thing, but murder—even under the guise of
revenge and retaliation— was something else. He kept warning me he
couldn’t be trusted. I’d paid no attention to him, brushing his
words aside. Had that been part of his plan, too, another strategy
to lure me into trusting him?
“You must let me help you.” Satu’s voice was gentle
once more. “This has gone too far, and you are in terrible danger.
I can teach you to use your power. Then you’ll be able to protect
yourself from Clairmont and other vampires, like Gerbert and
Domenico. You will be a great witch one day, just like your mother.
You can trust me, Diana. We’re family.”
“Family,” I repeated numbly.
“Your mother and father wouldn’t have wanted you to
fall into a vampire’s snares,” Satu explained, as if I were a
child. “They knew how important it was to preserve the bonds
between witches.”
“What did you say?” There was no whirling now.
Instead my mind seemed unusually sharp and my skin was tingling all
over, as if a thousand witches were staring at me. There was
something I was forgetting, something about my parents that made
everything Satu said a lie.
A strange sound slithered into my ears. It was a
hissing and creaking, like ropes being pulled over stone. Looking
down, I saw thick brown roots stretching and twisting across the
floor. They crawled in my direction.
Satu seemed unaware of their approach. “Your
parents would have wanted you to live up to your responsibilities
as a Bishop and as a witch.”
“My parents?” I drew my attention from the floor,
trying to focus on Satu’s words.
“You owe your loyalty and allegiance to me and your
fellow witches, not to Matthew Clairmont. Think of your mother and
father. Think of what this relationship would do to them, if only
they knew.”
A cold finger of foreboding traced my spine, and
all my instincts told me that this witch was dangerous. The roots
had reached my feet by then. As if they could sense my distress the
roots abruptly changed direction, digging into the paving stones on
either side of where I stood, before weaving themselves into a
sturdy, invisible web beneath the castle floors.
“Gillian told me that witches killed my parents,” I
said. “Can you deny it? Tell me the truth about what happened in
Nigeria.”
Satu remained silent. It was as good as a
confession.
“Just as I thought,” I said bitterly.
A tiny motion of her wrist threw me onto my back,
feet in the air, before invisible hands dragged me across the slick
surface of the freezing courtyard and into a cavernous space with
tall windows and only a portion of roof remaining.
My back was battered from its trip across the
stones of the castle’s old hall. Worse yet, my struggles against
Satu’s magic were inexperienced and futile. Ysabeau was right. My
weakness—my ignorance of who I was and how to defend myself—had
landed me in serious trouble.
“Once again you refuse to listen to reason. I don’t
want to hurt you, Diana, but I will if it’s the only way to make
you see the seriousness of this situation. You must give up Matthew
Clairmont and show us what you did to call the manuscript.”
“I will never give up my husband, nor will I help
any of you claim Ashmole 782. It doesn’t belong to us.”
This remark earned me the sensation of my head
splitting in two as a bloodcurdling shriek tore through the air. A
cacophony of horrifying sounds followed. They were so painful I
sank to my knees, and covered my head with my arms.
Satu’s eyes narrowed to slits, and I found myself
on my backside on the cold stone. “Us? You dare to think of
yourself as a witch when you’ve come straight from the bed of a
vampire?”
“I am a witch,” I replied sharply, surprised
at how much her dismissal stung.
“You’re a disgrace, just like Stephen,” Satu
hissed. “Stubborn, argumentative, independent. And so full of
secrets.”
“That’s right, Satu, I’m just like my father. He
wouldn’t have told you anything. I’m not going to either.”
“Yes you will. The only way vampires can discover a
witch’s secrets is drop by drop.” To show what she meant, Satu
flicked her fingers in the direction of my right forearm. Another
witch’s hand had flicked at a long-ago cut on my knee, but that
gesture had closed my wound better than any Band-Aid. This one
sliced an invisible knife through my skin. Blood began to trickle
from the gash. Satu watched the flow of blood, mesmerized.
My hand covered the cut, putting pressure on the
wound. It was surprisingly painful, and my anxiety began to
climb.
No, said a familiar, fierce voice. You
must not give in to the pain. I struggled to bring myself under
control.
“As a witch, I have other ways to uncover what
you’re hiding. I’m going to open you up, Diana, and locate every
secret you possess,” Satu promised. “We’ll see how stubborn you are
then.”
All the blood left my head, making me dizzy. The
familiar voice caught my attention, whispering my name. Who do
we keep our secrets from, Diana?
Everybody, I answered, silently and
automatically, as if the question were routine. Another set of far
sturdier doors banged shut behind the inadequate barriers that had
been all I’d ever needed to keep a curious witch out of my
head.
Satu smiled, her eyes sparkling as she detected my
new defenses. “There’s one secret uncovered already. Let’s see what
else you have, besides the ability to protect your mind.”
The witch muttered, and my body spun around and
then flattened against the floor, facedown. The impact knocked the
wind out of me. A circle of fire licked up from the cold stones,
the flames green and noxious.
Something white-hot seared my back. It curved from
shoulder to shoulder like a shooting star, descended to the small
of my back, then curved again before climbing once again to where
it had started. Satu’s magic held me fast, making it impossible to
wriggle away. The pain was unspeakable, but before the welcoming
blackness could take me, she held off. When the darkness receded,
the pain began again.
It was then that I realized with a sickening lurch
of my stomach that she was opening me up, just as she’d promised.
She was drawing a magical circle—onto me.
You must be very, very brave.
Through the haze of pain I followed the snaking
tree roots covering the floor of the hall in the direction of the
familiar voice. My mother was sitting under an apple tree just
outside the line of green fire.
“Mama!” I cried weakly, reaching out for her. But
Satu’s magic held.
My mother’s eyes—darker than I remembered, but so
like my own in shape—were tenacious. She put one ghostly finger to
her lips in a gesture of silence. The last of my energy was
expended in a nod that acknowledged her presence. My last coherent
thought was of Matthew.
After that, there was nothing but pain and fear,
along with a dull desire to close my eyes and go to sleep
forever.
It must have been many hours before Satu tossed me
across the room in frustration. My back burned from her spell, and
she’d reopened my injured forearm again and again. At some point
she suspended me upside down by my ankle to weaken my resistance
and taunted me about my inability to fly away and escape. Despite
these efforts, Satu was no closer to understanding my magic than
when she started.
She roared with anger, the low heels of her boots
clicking against the stones as she paced and plotted fresh
assaults. I lifted myself onto my elbow to better anticipate her
next move.
Hold on. Be brave. My mother was still under
the apple tree, her face shining with tears. It brought back echoes
of Ysabeau telling Marthe that I had more courage than she had
thought, and Matthew whispering “My brave girl” into my ear. I
mustered the energy to smile, not wanting my mother to cry. My
smile only made Satu more furious.
“Why won’t you use your power to protect yourself?
I know it’s inside you!” she bellowed. Satu drew her arms together
over her chest, then thrust them out with a string of words. My
body rolled into a ball around a jagged pain in my abdomen. The
sensation reminded me of my father’s eviscerated body, the guts
pulled out and lying next to him.
That’s what’s next. I was oddly relieved to
know.
Satu’s next words flung me across the floor of the
ruined hall. My hands reached futilely past my head to try to stop
the momentum as I skidded across the uneven stones and bumpy tree
roots. My fingers flexed once as if they might reach across the
Auvergne and connect to Matthew.
My mother’s body had looked like this, resting
inside a magic circle in Nigeria. I exhaled sharply and cried
out.
Diana, you must listen to me. You will feel all
alone. My mother was talking to me, and with the sound I became
a child again, sitting on a swing hanging from the apple tree in
the back yard of our house in Cambridge on a long-ago August
afternoon. There was the smell of cut grass, fresh and green, and
my mother’s scent of lilies of the valley. Can you be brave
while you’re alone? Can you do that for me?
There were no soft August breezes against my skin
now. Instead rough stone scraped my cheek when I nodded in
reply.
Satu flipped me over, and the pointy stones cut
into my back.
“We don’t want to do this, sister,” she said with
regret. “But we must. You will understand, once Clairmont is
forgotten, and forgive me for this.”
Not bloody likely, I thought. If he
doesn’t kill you, I’ll haunt you for the rest of your life once I’m
gone.
With a few whispered words Satu lifted me from the
floor and propelled me with carefully directed gusts of wind out of
the hall and down a flight of curving stairs that wound into the
depths of the castle. She moved me through the castle’s ancient
dungeons. Something rustled behind me, and I craned my neck to see
what it was.
Ghosts—dozens of ghosts—were filing behind us in a
spectral funeral procession, their faces sad and afraid. For all
Satu’s powers, she seemed unable to see the dead everywhere around
us, just as she had been unable to see my mother.
The witch was attempting to raise a heavy wooden
slab in the floor with her hands. I closed my eyes and braced
myself for a fall. Instead Satu grabbed my hair and aimed my face
into a dark hole. The smell of death rose in a noxious wave, and
the ghosts shifted and moaned.
“Do you know what this is, Diana?”
I shrank back and shook my head, too frightened and
exhausted to speak.
“It’s an oubliette.” The word rustled from ghost to
ghost. A wispy woman, her face creased with age, began to weep.
“Oubliettes are places of forgetting. Humans who are dropped into
oubliettes go mad and then starve to death—if they survive the
impact. It’s a very long way down. They can’t get out without help
from above, and help never comes.”
The ghost of a young man with a deep gash across
his chest nodded in agreement with Satu’s words. Don’t fall,
girl, he said in a sorrowful voice.
“But we won’t forget you. I’m going for
reinforcements. You might be stubborn in the face of one of the
Congregation’s witches, but not all three. We found that out with
your father and mother, too.” She tightened her grip, and we sailed
more than sixty feet down to the bottom of the oubliette. The rock
walls changed color and consistency as we tunneled deeper into the
mountain.
“Please,” I begged when Satu dropped me on the
floor. “Don’t leave me down here. I don’t have any secrets. I don’t
know how to use my magic or how to recall the manuscript.”
“You’re Rebecca Bishop’s daughter,” Satu said. “You
have power—I can feel it—and we’ll make sure that it breaks free.
If your mother were here, she would simply fly out.” Satu looked
into the blackness above us, then to my ankle. “But you’re not
really your mother’s daughter, are you? Not in any way that
matters.”
Satu bent her knees, lifted her arms, and pushed
gently against the oubliette’s stone floor. She soared up and
became a blur of white and blue before disappearing. Far above me
the wooden door closed.
Matthew would never find me down here. By now any
trail would be long gone, our scents scattered to the four winds.
The only way to get out, short of being retrieved by Satu, Peter
Knox, and some unknown third witch, was to get myself out.
Standing with my weight on one foot, I bent my
knees, lifted my arms, and pushed against the floor as Satu had.
Nothing happened. Closing my eyes, I tried to focus on the way it
had felt to dance in the salon, hoping it would make me float
again. All it did was make me think of Matthew, and the secrets he
had kept from me. My breath turned into a sob, and when the
oubliette’s dank air passed into my lungs, the resulting cough
brought me to my knees.
I slept a bit, but it was hard to ignore the ghosts
once they started chattering. At least they provided some light in
the gloom. Every time they moved, a tiny bit of phosphorescence
smudged the air, linking where they had just been to where they
were going. A young woman in filthy rags sat opposite me, humming
quietly to herself and staring in my direction with vacant eyes. In
the center of the room, a monk, a knight in full armor, and a
musketeer peered into an even deeper hole that emitted a feeling of
such loss that I couldn’t bear to go near it. The monk muttered the
mass for the dead, and the musketeer kept reaching into the pit as
if looking for something he had lost.
My mind slid toward oblivion, losing its struggle
against the combination of fear, pain, and cold. Frowning with
concentration, I remembered the last passages I’d read in the
Aurora Consurgens and repeated them aloud in the hope it
would help me remain sane.
“‘It is I who mediates the elements, bringing
each into agreement,’” I mumbled through stiff lips. “‘I
make what is moist dry again, and what is dry I make moist. I make
what is hard soft again, and harden that which is soft. As I am the
end, so my lover is the beginning. I encompass the whole work of
creation, and all knowledge is hidden in me.’” Something
shimmered against the wall nearby. Here was another ghost, come to
say hello, but I closed my eyes, too tired to care, and returned to
my recitation.
“‘Who will dare to separate me from my love? No
one, for our love is as strong as death. ’”
My mother interrupted me. Won’t you try to
sleep, little witch?
Behind my closed eyes, I saw my attic bedroom in
Madison. It was only a few days before my parents’ final trip to
Africa, and I’d been brought to stay with Sarah while they were
gone.
“I’m not sleepy,” I replied. My voice was stubborn
and childlike. I opened my eyes. The ghosts were drawing closer to
the shimmer in the shadows to my right.
My mother was sitting there, propped against the
oubliette’s damp stone walls, holding her arms open. I inched
toward her, holding my breath for fear she would disappear. She
smiled in welcome, her dark eyes shining with unshed tears. My
mother’s ghostly arms and fingers flicked this way and that as I
snuggled closer to her familiar body.
Shall I tell you a story?
“It was your hands I saw when Satu worked her
magic.”
Her answering laugh was gentle and made the cold
stones beneath me less painful. You were very brave.
“I’m so tired.” I sighed.
It’s time for your story, then. Once upon a
time, she began, there was a little witch named Diana. When
she was very small, her fairy godmother wrapped her in invisible
ribbons that were every color of the rainbow.
I remembered this tale from my childhood, when my
pajamas had been purple and pink with stars on them and my hair was
braided into two long pigtails that snaked down my back. Waves of
memories flooded into rooms of my mind that had sat empty and
unused since my parents’ death.
“Why did the fairy godmother wrap her up?” I asked
in my child’s voice.
Because Diana loved making magic, and she was
very good at it, too. But her fairy godmother knew that other
witches would be jealous of her power. “When you are ready,” the
fairy godmother told her, “you will shrug off these ribbons. Until
then you won’t be able to fly, or make magic.”
“That’s not fair,” I protested, as seven-year-olds
are fond of doing. “Punish the other witches, not me.”
The world isn’t fair, is it? my mother
asked.
I shook my head glumly.
No matter how hard Diana tried, she couldn’t
shake her ribbons off. In time she forgot all about them. And she
forgot her magic, too.
“I would never forget my magic,” I insisted.
My mother frowned. But you have, she said in
her soft whisper. Her story continued. One day, long after,
Diana met a handsome prince who lived in the shadows between sunset
and moonrise.
This had been my favorite part. Memories of other
nights flooded forth. Sometimes I had asked for his name, other
times I’d proclaimed my lack of interest in a stupid prince. Mostly
I wondered why anyone would want to be with a useless witch.
The prince loved Diana, despite the fact that
she couldn’t seem to fly. He could see the ribbons binding her,
though nobody else could. He wondered what they were for and what
would happen if the witch took them off. But the prince didn’t
think it was polite to mention them, in case she felt
self-conscious. I nodded my seven-year-old head, impressed with
the prince’s empathy, and my much older head moved against the
stone walls, too. But he did wonder why a witch wouldn’t want to
fly, if she could.
Then, my mother said, smoothing my hair,
three witches came to town. They could see the ribbons, too, and
suspected that Diana was more powerful than they were. So they
spirited her away to a dark castle. But the ribbons wouldn’t budge,
even though the witches pulled and tugged. So the witches locked
her in a room, hoping she’d be so afraid she’d take the ribbons off
herself.
“Was Diana all alone?”
All alone, my mother said.
“I don’t think I like this story.” I pulled up my
childhood bedspread, a patchwork quilt in bright colors that Sarah
had bought at a Syracuse department store in anticipation of my
visit, and slid down to the floor of the oubliette. My mother
tucked me against the stones.
“Mama?” Yes, Diana?
“I did what you told me to do. I kept my
secrets—from everybody.”
I know it was difficult.
“Do you have any secrets?” In my mind I was running
like a deer through a field, my mother chasing me.
Of course, she said, reaching out and
flicking her fingers so that I soared through the air and landed in
her arms.
“Will you tell me one of them?”
Yes. Her mouth was so close to my ear that
it tickled. You. You are my greatest secret.
“But I’m right here!” I squealed, squirming free
and running in the direction of the apple tree. “How can I be a
secret if I’m right here?”
My mother put her fingers to her lips and
smiled.
Magic.