Chapter 12
Nothing in my culinary experience had
taught me what to feed a vampire when he came for dinner.
In the library I spent most of the day on the
Internet looking for recipes that involved raw foods, my
manuscripts forgotten on the desk. Matthew said he was omnivorous,
but that couldn’t be true. A vampire must be more likely to
tolerate uncooked food if he was used to a diet of blood. But he
was so civilized he would no doubt eat whatever I put in front of
him.
After undertaking extensive gastronomical research,
I left the library at midafternoon. Matthew had held down Fortress
Bishop by himself today, which must have pleased Miriam. There was
no sign of Peter Knox or Gillian Chamberlain anywhere in Duke
Humfrey’s, which made me happy. Even Matthew looked in good humor
when I trotted down the aisle to return my manuscripts.
Passing by the dome of the Radcliffe Camera, where
the undergraduates read their assigned books, and the medieval
walls of Jesus College, I went shopping along the aisles of
Oxford’s Covered Market. List in hand, I made my first stop at the
butcher for fresh venison and rabbit, and then to the fishmonger
for Scottish salmon.
Did vampires eat greens?
Thanks to my mobile, I was able to reach the
zoology department and inquire about the feeding habits of wolves.
They asked me what kind of wolves. I’d seen gray wolves on a
long-ago field trip to the Boston zoo, and it was Matthew’s
favorite color, so that was my answer. After rattling off a long
list of tasty mammals and explaining that they were “preferred
foods,” the bored voice on the other end told me that gray wolves
also ate nuts, seeds, and berries. “But you shouldn’t feed them!”
the voice warned. “They’re not house pets!”
“Thanks for the advice,” I said, trying not to
giggle.
The grocer apologetically sold me the last of the
summer’s black currants and some fragrant wild strawberries. A bag
of chestnuts found its way into my expanding shopping bag,
too.
Then it was off to the wine store, where I found
myself at the mercy of a viticultural evangelist who asked if “the
gentleman knew wine.” That was enough to send me into a tailspin.
The clerk seized upon my confusion to sell me what ended up being a
remarkably few French and German bottles of wine for a king’s
ransom. He then tucked me into a cab to recover from the sticker
shock during the drive back to college.
In my rooms I swept all the papers off a battered
eighteenth-century table that served as both desk and dining room
and moved it closer to the fireplace. I set the table carefully,
using the old porcelain and silver that was in my cupboards, along
with heavy crystal glasses that had to be the final remainders of
an Edwardian set once used in the senior common room. My loyal
kitchen ladies had supplied me with stacks of crisp white linen,
which were now draped over the table, folded next to the silver,
and spread on the chipped wooden tray that would help me carry
things the short distance from the kitchen.
Once I started making dinner, it became clear that
cooking for a vampire doesn’t take much time. You don’t actually
cook much of anything.
By seven o’clock the candles were lit, the food was
ready except for what could be done only at the last minute, and
all that was left to get ready was me.
My wardrobe contained precious little that said
“dinner with a vampire.” There was no way I was dining with Matthew
in a suit or in the outfit I’d worn to meet the warden. The number
of black trousers and leggings I owned was mind-boggling, all with
different degrees of spandex, but most were splotched with tea,
boat grease, or both. Finally I found a pair of swishy black
trousers that looked a bit like pajama bottoms but with slightly
more style. They’d do.
Wearing nothing but a bra and the trousers, I ran
into the bathroom and dragged a comb through my shoulder-length,
straw-colored hair. Not only was it tied in knots at the end, it
was daring me to make it behave by lifting up from my scalp with
every touch of the comb. I briefly considered resorting to the
curling iron, but chances were excellent I’d get only half my head
done by the time Matthew arrived. He was going to be on time. I
just knew it.
While brushing my teeth, I decided the only thing
to do about my hair was to pull it away from my face and twist it
into a knot. This made my chin and nose look more pointed but
created the illusion of cheekbones and got my hair out of my eyes,
which is where it gravitated these days. I pinned it back, and one
piece immediately flopped forward. I sighed.
My mother’s face stared back at me from the mirror.
I thought of how beautiful she’d looked when she sat down to
dinner, and I wondered what she’d done to make her pale eyebrows
and lashes stand out the way they did and why her wide mouth looked
so different when she smiled at me or my father. The clock ruled
out any idea of achieving a similar transformation cosmetically. I
had only three minutes to find a shirt, or I was going to be
greeting Matthew Clairmont, distinguished professor of biochemistry
and neuroscience, in my underwear.
The wardrobe contained two possibilities, one black
and one midnight blue. The midnight blue had the virtue of being
clean, which was the determining factor in its favor. It also had a
funny collar that stood up in the back and winged toward my face
before descending into a V-shaped neckline. The arms were
relatively snug and ended in long, stiff cuffs that flared out
slightly and ended up somewhere around the middle of the back of my
hand. I was sticking a pair of silver earrings through my ears when
there was a knock at the door.
My chest fluttered at the sound, as if this were a
date. I squashed the thought immediately.
When I pulled the door open, Matthew stood outside
looking like the prince in a fairy tale, tall and straight. In a
break with his usual habits, he wore unadulterated black, which
only made him look more striking—and more a vampire.
He waited patiently on the landing while I examined
him.
“Where are my manners? Please come in, Matthew.
Will that do as a formal invitation to enter my house?” I had seen
that on TV or read it in a book.
His lips curved into a smile. “Forget most of what
you think you know about vampires, Diana. This is just normal
politeness. I’m not being held back by a mystical barrier standing
between me and a fair maiden.” Matthew had to stoop slightly to
make it through the doorframe. He cradled a bottle of wine and
carried some white roses.
“For you,” he said, giving me an approving look and
handing me the flowers. “Is there somewhere I can put this until
dessert?” He glanced down at the bottle.
“Thank you, I love roses. How about the
windowsill?” I suggested, before heading to the kitchen to look for
a vase. My other vase had turned out to be a decanter, according to
the senior common room’s wine steward, who had come to my rooms a
few hours earlier to point it out to me when I expressed doubt that
I had such an item.
“Perfect,” Matthew replied.
When I returned with the flowers, he was drifting
around the room looking at the engravings.
“You know, these really aren’t too bad,” he said as
I set the vase on a scarred Napoleonic-era chest of drawers.
“Mostly hunting scenes, I’m afraid.”
“That had not escaped my attention,” Matthew said,
his mouth curved in amusement. I flushed with embarrassment.
“Are you hungry?” I had completely forgotten the
obligatory nibbles and drinks you were supposed to serve before
dinner.
“I could eat,” the vampire said with a grin.
Safely back in the kitchen, I pulled two plates out
of the refrigerator. The first course was smoked salmon with fresh
dill sprinkled on top and a small pile of capers and gherkins
arranged artistically on the side, where they could be construed as
garnish if vampires didn’t eat greens.
When I returned with the food, Matthew was waiting
by the chair that was farthest from the kitchen. The wine was
waiting in a high-sided silver coaster I’d been using to hold
change but which the same helpful member of the senior common
room’s staff had explained was actually intended to hold wine.
Matthew sat down while I extracted the cork from a bottle of German
Riesling. I poured two glasses without spilling a drop and joined
him.
My dinner guest was lost in concentration, holding
the Riesling in front of his long, aquiline nose. I waited for him
to finish whatever he was doing, wondering how many sensory
receptors vampires had in their noses, as opposed to dogs.
I really didn’t know the first thing about
vampires.
“Very nice,” he finally said, opening his eyes and
smiling at me.
“I’m not responsible for the wine,” I said quickly,
snapping my napkin onto my lap. “The man at the wine store picked
everything out, so if it’s no good, it’s not my fault.”
“Very nice,” he said again, “and the salmon looks
wonderful.”
Matthew picked up his knife and fork and speared a
piece of fish. Watching him from under my lashes to see if he could
actually eat it, I piled a bit of pickle, a caper, and some salmon
on the back of my own fork.
“You don’t eat like an American,” he commented
after he’d taken a sip of wine.
“No,” I said, looking at the fork in my left hand
and the knife in my right. “I expect I’ve spent too much time in
England. Can you really eat this?” I blurted, unable to stand it
anymore.
He laughed. “Yes, I happen to like smoked
salmon.”
“But you don’t eat everything,” I insisted, turning
my attention back to my plate.
“No,” he admitted, “but I can manage a few bites of
most food. It doesn’t taste like much to me, though, unless it’s
raw.”
“That’s odd, considering that vampires have such
perfect senses. I’d think that all food would taste wonderful.” My
salmon tasted as clean as fresh, cold water.
He picked up his wineglass and looked into the
pale, golden liquid. “Wine tastes wonderful. Food tastes wrong to a
vampire once it’s been cooked to death.”
I reviewed the menu with enormous relief.
“If food doesn’t taste good, why do you keep
inviting me out to eat?” I asked.
Matthew’s eyes flicked over my cheeks, my eyes, and
lingered on my mouth. “It’s easier to be around you when you’re
eating. The smell of cooked food nauseates me.”
I blinked at him, still confused.
“As long as I’m nauseated, I’m not hungry,” Matthew
said, his voice exasperated.
“Oh!” The pieces clicked together. I already knew
he liked the way I smelled. Apparently that made him hungry.
Oh. I flushed.
“I thought you knew that about vampires,” he said
more gently, “and that’s why you invited me for dinner.”
I shook my head, tucking another bundle of salmon
together. “I probably know less about vampires than most humans do.
And the little my Aunt Sarah taught me has to be treated as highly
suspect, given her prejudices. She was quite clear, for instance,
on your diet. She said vampires will consume only blood, because
it’s all you need to survive. But that isn’t true, is it?”
Matthew’s eyes narrowed, and his tone was suddenly
frosty. “No. You need water to survive. Is that all you
drink?”
“Should I not be talking about this?” My questions
were making him angry. Nervously I wrapped my legs around the base
of the chair and realized I’d never put on any shoes. I was
entertaining in bare feet.
“You can’t help being curious, I suppose,” Matthew
replied after considering my question for a long moment. “I drink
wine and can eat food—preferably uncooked food, or food that’s
cold, so that it doesn’t smell.”
“But the food and wine don’t nourish you,” I
guessed. “You feed on blood—all kinds of blood.” He flinched. “And
you don’t have to wait outside until I invite you into my house.
What else do I have wrong about vampires?”
Matthew’s face adopted an expression of
long-suffering patience. He sat back in his chair, taking the
wineglass with him. I stood up slightly and reached across the
table to pour him some more. If I was going to ply him with
questions, I could at least ply him with wine, too. Leaning over
the candles, I almost set my shirt on fire. Matthew grabbed the
wine bottle.
“Why don’t I do that?” he suggested. He poured
himself some more and topped up my glass as well before he
answered. “Most of what you know about me—about vampires—was
dreamed up by humans. These legends made it possible for humans to
live around us. Creatures frighten them. And I’m not talking solely
about vampires.”
“Black hats, bats, brooms.” It was the unholy
trinity of witchcraft lore, which burst into spectacular,
ridiculous life every year on Halloween.
“Exactly.” Matthew nodded. “Somewhere in each of
these stories, there’s a nugget of truth, something that frightened
humans and helped them deny we were real. The strongest
distinguishing characteristic of humans is their power of denial. I
have strength and long life, you have supernatural abilities,
daemons have awe-inspiring creativity. Humans can convince
themselves up is down and black is white. It’s their special
gift.”
“What’s the truth in the story about vampires not
being allowed inside without an invitation?” Having pressed him on
his diet, I focused on the entrance protocols.
“Humans are with us all the time. They just refuse
to acknowledge our existence because we don’t make sense in their
limited world. Once they allow us in—see us for who we really
are—then we’re in to stay, just as someone you’ve invited into your
home can be hard to get rid of. They can’t ignore us
anymore.”
“So it’s like the stories of sunlight,” I said
slowly. “It’s not that you can’t be in sunlight, but when you are,
it’s harder for humans to ignore you. Rather than admit that you’re
walking among them, humans tell themselves you can’t survive the
light.”
Matthew nodded again. “They manage to ignore us
anyway, of course. We can’t stay indoors until it’s dark. But we
make more sense to humans after twilight—and that goes for you,
too. You should see the looks when you walk into a room or down the
street.”
I thought about my ordinary appearance and glanced
at him doubtfully. Matthew chuckled.
“You don’t believe me, I know. But it’s true. When
humans see a creature in broad daylight, it makes them uneasy.
We’re too much for them—too tall, too strong, too confident, too
creative, too powerful, too different. They try very hard to push
our square pegs into their round holes all day long. At night it’s
a bit easier to dismiss us as merely odd.”
I stood up and removed the fish plates, happy to
see that Matthew had eaten everything but the garnish. He poured a
bit more of the German wine into his glass while I pulled two more
plates out of the refrigerator. Each held neatly arranged slices of
raw venison so thin that the butcher insisted you could read the
Oxford Mail through them. Vampires didn’t like greens. We’d
see about root vegetables and cheese. I heaped beets in the center
of each plate and shaved Parmesan on top.
A broad-bottomed decanter full of red wine went
into the center of the table, where it quickly caught Matthew’s
attention.
“May I?” he asked, no doubt worried about my
burning down the college. He reached for the plain glass container,
poured a bit of wine into our glasses, then held it up to his
nose.
“Côte-Rôtie,” he said with satisfaction. “One of my
favorites.”
I eyed the plain glass container. “You can tell
that just from smelling it?”
He laughed. “Some vampire stories are true. I have
an exceptional sense of smell—and excellent sight and hearing, too.
But even a human could tell that this was Côte-Rôtie.” He closed
his eyes again. “Is it 2003?”
My mouth gaped open. “Yes!” This was better than
watching a game show. There had been a little crown on the label.
“Does your nose tell you who made it?”
“Yes, but that’s because I’ve walked the fields
where the grapes were grown,” he confessed sheepishly, as if he’d
been caught pulling a trick on me.
“You can smell the fields in this?” I stuck my nose
in the glass, relieved that the odor of horse manure was no longer
there.
“Sometimes I believe I can remember everything I’ve
ever smelled. It’s probably vanity,” he said ruefully, “but scents
bring back powerful memories. I remember the first time I smelled
chocolate as if it were yesterday.”
“Really?” I pitched forward in my chair.
“It was 1615. War hadn’t broken out yet, and the
French king had married a Spanish princess that no one
liked—especially not the king.” When I smiled, he smiled back,
though his eyes were fixed on some distant image. “She brought
chocolate to Paris. It was as bitter as sin and as decadent, too.
We drank the cacao straight, mixed with water and no sugar.”
I laughed. “It sounds awful. Thank goodness someone
figured out that chocolate deserved to be sweet.”
“That was a human, I’m afraid. The vampires liked
it bitter and thick.”
We picked up our forks and started in on the
venison. “More Scottish food,” I said, gesturing at the meat with
my knife.
Matthew chewed a piece. “Red deer. A young
Highlands stag from the taste of it.”
I shook my head in amazement.
“As I said,” he continued, “some of the stories are
true.”
“Can you fly?” I asked, already knowing the
answer.
He snorted. “Of course not. We leave that to the
witches, since you can control the elements. But we’re strong and
fast. Vampires can run and jump, which makes humans think we can
fly. We’re efficient, too.”
“Efficient?” I put my fork down, unsure whether raw
venison was to my liking.
“Our bodies don’t waste much energy. We have a lot
of it to spend on moving when we need to.”
“You don’t breathe much,” I said, thinking back to
yoga and taking a sip of wine.
“No,” Matthew said. “Our hearts don’t beat very
often. We don’t need to eat very often. We run cold, which slows
down most bodily processes and helps explain why we live so
long.”
“The coffin story! You don’t sleep much, but when
you do, you sleep like the dead.”
He grinned. “You’re getting the hang of this, I
see.”
Matthew’s plate was empty of everything except for
the beets, and mine was empty except for the venison. I cleared
away the second course and invited him to pour more wine.
The main dish was the only part of the meal that
required heat, and not much of it. I had already made a bizarre
biscuitlike thing from ground chestnuts. All that was left for me
to do was sear some rabbit. The list of ingredients included
rosemary, garlic, and celery. I decided to forgo the garlic. With
his sense of smell, garlic must overpower everything else—there was
the nugget of truth in that vampire legend. The celery was
also ruled out. Vampires categorically did not like vegetables.
Spices didn’t seem to pose a problem, so I kept the rosemary and
ground some pepper over the rabbit while it seared in the
pan.
Leaving Matthew’s rabbit a little underdone, I
cooked mine a bit more than was required, in the hope that it would
get the taste of raw venison out of my mouth. After assembling
everything in an artistic pile, I delivered it to the table. “This
is cooked, I’m afraid—but barely.”
“You don’t think this is a test of some sort, do
you?” Matthew’s face creased into a frown.
“No, no,” I said hurriedly. “But I’m not used to
entertaining vampires.”
“I’m relieved to hear it,” he murmured. He gave the
rabbit a sniff. “It smells delicious.” While he was bent over his
plate, the heat from the rabbit amplified his distinctive scent of
cinnamon and clove. Matthew forked up a bit of the chestnut
biscuit. As it traveled to his mouth, his eyes widened.
“Chestnuts?”
“Nothing but chestnuts, olive oil, and a bit of
baking powder.”
“And salt. And water, rosemary, and pepper,” he
commented calmly, taking another bite of the biscuit.
“Given your dietary restrictions, it’s a good thing
you can figure out exactly what you’re putting in your mouth,” I
grumbled jokingly.
With most of the meal behind us, I began to relax.
We chatted about Oxford while I cleared the plates and brought
cheese, berries, and roasted chestnuts to the table.
“Help yourself,” I said, putting an empty plate in
front of him. Matthew savored the aroma of the tiny strawberries
and sighed happily as he picked up a chestnut.
“These really are better warm,” he observed. He
cracked the hard nut easily in his fingers and popped the meat out
of the shell. The nutcracker hanging off the edge of the bowl was
clearly optional equipment with a vampire at the table.
“What do I smell like?” I asked, toying with the
stem of my wineglass.
For a few moments, it seemed as though he wasn’t
going to answer. The silence stretched thin before he turned
wistful eyes on me. His lids fell, and he inhaled deeply.
“You smell of willow sap. And chamomile that’s been
crushed underfoot.” He sniffed again and smiled a small, sad smile.
“There’s honeysuckle and fallen oak leaves, too,” he said softly,
breathing out, “along with witch hazel blooming and the first
narcissus of spring. And ancient things—horehound, frankincense,
lady’s mantle. Scents I thought I’d forgotten.”
His eyes opened slowly, and I looked into their
gray depths, afraid to breathe and break the spell his words had
cast.
“What about me?” he asked, his eyes holding on to
mine.
“Cinnamon.” My voice was hesitant. “And cloves.
Sometimes I think you smell of carnations—not the kind in the
florist shops but the old-fashioned ones that grow in English
cottage gardens.”
“Clove pinks,” Matthew said, his eyes crinkling at
the corners in amusement. “Not bad for a witch.”
I reached for a chestnut. Cupping the nut in my
palms, I rolled it from one hand to the other, the warmth traveling
up my suddenly chilly arms.
Matthew sat back in his chair again, surveying my
face with little flicks of his eyes. “How did you decide what to
serve for dinner tonight?” He gestured at the berries and nuts that
were left from the meal.
“Well, it wasn’t magic. The zoology department
helped a lot,” I explained.
He looked startled, then roared with laughter. “You
asked the zoology department what to make me for dinner?”
“Not exactly,” I said defensively. “There were
raw-food recipes on the Net, but I got stuck after I bought the
meat. They told me what gray wolves ate.”
Matthew shook his head, but he was still smiling,
and my irritation dissolved. “Thank you,” he said simply. “It’s
been a very long time since someone made me a meal.”
“You’re welcome. The wine was the worst
part.”
Matthew’s eyes brightened. “Speaking of wine,” he
said, standing up and folding his napkin, “I brought us something
to have after dinner.”
He asked me to fetch two fresh glasses from the
kitchen. An old, slightly lopsided bottle was sitting on the table
when I returned. It had a faded cream label with simple lettering
and a coronet. Matthew was working the corkscrew carefully into a
cork that was crumbly and black with age.
His nostrils flared when he pulled it free, his
face taking on the look of a cat in secure possession of a
delectable canary. The wine that came out of the bottle was syrupy,
its golden color glinting in the light of the candles.
“Smell it,” he commanded, handing me one of the
glasses, “and tell me what you think.”
I took a sniff and gasped. “It smells like caramels
and berries,” I said, wondering how something so yellow could smell
of something red.
Matthew was watching me closely, interested in my
reactions. “Take a sip,” he suggested.
The wine’s sweet flavors exploded in my mouth.
Apricots and vanilla custard from the kitchen ladies tumbled across
my tongue, and my mouth tingled with them long after I’d swallowed.
It was like drinking magic.
“What is this?” I finally said, after the taste of
the wine had faded.
“It was made from grapes picked a long, long time
ago. That summer had been hot and sunny, and the farmers worried
that the rains were going to come and ruin the crop. But the
weather held, and they got the grapes in just before the weather
changed.”
“You can taste the sunshine,” I said, earning
myself another beautiful smile.
“During the harvest a comet blazed over the
vineyards. It had been visible through astronomers’ telescopes for
months, but in October it was so bright you could almost read by
its light. The workers saw it as a sign that the grapes were
blessed.”
“Was this in 1986? Was it Halley’s comet?”
Matthew shook his head. “No. It was 1811.” I stared
in astonishment at the almost two-hundred-year-old wine in my
glass, fearing it might evaporate before my eyes. “Halley’s comet
came in 1759 and 1835.” He pronounced the name “Hawley.”
“Where did you get it?” The wine store by the train
station did not have wine like this.
“I bought it from Antoine-Marie as soon as he told
me it was going to be extraordinary,” he said with amusement.
Turning the bottle, I looked at the label. Château
Yquem. Even I had heard of that.
“And you’ve had it ever since,” I said. He’d drunk
chocolate in Paris in 1615 and received a building permit from
Henry VIII in 1536—of course he was buying wine in 1811. And there
was the ancient-looking ampulla he was wearing around his neck, the
cord visible at his throat.
“Matthew,” I said slowly, watching him for any
early warning signs of anger. “How old are you?”
His mouth hardened, but he kept his voice light.
“I’m older than I look.”
“I know that,” I said, unable to curb my
impatience.
“Why is my age important?”
“I’m a historian. If somebody tells me he remembers
when chocolate was introduced into France or a comet passing
overhead in 1811, it’s difficult not to be curious about the other
events he might have lived through. You were alive in 1536—I’ve
been to the house you had built. Did you know Machiavelli? Live
through the Black Death? Attend the University of Paris when
Abelard was teaching there?”
He remained silent. The hair on the back of my neck
started to prickle.
“Your pilgrim’s badge tells me you were once in the
Holy Land. Did you go on crusade? See Halley’s comet pass over
Normandy in 1066?”
Still nothing.
“Watch Charlemagne’s coronation? Survive the fall
of Carthage? Help keep Attila from reaching Rome?”
Matthew held up his right index finger. “Which fall
of Carthage?”
“You tell me!”
“Damn you, Hamish Osborne,” he muttered, his hand
flexing on the tablecloth. For the second time in two days, Matthew
struggled over what to say. He stared into the candle, drawing his
finger slowly through the flame. His flesh erupted into angry red
blisters, then smoothed itself out into white, cold perfection an
instant later without a flicker of pain evident on his face.
“I believe that my body is nearly thirty-seven
years of age. I was born around the time Clovis converted to
Christianity. My parents remembered that, or I’d have no idea. We
didn’t keep track of birthdays back then. It’s tidier to pick the
date of five hundred and be done with it.” He looked up at me,
briefly, and returned his attention to the candles. “I was reborn a
vampire in 537, and with the exception of Attila—who was before my
time—you’ve touched on most of the high and low points in the
millennium between then and the year I put the keystone into my
house in Woodstock. Because you’re a historian, I feel obligated to
tell you that Machiavelli was not nearly as impressive as you all
seem to think he was. He was just a Florentine politician—and not a
terribly good one at that.” A note of weariness had crept into his
voice.
Matthew Clairmont was more than fifteen hundred
years old.
“I shouldn’t pry,” I said by way of apology, unsure
of where to look and mystified as to what had led me to think that
knowing the historical events this vampire had lived through would
help me know him better. A line from Ben Jonson floated into my
mind. It seemed to explain Matthew in a way that the coronation of
Charlemagne could not. “‘He was not of an age, but for all
time,’” I murmured.
“‘With thee conversing I forget all time,’”
he responded, traveling further into seventeenth-century literature
and offering up a line from Milton.
We looked at each other for as long as we could
stand it, working another fragile spell between us. I broke
it.
“What were you doing in the fall of 1859?”
His face darkened. “What has Peter Knox been
telling you?”
“That you were unlikely to share your secrets with
a witch.” My voice sounded calmer than I felt.
“Did he?” Matthew said softly, sounding less angry
than he clearly was. I could see it in the set of his jaw and
shoulders. “In September 1859 I was looking through the manuscripts
in the Ashmolean Museum.”
“Why, Matthew?” Please tell me, I urged
silently, crossing my fingers in my lap. I’d provoked him into
revealing the first part of his secret but wanted him to freely
give me the rest. No games, no riddles. Just tell me.
“I’d recently finished reading a book manuscript
that was soon going to press. It was written by a Cambridge
naturalist.” Matthew put down his glass.
My hand flew to my mouth as the significance of the
date registered. “Origin.” Like Newton’s great work of
physics, the Principia, this was a book that did not require
a full citation. Anyone who’d passed high-school biology knew
Darwin’s On the Origin of Species.
“Darwin’s article the previous summer laid out his
theory of natural selection, but the book was quite different. It
was marvelous, the way he established easily observable changes in
nature and inched you toward accepting something so
revolutionary.”
“But alchemy has nothing to do with evolution.”
Grabbing the bottle, I poured myself more of the precious wine,
less concerned that it might vanish than that I might come
unglued.
“Lamarck believed that each species descended from
different ancestors and progressed independently toward higher
forms of being. It’s remarkably similar to what your alchemists
believed—that the philosopher’s stone was the elusive end product
of a natural transmutation of base metals into more exalted metals
like copper, silver, and gold.” Matthew reached for the wine, and I
pushed it toward him.
“But Darwin disagreed with Lamarck, even if he did
use the same word—‘transmutation’—in his initial discussions of
evolution.”
“He disagreed with linear transmutation, it’s true.
But Darwin’s theory of natural selection can still be seen as a
series of linked transmutations.”
Maybe Matthew was right and magic really was in
everything. It was in Newton’s theory of gravity, and it might be
in Darwin’s theory of evolution, too.
“There are alchemical manuscripts all over the
world.” I was trying to remain moored to the details while coming
to terms with the bigger picture. “Why the Ashmole
manuscripts?”
“When I read Darwin and saw how he seemed to
explore the alchemical theory of transmutation through biology, I
remembered stories about a mysterious book that explained the
origin of our three species—daemons, witches, and vampires. I’d
always dismissed them as fantastic.” He took a sip of wine. “Most
suggested that the story was concealed from human eyes in a book of
alchemy. The publication of Origin prompted me to look for
it, and if such a book existed, Elias Ashmole would have bought it.
He had an uncanny ability to find bizarre manuscripts.”
“You were looking for it here in Oxford, one
hundred and fifty years ago?”
“Yes,” Matthew said. “And one hundred and fifty
years before you received Ashmole 782, I was told that it was
missing.”
My heart sped up, and he looked at me in concern.
“Keep going,” I said, waving him on.
“I’ve been trying to get my hands on it ever since.
Every other Ashmole manuscript was there, and none seemed
promising. I’ve looked at manuscripts in other libraries—at the
Herzog August Bibliothek in Germany, the Bibliothèque Nationale in
France, the Medici Library in Florence, the Vatican, the Library of
Congress.”
I blinked, thinking of a vampire wandering the
hallways of the Vatican.
“The only manuscript I haven’t seen is Ashmole 782.
By simple process of elimination, it must be the manuscript that
contains our story—if it still survives.”
“You’ve looked at more alchemical manuscripts than
I have.”
“Perhaps,” Matthew admitted, “but it doesn’t mean I
understand them as well as you do. What all the manuscripts I’ve
seen have in common, though, is an absolute confidence that the
alchemist can help one substance change into another, creating new
forms of life.”
“That sounds like evolution,” I said flatly.
“Yes,” Matthew said gently, “it does.”
We moved to the sofas, and I curled up into a ball
at the end of one while Matthew sprawled in the corner of the
other, his long legs stretched out in front of him. Happily, he’d
brought the wine. Once we were settled, it was time for more
honesty between us.
“I met a daemon, Agatha Wilson, at Blackwell’s last
week. According to the Internet, she’s a famous designer. Agatha
told me the daemons believe that Ashmole 782 is the story of all
origins—even human origins. Peter Knox told me a different story.
He said it was the first grimoire, the source of all witches’
power. Knox believes that the manuscript contains the secret of
immortality,” I said, glancing at Matthew, “and how to destroy
vampires. I’ve heard the daemon and witch versions of the story—now
I want yours.”
“Vampires believe the lost manuscript explains our
longevity and our strength,” he said. “In the past, our fear was
that this secret—if it fell into witches’ hands—would lead to our
extermination. Some fear that magic was involved in our making and
that the witches might find a way to reverse the magic and destroy
us. It seems that that part of the legend might be true.” He
exhaled softly, looking worried.
“I still don’t understand why you’re so certain
that this book of origins—whatever it may contain—is hidden inside
an alchemy book.”
“An alchemy book could hide these secrets in plain
sight—just like Peter Knox hides his identity as a witch under the
veneer that he’s an expert in the occult. I think it was vampires
who learned that the book was alchemical. It’s too perfect a fit to
be coincidence. The human alchemists seemed to capture what it is
to be a vampire when they wrote about the philosopher’s stone.
Becoming a vampire makes us nearly immortal, it makes most of us
rich, and it gives us the chance to accrue unimaginable knowledge
and learning.”
“That’s the philosopher’s stone, all right.” The
parallels between this mythic substance and the creature sitting
opposite me were striking—and chilling. “But it’s still hard to
imagine such a book really exists. For one thing, all the stories
contradict one another. And who would be so foolish as to put so
much information in one place?”
“As with the legends about vampires and witches,
there’s at least a nugget of truth in all the stories about the
manuscript. We just have to figure out what that nugget is and
strip away the rest. Then we’ll begin to understand.”
Matthew’s face bore no trace of deceit or evasion.
Encouraged by his use of “we,” I decided he’d earned more
information.
“You’re right about Ashmole 782. The book you’ve
been seeking is inside it.”
“Go on,” Matthew said softly, trying to control his
curiosity.
“It’s an alchemy book on the surface. The images
contain errors, or deliberate mistakes—I still can’t decide which.”
I bit my lip in concentration, and his eyes fixed on the place
where my teeth had drawn a tiny bead of blood to the surface.
“What do you mean ‘it’s an alchemy book on the
surface’?” Matthew held his glass closer to his nose.
“It’s a palimpsest. But the ink hasn’t been washed
away. Magic is hiding the text. I almost missed the words, they’re
hidden so well. But when I turned one of the pages, the light was
at just the right angle and I could see lines of writing moving
underneath.”
“Could you read it?”
“No.” I shook my head. “If Ashmole 782 contains
information about who we are, how we came to be, and how we might
be destroyed, it’s deeply buried.”
“It’s fine if it remains buried,” Matthew said
grimly, “at least for now. But the time is quickly coming when we
will need that book.”
“Why? What makes it so urgent?”
“I’d rather show you than tell you. Can you come to
my lab tomorrow?”
I nodded, mystified.
“We can walk there after lunch,” he said, standing
up and stretching. We had emptied the bottle of wine amid all this
talk of secrets and origins. “It’s late. I should go.”
Matthew reached for the doorknob and gave it a
twist. It rattled, and the catch sprang open easily.
He frowned. “Have you had trouble with your
lock?”
“No,” I said, pushing the mechanism in and out,
“not that I’m aware of.”
“You should have them look at that,” he said, still
jiggling the door’s hardware. “It might not close properly until
you do.”
When I looked up from the door, an emotion I
couldn’t name flitted across his face.
“I’m sorry the evening ended on such a serious
note,” he said softly. “I did have a lovely time.”
“Was the dinner really all right?” I asked. We’d
talked about the secrets of the universe, but I was more worried
about how his stomach was faring.
“It was more than all right,” he assured me.
My face softened at his beautiful, ancient
features. How could people walk by him on the street and not gasp?
Before I could stop myself, my toes were gripping the old rug and I
was stretching up to kiss him quickly on the cheek. His skin felt
smooth and cold like satin, and my lips felt unusually warm against
his flesh.
Why did you do that? I asked myself, coming
down off my toes and gazing at the questionable doorknob to hide my
confusion.
It was over in a matter of seconds, but as I knew
from using magic to get Notes and Queries off the Bodleian’s
shelf, a few seconds was all it took to change your life.
Matthew studied me. When I showed no sign of
hysteria or an inclination to make a run for it, he leaned toward
me and kissed me slowly once, twice in the French manner. His face
skimmed over mine, and he drank in my scent of willow sap and
honeysuckle. When he straightened, Matthew’s eyes looked smokier
than usual.
“Good night, Diana,” he said with a smile.
Moments later, leaning against the closed door, I
spied the blinking number one on my answering machine. Mercifully,
the machine’s volume was turned down.
Aunt Sarah wanted to ask the same question I’d
asked myself.
I just didn’t want to answer.