Chapter 20
Ysabeau was mercifully absent at lunch.
Afterward I wanted to go straight to Matthew’s study and start
examining Aurora Consurgens, but he convinced me to take a
bath first. It would, he promised, make the inevitable muscle
stiffness more bearable. Halfway upstairs, I had to stop and rub a
cramp in my leg. I was going to pay for the morning’s
enthusiasm.
The bath was heavenly—long, hot, and relaxing. I
put on loose black trousers, a sweater, and a pair of socks and
padded downstairs, where a fire was blazing. My flesh turned orange
and red as I held my hands out to the flames. What would it be like
to control fire? My fingers tingled in response to the question,
and I slid them safely into my pockets.
Matthew looked up from his desk. “Your manuscript
is next to your computer.”
Its black covers drew me as surely as a magnet. I
sat down at the table and opened them, holding the book carefully.
The colors were even brighter than I remembered. After staring at
the queen for several minutes, I turned the first page.
“Incipit tractatus Aurora Consurgens
intitulatus.” The words were familiar—“Here begins the treatise
called the Rising of the Dawn”—but I still felt the shiver of
pleasure associated with seeing a manuscript for the first time.
“Everything good comes to me along with her. She is known as the
Wisdom of the South, who calls out in the streets, and to the
multitudes,” I read silently, translating from the Latin. It
was a beautiful work, full of paraphrases from Scripture as well as
other texts.
“Do you have a Bible up here?” It would be wise for
me to have one handy as I made my way through the manuscript.
“Yes—but I’m not sure where it is. Do you want me
to look for it?” Matthew rose slightly from his chair, but his eyes
were still glued to his computer screen.
“No, I’ll find it.” I got up and ran my finger down
the edge of the nearest shelf. Matthew’s books were arranged not by
size but in a running time line. Those on the first bookshelf were
so ancient that I couldn’t bear to think about what they
contained—the lost works of Aristotle, perhaps? Anything was
possible.
Roughly half of Matthew’s books were shelved spine
in to protect the books’ fragile edges. Many of these had
identifying marks written along the edges of the pages, and thick
black letters spelled out a title here, an author’s name there.
Halfway around the room, the books began to appear spine out, their
titles and authors embossed in gold and silver.
I slid past the manuscripts with their thick and
bumpy pages, some with small Greek letters on the front edge. I
kept going, looking for a large, fat, printed book. My index finger
froze in front of one bound in brown leather and covered with
gilding.
“Matthew, please tell me ‘Biblia Sacra 1450’ is not
what I think it is.”
“Okay, it’s not what you think it is,” he said
automatically, fingers racing over the keys with more than human
speed. He was paying little attention to what I was doing and none
at all to what I was saying.
Leaving Gutenberg’s Bible where it was, I continued
along the shelves, hoping that it wasn’t the only one available to
me. My finger froze again at a book labeled Will’s Playes.
“Were these books given to you by friends?”
“Most of them.” Matthew didn’t even look up.
Like German printing, the early days of English
drama were a subject for later discussion.
For the most part, Matthew’s books were in pristine
condition. This was not entirely surprising, given their owner.
Some, though, were well worn. A slender, tall book on the bottom
shelf, for instance, had corners so torn and thin you could see the
wooden boards peeking through the leather. Curious to see what had
made this book a favorite, I pulled it out and opened the pages. It
was Vesalius’s anatomy book from 1543, the first to depict
dissected human bodies in exacting detail.
Now hunting for fresh insights into Matthew, I
sought out the next book to show signs of heavy use. This time it
was a smaller, thicker volume. Inked onto the fore edge was the
title De motu. William Harvey’s study of the circulation of
the blood and his explanation of how the heart pumped must have
been interesting reading for vampires when it was first published
in the 1620s, though they must already have had some notion that
this might be the case.
Matthew’s well-worn books included works on
electricity, microscopy, and physiology. But the most battered book
I’d seen yet was resting on the nineteenth-century shelves: a first
edition of Darwin’s On the Origin of Species.
Sneaking a glance at Matthew, I pulled the book off
the shelf with the stealth of a shoplifter. Its green cloth
binding, with the title and author stamped in gold, was frayed with
wear. Matthew had written his name in a beautiful copperplate
script on the flyleaf.
There was a letter folded inside.
“Dear Sir,” it began. “Your letter of 15
October has reached me at last. I am mortified at my slow reply. I
have for many years been collecting all the facts which I could in
regard to the variation and origin of species, and your approval of
my reasonings comes as welcome news as my book will soon pass into
the publisher’s hands.” It was signed “C. Darwin,” and
the date was 1859.
The two men had been exchanging letters just weeks
prior to Origin’s publication in November.
The book’s pages were covered with the vampire’s
notes in pencil and ink, leaving hardly an inch of blank paper.
Three chapters were annotated even more heavily than the rest. They
were the chapters on instinct, hybridism, and the affinities
between the species.
Like Harvey’s treatise on the circulation of blood,
Darwin’s seventh chapter, on natural instincts, must have been
page-turning reading for vampires. Matthew had underlined specific
passages and written above and below the lines as well as in the
margins as he grew more excited by Darwin’s ideas. “Hence, we
may conclude, that domestic
instincts have been acquired and natural instincts have been lost partly by
habit, and partly by man selecting and accumulating during
successive generations, peculiar
mental habits and actions, which at first appeared
from what we must in our ignorance
call an accident.” Matthew’s scribbled remarks
included questions about which instincts might have been acquired
and whether accidents were possible in nature. “Can it be that
we have maintained as instincts what humans have given up through
accident and habit?” he asked across the bottom margin. There
was no need for me to ask who was included in “we.” He meant
creatures—not just vampires, but witches and daemons, too.
In the chapter on hybridism, Matthew’s interest had
been caught by the problems of crossbreeding and sterility.
“First crosses between forms sufficiently distinct to be ranked
as species, and their hybrids,” Darwin wrote, “are very
generally, but not universally,
sterile.” A sketch of a family tree crowded the margins
next to the underlined passage. There was a question mark where the
roots belonged and four branches. “Why has inbreeding not led to
sterility or madness?” Matthew wondered in the tree’s trunk. At
the top of the page, he had written, “1 species or 4?” and
“comment sont faites les dāēōs?”
I traced the writing with my finger. This was my
specialty—turning the scribbles of scientists into something
sensible to everyone else. In his last note, Matthew had used a
familiar technique to hide his thoughts. He’d written in a
combination of French and Latin—and used an archaic abbreviation
for daemons for good measure in which the consonants save the first
and last had been replaced with lines over the vowels. That way no
one paging through his book would see the word “daemons” and stop
for a closer look.
“How are daemons made?” Matthew had wondered in
1859. He was still looking for the answer a century and a half
later.
When Darwin began discussing the affinities between
species, Matthew’s pen had been unable to stop racing across the
page, making it nearly impossible to read the printed text. Against
a passage explaining, “From the first dawn of life, all organic
beings are found to resemble each other in descending degrees, so
that they can be classed in groups under groups,” Matthew had
written “ORIGINS” in large black letters. A few lines down,
another passage had been underlined twice: “The existence of
groups would have been of simple signification, if one group had
been exclusively fitted to inhabit the land, and another the
water; one to feed on flesh, another
on vegetable matter, and so on; but the case is widely different in
nature; for it is notorious how commonly members of even the same
subgroup have different habits.”
Did Matthew believe that the vampire diet was a
habit rather than a defining characteristic of the species? Reading
on, I found the next clue. “Finally, the several classes of
facts which have been considered in this chapter, seem to me to
proclaim so plainly, that the
innumerable species, genera, and families of organic beings, with
which this world is
peopled, have all descended, each within its own class or group,
from common parents, and have all been modified in the course of
descent.” In the margins Matthew had written
“COMMON PARENTS” and “ce qui explique tout.”
The vampire believed that monogenesis explained
everything—or at least he had in 1859. Matthew thought it was
possible that daemons, humans, vampires, and witches shared common
ancestors. Our considerable differences were matters of descent,
habit, and selection. He had evaded me in his laboratory when I
asked whether we were one species or four, but he couldn’t do so in
his library.
Matthew remained fixated on his computer. Closing
the covers of Aurora Consurgens to protect its pages and
abandoning my search for a more ordinary Bible, I carried his copy
of Darwin to the fire and curled up on the sofa. I opened it,
intending to try to make sense of the vampire based on the notes
he’d made in his book.
He was still a mystery to me—perhaps even more so
here at Sept-Tours. Matthew in France was different from Matthew in
England. He’d never lost himself in his work this way. Here his
shoulders weren’t fiercely squared but relaxed, and he’d caught his
lower lip in his slightly elongated, sharp cuspid as he typed. It
was a sign of concentration, as was the crease between his eyes.
Matthew was oblivious to my attention, his fingers flying over the
keys, clattering on the computer with a considerable amount of
force. He must go through laptops at quite a rate, given their
delicate plastic parts. He reached the end of a sentence, leaned
back in his chair, and stretched. Then he yawned.
I’d never seen him yawn before. Was his yawn, like
his lowered shoulders, a sign of relaxation? The day after we’d
first met, Matthew had told me that he liked to know his
environment. Here he knew every inch of the place—every smell was
familiar, as was every creature who roamed nearby. And then there
was his relationship with his mother and Marthe. They were a
family, this odd assortment of vampires, and they had taken me in
for Matthew’s sake.
I turned back to Darwin. But the bath, the warm
fire, and the constant background noise of his clacking fingers
lulled me to sleep. I woke up covered with a blanket, On the
Origin of Species lying on the floor nearby, neatly closed with
a slip of paper marking my place.
I flushed.
I’d been caught snooping.
“Good evening,” Matthew said from the sofa
opposite. He slid a piece of paper into the book that he was
reading and rested it on his knee. “Can I interest you in some
wine?”
Wine sounded very, very good. “Yes, please.”
Matthew went to a small eighteenth-century table
near the landing. There was a bottle with no label, the cork pulled
and lying at its side. He poured two glasses and carried one to me
before he sat down. I sniffed, anticipating his first
question.
“Raspberries and rocks.”
“For a witch you’re really quite good at this.”
Matthew nodded in approval.
“What is it that I’m drinking?” I asked, taking a
sip. “Is it ancient? Rare?”
Matthew put his head back and laughed. “Neither. It
was probably put in the bottle about five months ago. It’s local
wine, from vineyards down the road. Nothing fancy, nothing
special.”
It may not have been fancy or special, but it was
fresh and tasted woody and earthy like the air around
Sept-Tours.
“I see that you gave up your search for a Bible in
favor of something more scientific. Were you enjoying Darwin?” he
asked mildly after watching me drink for a few moments.
“Do you still believe that creatures and humans are
descended from common parents? Is it really possible that the
differences between us are merely racial?”
He made a small sound of impatience. “I told you in
the lab that I didn’t know.”
“You were sure in 1859. And you thought that
drinking blood might be simply a dietary habit, not a mark of
differentiation.”
“Do you know how many scientific advances have
taken place between Darwin’s time and today? It’s a scientist’s
prerogative to change his mind as new information comes to light.”
He drank some wine and rested the glass against his knee, turning
it this way and that so the firelight played on the liquid inside.
“Besides, there’s no longer much scientific evidence for human
notions of racial distinctions. Modern research suggests that most
ideas about race are nothing more than an outmoded human method for
explaining easily observable differences between themselves and
someone else.”
“The question of why you’re here—how we’re all
here—really does consume you,” I said slowly. “I could see it on
every page of Darwin’s book.”
Matthew studied his wine. “It’s the only question
worth asking.”
His voice was soft, but his profile was stern, with
its sharp lines and heavy brow. I wanted to smooth the lines and
lift his features into a smile but remained seated while the
firelight danced over his white skin and dark hair. Matthew picked
up his book again, cradling it in one set of long fingers while his
wineglass rested in the other.
I stared at the fire as the light dimmed. When a
clock on the desk struck seven, Matthew put down his book. “Should
we join Ysabeau in the salon before dinner?”
“Yes,” I replied, squaring my shoulders slightly.
“But let me change first.” My wardrobe couldn’t hold a candle to
Ysabeau’s, but I didn’t want Matthew to be completely ashamed of
me. As ever, he looked ready for a boardroom or a Milan catwalk in
a simple pair of black wool trousers and a fresh selection from his
endless supply of sweaters. My recent close encounters with them
had convinced me they were all cashmere—thick and luscious.
Upstairs, I rooted through the items in my duffel
bag and selected a gray pair of trousers and a sapphire blue
sweater made out of finely spun wool with a tight, funnel-shaped
neck and bell-shaped sleeves. My hair had a wave in it thanks to my
earlier bath and the fact that it had finished drying scrunched
under my head on the sofa.
With the minimum conditions of presentability met,
I slid on my loafers and started down the stairs. Matthew’s keen
ears had picked up the sound of my movements, and he met me on the
landing. When he saw me, his eyes lit up and his smile was wide and
slow.
“I like you in blue as much as I like you in black.
You look beautiful,” he murmured, kissing me formally on both
cheeks. The blood moved toward them as Matthew lifted my hair
around my shoulders, the strands falling through his long white
fingers. “Now, don’t let Ysabeau get under your skin no matter what
she says.”
“I’ll try,” I said with a little laugh, looking up
at him uncertainly.
When we reached the salon, Marthe and Ysabeau were
already there. His mother was surrounded by newspapers written in
every major European language, as well as one in Hebrew and another
in Arabic. Marthe, on the other hand, was reading a paperback
murder mystery with a lurid cover, her black eyes darting over the
lines of print with enviable speed.
“Good evening, Maman,” Matthew said, moving
to give Ysabeau a kiss on each cold cheek. Her nostrils flared as
he moved his body from one side to the other, and her cold eyes
fixed on mine angrily.
I knew what had earned me such a black look.
Matthew smelled like me.
“Come, girl,” Marthe said, patting the cushion next
to her and shooting Matthew’s mother a warning glance. Ysabeau
closed her eyes. When they opened again, the anger was gone,
replaced by something like resignation.
“Gab es einen anderen Tod,” Ysabeau murmured
to her son as Matthew picked up Die Welt and began scanning
the headlines with a sound of disgust.
“Where?” I asked. Another bloodless corpse had been
found. If Ysabeau thought she was going to shut me out of the
conversation with German, she’d better think again.
“Munich,” Matthew said, his face buried in the
pages. “Christ, why doesn’t someone do something about
this?”
“We must be careful what we wish for, Matthew,”
Ysabeau said. She changed the subject abruptly. “How was your ride,
Diana?”
Matthew peered warily at his mother over Die
Welt’s headlines.
“It was wonderful. Thank you for letting me ride
Rakasa,” I replied, sitting back next to Marthe and forcing myself
to meet Ysabeau’s eyes without blinking.
“She is too willful for my liking,” she said,
shifting her attention to her son, who had the good sense to put
his nose back in his paper. “Fiddat is much more biddable. As I get
older, I find that quality admirable in horses.”
In sons, too, I thought.
Marthe smiled encouragingly at me and got up to
fuss at a sideboard. She carried a large goblet of wine to Ysabeau
and a much smaller one to me. Marthe returned to the table and came
back with another glass for Matthew. He sniffed it
appreciatively.
“Thank you, Maman,” he said, raising his
glass in tribute.
“Hein, it’s not much,” Ysabeau said, taking
a sip of the same wine.
“No, not much. Just one of my favorites. Thank you
for remembering.” Matthew savored the wine’s flavors before
swallowing the liquid down.
“Are all vampires as fond of wine as you are?” I
asked Matthew, smelling the peppery wine. “You drink it all the
time, and you never get the slightest bit tipsy.”
Matthew grinned. “Most vampires are much fonder of
it. As for getting drunk, our family has always been known for its
admirable restraint, hasn’t it, Maman?”
Ysabeau gave a most unladylike snort.
“Occasionally. With respect to wine, perhaps.”
“You should be a diplomat, Ysabeau. You’re very
good with a quick non-answer,” I said.
Matthew shouted with laughter. “Dieu, I
never thought the day would come when my mother would be thought
diplomatic. Especially not with her tongue. Ysabeau’s always been
much better with the diplomacy of the sword.”
Marthe snickered in agreement.
Ysabeau and I both looked indignant, which only
made him shout again.
The atmosphere at dinner was considerably warmer
than it had been last night. Matthew sat at the head of the table,
with Ysabeau to his left and me at his right. Marthe traveled
incessantly from kitchen to fireside to table, sitting now and
again to take a sip of wine and make small contributions to the
conversation.
Plates full of food came and went—everything from
wild mushroom soup to quail to delicate slices of beef. I marveled
aloud that someone who no longer ate cooked food could have such a
deft hand with spices. Marthe blushed and dimpled, swatting at
Matthew when he tried to tell stories of her more spectacular
culinary disasters.
“Do you remember the live pigeon pie?” He chortled.
“No one ever explained that you had to keep the birds from eating
for twenty-four hours before you baked it or the inside would
resemble a birdbath.” That earned him a sharp tap on the back of
his skull.
“Matthew,” Ysabeau warned, wiping the tears from
her eyes after a prolonged bout of laughter, “you shouldn’t bait
Marthe. You have had your share of disasters over the years,
too.”
“And I have seen them all,” Marthe pronounced,
carrying over a salad. Her English got stronger by the hour, as she
switched into the language whenever she talked in front of me. She
returned to the sideboard and fetched a bowl of nuts, which she put
between Matthew and Ysabeau. “When you flooded the castle with your
idea for capturing water on the roof, for one,” she said, ticking
it off on her fingers. “When you forgot to collect the taxes, two.
It was spring, you were bored, and so you got up one morning and
went to Italy to make war. Your father had to beg forgiveness from
the king on his knees. And then there was New York!” she shouted
triumphantly.
The three vampires continued to swap reminiscences.
None of them talked about Ysabeau’s past, though. When something
came up that touched on her, or Matthew’s father, or his sister,
the conversation slid gracefully away. I noticed the pattern and
wondered about the reasons for it but said nothing, content to let
the evening develop as they wished it to and strangely comforted to
be part of a family again—even a family of vampires.
After dinner we returned to the salon, where the
fire was larger and more impressive than before. The castle’s
chimneys were heating up with each log thrown into the grate. The
fires burned hotter, and the room almost felt warm as a result.
Matthew made sure that Ysabeau was comfortable, getting her yet
another glass of wine, and fiddled with a nearby stereo. Marthe
made me tea instead, thrusting the cup and saucer into my
hands.
“Drink,” she instructed, her eyes attentive.
Ysabeau watched me drink, too, and gave Marthe a long look. “It
will help you sleep.”
“Did you make this?” It tasted of herbs and
flowers. Normally I didn’t like herbal tea, but this one was fresh
and slightly bitter.
“Yes,” she answered, turning up her chin at
Ysabeau’s stare. “I have made it for a long time. My mother taught
me. I will teach you as well.”
The sound of dance music filled the room, lively
and rhythmic. Matthew adjusted the position of the chairs by the
fireplace, clearing a spot on the floor.
“Vòles dançar amb ieu?” Matthew asked his
mother, holding out both hands.
Ysabeau’s smile was radiant, transforming her
lovely, cold features into something indescribably beautiful.
“Òc,” she said, putting her tiny hands into his. The two of
them took their places in front of the fire, waiting for the next
song to start.
When Matthew and his mother began to dance, they
made Astaire and Rogers look clumsy. Their bodies came together and
drew apart, turned in circles away from each other and then dipped
and turned. The slightest touch from Matthew sent Ysabeau reeling,
and the merest hint of an undulation or a hesitation from Ysabeau
caused a corresponding response in him.
Ysabeau dipped into a graceful curtsy, and Matthew
swept into a bow at the precise moment the music drew to its
close.
“What was that?” I asked.
“It started out as a tarantella,” Matthew said,
escorting his mother back to her chair, “but Maman never can
stick to one dance. So there were elements of the volta in the
middle, and we finished with a minuet, didn’t we?” Ysabeau nodded
and reached up to pat him on the cheek.
“You always were a good dancer,” she said
proudly.
“Ah, but not as good as you—and certainly not as
good as Father was,” Matthew said, settling her in her chair.
Ysabeau’s eyes darkened, and a heartbreaking look of sadness
crossed her face. Matthew picked up her hand and brushed his lips
across her knuckles. Ysabeau managed a small smile in return.
“Now it’s your turn,” he said, coming to me.
“I don’t like to dance, Matthew,” I protested,
holding up my hands to fend him off.
“I find that hard to believe,” he said, taking my
right hand in his left and drawing me close. “You contort your body
into improbable shapes, skim across the water in a boat the width
of a feather, and ride like the wind. Dancing should be second
nature.”
The next song sounded like something that might
have been popular in Parisian dance halls in the 1920s. Notes of
trumpet and drum filled the room.
“Matthew, be careful with her,” Ysabeau warned as
he moved me across the floor.
“She won’t break, Maman.” Matthew proceeded
to dance, despite my best efforts to put my feet in his way at
every opportunity. With his right hand at my waist, he gently
steered me into the proper steps.
I started to think about where my legs were in an
effort to help the process along, but this only made things worse.
My back stiffened, and Matthew clasped me tighter.
“Relax,” he murmured into my ear. “You’re trying to
lead. Your job is to follow.”
“I can’t,” I whispered back, gripping his shoulder
as if he were a life preserver.
Matthew spun us around again. “Yes you can. Close
your eyes, stop thinking about it, and let me do the rest.”
Inside the circle of his arms, it was easy to do
what he instructed. Without the whirling shapes and colors of the
room coming at me from all directions, I could relax and stop
worrying that we were about to crash. Gradually the movement of our
bodies in the darkness became enjoyable. Soon it was possible for
me to concentrate not on what I was doing but on what his
legs and arms were telling me he was about to do. It felt
like floating.
“Matthew.” Ysabeau’s voice held a note of caution.
“Le chatoiement.”
“I know,” he murmured. The muscles in my shoulders
tensed with concern. “Trust me,” he said quietly into my ear. “I’ve
got you.”
My eyes remained tightly closed, and I sighed
happily. We continued to swirl together. Matthew gently released
me, spinning me out to the end of his fingers, then rolled me back
along his arm until I came to rest, my back tight against his
chest. The music stopped.
“Open your eyes,” he said softly.
My eyelids slowly lifted. The feeling of floating
remained. Dancing was better than I had expected it to be—at least
it was with a partner who’d been dancing for more than a millennium
and never stepped on your toes.
I tilted my face up to thank him, but his was much
closer than expected.
“Look down,” Matthew said.
Turning my head in the other direction revealed
that my toes were dangling several inches above the floor. Matthew
released me. He wasn’t holding me up.
I was holding me up.
The air was holding me up.
With that realization the weight returned to the
lower half of my body. Matthew gripped both elbows to keep my feet
from smashing into the floor.
From her seat by the fire, Marthe hummed a tune
under her breath. Ysabeau’s head whipped around, eyes narrowed.
Matthew smiled at me reassuringly, while I concentrated on the
uncanny feeling of the earth under my feet. Had the ground always
seemed so alive? It was as if a thousand tiny hands were waiting
under the soles of my shoes to catch me or give me a push.
“Was it fun?” Matthew asked as the last notes of
Marthe’s song faded, eyes gleaming.
“It was,” I answered, laughing, after considering
his question.
“I hoped it would be. You’ve been practicing for
years. Now maybe you’ll ride with your eyes open for a change.” He
caught me up in an embrace full of happiness and possibility.
Ysabeau began to sing the same song Marthe had been
humming.
“Whoever sees her dance,
And her body move so gracefully,
Could say, in truth,
And her body move so gracefully,
Could say, in truth,
That in all the world she has no equal, our
joyful queen.
Go away, go away, jealous ones,
Let us, let us,
Dance together, together.”
Let us, let us,
Dance together, together.”
“Go away, go away, jealous ones,” Matthew
repeated as the final echo of his mother’s voice faded, “let us
dance together.”
I laughed again. “With you I’ll dance. But until I
figure out how this flying business works, there will be no other
partners.”
“Properly speaking, you were floating, not flying,”
Matthew corrected me.
“Floating, flying—whatever you call it, it would be
best not to do it with strangers.”
“Agreed,” he said.
Marthe had vacated the sofa for a chair near
Ysabeau. Matthew and I sat together, our hands still
entwined.
“This was her first time?” Ysabeau asked him, her
voice genuinely puzzled.
“Diana doesn’t use magic, Maman, except for
little things,” he explained.
“She is full of power, Matthew. Her witch’s blood
sings in her veins. She should be able to use it for big things,
too.”
He frowned. “It’s hers to use or not.”
“Enough of such childishness,” she said, turning
her attention to me. “It is time for you to grow up, Diana, and
accept responsibility for who you are.”
Matthew growled softly.
“Do not growl at me, Matthew de Clermont! I am
saying what needs to be said.”
“You’re telling her what to do. It’s not your
job.”
“Nor yours, my son!” Ysabeau retorted.
“Excuse me!” My sharp tone caught their attention,
and the de Clermonts, mother and son, stared at me. “It’s my
decision whether—and how—to use my magic. But,” I said, turning to
Ysabeau, “it can’t be ignored any longer. It seems to be bubbling
out of me. I need to learn how to control my power, at the very
least.”
Ysabeau and Matthew continued to stare. Finally
Ysabeau nodded. Matthew did, too.
We continued to sit by the fire until the logs
burned down. Matthew danced with Marthe, and each of them broke
into song occasionally when a piece of music reminded them of
another night, by another fire. But I didn’t dance again, and
Matthew didn’t press me.
Finally he stood. “I am taking the only one of us
who needs her sleep up to bed.”
I stood as well, smoothing my trousers against my
thighs. “Good night, Ysabeau. Good night, Marthe. Thank you both
for a lovely dinner and a surprising evening.”
Marthe gave me a smile in return. Ysabeau did her
best but managed only a tight grimace.
Matthew let me lead the way and put his hand gently
against the small of my back as we climbed the stairs.
“I might read for a bit,” I said, turning to face
him when we reached his study.
He was directly behind me, so close that the faint,
ragged sound of his breath was audible. He took my face in his
hands.
“What spell have you put on me?” He searched my
face. “It’s not simply your eyes—though they do make it impossible
for me to think straight—or the fact you smell like honey.” He
buried his face in my neck, the fingers of one hand sliding into my
hair while the other drifted down my back, pulling my hips toward
him.
My body softened into his, as if it were meant to
fit there.
“It’s your fearlessness,” he murmured against my
skin, “and the way you move without thinking, and the shimmer you
give off when you concentrate—or when you fly.”
My neck arched, exposing more flesh to his touch.
Matthew slowly turned my face toward him, his thumb seeking out the
warmth of my lips.
“Did you know that your mouth puckers when you
sleep? You look as though you might be displeased with your dreams,
but I prefer to think you wish to be kissed.” He sounded more
French with each word that he spoke.
Aware of Ysabeau’s disapproving presence
downstairs, as well as her acute, vampiric hearing, I tried to pull
away. It wasn’t convincing, and Matthew’s arms tightened.
“Matthew, your mother—”
He gave me no chance to complete my sentence. With
a soft, satisfied sound, he deliberately fitted his lips to mine
and kissed me, gently but thoroughly, until my entire body—not just
my hands—was tingling. I kissed him back, feeling a simultaneous
sense of floating and falling until I had no clear awareness of
where my body ended and his began. His mouth drifted to my cheeks
and eyelids. When it brushed against my ear, I gasped. Matthew’s
lips curved into a smile, and he pressed them once more against my
own.
“Your lips are as red as poppies, and your hair is
so alive,” he said when he was quite finished kissing me with an
intensity that left me breathless.
“What is it with you and my hair? Why anyone with a
head of hair like yours would be impressed with this,” I said,
grabbing a fistful of it and pulling, “is beyond me. Ysabeau’s hair
looks like satin, so does Marthe’s. Mine is a mess—every color of
the rainbow and badly behaved as well.”
“That’s why I love it,” Matthew said, gently
freeing the strands. “It’s imperfect, just like life. It’s not
vampire hair, all polished and flawless. I like that you’re not a
vampire, Diana.”
“And I like that you are a vampire,
Matthew.”
A shadow flitted across his eyes, gone in a
moment.
“I like your strength,” I said, kissing him with
the same enthusiasm as he had kissed me. “I like your intelligence.
Sometimes I even like your bossiness. But most of all”—I rubbed the
tip of my nose gently against his—“I like the way you smell.”
“You do?”
“I do.” My nose went into the hollow between his
collarbones, which I was fast learning was the spiciest, sweetest
part of him.
“It’s late. You need your rest.” He released me
reluctantly.
“Come to bed with me.”
His eyes widened with surprise at the invitation,
and the blood coursed to my face.
Matthew brought my hand to his heart. It beat once,
powerfully. “I will come up,” he said, “but not to stay. We have
time, Diana. You’ve known me for only a few weeks. There’s no need
to rush.”
Spoken like a vampire.
He saw my dejection and drew me closer for another
lingering kiss. “A promise,” he said, when he was finished, “of
what’s to come. In time.”
It was time. But my lips were alternately
freezing and burning, making me wonder for a fleeting second if I
was as ready as I thought.
Upstairs, the room was ablaze with candles and warm
from the fire. How Marthe had managed to get up here, change dozens
of candles, and light them so that they would still be burning at
bedtime was a mystery, but the room didn’t have a single electrical
outlet, so I was doubly grateful for her efforts.
Changing in the bathroom behind a partially closed
door, I listened to Matthew’s plans for the next day. These
involved a long walk, another long ride, and more work in the
study.
I agreed to all of it—provided that the work came
first. The alchemical manuscript was calling to me, and I was eager
to get a closer look at it.
I got into Matthew’s vast four-poster, and he
tightened the sheets around my body before pinching out the
candles.
“Sing to me,” I said, watching his long fingers
fearlessly move through the flames. “An old song—one Marthe likes.”
Her wicked fondness for love songs had not gone unnoticed.
He was quiet for a few moments while he walked
through the room, snuffing the candles and trailing shadows behind
him as the room fell into darkness. He began to sing in his rich
baritone.
“Ni muer ni viu ni no guaris,
Ni mal no·m sent e si l’ai gran,
Quar de s’amor no suy devis,
Ni no sai si ja n’aurai ni quan,
Qu’en lieys es tota le mercés
Que·m pot sorzer o decazer.”
Ni mal no·m sent e si l’ai gran,
Quar de s’amor no suy devis,
Ni no sai si ja n’aurai ni quan,
Qu’en lieys es tota le mercés
Que·m pot sorzer o decazer.”
The song was full of yearning, and teetered on the
edge of sadness. By the time he returned to my side, the song was
finished. Matthew left one candle burning next to the bed.
“What do the words mean?” I reached for his
hand.
“‘Not dying nor living nor healing, there is no
pain in my sickness, for I am not kept from her love.’” He
leaned down and kissed me on the forehead. “‘I don’t know if I
will ever have it, for all the mercy that makes me flourish or
decay is in her power. ”
“Who wrote that?” I asked, struck by the aptness of
the words when sung by a vampire.
“My father wrote it for Ysabeau. Someone else took
the credit, though,” Matthew said, his eyes gleaming and his smile
bright and content. He hummed the song under his breath as he went
downstairs. I lay in his bed, alone, and watched the last candle
burn until it guttered out.