Chapter 15
On Monday morning the air had that
magically still quality common in autumn. The whole world felt
crisp and bright, and time seemed suspended. I shot out of bed at
dawn and pulled on my waiting rowing gear, eager to be
outdoors.
The river was empty for the first hour. As the sun
broke over the horizon, the fog burned off toward the waterline so
that I was slipping through alternate bands of mist and rosy
sunshine.
When I pulled up to the dock, Matthew was waiting
for me on the curving steps that led to the boathouse’s balcony, an
ancient brown-and-bone-striped New College scarf hanging around his
neck. I climbed out of the boat, put my hands on my hips, and
stared at him in disbelief.
“Where did you get that thing?” I pointed at the
scarf.
“You should have more respect for the old members,”
he said with his mischievous grin, tossing one end of it over his
shoulder. “I think I bought it in 1920, but I can’t honestly
remember. After the Great War ended, certainly.”
Shaking my head, I took the oars into the
boathouse. Two crews glided by the dock in perfect, powerful unison
just as I was lifting my boat out of the water. My knees dipped
slightly and the boat swung up and over until its weight rested on
my head.
“Why don’t you let me help you with that?” Matthew
said, rising from his perch.
“No chance.” My steps were steady as I walked the
boat inside. He grumbled something under his breath.
With the boat safely in its rack, Matthew easily
talked me into breakfast at Mary and Dan’s café. He was going to
have to sit next to me much of the day, and I was hungry after the
morning’s exertions. He steered me by the elbow around the other
diners, his hand firmer on my back than before. Mary greeted me
like an old friend, and Steph didn’t bother with a menu, just
announced “the usual” when she came by the table. There wasn’t a
hint of a question in her voice, and when the plate came—laden with
eggs, bacon, mushrooms, and tomatoes—I was glad I hadn’t insisted
on something more ladylike.
After breakfast I trotted through the lodge and up
to my rooms for a shower and a change of clothes. Fred peered
around his window to see if it was indeed Matthew’s Jaguar pulled
up outside the gates. The porters were no doubt laying wagers on
competing predictions regarding our oddly formal relationship. This
morning was the first time I’d managed to convince my escort to
simply drop me off.
“It’s broad daylight, and Fred will have kittens if
you clog up his gate during delivery hours,” I protested when
Matthew started to get out of the car. He’d glowered but agreed
that merely pulling straight across the entrance to bar possible
vehicular attack was sufficient.
This morning every step of my routine needed to be
slow and deliberate. My shower was long and leisurely, the hot
water slipping against my tired muscles. Still in no rush, I put on
comfortable black trousers, a turtleneck to keep my shoulders from
seizing up in the increasingly chilly library, and a reasonably
presentable midnight blue cardigan to break up the unalleviated
black. My hair was caught in a low ponytail. The short piece in the
front fell forward as it always did, and I grumbled and shoved it
behind my ear.
In spite of my efforts, my anxiety rose as I pushed
open the library’s glass doors. The guard’s eyes narrowed at my
uncharacteristically warm smile, and he took an inordinate amount
of time checking my face against the picture on my reader’s card.
Finally he admitted me, and I pelted up the stairs to Duke
Humfrey’s.
It had been no more than an hour since I’d been
with Matthew, but the sight of him stretched out among the first
bay of Elizabethan desks in one of the medieval wing’s purgatorial
chairs was welcome. He looked up when my laptop dropped on the
scarred wooden surface.
“Is he here?” I whispered, reluctant to say Knox’s
name.
Matthew nodded grimly. “In the Selden End.”
“Well, he can wait down there all day as far as I’m
concerned,” I said under my breath, picking up a blank request slip
from the shallow rectangular tray on the desk. On it I wrote
“Ashmole MS 782,” my name, and my reader number.
Sean was at the collection desk. “I’ve got two
items on reserve,” I told him with a smile. He went into the cage
and returned with my manuscripts, then held out his hand for my new
request. He put the slip into the worn, gray cardboard envelope
that would be sent to the stacks.
“May I talk to you a minute?” Sean asked.
“Sure.” I gestured to indicate that Matthew should
stay where he was and followed Sean through the swinging gate into
the Arts End, which, like the Selden End, ran perpendicular to the
length of the old library. We stood beneath a bank of leaded
windows that let in the weak morning sunshine.
“Is he bothering you?”
“Professor Clairmont? No.”
“It’s none of my business, but I don’t like him.”
Sean looked down the central aisle as if he expected Matthew to pop
out and glare at him. “The whole place has been full of strange
ducks over the last week or so.”
Unable to disagree, I resorted to muffled noises of
sympathy.
“You’d let me know if there was something wrong,
wouldn’t you?”
“Of course, Sean. But Professor Clairmont’s okay.
You don’t have to worry about him.”
My old friend looked unconvinced.
“Sean may know I’m different—but it seems I’m not
as different as you,” I told Matthew after returning to my
seat.
“Few are,” he said darkly, picking up his
reading.
I turned on my computer and tried to concentrate on
my work. It would take hours for the manuscript to appear. But
thinking about alchemy was harder than ever, caught as I was
between a vampire and the call desk. Every time new books emerged
from the stacks, I looked up.
After several false alarms, soft steps approached
from the Selden End. Matthew tensed in his chair.
Peter Knox strolled up and stopped. “Dr. Bishop,”
he said coolly.
“Mr. Knox.” My voice was equally chilly, and I
returned my attention to the open volume before me. Knox took a
step in my direction.
Matthew spoke quietly, without raising his eyes
from the Needham papers. “I’d stop there unless Dr. Bishop wishes
to speak with you.”
“I’m very busy.” A sense of pressure wound around
my forehead, and a voice whispered in my skull. Every ounce of my
energy was devoted to keeping the witch out of my thoughts. “I said
I’m busy,” I repeated stonily.
Matthew put his pencil down and pushed away from
the desk.
“Mr. Knox was just leaving, Matthew.” Turning to my
laptop, I typed a few sentences of utter nonsense.
“I hope you understand what you’re doing,” Knox
spit.
Matthew growled, and I laid a hand lightly on his
arm. Knox’s eyes fixed on the spot where the bodies of a witch and
a vampire touched.
Until that moment Knox had only suspected that
Matthew and I were too close for the comfort of witches. Now he was
sure.
You’ve told him what you know about our
book. Knox’s vicious voice sounded through my head, and though
I tried to push against his intrusion, the wizard was too strong.
When he resisted my efforts, I gasped in surprise.
Sean looked up from the call desk in alarm.
Matthew’s arm was vibrating, his growl subsiding into a somehow
more menacing purr.
“Who’s caught human attention now?” I hissed at the
witch, squeezing Matthew’s arm to let him know I didn’t need his
help.
Knox smiled unpleasantly. “You’ve caught the
attention of more than humans this morning, Dr. Bishop. Before
nightfall every witch in Oxford will know you’re a traitor.”
Matthew’s muscles coiled, and he reached up to the
coffin he wore around his neck.
Oh, God, I thought, he’s going to kill a
witch in the Bodleian. I placed myself squarely between the two
of them.
“Enough,” I told Knox quietly. “If you don’t leave,
I’m going to tell Sean you’re harassing me and have him call
security.”
“The light in the Selden End is rather glaring
today,” Knox said at last, breaking the standoff. “I believe I’ll
move to this part of the library.” He strolled away.
Matthew lifted my hand from his arm and began to
pack up his belongings. “We’re leaving.”
“No we’re not. We are not leaving until we get that
manuscript.”
“Were you listening?” Matthew said hotly. “He
threatened you! I don’t need this manuscript, but I do need—” He
stopped abruptly.
I pushed Matthew into his seat. Sean was still
staring in our direction, his hand hovering above the phone.
Smiling, I shook my head at him before returning my attention to
the vampire.
“It’s my fault. I shouldn’t have touched you while
he was standing there,” I murmured, looking down at his shoulder,
where my hand still rested.
Matthew’s cool fingers lifted my chin. “Do you
regret the touch—or the fact that the witch saw you?”
“Neither,” I whispered. His gray eyes went from sad
to surprised in an instant. “But you don’t want me to be
reckless.”
As Knox approached again, Matthew’s grip on my chin
tightened, his senses tuned into the witch. When Knox remained a
few desks away, the vampire returned his attention to me. “One more
word from him and we’re leaving—manuscript or no manuscript. I mean
it, Diana.”
Thinking about alchemical illustrations proved
impossible after that. Gillian’s warning about what happened to
witches who kept secrets from other witches, and Knox’s firm
pronouncement that I was a traitor, resounded through my head. When
Matthew tried to get me to stop for lunch, I refused. The
manuscript had still not appeared, and we couldn’t be at
Blackwell’s when it arrived—not with Knox so close.
“Did you see what I had for breakfast?” I asked
when Matthew insisted. “I’m not hungry.”
My coffee-loving daemon drifted by shortly
afterward, swinging his headset by the cord. “Hey,” he said with a
wave at Matthew and me.
Matthew looked up sharply.
“Good to see you two again. Is it okay if I check
my e-mail down there since the witch is here with you?”
“What’s your name?” I asked, smothering a
smile.
“Timothy,” he answered, rocking back on his heels.
He was wearing mismatched cowboy boots, one red and one black. His
eyes were mismatched, too—one was blue and one was green.
“You’re more than welcome to check your e-mail,
Timothy.”
“You’re the one.” He tipped his fingers at me,
pivoted on the heel of the red boot, and walked away.
An hour later I stood, unable to control my
impatience. “The manuscript should have arrived by now.”
The vampire’s eyes followed me across the six feet
of open space to the call desk. They felt hard and crisp like ice,
rather than soft as snowfall, and they clung to my shoulder
blades.
“Hi, Sean. Will you check to see if the manuscript
I requested this morning has been delivered?”
“Someone else must have it,” Sean said. “Nothing’s
come up for you.”
“Are you sure?” Nobody else had it.
Sean riffled through the slips and found my
request. Paper-clipped to it was a note. “It’s missing.”
“It’s not missing. I saw it a few weeks ago.”
“Let’s see.” He rounded the desk, headed for the
supervisor’s office. Matthew looked up from his papers and watched
as Sean rapped against the open doorframe.
“Dr. Bishop wants this manuscript, and it’s been
noted as missing,” Sean explained. He held out the slip.
Mr. Johnson consulted a book on his desk, running
his finger over lines scrawled by generations of reading-room
supervisors. “Ah, yes. Ashmole 782. That’s been missing since 1859.
We don’t have a microfilm.” Matthew’s chair scraped away from his
desk.
“But I saw it a few weeks ago.”
“That’s not possible, Dr. Bishop. No one has seen
this manuscript for one hundred and fifty years.” Mr. Johnson
blinked behind his thick-rimmed glasses.
“Dr. Bishop, could I show you something when you
have a moment?” Matthew’s voice made me jump.
“Yes, of course.” I turned blindly toward him.
“Thank you,” I whispered to Mr. Johnson.
“We’re leaving. Now,” Matthew hissed. In the aisle
an assortment of creatures was focused intently on us. I saw Knox,
Timothy, the Scary Sisters, Gillian—and a few more unfamiliar
faces. Above the tall bookcases, the old portraits of kings,
queens, and other illustrious persons that decorated the walls of
Duke Humfrey’s Reading Room stared at us, too, with every bit as
much sour disapproval.
“It can’t be missing. I just saw it,” I repeated
numbly. “We should have them check.”
“Don’t talk about it now—don’t even think about
it.” He gathered up my things with lightning speed, his hands a
blur as he saved my work and shut down the computer.
I obediently started reciting English monarchs in
my head, beginning with William the Conqueror, to rid my mind of
thoughts of the missing manuscript.
Knox passed by, busily texting on his mobile. He
was followed by the Scary Sisters, who looked grimmer than
usual.
“Why are they all leaving?” I asked Matthew.
“You didn’t recall Ashmole 782. They’re
regrouping.” He thrust my bag and computer at me and picked up my
two manuscripts. With his free hand, he snared my elbow and moved
us toward the call desk. Timothy waved sadly from the Selden End
before making a peace sign and turning away.
“Sean, Dr. Bishop is going back to college with me
to help solve a problem I’ve found in the Needham papers. She won’t
require these for the rest of the day. And I won’t be returning
either.” Matthew handed Sean the boxed manuscripts. Sean gave the
vampire a dark look before thumping them into a neater pile and
heading for the locked manuscript hold.
We didn’t exchange a word on the way down the
stairs, and by the time we pushed through the glass doors into the
courtyard, I was ready to explode with questions.
Peter Knox was lounging against the iron railings
surrounding the bronze statue of William Herbert. Matthew stopped
abruptly and, with a fast step in front of me and a flick of his
shoulder, placed me behind his considerable bulk.
“So, Dr. Bishop, you didn’t get it back,” Knox said
maliciously. “I told you it was a fluke. Not even a Bishop could
break that spell without proper training in witchcraft. Your mother
might have managed it, but you don’t appear to share her
talents.”
Matthew curled his lip but said nothing. He was
trying not to interfere between witches, yet he wouldn’t be able to
resist throttling Knox indefinitely.
“It’s missing. My mother was gifted, but she wasn’t
a bloodhound.” I bristled, and Matthew’s hand rose slightly to
quiet me.
“It’s been missing,” Knox said. “You found it
anyway. It’s a good thing you didn’t manage to break the spell a
second time, though.”
“Why is that?” I asked impatiently.
“Because we cannot let our history fall into the
hands of animals like him. Witches and vampires don’t mix, Dr.
Bishop. There are excellent reasons for it. Remember who you are.
If you don’t, you will regret it.”
A witch shouldn’t keep secrets from other
witches. Bad things happen when she does. Gillian’s voice
echoed in my head, and the walls of the Bodleian drew closer. I
fought down the panic that was burbling to the surface.
“Threaten her again and I’ll kill you on the spot.”
Matthew’s voice was calm, but a passing tourist’s frozen look
suggested that his face betrayed stronger emotions.
“Matthew,” I said quietly. “Not here.”
“Killing witches now, Clairmont?” Knox sneered.
“Have you run out of vampires and humans to harm?”
“Leave her alone.” Matthew’s voice remained even,
but his body was poised to strike if Knox moved a muscle in my
direction.
The witch’s face twisted. “There’s no chance of
that. She belongs to us, not you. So does the manuscript.”
“Matthew,” I repeated more urgently. A human boy of
thirteen with a nose ring and a troubled complexion was now
studying him with interest. “The humans are staring.”
He reached back and grabbed my hand in his. The
shock of cold skin against warm and the sensation that I was
tethered to him were simultaneous. He pulled me forward, tucking me
under his shoulder.
Knox laughed scornfully. “It will take more than
that to keep her safe, Clairmont. She’ll get the manuscript back
for us. We’ll make sure of it.”
Without another word, Matthew propelled me through
the quadrangle and onto the wide cobblestone path surrounding the
Radcliffe Camera. He eyed All Souls’ closed iron gates, swore
quickly and enthusiastically, and kept me going toward the High
Street.
“Not much farther,” he said, his hand gripping mine
a bit more tightly.
Matthew didn’t let go of me in the lodge, and he
gave a curt nod to the porter on the way to his rooms. Up we
climbed to his garret, which was just as warm and comfortable as it
had been Saturday evening.
Matthew threw his keys onto the sideboard and
deposited me unceremoniously on the sofa. He disappeared into the
kitchen and returned with a glass of water. He handed it to me, and
I held it without drinking until he scowled so darkly that I took a
sip and almost choked.
“Why couldn’t I get the manuscript a second time?”
I was rattled that Knox had been proved right.
“I should have followed my instincts.” Matthew was
standing by the window, clenching and unclenching his right hand
and paying absolutely no attention to me. “We don’t understand your
connection to the spell. You’ve been in grave danger since you saw
Ashmole 782.”
“Knox may threaten, Matthew, but he’s not going to
do something stupid in front of so many witnesses.”
“You’re staying at Woodstock for a few days. I want
you away from Knox—no more chance meetings in college, no passing
by him in the Bodleian.”
“Knox was right: I can’t get the manuscript back.
He won’t pay any more attention to me.”
“That’s wishful thinking, Diana. Knox wants to
understand the secrets of Ashmole 782 as much as you or I do.”
Matthew’s normally impeccable appearance was suffering. He’d run
his fingers through his hair until it stood up like a scarecrow’s
in places.
“How can you both be so certain there are secrets
in the hidden text?” I wondered, moving toward the fireplace. “It’s
an alchemy book. Maybe that’s all it is.”
“Alchemy is the story of creation, told chemically.
Creatures are chemistry, mapped onto biology.”
“But when Ashmole 782 was written, they didn’t know
about biology or share your sense of chemistry.”
Matthew eyes collapsed into slits. “Diana Bishop,
I’m shocked at your narrow-mindedness.” He meant it, too. “The
creatures who made the manuscript might not have known about DNA,
but what proof do you have that they weren’t asking the same
questions about creation as a modern scientist?”
“Alchemical texts are allegories, not instruction
manuals.” I redirected the fear and frustration of the past several
days at him. “They may hint at larger truths, but you can’t build a
reliable experiment from them.”
“I never said you could,” he replied, his eyes
still dark with suppressed anger. “But we’re talking about
potential readers who are witches, daemons, and vampires. A little
supernatural reading, a bit of otherworldly creativity, and some
long memories to fill in the blanks may give creatures information
we don’t want them to have.”
“Information you don’t want them to have!” I
remembered my promise to Agatha Wilson, and my voice rose. “You’re
as bad as Knox. You want Ashmole 782 to satisfy your own
curiosity.” My hands itched as I grabbed at my things.
“Calm down.” There was an edge to his voice that I
didn’t like.
“Stop telling me what to do.” The itching sensation
intensified.
My fingers were brilliant blue and shooting out
little arcs of fire that sputtered at the edges like the sparklers
on birthday cakes. I dropped my computer and held them up.
Matthew should have been horrified. Instead he
looked intrigued.
“Does that happen often?” His voice was carefully
neutral.
“Oh, no.” I ran for the kitchen, trailing
sparks.
Matthew beat me to the door. “Not water,” he said
sharply. “They smell electrical.”
Ah. That explained the last time I set fire to the
kitchen.
I stood mutely, holding my hands up between us. We
watched for a few minutes while the blue left my fingertips and the
sparks went out entirely, leaving behind a definite smell of bad
electrical wiring.
When the fireworks ended, Matthew was lounging
against the kitchen doorframe with the nonchalant air of a
Renaissance aristocrat waiting to have his portrait painted.
“Well,” he said, watching me with the stillness of
an eagle ready to pounce on his prey, “that was interesting.
Are you always like that when you get angry?”
“I don’t do angry,” I said, turning away from him.
His hand shot out and whirled me back around to face him.
“You’re not getting off that easy.” Matthew’s voice
was soft, but the sharp edge was back. “You do angry. I just saw
it. And you left at least one hole in my carpet to prove it.”
“Let me go!” My mouth contorted into what Sarah
called my “sour-puss.” It was enough to make my students quake.
Right now I hoped it would make Matthew curl up into a ball and
roll away. At the very least, I wanted him to take his hand off my
arm so I could get out of there.
“I warned you. Friendships with vampires are
complicated. I couldn’t let you go now—even if I wanted to.”
My eyes lowered deliberately to his hand. Matthew
removed it with a snort of impatience, and I turned to pick up my
bag.
You really shouldn’t turn your back on a vampire if
you’ve been arguing.
Matthew’s arms shot around me from behind, pressing
my back against his chest so hard that I could feel every flexed
muscle. “Now,” he said directly into my ear, “we’re going to talk
like civilized creatures about what happened. You are not running
away from this—or from me.”
“Let me go, Matthew.” I struggled in his
arms.
“No.”
No man had ever refused when I asked him to stop
doing something—whether it was blowing his nose in the library or
trying to slip a hand up my shirt after a movie. I struggled again.
Matthew’s arms got tighter.
“Stop fighting me.” He sounded amused. “You’ll get
tired long before I do, I assure you.”
In my women’s self-defense class, they’d taught me
what to do if grabbed from behind. I lifted my foot to stomp on
his. Matthew moved out of the way, and it smashed into the floor
instead.
“We can do this all afternoon if you want,” he
murmured. “But I honestly can’t recommend it. My reflexes are much
faster than yours.”
“Let me go and we can talk,” I said through
clenched teeth.
He laughed softly, his spicy breath tickling the
exposed skin at the base of my skull. “That wasn’t a worthy attempt
at negotiation, Diana. No, we’re going to talk like this. I want to
know how often your fingers have turned blue.”
“Not often.” My instructor had recommended I relax
if grabbed from behind and slip out of an assailant’s arms.
Matthew’s grip on me only tightened. “A few times, when I was a
child, I set fire to things—the kitchen cabinets, but that may have
been because I tried to put my hands out in the sink and the fire
got worse. My bedroom curtains, once or twice. A tree outside the
house—but it was just a small tree.”
“Since then?”
“It happened last week, when Miriam made me
angry.”
“How did she do that?” he asked, resting his cheek
against the side of my head. It was comforting, if I overlooked the
fact that he was holding me against my wishes.
“She told me I needed to learn how to take care of
myself and stop relying on you to protect me. She basically accused
me of playing the damsel in distress.” Just the thought made my
blood simmer and my fingers itch all over again.
“You are many things, Diana, but a damsel in
distress is not one of them. You’ve had this reaction twice in less
than a week.” Matthew’s voice was thoughtful. “Interesting.”
“I don’t think so.”
“No, I don’t imagine you do,” he said, “but it is
interesting just the same. Now let’s turn to another topic.” His
mouth drifted toward my ear, and I tried—unsuccessfully—to pull it
away. “What is this nonsense about my not being interested in
anything but an old manuscript?”
I flushed. This was mortifying. “Sarah and Em said
you were only spending time with me because you wanted something. I
assume it’s Ashmole 782.”
“But that’s not true, is it?” he said, running his
lips and cheek gently against my hair. My blood started to sing in
response. Even I could hear it. He laughed again, this time with
satisfaction. “I didn’t think you believed it. I just wanted to be
sure.”
My body relaxed into his. “Matthew—” I began.
“I’m letting you go,” he said, cutting me off. “But
don’t bolt for the door, understand?”
We were prey and predator once more. If I ran, his
instincts would tell him to give chase. I nodded, and he slipped
his arms from me, leaving me oddly unsteady.
“What am I going to do with you?” He was standing
with his hands on his hips, a lopsided smile on his face. “You are
the most exasperating creature I’ve ever met.”
“No one has ever known what to do with me.”
“That I believe.” He surveyed me for a moment.
“We’re going to Woodstock.”
“No! I’m perfectly safe in college.” He’d warned me
about vampires and protectiveness. He was right—I didn’t like
it.
“You are not,” he said with an angry glint in his
eyes. “Someone’s tried to break in to your rooms.”
“What?” I was aghast.
“The loose lock, remember?”
In fact, there were fresh scratches on the
hardware. But Matthew did not need to know about that.
“You’ll stay at Woodstock until Peter Knox leaves
Oxford.”
My face must have betrayed my dismay.
“It won’t be so bad,” he said gently. “You’ll have
all the yoga you want.”
With Matthew in bodyguard mode, I didn’t have much
choice. And if he was right—which I suspected he was—someone had
already gotten past Fred and into my rooms.
“Come,” he said, picking up my computer bag. “I’ll
take you to New College and wait while you get your things. But
this conversation about the connection between Ashmole 782 and your
blue fingers is not over,” he continued, forcing me to meet his
eyes. “It’s just beginning.”
We went down to the fellows’ car park, and Matthew
retrieved the Jaguar from between a modest blue Vauxhall and an old
Peugeot. Given the city’s restrictive traffic patterns, it took
twice as long to drive as it would have to walk.
Matthew pulled in to the lodge gates. “I’ll be
right back,” I said, slinging my computer bag over my shoulder as
he let me out of the car.
“Dr. Bishop, you have mail,” Fred called from the
lodge.
I collected the contents of my pigeonhole, my head
pounding with stress and anxiety, and waved my mail at Matthew
before heading toward my rooms.
Inside, I kicked off my shoes, rubbed my temples,
and glanced at the message machine. Mercifully, it wasn’t blinking.
The mail contained nothing but bills and a large brown envelope
with my name typed on it. There was no stamp, indicating it came
from someone within the university. I slid my finger under the flap
and pulled out the contents.
A piece of ordinary paper was clipped to something
smooth and shiny. Typed on the paper was a single line of
text.
“Remember?”
Hands shaking, I pulled off the slip. The paper
fluttered to the floor, revealing a familiar glossy photograph. I’d
only seen it reproduced in black and white, though, in the
newspapers. This was in color, and as bright and vivid as the day
it had been taken, in 1983.
My mother’s body lay facedown in a chalk circle,
her left leg at an impossible angle. Her right arm reached toward
my father, who was lying faceup, his head caved in on one side and
a gash splitting his torso from throat to groin. Some of his
entrails had been pulled out and were lying next to him on the
ground.
A sound between a moan and a scream slipped from my
mouth. I dropped to the floor, trembling but unable to tear my eyes
from the image.
“Diana!” Matthew’s voice sounded frantic, but he
was too far away for me to care. In the distance someone jiggled
the doorknob. Feet clattered up the stairs, a key scraped in the
lock.
The door burst open, and I looked up into Matthew’s
ashen face, along with Fred’s concerned one.
“Dr. Bishop?” Fred asked.
Matthew moved so quickly that Fred had to know he
was a vampire. He crouched in front of me. My teeth chattered with
shock.
“If I give you my keys, can you move the car to All
Souls for me?” Matthew asked over his shoulder. “Dr. Bishop isn’t
well, and she shouldn’t be alone.”
“No worries, Professor Clairmont. We’ll keep it
here in the warden’s lot,” replied Fred. Matthew threw his keys at
the porter, who caught them neatly. Flashing me a worried look,
Fred closed the door.
“I’m going to be sick,” I whispered.
Matthew pulled me to my feet and led me to the
bathroom. Sinking next to the toilet, I threw up, dropping the
picture on the floor to grip the sides of the bowl. Once my stomach
was empty, the worst of the shaking subsided, but every few seconds
a tremble radiated through me.
I closed the lid and reached up to flush, pushing
down on the toilet for leverage. My head spun. Matthew caught me
before I hit the bathroom wall.
Suddenly my feet were not on the ground. Matthew’s
chest was against my right shoulder and his arms underneath my
knees. Moments later he laid me gently on my bed and turned the
light on, angling the shade away. My wrist was in his cool fingers,
and with his touch my pulse began to slow. That made it possible
for me to focus on his face. It looked as calm as ever, except that
the tiny dark vein in his forehead throbbed slightly every minute
or so.
“I’m going to get you something to drink.” He let
go of my wrist and stood.
Another wave of panic washed over me. I bolted to
my feet, all my instincts telling me to run as far and as fast as
possible.
Matthew grabbed me by the shoulders, trying to make
eye contact. “Stop, Diana.”
My stomach had invaded my lungs, pressing out all
the air, and I struggled against his grasp, not knowing or caring
what he was saying. “Let me go,” I pleaded, pushing against his
chest with both hands.
“Diana, look at me.” There was no ignoring
Matthew’s voice, or the moonlike pull of his eyes. “What’s
wrong?”
“My parents. Gillian told me witches killed my
parents.” My voice was high and tight.
Matthew said something in a language I didn’t
understand. “When did this happen? Where were they? Did the witch
leave a message on your phone? Did she threaten you?” His hold on
me strengthened.
“Nigeria. She said the Bishops have always been
trouble.”
“I’ll go with you. Let me make a few phone calls
first.” Matthew took in a deep, shuddering breath. “I’m so sorry,
Diana.”
“Go where?” Nothing was making any sense.
“To Africa.” Matthew sounded confused. “Someone
will have to identify the bodies.”
“My parents were killed when I was seven.”
His eyes widened with shock.
“Even though it happened so long ago, they’re all
the witches want to talk about these days—Gillian, Peter Knox.”
Shivering as the panic escalated, I felt a scream rise up in my
throat. Matthew pressed me to him before it could erupt, holding me
so tightly that the outlines of his muscles and bones were sharp
against my skin. The scream turned into a sob. “Bad things happen
to witches who keep secrets. Gillian said so.”
“No matter what she said, I will not let Knox or
any other witch harm you. I’ve got you now.” Matthew’s voice was
fierce, and he bowed his head and rested his cheek on my hair while
I cried. “Oh, Diana. Why didn’t you tell me?”
Somewhere in the center of my soul, a rusty chain
began to unwind. It freed itself, link by link, from where it had
rested unobserved, waiting for him. My hands, which had been balled
up and pressed against his chest, unfurled with it. The chain
continued to drop, to an unfathomable depth where there was nothing
but darkness and Matthew. At last it snapped to its full length,
anchoring me to a vampire. Despite the manuscript, despite the fact
that my hands contained enough voltage to run a microwave, and
despite the photograph, as long as I was connected to him, I was
safe.
When my sobs quieted, Matthew drew away. “I’m going
to get you some water, and then you’re going to rest.” His tone did
not invite discussion, and he was back in a matter of seconds
carrying a glass of water and two tiny pills.
“Take these,” he said, handing them to me along
with the water.
“What are they?”
“A sedative.” His stern look encouraged me to pop
both pills into my mouth, immediately, along with a gulp of water.
“I’ve been carrying one since you told me you suffered from panic
attacks.”
“I hate taking tranquilizers.”
“You’ve had a shock, and you’ve got too much
adrenaline in your system. You need to rest.” Matthew dragged the
duvet around me until I was encased in a lumpy cocoon. He sat on
the bed, and his shoes thumped against the floor before he
stretched out, his back propped up against the pillows. When he
gathered my duvet-wrapped body against him, I sighed. Matthew
reached across with his left arm and held me securely. My body, for
all its wrappings, fit against him perfectly.
The drug worked its way through my bloodstream. As
I was drifting off to sleep, Matthew’s phone shook in his pocket,
startling me into wakefulness.
“It’s nothing, probably Marcus,” he said, brushing
his lips against my forehead. My heartbeat settled. “Try to rest.
You aren’t alone anymore.”
I could still feel the chain that anchored me to
Matthew, witch to vampire.
With the links of that chain tight and shining, I
slept.