Chapter 33
I found Maggie in the commander’s office, sitting
next to Bobby Daniels. Daniels looked pale and ill at ease. The
jagged scar on his face had started to scab and the wound looked
like a miniature red lightning bolt flashing down to strike his
cheek. Two elderly people sat between Daniels and Maggie. They
looked respectable and concerned, and I knew they had to be his
parents. They also looked apologetic—though they were the ones who
had been wronged.
The discussion about Bobby’s scar had apparently
already taken place. I knew from the emotional distance that
Daniels kept between himself and Maggie that the events of the
night before remained known only to the two of them. The wound had
been blamed on his last day in prison.
A cadaverously thin man named Robertson sat off to
one side, evading everyone’s eyes. I knew him well. He was the
department’s in-house counsel. He did not look hopeful. He was no
doubt silently cursing my memory for having bungled the Daniels
case and working out a million-dollar settlement in his head. The
thought cheered me. I’d never liked the shifty little
bastard.
I entered the room just as they approached the real
point of their meeting, arriving in time to witness the commander’s
profound surprise when the older Mr. Daniels said, “We have come to
thank you.”
“Thank me?” the commander asked too loudly,
betraying his astonishment.
Mrs. Daniels explained for her husband. “We want to
thank Detective Gunn for what she did for our son.”
“What did she do?” the commander asked, perplexed.
I knew then that Maggie had never told him of her earlier visit to
the prison, the trip she had taken out of mercy for another man’s
suffering, just as she had not told him about the Double Deuce. It
appeared that my Maggie was a bit of a maverick.
Was it wrong that this behavior made me love her
even more?
Bobby’s father grasped the situation in an instant.
He was used to the intricacies that a chain of command created, I
realized, as I noted his ramrod posture and neatly trimmed hair.
Retired military, I guessed, and his precise, clipped way of
speaking confirmed my impression.
“Detective Gunn visited Bobby in prison the second
she realized he was innocent,” the old man explained. “We’d like to
thank her for letting decency and compassion override standard
protocol.” His implications were not lost on Gonzales. “We’d also
like to thank her for speaking to the warden about having Bobby put
in protective custody until he was released. His injuries could
have been so much worse.” Neither Bobby nor Maggie could look at
him. “She put my son’s safety first, instead of covering the
department’s ass. For that, we are profoundly grateful.”
He had neutered the commander’s thoughts of
retribution against Maggie with the skill of a master. I pegged him
for at least a colonel.
Oh, how the afterlife has its delights.
The commander glanced over at Maggie and their eyes
held, but he quickly regained his composure. “Of course,” Gonzales
said smoothly. “We felt it was the least we could do, under the
regrettable circumstances.”
Robertson coughed in a discreet lawyerly fashion,
nervous at the reference to culpability. He was thoroughly ignored
by all.
“I just wanted to let your son know that we were
doing all we could to get him out,” Maggie said. “I wanted to let
him know that he only had to hold on a little bit longer.”
The parents turned their heads and looked at Maggie
with synchronized gentility, a sign of how long they had been wed
to one another. They seemed genuinely grateful to her for her
kindness. They were good people, I realized, anchored by the moral
certainty of a simple life. I felt their purity wash over me, a
balm to my soul. Direct. Uncluttered. They were the kind of people
I could have helped, but failed to, while I was alive—the kind of
people I should have served far better. The kind of people I wish
I’d been.
“The day you came to see me,” Bobby Daniels told
Maggie hesitantly. “It was a bad day for me, not that any of the
days in there were good.” He hesitated before he spoke again. “It
was the day I’d woken up thinking I could not be in that place any
longer. Not one more day. That was the day you came to me.”
“Don’t you see?” his mother interrupted. “You were
sent to him.” She started to cry and her husband patted her knee
gently.
The commander looked away and studied the view out
of his window before he glanced back at Daniels. “We are profoundly
grateful ourselves that justice has been done,” he finally said,
and I think that everyone in the room—except for me, who knew
better—believed that Gonzales was sincere. “Detective Gunn has
conducted herself with the utmost integrity and displayed great
ingenuity with the new investigation. She’s heading it up, you
know, and I intend to see that she is commended for her outstanding
efforts.”
That’s right, Lazaro Gonzales, I thought:
find their soft spot and start kissing it. Give them what you
think they want to hear.
But he was wrong about what they wanted to
hear.
“We’re not planning to sue,” Bobby Daniels said
abruptly, speaking directly to Robertson.
Robertson could not hide his surprise. No wonder he
was a lousy lawyer.
“You’re just here to thank me?” Maggie asked. She
paused. “I get . . . thanked so seldom.” God bless her, she did not
know what else to say. I was charmed.
“Yes,” Bobby Daniels said, his hands rubbing his
new slacks nervously. “But we’re also here to help you. I can help
you.”
Maggie and the commander stared at him,
puzzled.
“What my son is trying to say,” Mr. Daniels said
firmly, “is that, back when you first looked into things, he was,
perhaps, not in a condition to remember things clearly, or to
answer your questions as well as he could. Nor could he be of much
help when you visited him in . . . that place.”
“No, of course not,” Gonzales murmured. “Perfectly
understandable.”
“My son has been thinking about many of the things
Detective Gunn asked him during her visit,” the father said. “He
believes he has additional information that might help Detective
Gunn.”
“Of course.” Gonzales rose to his feet. His forced
goodwill swelled to fill the room, squeezing the genuine emotion
right out of it. “Why don’t we let your son and Detective Gunn chat
in my office while I show you around the station house? Wait until
you see how many people we have working on this case.” He nodded at
Bobby. “We intend to see that justice is done for your son’s
fiancée.”
No one corrected his mistake. Alissa and Bobby had
never even been given the chance to get as far as an engagement—and
Bobby would live a lifetime wondering if she had been his
one.
“That’s very kind of you,” Mr. Daniels told him,
helping his wife to her feet. “Let’s just leave them alone for a
while, Camilla.”
As the couple followed Gonzales and Robertson out
the door, I saw the old man cast his son a look that I could not
quite read. It was, perhaps, a fatherly warning. No, that was too
strong. More like a father lending his son strength. I saw love in
his look—love and sternness.
“Thank you for not saying anything about last
night,” Bobby whispered once he was alone with Maggie. He barely
breathed the words, as if he were afraid to say them out loud,
perhaps fearing Gonzales was taping their conversation.
Maggie nodded her acknowledgment.
“My father served in the Vietnam War,” Bobby
explained in a more normal voice. “He was career military. They had
me late in life.”
Maggie looked unsure about where the conversation
was headed.
“He’s seen things so very terrible that he says he
believes that anything is possible when it comes to human
behavior,” Bobby said. “No matter how awful it may be.”
“He’s right,” Maggie said quietly.
“I know that now.”
“Yes,” she said. “You’ve lived among them. You know
that now.”
“He thinks I need to tell you about Alissa’s
father, even though it’s only a feeling. My father never liked him.
They met twice. Both times my father insisted afterward that there
was something wrong with her father.”
“Like what?”
“He wouldn’t say,” Bobby explained. “He just said
that Mr. Hayes had something missing in him that decent people had,
no matter how good he might look on the outside. My mother hushed
him up and said it was losing his wife that had made him that way.
But my father disagreed.” He paused. “My father once told me that
if I really cared about Alissa, I would take her away from her
father as fast as I could.”
Maggie stared at him more intently. “What did you
think he meant when he said that to you? Tell me what came into
your mind.”
“I thought of all the times her father had waited
up for us until I brought Alissa home, how angry he was, even
though we never broke her curfew and she was twenty years old by
then. I thought of the way he would look at me—he really hated me,
you know. Truly hated me. He felt I had taken Alissa from him. I
always blamed him for . . . for what happened to me in the end. I
didn’t blame the detectives. I didn’t help myself much at the time,
you know. They only did what anyone would have done.”
“That’s kind of you to say,” Maggie said grimly.
“Though you may not quote me on it.”
“I thought, at the time, that Mr. Hayes was just
being protective, like any father might be. I don’t really know how
fathers are toward their daughters. I don’t have any sisters. And
Alissa was my first real girlfriend.”
Maggie nodded, willing him to go on.
“But his protectiveness went beyond that, I think,
and . . .” He paused.
“And what?” Maggie prompted.
“He lied about me at the trial and during the
investigation. Again and again. He said things about me that just
weren’t true.”
“Did you tell Detectives Bonaventura and Fahey
that?” Maggie asked, though she knew the answer.
Shame washed over me as Bobby Daniels answered. “I
kept telling them he was lying. But they didn’t really hear me. Or
they didn’t believe me. I don’t know which.” He hesitated. “There
must be a record of what I said in the files.”
Maggie raised her eyebrows but said nothing. I knew
what she was thinking and was humiliated by her thoughts: not only
would his protests not be in the file, Danny and I had kept them
out on purpose to bolster our case.
But Bobby Daniels wasn’t really concerned about how
he had been treated. What he wanted, and what he needed, was
justice for Alissa. He stared at Maggie as he spoke, needing her
agreement. “Why would he lie if he wasn’t trying to hide
something?”
“Are you coming to me out of vengeance?” Maggie
asked gently. “Because putting the wrong man in jail again won’t
take away what happened to you.”
“No,” he said. “I understand that he saw me
differently from the way Alissa saw me, but it went beyond that.
The change was so sudden. One moment he tolerated me, and the next,
when I started going out with Alissa? I became his enemy.
Instantly. He was my graduate advisor, you know?”
Maggie nodded.
“He was fine toward me before I started seeing
Alissa. Maybe a little aloof. Certainly unpredictable. Interested
in my progress one day and distracted the next.” He shrugged. “I
guess a lot of advisors are like that. But after I started seeing
Alissa, the way he acted toward me changed so much. He was no
longer distracted or uninterested. It was worse.”
“How?” Maggie asked.
“He never took his eyes off me. I couldn’t walk
across the room without him following my every move. I couldn’t
leave a room without him, literally, following me. It was like he
was . . .”
“Hunting you?” Maggie suggested.
Bobby considered it. “Yes, I’ve seen that look
since. Many times in prison.” He closed his eyes against the
memories. “It was like he was hunting me.”
“Because you were going to take Alissa from
him?”
Bobby Daniels nodded. “Yes. And I think that’s why
he killed her. To keep that from happening. He killed her because
of me.” With that, he broke down, unable to continue. His sobs
filled the room, as did his shame. Maggie did not judge or pity or
comfort him. She waited him out.
“You must think I’m insane,” he mumbled as he
struggled to regain his composure. “I do nothing but cry in front
of you.”
Maggie took both of his hands in hers. “Bobby, most
people would not have survived what you went through. Most people
would have come out of that prison with a heart so black and so
shrunken with hate that there would be no room in it for anything
but revenge. But you survived intact. And it’s over. You survived.
If you want to break down and cry in relief for a solid year at
that miracle, believe me, I understand. It’s something to cry
about. No one would think otherwise.”
Daniels looked away, his eyes seeking the sunshine
that waited outside the window. When he spoke, his voice was flat.
“He thought of her as nothing more than one of his possessions. She
was his territory, like his hill.”
“His hill?” Maggie asked. “What do you mean, ‘his
hill’?”
“She was like the hill he used to walk up and down
each night for exercise. He acted like he owned it. No one else was
allowed to walk with him. Or behind him. Or near him. And he hated
it when strangers intruded. It wasn’t just that he wanted to be
alone. He acted like he owned that stupid path. He forbid Alissa
and me to walk along it, even when he wasn’t there. As if that
could . . . stop us from being alone.” He became lost in a memory
that I could feel was a good one, time spent with Alissa, and I
willed other good memories to follow this one, so that they might
obliterate the bad memories he held inside.
“Where was this hill?” Maggie asked him
carefully.
Bobby Daniels described it—a hill near the old rock
quarry, along the far side of the college.
It was the same hill where Vicky Meeks had been
found.
“Bobby,” Maggie told him in an urgent voice. “I
want you to leave here as soon as you can. Go back to Kansas City
with your parents, see your relatives, and celebrate your
freedom—then take some time off and go away with your parents
somewhere. Don’t tell anyone but me where you’re going.”
Bobby looked at her, puzzled. “Why?”
Maggie’s fear filled the room. She knew what she
was up against—and I knew she was right to fear it, because I had
felt it, and I knew it had the power to snatch your soul right out
of your body and smite it into cinders.
“Alan Hayes is missing,” she explained. “He hasn’t
come home since we searched his house. No one knows where he’s
gone. And I think your life is in danger because of him. I think he
was at the Double Deuce last night.”
Bobby stared at her. “What if I remember something
else that might help?”
“Then you call me,” Maggie said, handing him her
card. “But don’t tell anyone else but me where you are. Do you
understand?”
He nodded solemnly.
“You must protect your parents,” she explained.
“They’re in danger, too. He knows your father can see through him.
He’d have picked up on that. And if he hears you’re part of my
investigation in any way, all of you are in danger.”
“So you do think it’s him?” Bobby said. “My father
was right?”
“Yes,” Maggie said. “Your father was right. The
world is full of more terrible things than anyone of us will ever
know. There are people that walk this earth, who walk among us, who
feed on pain and who exist solely to destroy the happiness of
others.”
“I knew men like that in prison,” Bobby said
softly.
But Maggie shook her head. “Not exactly. Those men
are in prison because some part of them, somewhere, wanted to be
caught. So they made a mistake. But Alissa’s father? He won’t make
a mistake. Because your father’s right: there is something missing
in him. And you don’t want to know what it is.”
“I do want to know,” Bobby said. “I need to know. I
need to know what happened to Alissa.”
Maggie looked sadder than I had ever seen her look.
I thought my heart might break for what she was feeling. She didn’t
just empathize with people, she fed on their pain before they
could, offering herself as a receptacle for the terrible unknowns
of what their loved ones had gone through so that they would never
have to imagine the unimaginable themselves.
“Bobby,” she said firmly. “You don’t want to know
what happened to Alissa. Go on with your life, remember all the
beautiful things about her, and don’t ever look back.”
He stared at her.
“Not ever, Bobby,” she whispered. “Not ever.”
He wanted to ask more, he would have asked more.
But the room exploded with noise as two uniformed cops burst
through the door, a harried administrative assistant close behind
them.
“He’d want to know,” one of them was saying, but he
stopped short and stared when he saw Maggie.
“What?” Maggie asked sharply.
“We heard you were in a wreck,” the patrolman
explained, sounding confused. “At an intersection a couple blocks
up Independence. It just came over the radio—”
“Peggy,” Maggie cried as she jumped to her feet.
She was out the door before anyone else could react. I was right
behind her.