Chapter 35

Where would Hayes go? He could not go home—his
house was being watched. Nor would he dare return to his office at
the college. He had to be wherever he took his victims. His hidden
safe house was nearby somewhere.
I made my way to a pond the town had dug several
years before in the center of its downtown park. I was always alone
there at night. No one else felt safe there, far from
civilization—and far from screaming distance—once the office
workers had all packed up and gone home. At this time of year, not
even the bums sought a good night’s sleep on the benches that
rimmed the pond. But I did not need to fear muggers, or the night.
I liked to sit on the bench at the far end of the pond, just beyond
a spotlight cast by a street-lamp overhead on a circle of rippling
water near the intake pipe. The ripples sparkled in the night,
reflecting stars and clouds, creating a patch of endless universe
undulating on the water’s surface that fascinated me. This was
where I felt connected to all things; that patch of water was a
portal into infinity for me. This was where I liked to think. I
sat, surrounded by silence, contemplating every move Alan Hayes had
ever made, reviewing every word he had ever uttered, cataloging
every scrap of information others had offered on him. I was trying
to find a clue about where he might have gone.
I knew it had to be there somewhere. And I knew it
was my job to find out where. Maggie would be at the hospital with
Peggy, Gonzales was distracted—there was no one left to lead the
team. But Hayes would be moving, and he’d be moving swiftly, to
complete whatever dark ritual he felt the need to indulge in. I did
not want to even think of his possibilities. Where would he go?
Where would a man like him feel safe? I had to find out for us
all.
It took me over an hour replaying all I had heard
about him, over and over in my head, before it came to me: a
comment Bobby Daniels had made a few hours earlier, when speaking
to Maggie privately: “He acted like he owned it,” Bobby had said,
speaking of how Hayes acted about the hill at the far side of town.
He acted like he owned it.
He’d be hiding near that hill. He thought of it as
his.
His hill. His daughter. Alan Hayes certainly had a
sense of entitlement. But in his anger over having either claimed
by others, he had a made a mistake. By forbidding Bobby Daniels to
even tread on that hill, he had tipped his hand.
I thought of the grove Maggie had discovered the
day after Vicky Meeks had been discovered and of the hidden watcher
who had run away when Alissa Hayes appeared to him.
It had been Alan Hayes. His lair had to be nearby.
I would find it.
There are not many things I can do in my present
form, other than to face my human mistakes and wish my life had
been different. But I can roam. Oh, how I can roam. I can roam the
hills with the best of them, and I need not worry about my safety
nor wait for daylight to start my travels.
Maggie would eventually realize the significance of
it being his hill. But she would have to wait until daylight to
search it. Me? I’d find his hiding place tonight and then, in the
morning, I would find a way to lead Maggie to it.
I set off for the hill. I moved through the streets
and over the sidewalks of my town, watching as twilight gathered in
the sky and families gravitated toward home, their steps quickening
as they neared their blocks, drawn to the safety and warmth of
those who knew them, drawn to the light of home and hearth. And
though evolution and extinction had long since erased the dangers
of the night for most, I knew that darkness still signified danger
for most humans. Not for me. A bright moon above was as welcoming
as the sun. And a night sky sprinkled with stars behind it was even
better. I would have that hill to myself. Soon I would find out his
secrets.
I pondered the nature of Alan Hayes as I moved
through the darkness. What would a man devoid of humanity depend on
to fill the empty places inside him? Arrogance, I thought. Cunning.
Unquenchable rapaciousness. And, no doubt, an immense sense of
self-satisfaction.
I thought about his cunning. If he had a hiding
place on the hill, what had driven Alan Hayes to leave Vicky Meeks
so close to his secret hiding place? If his daughter Sarah had
spoken the truth to Maggie and he had not used the basement for his
darkest purposes but had, instead, taken his victims to a place
only he knew about, a place where he could take his time, it would
likely be on this hill he felt a need to claim. But it had been
sloppy of him to leave Vicky Meeks on that same hill. Had arrogance
overridden cunning? Maybe he had grown so good at what he did that
the thrill of being caught had faded, perhaps he was driven by a
need to dance near that line?
No, Alan Hayes would not make a mistake like that.
He’d only have dumped the body close to his hiding place if he’d
absolutely had to.
I had been a detective once. And I had been a good
one once, though that had been much longer ago than my death. I
had, in fact, been considered the best prospect in all the academy,
outclassed only by Lazaro Gonzales and his dazzling skills at
ingratiating himself with instructors. Now Gonzales was commander
and I was dead. But I still had the knowledge in me that I’d had
back then—I had that knowledge and so much more.
I reached the hill just as the moon had climbed to
its peak in the sky. I sat on a rock, watching, as the sky turned a
deep, rich, almost luminescent blue that seemed to draw the stars
to it. It felt good to be alone at times like this, and my solitude
settled easily on me.
Then I saw a tiny figure far up the hill with a
black spot dancing around it.
Of course. The old man and his dog. The man who had
discovered Vicky Meeks in the weeds. This was his hill, too. For as
long as Alan Hayes had been using it for his own darker purposes,
this man had been using it as a farewell to each day and a place to
greet the dawn. This was his place of solitude before he returned
to a house full of other people, other voices, and all the
responsibilities of his responsible life. The old man would not
give up his walks on the hill just because he’d found a body. No,
he, too, needed his rituals and his hill.
I saw the connection. Perhaps the old man had
spooked Alan Hayes the day before Vicky Meeks was discovered. Maybe
that was why Hayes had left her body in a place so close to his
hiding place. He had probably been moving the body when he heard
the old man drawing close on an early morning walk. He’d had no
choice but to dump it where he was and to run.
As I imagined the scene, a habit I had used long
ago when I still cared about my job, it was as if my thoughts now
had the power to inspire a rewind of reality. I saw it all with
clarity in my mind: a night like this, hours later, hovering on the
edge of dawn, stalled by approaching daylight, still lit by the
moon, the air crisp and clean, stars winking out above, the end of
a perfect autumn night—and the perfect time to dispose of the girl
who had so inconveniently died on him at last, taking away his
pleasures. He’d leave his hiding place with her body somehow, a
plan in mind to take the body to his car below and dispose of her
elsewhere, far from his hiding place. He’d not have gotten far when
he heard the old man approaching, or perhaps the little dog barking
nearby, smelling him, smelling the body, alerting his owner that
all was not well.
He’d have to move quickly. He’d have to move off
the path to a place as close by as possible. He’d have to dump the
body and run. And he’d be angry that his own routine had been
interrupted by something so inconsequential and unworthy as an old
man and his yappy little dog.
He’d be hoarding that anger still.
I stood up abruptly, ready to search the hill. The
rock quarry on the other side of the hill offered a hundred hiding
places. There were caverns and cul-de-sacs among the mountains of
rocks, abandoned clearings, the desolate bottoms of dried-out
reservoirs. But he would not be in the quarry. If he’d been
surprised by the old man and his dog, and if he’d been using the
clearing in the woods for some of his more public fantasies, he’d
have to have a hiding place somewhere closer to where the body of
Vicky Meeks was found. He would not run back uphill to dump her,
away from the old man, not with a body in tow. He’d run downhill
instead. Which meant his hiding place was above both the clearing
and the crime scene.
I could see it as clearly as life and I knew that I
was right. I, Kevin Fahey, had blown it utterly and thoroughly when
alive. But in death? In death, I was a detective again. A good
detective. I knew I was right.
I headed for the spot where Vicky Meeks had been
discarded among the weeds like the unwanted remains of a meal. I
found nothing and headed uphill toward the clearing where Maggie
and I had seen a figure running through the woods. But again, there
was nothing malignant lingering there. It felt like nothing more
than an altar to the night, awaiting the scratchings and scurryings
of night creatures—and so I moved on.
I continued upward, alert for signs that the old
man and his dog were on the same path. I did not want to risk
exposure and dogs were tricky. The little terrier had not bothered
me before, but perhaps he’d only been distracted by the scent of a
decomposing body nearby.
I was close to the crime scene when I heard
whistling: a classic swing song popular during World War II. The
old man was near.
I melted back into the shadows just as he rounded a
curve in the path, anxious to get home now that he had lingered too
long into the night, perhaps more anxious than usual because he was
remembering the dead girl he’d discovered a week before.
But I, too, had lingered too long. The little dog
sensed my presence and pulled away from his master, growling more
like a Rottweiler than a terrier. He darted toward me, yapping
furiously, pursuing me into the bushes. I got a glimpse of the old
man’s face, pale and worried in the moonlight, and I feared he
might have a heart attack, so sudden and overwhelming was his
terror. I could hear his thoughts as they rushed through his mind:
Why had I taken a walk so late at night? Why had I tempted fate?
What will my family say if I don’t return home? How could I have
been so careless?
I fled, not wanting to frighten the old man
further, hoping to leave the little dog behind. But the damnable
beast kept pace, and there was no question now that he could see
me. I moved quickly through the underbrush, relentlessly pursued by
the dog. His determination would have been comical had I not been
thoroughly annoyed. The damn thing wiggled beneath the brambles
that did not bother me, leapt over rocks with a joyous abandon,
darted around trees, and sent leaves flying as his paws scuttled
over the forest floor. So far as he was concerned, he was doing his
job, and what a grand game it was indeed.
I could not shake him. He pursued me endlessly,
rattling me so much I became unsure of where I had been and where I
had yet to go. I needed to find the path. I took off to my left,
through a heavy tangle of dormant bushes that would surely at least
slow the beast down, then I moved through a patch of pines that had
established a small colony deep in the hardwood hills. I smelled
asphalt ahead and reached the path again, moving quickly uphill
where I knew the old man would be reluctant to follow his dog.
Perhaps he’d command the dog to heel and I’d be left alone.
But that damn little beast was too quick for me,
and he was a far better pursuer than I had ever been. He was with
me on the path in an instant, his barks and growls triumphant. What
could I do now? I couldn’t swat him and I couldn’t shake him. I had
to keep moving until his master called him off.
I reached the crest of a ridge, the little dog
still on my heels. I had nowhere to go. I followed the path around
a bend and it continued to wind slowly upward, the steepness of its
slope softened by its circular route. The boulders grew larger, the
rock interface taller as I neared the top of the hill. Behind me,
the dog had settled into a series of annoying yips. It sounded like
I had an incredibly loud, nasal beeper affixed to my rear end.
There was a reason I’d never let my boys have a dog, I thought
grimly as I searched for some way to shake it.
The asphalt path stopped in a clearing surrounded
on three sides by massive rocks that had tumbled from the pinnacle
of the hill to a depression in the ground, forming a natural
barrier. The paved walkway ended abruptly against one of the
granite boulders. End of the line.
I went right, through a tumbled pile of rocks, and
into the underbrush surrounding the crest of the hill. A hundred
feet into the overgrown area, I knew I was lost, but I kept moving.
If I found a space small enough to hide in, the little dog would
not be able to follow. Then I saw it: a tangle of dried brush and
brambles at the base of another outcropping of conjoined boulders.
What the hell, I’d head right into the rocks and see what
happened.
I moved through the brambles and discovered an
unexpected clearing no more than four feet wide. The forest floor
had been stamped down and smoothed; dark earth showed through the
coating of fallen leaves. I examined the brush surrounding the
clearing more closely and discovered a makeshift blind made of
dried branches woven together and propped up against the rocks.
Behind it, where the rocks came together, I saw the opening to what
looked like a cave.
I knew at once I had found the hiding place where
Alan Hayes took his victims. Death lingered outside the entrance,
drawing me to it with the power of an inescapable but
self-destructive impulse. I could not turn back.
The entry hole was no larger than a linebacker, but
it was big enough for a normal person to slip through, and
certainly big enough to drag a body in and out of. I stepped
through the opening, into a narrow pathway formed by rock walls,
seeking the cavern that must be inside.
Behind me, the little dog was barking and clawing
his way through the bushes, relentless in its pursuit.
What if someone waited inside? I would be putting
the dog and the old man in danger.
I stopped and listened, heard nothing, then tried
to will my intuition into being. The cave ahead felt empty.
I stepped forward into the darkness.