Chapter 8
I had watched people eat since I died, of course,
and longed for that lost pleasure, but seeing Danny eat was a whole
other ball game. He wolfed, he chomped, he licked, crunched, and
dripped. Watching him, it was impossible not to miss the pleasure
of filling one’s gut. But I think I might have been the only one
who got any satisfaction from it. Danny shoveled his food in
without seeming to get any joy from it at all, as if he feared
someone might snatch it from him if he didn’t hurry. My guess was
that he was at the point in the day where he felt as if the alcohol
had eaten a hole in his stomach and he had to fill it as soon as he
could. I had been there myself and remembered the sensation: a
weakened body, fighting back against the poison.
If Maggie noticed, she said nothing. Indeed, she
never even looked at Danny at all. She drove in silence, ignoring
his frantic chewing and slurping. It wasn’t that she had given up
on Danny, I realized. She had never considered counting on him in
the first place, never weighed it for an instant. I felt ashamed at
the possibility that I had once been worthy of such treatment
myself. Had Danny gotten worse, or had we unknowingly shared in
this sort of dismissal before? I’d had no perspective while alive,
no awareness of what others thought of me, or maybe it was more
like no interest in what others thought of me. In many ways, I had
been dead even back then.
But there was something more to Maggie’s ability to
shut out Danny and, indeed, the rest of the world with
preternatural concentration. She had trained herself to reject all
unbidden thoughts, I decided, perhaps as protection against a
painful memory. A failed marriage, perhaps. A professional failure
of her own? I could feel nothing from her that might guide me
toward an answer. She kept all but the present de terminedly at
bay.
When they reached the center of campus where the
student dorms were located, Maggie dropped Danny off without
comment. He had a mustard spot on his left shoulder as he climbed
from the car and he smelled like he’d been ga toring on a barroom
floor. Great. Law enforcement was about to make another good
impression on young people. But what could I do?
I stayed with Maggie.
I had never seen a person act with so much
single-minded purpose before. And whether it was brilliance or
self-preservation, it enthralled me. I could not stay away. She
radiated a brightness that drew me to her and paled all else.
She started at the parking area far down the hill,
searching the sidewalks and grass in a grid pattern, her eyes never
wavering as she sought evidence that might lead her closer to the
identity of the girl’s killer. It was almost an hour before she
left the busy lower area and started up the path that led to the
top of the hill. The hillside was rimmed with occasional stands of
trees that slowed her even further. She took out a flashlight and
scrutinized the base of each tree she passed, examined the
underside of each bush, seeking a primary site for the murder but
finding nothing. An hour later, she was far above the campus, in
sight of the officer guarding the crime scene above. I was her
shadow, searching the ground with her, mimicking a meticulousness I
had rejected when alive.
We reached the crime scene, but Maggie did not
stop; she had covered every inch of it already. She waved at the
guard as she passed and he saluted her in return, a sign of his
respect for her dedication. She followed the path upward into the
forest above the field where the young woman’s body had been found.
As Maggie investigated a patch of trampled bushes just off the main
path several hundred yards from the hilltop, our peace was abruptly
shattered. I was flooded with a sense of doom so acute it felt as
if the world had inverted and the very earth had moved through me
in doing so. I was left with a choking, cold, all-consuming
sensation that both smothered me and stripped me bare. I was
stunned into inaction, frozen by an unseen source of pure
evil.
Yet I saw no one there.
Maggie continued her search along the forest floor,
examining broken branches and trampled leaves, oblivious to the
feelings that overwhelmed me. The first wave of sensation passed,
but my conviction that evil was present lingered. I sniffed the air
carefully, trying to determine where the feeling was coming from. A
shadow passed behind a sycamore that guarded one edge of the grove.
I was there within seconds but found no one. Yet I knew the force
was human, not a lingering essence, but human.
There was someone else in the grove with us.
I had seen dark shapes often since I had died; they
lived just outside my peripheral vision, a tribe of distorted
skulls, grasping limbs, visible only in black outlines of deformed
bodies that grew, then melted into the shadows before I could fix
them in my sight. But they were real, and they were of my
netherworld. That much I knew.
This was different. This was a man.
The evil passed behind me now, manifesting as an
icy draft on the back of my neck. A foul, decaying smell filled my
being. I turned around in a circle, slowly, hyper-vigilant of all I
saw.
I saw no one.
But I knew that he could see her. And he would
remember her face.
Maggie was bent over the roots of a tree, examining
nicks in its gnarled surfaces, pushing aside leaves with her hands,
unaware that she was not alone. I waited, completely still,
suddenly certain that a fourth presence had joined us, this one
less human than the other.
I was confused by the signals that assaulted me.
Smell, noise, touch, empathy. My hearing had grown acute over the
past few months and I imagined I could hear a rapid heartbeat
nearby—or maybe I really could hear it. Or was it my own remembered
pulse? No, it was real. It was someone’s heartbeat, someone very
much a human. I detected a light snick-snick, no more than a
whisper: feet creeping over dry leaves. A corporeal presence. Very
human. And very much a danger to Maggie.
A human who remained hidden, watching Maggie and
waiting.
But waiting for what?
Maggie knelt near the base of a large oak tree and
ran her fingers over the bark. She took a penknife from her pocket
and pried an infinitesimal bit of matter from under a groove in the
gnarled surface, bagging it carefully. She backed away from the
tree with deliberate steps and walked slowly in a circle around it,
her eyes never leaving the trunk, her vision focused about three
feet off the ground. She did not disturb the carpet of leaves
pushed up against the base of the tree, but tiptoed carefully
outside of its range.
As she moved behind the trunk, I saw him at last: a
man, hiding behind a nearby tree. I could not see his face in the
shadows, but I could tell that he was tall. Tall and very, very
still.
Before I could react, before I could so much as
move an inch, the man made a sound as if he were choking. He took
off through the trees, pushing through bushes and fallen branches
in his panic, without regard for the noise he was making, or for
Maggie, who drew her gun the instant she heard him and took off in
pursuit, her courage rising without hesitation.
I followed, wondering how I could be of help, but
stopped abruptly when I saw Alissa Hayes standing in the spot where
the man had waited. Her face was sad, but her eyes glittered with
something close to triumph. She looked at me. Our eyes held.
Contact. I understood: the man had seen her. I realized it
in an instant. The man waiting to hurt Maggie had seen Alissa
Hayes. That was why he had taken off running. He had seen her and
the sight of her had terrified him. Because he had known her. And
known that she was dead.
Who was he? I followed Maggie through the trees,
but I was too late. She was hurrying back down the hill, gun
holstered, talking into her cell phone.
“I lost him,” she said to someone on the other end.
“He just disappeared on me. It was weird.” She listened for a
moment. “I don’t know. It could have been a curious student who
panicked.” She was silent. “No, I’m sure of it. There’s rope marks
and poly threading caught in the bark. With signs of a struggle
beneath. I think he kept her there for a while.” She listened
intently. “Just send the whole crew. We can’t afford to miss
anything. I’m thinking this guy likes his work.” She paused and
frowned. “Sure, I’ll call him. He’s here somewhere on campus,
tracking the victim. No, I understand. It’s not a problem.”
Maggie hung up and slowed as she reached the trees
where she had discovered the signs of a disturbance. She did not
enter the grove again and I felt a sense of relief. She stood in
the sunlight instead, head tilted up to catch its rays, its warmth
an antidote to what she had imagined among the dark shadows. After
a moment, rebalanced, she called Danny on her cell phone and told
him what she had found. He came huffing and puffing up the hill
fifteen minutes later, his shirt soaked with the sweat of an
alcoholic forced into physical exercise.
“I found where he kept her,” Maggie said as she
held up an open palm, warning him to stop at the edge of the grove.
“Or at least one of the spots. Bag-and-tag is on its way.”
“One of the spots?” Danny asked.
“There’s not a lot of blood.” Maggie frowned.
“We’re missing something.”
“Well, I IDed her,” Danny replied, as if that
settled the whole matter and they could now all go home to bed. He
flipped open his notebook. “The dead girl is a junior named
Victoria Meeks. Roommate hasn’t seen her since before the weekend.
Thought she was away with a new boyfriend. I showed her a photo
from the scene and the roommate is certain. It’s her.”
“Victoria?” Maggie asked. And then she did a
curious thing: she searched the sky, her eyes tracing the contours
of each cloud as if they held an answer for her. “Victoria
Meeks.”
“Roommate called her Vicky. She’s local. Mother
lives in town.” Danny stowed his notebook away. “So she was killed
here?”
“She wasn’t killed here. Just held here.” Maggie
sounded certain.
“Why?” Danny asked, looking around. “There’s a
quarry right over that hill with a million hidden spots. He could
easily have tortured her and dumped the body over there. We’d never
have found it.”
Maggie’s voice was soft as she nodded toward the
grove. “It’s beautiful in there, that’s why. It’s almost like a
church. The light filters through the leaves like stained glass.
And farther up the hill, you can see for miles.” She looked at
Danny. “I think he just thought it was a beautiful spot for what he
had in mind.”
Danny looked perplexed. He stared at the trees, his
brain working out the pieces. Alissa Hayes emerged from the shadows
right in front of him, her pale body barely visible in the bright
sunlight. She passed through the living, unseen by them both,
though Maggie cocked her head and stared at the air between them.
She had sensed something, I knew, but not enough.
Danny was, as always, oblivious. He looked right
through Alissa Hayes, still not seeing her, still not understanding
that he had failed her—and that I had helped him fail.