CHAPTER 25
“What is right to be done cannot be done too
soon.”
Jane Austen, Emma, 1815
Darcy bought Elizabeth several expensive dresses
as well as jewelry, along with a satin-lined pelisse. They walked
through RoyalVictoria Park, visited the Roman Baths, strolled along
the Royal Crescent, and explored Sydney Gardens. They laughed; they
cuddled, often pushing the lines of propriety. When Edward finally
arrived in Bath, they joined Edward and Anne for dinner in a very
public setting. To everyone Darcy introduced to Elizabeth, they
told the same story: Darcy left Georgiana in London to bring his
wife to Bath for a surprise holiday before the arrival of their
child. Georgiana would return to Pemberley as soon as Darcy could
properly escort her there.
After four days of constantly smiling for the
public, Elizabeth asked,“May we not return to Pemberley soon,
Fitzwilliam?”
He took her hand in his. “I was thinking the day
after tomorrow, if that is acceptable to you, my Dear.”
“It cannot be soon enough for me.” Elizabeth leaned
in to feel his closeness, and Darcy laced his arm around her
waist.
Constantly needing Elizabeth’s assurances, Darcy
asked, “Then you are satisfied at Pemberley?”
“Wherever you are, my Love, is my home, but how
could I not love Pemberley. It is a part of you; Pemberley runs
through your veins, and now with this child, it runs through
mine.”
Although in a very public forum at the time,
Elizabeth’s words were nearly Darcy’s undoing. He cupped his free
hand
over hers and pulled Elizabeth closer. “I love you, my Wife, with
all my heart; when you are not with me, I cannot get you off of
mind. I love you most ardently.”
In the carriage ride home, Darcy finally got
enough nerve to ask something that had bothered him for some time.
“Elizabeth, when I left for London the first time, I left a letter
of apology with Hannah. I told you of my wishes for our
happiness—our life together. I waited for a response from you, but
one never came. Did you stop loving me during that time?” Obvious
pain showed on his face.
“Fitzwilliam.” She motioned for him to move to the
seat bench next to her.When he complied, Elizabeth turned so she
could look at him directly; they had a connection where their eyes
told the true story.“When I saw the letter that morning, I could
not face the possibility you planned to send me away from
Pemberley. I never opened the letter; it is in my drawer in my
dressing room.”
“You never read it?” A bit of relief overspread his
face. “I thought for the past two months you did not want me in
your life.”
Elizabeth laughed lightly.“I thought the same
thing, but for different reasons. We always misconstrue each other.
Do you suppose, Mr. Darcy, either of us will ever be secure in the
knowledge of the other’s regard?”
“I certainly hope so, my lovely Wife; the pain I
felt when I needed your comfort is not something I would wish to
live with forever.” Darcy kissed her cheek lightly.
Elizabeth turned and snuggled into his shoulder. “I
would wish more of this in my life—simply more of this.”
Their return to Pemberley seemed so natural; it was
where
they both belonged. They walked the grounds; they shared their
passions; they rode out in the warm sunshine; they picnicked in the
field of wildflowers. Life for Darcy could not seem more complete
than it did in those days. He knew he should not leave Georgiana
alone in London, but for the life of him, all he could think about
was being with Elizabeth. He reasoned his sister could still attend
some of the concerts with Mrs.Annesley, and his lack of presence
would keep callers from making offers to her. Georgiana, he
persuaded himself, would welcome not having the social obligations,
and for him, he never felt such contentment.
One day, he rode out with Mr. Howard to inspect the
crops, but because of his renewal of husbandly privileges with
Elizabeth, he spent the whole time daydreaming of taking her to his
bed. She was over seven months with child, but Darcy felt like a
lovesick newlywed.
When he entered their bedchamber that evening, he
expected to find Elizabeth there, but an empty room disappointed
him. When she did not appear right away, he sought her out in the
upper rooms.A flickering candlelight led him to the nursery. There
she sat in the chair next to the child’s crib, softly singing a
lullaby. Darcy remembered an image of Elizabeth singing at a
pianoforte, and the clarity of her voice mesmerized him as it did
now.
He waited in the shadows until she finished.“Our
child will be blessed, Elizabeth, to be lulled to sleep with such
melodies.” Darcy’s voice took his wife by surprise, but she turned
to him with a smile on her face.
“I should chastise you, Sir, for eavesdropping.
This is my time with our child.” Elizabeth’s smile told Darcy her
reprimand was in jest.
“I missed you, Mrs. Darcy; it seems I cannot make
it through the day without your embrace.” Darcy stepped into the
room and offered Elizabeth his hand.
She stood and moved willingly into Darcy’s arms.
“Kiss me,” he whispered into Elizabeth’s ear.
Before she could answer, Darcy’s body backed her up
against the windowsill as he covered Elizabeth’s mouth with his.
She threw her arms around Darcy’s neck and returned his kiss.The
passion coursed through both of them. Elizabeth relaxed against his
powerful body; it felt so good to be in Darcy’s arms after all the
months of uncertainty. Pressing her back against the window frame,
his tongue parted her lips and passionately sought out the
willingness she offered. All his thoughts dwelt in the delight of
having Elizabeth in his arms and feeling her desire grow with his.
Darcy’s hand slid down Elizabeth’s arm and then moved up to cup her
breast as she arched into his touch, her own hands caressing his
muscular back.
When Darcy finally broke the kiss, his chest rose
and fell, rapidly breathing, as he stared deep into Elizabeth’s
passion-filled eyes. “How have I survived eight and twenty years
without loving you? Now, I want you, my Lizzy, with me every second
of every day.”
Elizabeth murmured,“It is part of my plan,
Fitzwilliam.”
“What plan would that be, fair lady?” He kissed
along her neck.
Elizabeth slid her hands up under his shirt. “My
purposeful plan to possess you body and soul.”
Darcy moaned with her touch. “You are bewitching,
my Love, and your plan is complete.”
Georgiana Darcy enjoyed London since her brother
left her to her own devices. Fitzwilliam rushed away to find
Elizabeth; it pleased Georgiana her brother finally realized how
important Elizabeth was in his life. It pleased her more
Fitzwilliam delayed his return to London because he wanted to be
with Elizabeth.
When she met Darcy’s friends in the park or at the
concert, she explained how he and Elizabeth went to Bath with their
cousins to serve as chaperones for the engaged couple and to share
a holiday before Elizabeth’s lying in. It pleased Georgiana to
innocently add a comment about how now Darcy was home with his
wife, he did not want to leave her alone at Pemberley. She would
finish with how they decided for an abbreviated season, and
Georgiana would return home soon.
She knew some people believed her; some took a
wait-and-see attitude, and some preferred the gossip to the truth;
yet, Georgiana cared not. Unlike her brother, Georgiana Darcy never
cared for what others thought. She preferred a simple life full of
music and helping others.
Darcy would return to London mid-June to take her
back to Pemberley.They would call at Longbourn to secure Kitty as
help for Elizabeth and the child. Darcy’s letter indicated he did
not wish to be long from his wife’s side. Georgiana had a fortnight
left to be home again.
Darcy and Elizabeth walked leisurely in the
garden, enjoying the early summer warmth. Elizabeth leaned on him,
allowing his muscular frame to support her weight. Her head rested
on Darcy’s shoulder when they sat together on a stone bench. “The
sun feels wonderful after the overcast skies of the last few days,”
Darcy said absent-mindedly.
“I suppose,” Elizabeth responded.
Darcy, recognizing his wife’s propensity for being
outside in all elements, turned to her immediately. “Do you feel
poorly, my Love?”
Elizabeth shifted uncomfortably on the bench. “I
cannot speak of feeling more than a bit uncomfortable. If I were
not with child,” she said with a blush to her cheeks, “I would
suspect my courses were upon me.” Something she would never
discuss with her sisters, Elizabeth now explained to Darcy.The
irony of how her life changed played across her mind.
Darcy asked in all concern,“Should we return to the
house?”
“Would you mind if I chose to return to my
chambers? I feel so tired today.”
Darcy stood and offered Elizabeth his hand. “Come,
Mrs. Darcy, I will not have you overextending yourself on my
account.”
Elizabeth stood, but a pain surged through her, and
she could no longer ignore the situation. “Fitzwilliam,” she gasped
and clutched desperately at his arm.
Instinctively, Darcy scooped her into his arms. “I
have you, my Love,” a bit of panic laced through his voice. He took
long strides as he approached the side entrance to the estate. He
ordered one of the footmen to bring Mr. Spencer immediately. Upon
entering the house, Darcy yelled for Mrs. Reynolds’s help, carrying
his wife toward her bedchamber.
“I am sorry, Fitzwilliam,” Elizabeth sobbed, her
head buried into the side of his neck.
Her words brought the fear he felt to the
forefront. Could she lose the baby, or, even worse, could he lose
her? “Mr. Spencer is on his way, Lizzy; I will protect you; I will
let nothing happen to you.” His words seemed useless under the
circumstances for Darcy could do little to change what might
happen.
As he laid her back against the pillows of her bed,
the fear in Elizabeth’s eyes shot through him. He never saw her
this way—this was the same woman who never backed down from
him—from Mr. Wickham—and even from Lady Catherine; now Elizabeth
looked like a frightened fawn. He felt so inadequate, unable to
help her.
Mrs. Reynolds rushed into the room. “I am here,
Mrs. Darcy,” she said as she literally pushed Darcy to the
side.
Elizabeth thought out loud.“It is too early.”
Mrs. Reynolds began to loosen the lacing on
Elizabeth’s
dress and corset.“Let us take some pressure off your body,” the
woman said thoughtfully.“I suppose I cannot convince you to wait
outside, can I, Master Fitzwilliam?” She gave him a look of
disapproval.
“I will not leave Elizabeth.” His eyes searched his
wife’s face for some sign of her well-being.
“Then help me get your wife into one of her
dressing gowns,” Mrs. Reynolds demanded as Hannah rushed through
the door with the gown.
Darcy lifted Elizabeth as the women administered to
her needs. He kissed her softly and whispered endearments as the
world around them bustled about furiously.
Noting how ashen white his face was, Elizabeth
managed a slight smile.“I will be fine, Fitzwilliam.” Her words
were meant to convince both of them. Another pain gripped her, and
Darcy pulled her to him until she relaxed once again. In his mind
he began to calculate how far she was from her expected
delivery—not quite six weeks told him Elizabeth could easily lose
their baby.
As he had before his accident, Darcy took a close
look at Elizabeth. Her personality filled a room, and he often
forgot how small—very fragile—Elizabeth actually was. It never
occurred to him Elizabeth’s carrying his child could be dangerous
for her. Darcy did not want to lose her; he would forego having an
heir rather than to lose the joy he felt the last few weeks.
As each sharp pain increased Elizabeth’s
discomfort, Darcy watched helplessly as tears filled her brilliant
eyes. “Look at me, Elizabeth,” he commanded as he took her hands in
his. “I will help you through this.” His words soothed her anxiety,
and despite her exhaustion, Elizabeth reached out to caress his jaw
line.
Finally, Mr. Spencer rushed into the room,
obviously flushed from his ride to Pemberley. He thought about
sending
everyone from the room, but the trio gathered in Mrs. Darcy’s
bedchamber quickly let him know they would not budge.
“Mrs. Darcy,” Mr. Spencer said as he began to
examine her, “we will take care of you. It is early, but not
unmanageable.” He wanted to give her some sort of surety.
Neither Darcy nor Hannah nor Mrs. Reynolds wanted
to ask the obvious question so Elizabeth finally found her voice.
“Will I lose this child?” Elizabeth’s voice broke in fear. Tears
trailed down Hannah’s face, and Darcy looked away, unable to see
the turmoil on his wife’s face.
“I am hoping to postpone that possibility.” Mr.
Spencer reacted to the fear emanating from everyone in the
room.
“How do we do that?” It was Darcy’s voice, but the
resonance was dulled by confusion and remorse.
“Listen carefully, all of you,” Mr. Spencer
demanded their attention. “I am going to propose something a bit
controversial, but, believe me, I observed this to work
before.”
Darcy left Elizabeth’s side.“Well, tell us,
man.”
“Mrs. Darcy has not shown she is in full labor. In
fact, I suspect we can stop her pains and delay her delivery. If we
do, Mrs. Darcy, you are on complete bed rest from this day until
you deliver your child.” He turned to give Elizabeth his
orders.
“Anything, Mr. Spencer,” Elizabeth wiped her tears
away.
Darcy nearly pleaded,“What do we do, Mr.
Spencer?”
“You, Mr. Darcy, are going to find your smoothest
brandy because we are going to get your wife drunk.” Mr. Spencer
looked pleased with himself.
This ridiculous idea struck Elizabeth as funny, and
she actually laughed out loud. Darcy looked stunned, but he managed
to say,“Are you sure?”
Mr. Spencer turned his eyes on Darcy. Convincing
him would convince everyone. “Please understand; Mrs. Darcy’s
current pains are not a sign she is ready to deliver this child,
but if we do not stop them, she will soon be in full childbirth. My
proposal is to let the alcohol relax Mrs. Darcy and her pains. If
we can stop these pains now, we can delay her delivery.Whether we
can postpone Mrs. Darcy’s ultimate delivery for six weeks is
unlikely, but each day we do gives your wife and your child a
better chance.”
Darcy noted Mr. Spencer did not say “a chance of
survival,” but they all knew what the man insinuated.
“Hannah, go get the brandy out of my study.” Darcy
gave the order without taking his eyes from Mr. Spencer’s face.
Finally, he turned and went to sit on the edge of Elizabeth’s bed.
Taking her hand in his, Darcy tried to tease her, “Well, Mrs.
Darcy, it appears I will learn all your deepest secrets this
evening; I promise to ply you with my finest brandy. Are you
game?”
“You will not leave me?” she asked innocently, her
fear in full view.
“The chance to see you with your guard down? How
could I resist such charms?” Darcy tried to sound light, but he
worried whether Mr. Spencer’s idea had a chance.
Hannah rushed back into the room carrying the
decanter and two glasses. Darcy took the decanter and poured a
generous drink for Elizabeth and a much smaller one for
himself.With a slight ironic smile, he handed her the glass. “A
toast to my loveliest Elizabeth,” he said, clinking his glass to
hers.“You are the mirror of my dreams.” Darcy placed the glass to
his lips and took a sip, but with a nod of his head, he encouraged
Elizabeth to take a large swallow.
Elizabeth’s eyes teared up immediately, and she
coughed repeatedly as the brandy left a burning sensation in her
throat. When she could manage to speak again, she stammered,“You .
. . you drink . . . you drink this willingly?”
“Men like to prove how powerful we are.” Darcy held
an amused look on his face.“Yet, it is you women who possess all
the power. You consume us.” He sipped again, and Elizabeth
followed suit with another large gulp.This time she only had to
clear her throat a few times.
Mr. Spencer hustled the women from the room. “We
will be outside, Mr. Darcy.”
Darcy barely turned his head as they left. His
attention remained on Elizabeth. He would keep her calm; he would
help her save their child. They sat together for some time, neither
speaking but Darcy constantly gauging his wife’s condition. Finally
he teased,“Do I know you, Madam?”
Elizabeth took a more moderate sip of the alcohol;
it already took its effect on her. She was at that “giggling” stage
of intoxication where everything was funny. She gave him a
semi-seductive smile.“Oh, yes, Sir, you know me intimately.”
“Intimately?” he asked slyly.“How intimately?” He
topped off her glass, and Elizabeth sloshed some of it on the cuff
of his shirt.
“That depends on you, Mr. Darcy.” Her words began
to slur, and Darcy noted it had been some time since Elizabeth
winced with pain.
“Intimate enough for this?” He allowed his fingers
to trace across her shoulder and along the neckline of her gown.
Elizabeth openly gasped, and Darcy held his glass to her for
another sip of brandy, and then he kissed the last few drops from
her lips.
“Intimate enough for this,” she laughed lightly as
she moved Darcy’s hand down her body, letting it come to rest on
her abdomen.
“Our child,” he whispered.
“Loves your touch,” Elizabeth finished his
line.
He continued to entice her with words of love and
sips of brandy for the next three-quarters hour. While his wife
became pleasantly drunk, Darcy carefully noted how her pains
totally disappeared.
By the time Mr. Spencer and Darcy’s staff returned
to Elizabeth’s room, she was fully inebriated. They found Elizabeth
singing and laughing at the top of her lungs. She sat
propped against a stack of pillows, arms flailing about like an
orchestra conductor.
Darcy stretched out across the foot of the bed,
smiling contentedly, watching her.
“Sing with me, Fitzwilliam,” she called and then
started singing a bawdy number. “There was a fine lady who rode a
white horse; she came to London, of course, of course; with rings
on her fingers and bells on her toes; she has treasures wherever
she goes.”
Darcy laughed at her and stood where he could speak
to the physician. “I wonder where she learned that one. At least my
wife is a happy drunk,” he remarked to no one in particular.
“Mrs. Darcy will have a headache like she has never
known before.” Mrs. Reynolds found it all amusing.
Mr. Spencer asked him privately,“Any more pains,
Mr. Darcy?”
“None for nearly an hour.” Darcy turned to answer
the physician.
“Perfect.” Mr. Spencer looked relieved. “Mrs. Darcy
may have just saved her life and that of your child.”
Darcy breathed at last.“Mr. Spencer, how may I
thank you?”
“Help me keep Mrs. Darcy in bed for a few more
weeks. I want her to bring joy back to Pemberley. It has been too
solemn too long.”
Darcy looked back at the giggling Elizabeth.“It
certainly is not solemn in here this evening.”
Mr. Spencer joined in the laughter.“Mrs. Darcy does
know how to light up a room.”
When Elizabeth finally awoke the next morning, she
moaned with disgust.“Oh, my head,” she muttered, trying to sit up
in bed.
Darcy leaned down to kiss her cheek. “You, my Dear,
were delightful last night.”
“How long will I feel this way?” Darcy’s look of
amusement irritated Elizabeth.
“A few hours,” he smiled as he helped her
reposition herself in the bed.
Elizabeth looked around to see the blanket lying
across the back of the chair.“Have you been here all night?”
“I told you I would not leave you,” he reasoned.
Darcy poured her some coffee.“Do you suppose you could eat
something?” he asked casually.
“Maybe some toast,” Elizabeth added. “Dry toast.”
Darcy brought her some from the serving tray.
“Now, Mrs. Darcy,” he teased, “I want to know where
you learned a certain song.”
Darcy became her constant companion. Elizabeth
delighted being with him although being confined to her quarters
nearly drove her crazy. Eventually, Darcy began to carry her from
room to room. At least, with moving her to where he could watch
her, Darcy was able to stay abreast of estate business. Elizabeth
read or did her needlework.
“One week closer,” Elizabeth said as he placed her
in her bed.
Darcy kissed her lips gently. “One week
closer—soon, my Love, our child will be with us.”
Elizabeth pulled him back to her, quickly deepening
the kiss she offered.“Fitzwilliam,” she breathed heavily,“I love
you more than I can ever express.”
Darcy had to touch her. He quickly discarded his
cravat, coat, and waistcoat. “May I lie with you tonight, Lizzy? I
want to hold you in my arms.”
“I wish to be no place else,” she said softly as
Darcy finished stripping off his clothing. Finally, he settled her
in his arms; her head nestled into the indentation of his shoulder.
They kissed repeatedly. Darcy never felt such intense
happiness.
Sitting back in the coach, Georgiana wondered what
would happen when her brother found out what she planned. Darcy
would be furious with her actions; he might never forgive her. At a
minimum, her brother would likely force her into a speedy marriage,
but Georgiana cared not for her loss of reputation. Mr. Harrison’s
life was on the line, and she must warn him of the dangers.
Darcy would question why she did not just send word
to Mr. Harrison, an act of impropriety, but one of less severity
than the one in which she currently participated. However,
Georgiana could be nowhere else if Chadwick Harrison was in the
kind of danger she expected. Georgiana knew Mr. Harrison would
never back down, and if she did not warn him, he could die in the
confrontation. She would be with him when the trouble came; she
could be no place other than with the man she loved.
Mr. Gardiner’s visit to Kensington Place came
unexpectedly on Friday afternoon. Georgiana planned a leisurely
evening alone; she sent Mrs.Annesley on a visit to the woman’s
favorite nephew, and she wanted nothing more than the comfort of
her own company. When Mr. Thacker announced Mr. Gardiner’s
presence, Georgiana felt a bit annoyed, but she hid her concern
from Elizabeth’s uncle.
“Miss Darcy.” Mr. Gardiner made his bow. “I hoped
to find Mr. Darcy at home.”
“My brother is not here today.” It was the story
upon which she and Darcy agreed. “He is addressing some personal
business. May I be of service to you, Sir?”
Mr. Gardiner seemed agitated. “I have some
distressing news of which Mr. Darcy should be made aware.” He paced
the length of the room.
“I could reach Fitzwilliam if necessary.” Georgiana
tried to sound nonchalant.
His decision made, Mr. Gardiner broke down and told
her his secret. “It is imperative Mr. Darcy is made aware of what I
share with you.”
“I understand, Mr. Gardiner,” Georgiana assured
him.
“I have an associate who brings me news from time
to time. He tells me a large contingent of anti-abolitionists plan
to oppose Mr. Harrison’s election as a PM.They will address the
gentleman at the borough assembly. I suspect Mr. Harrison should be
made aware of the situation. He could be in some danger if things
escalate.” Mr. Gardiner continued to pace.
Georgiana tried to steel her nerves. Mr. Harrison
meant as much to her as did Fitzwilliam and Elizabeth. Her heart
continued to beat, but Georgiana could barely breathe as fear
gripped her throat.“Mr. Gardiner,” she said at last,“my brother and
I thank you for your devotion to our family. I will address your
concerns to Fitzwilliam immediately.”
Mr. Gardiner retrieved his hat from the table.
“Again, Miss Darcy, I beg your forgiveness in disturbing your
privacy today.”
Although Georgiana already planned what she would
do, she managed to say,“Think nothing of it, Mr. Gardiner; we are
family.” She showed him to the door, and then turned back to the
butler. “Mr. Thacker, have the men prepare my coach.” Then she
rushed off to her chambers to prepare her bags. Georgiana would be
off to Dove Dale in a matter of hours.