CHAPTER 15
“How wonderful, how very wonderful the
operations of time,
and the changes of the human mind.”
and the changes of the human mind.”
Jane Austen, Mansfield Park, 1814
Early afternoon found Georgiana climbing the hill
behind the house, taking in the warmth of the spring sun. The
stress of finding her brother required a more demanding walk than
usual for the delicate-natured Georgiana. She neared the glade
separating the lake from the foothills and took a seat on a
hollowed-out log. Raising her face to the sun, Georgiana closed her
eyes and listened to the world.
From the hill overlooking Pemberley House, Chadwick
Harrison espied her walking away from her home and immediately
turned his mount from the road leading to the carriageway and
instead circled the building to follow Georgiana to her
destination. In reality, it was she he came to see; it was she to
whom he must say his goodbyes.
Georgiana took her pleasure in the quiet of the
glade and the unseasonable warmth of the day. Unaware of Mr.
Harrison’s presence, she gathered some wildflowers and sat twirling
a long stalk as if conducting an orchestra, eyes closed and
engrossed in her own world.
Harrison, captivated by the image of the sunlight
reflecting off her golden locks, watched with longing. He wanted to
take her in his embrace and kiss the nape of her neck. His eyes
drank in her beauty, and it was with great difficulty he finally
spoke her name.“Miss Darcy.” His voice was husky with desire.
She turned calmly as if expecting him to find her
here.“Mr. Harrison, this is a most pleasant surprise.” Her eyes
held a new light of recognition especially for him.
“It seems I lost my way to Pemberley.” He gave her
a smile of amusement.“But I managed to find you.” His smile grew by
the moment.“Maybe you might save a wayward soul.”
“I am afraid, Sir, saving souls belongs in the
realm of duties of Mr. Ashford. All I might offer you is the
music.” Georgiana dropped her eyes as he approached.
Harrison found her words intriguing. “The music,
Miss Darcy?”
“Come, Mr. Harrison, and sit by me, and let me
introduce you to the music.” Georgiana looked him directly in the
eyes and bid him do as she said.
Harrison, as if mesmerized by Georgiana’s beauty,
moved to the log and took a seat.“Give me your hand, Mr. Harrison,
and close your eyes.” Georgiana touched each of his eyelids with
her fingertips. She heard the deep intake of breath he took, giving
her the confidence to continue.
She spoke softly, nearly in his ear, and Harrison
could feel the warmth of Georgiana’s breath against his cheek.
“Keep your eyes closed, Mr. Harrison, and listen to the music—the
music is in the wind, in the rush of the reeds by the lake, and in
the sun dancing off your face.” She slipped her hand in his, and he
tightened the grip.They sat as such for a few moments; then she
said,“Do you hear the music, Mr. Harrison?”
A smile crept into the corners of his mouth. “Who
would think it possible? A man can hear something where nothing is
there. Do you hear the grasshopper singing, Miss Darcy? How about
the wings of the birds beating out a rhythm overhead?”
Harrison sat still, enjoying the feeling of her
hand in his and of her closeness—her warmth along his shoulder. His
words brought Georgiana’s attention to his face, at first thinking
he teased, but realizing Harrison listened with all his being just
as
she did. She could not look away, memorizing the lines forming on
his forehead and around his eyes.
“Do you hear the sandy swish of the leaves against
each other at the top of the tree? Can you hear the rippling sound
of the water as it drips from the hill to the waiting pool?” she
whispered in his ear.
Harrison turned his head slowly, gradually opening
his eyes and coming face to face with her at last. Only inches
apart, he asked, “Georgiana, can you hear the beating of my
heart?”
His use of her familiar name opened an intimacy
denied to them in public.“I hear it, Chadwick.”
“Georgiana,” the word nearly stuck in his throat.
Hypnotized by her closeness, he felt compelled to kiss her; she
actually took his breath away. The delicate control he tried to
show dissolved into the desire he felt. He lowered his lips to
touch hers, and the firmness with which she responded surprised
him. His arms encircled her as he deepened the kiss.When he
reluctantly withdrew, Harrison’s breath came in short bursts.
Georgiana instinctively rested her head against his shoulder,
breathing in the smell of his desire and mixing it with the essence
of hers.“My dearest Georgiana,” he whispered into her ear,“what
does a wish sound like?”
He could hear the delight of her giggle as it
started deep within her. She withdrew just far enough to see his
eyes. “I do not know the music found in a wish, but I know the feel
of it.” She traced his lips with her fingertips.
Harrison kissed her fingertips lightly and then
returned to her mouth for one last time before he would have to
part from her. The memory of those kisses would sustain him for
many months. “Georgiana,” his voice played soft against her hair,
“I must take my leave of your family today.”
“I know, Mr. Harrison.” Her voice muffled into his
chest.
“Must it be Mr. Harrison, Georgiana?”
“Chadwick.” She smiled at him.
Harrison nearly laughed out loud. “You never cease
to amaze me, Georgiana.”
“You will be missed, Sir.” She sat up and began to
straighten her dress, but she looked back to caress Harrison’s jaw
line.
Harrison looked deep into her eyes, and an
imprecation escaped his lips.“I wish I never made a promise to your
sister.”
“My birthday is not until late August,” she
taunted.
Harrison gasped,“You know?”
“Of course I know.”
“Then you will wait for me?” Harrison knew he
overstepped the bounds of propriety, but with the changes in the
assemblage at Pemberley, he did not expect to be invited often to
the house, if at all. His chances of seeing Georgiana Darcy
decreased with the return of her brother.
Georgiana looked away.“My brother plans to present
me to Society this year.”
“How? With Mrs. Darcy’s lying in?”
“I made the same argument.” The tears welled in
Georgiana’s eyes.“He says it is our duty—my duty to my
family.”
Harrison could see the distress play across her
face. “Georgiana,” his voice came out huskily, “I will do what you
want me to do.You know my desire—my regard lies with you. Send
word, and I will come for you at any time. I know I should not say
these words to you, but I love you.”
Georgiana blushed, but she did not look away. “I
will not allow my brother to arrange a marriage for me. I will
choose to whom I give my regard. I will wait for you, Chadwick.”
The resolve in her voice gave him some comfort. “I must return to
the house; they will miss me soon.” Looking about anxiously, she
stood to take her leave.
Harrison walked to where his horse grazed nearby.
“I will circle around the house and come out on the carriageway. I
should be making my farewells by the time you arrive home.” He
prepared to mount, but Georgiana stood too close for him
to want to leave her.“Miss Darcy, thank you for giving me the gift
of music.” He caressed her jaw line, and then he swung himself up
into the saddle.
“I will wait,” she said again with more
determination, “for you, Mr. Harrison, I will wait.”
Mr. Harrison’s departure meant little to
Fitzwilliam Darcy. He had no history with the man that he could
recall, but Darcy did scrutinize the man’s manners and especially
the way he reacted to Georgiana. However, Darcy felt both Mr.
Harrison and his sister showed no affection for one another, and
the way this stay ended satisfied him.
Harrison could not have reached the end of
Pemberley’s lane when a servant announced the presence of Lady
Marion Haverty. Darcy agreed to meet Lady Haverty in the drawing
room.“Lady Haverty,” Darcy made her a proper bow when he entered
the room, “how nice to see you. What brings you to
Pemberley?”
“Mr. Darcy, I came when I heard of your return.”
She took the chair to which he gestured. “The news of your safe
return to your home spread quickly through the surrounding
villages. As one of your mother’s closest friends, I felt it my
duty to come and seek assurances of your health.”
“Of course, Lady Haverty.” Darcy nodded his head.
“Allow me to order some refreshments.” He rang for a servant,
asking for tea and something to eat to be brought immediately. “Ask
my wife to join us,” he added.
As soon as the words escaped his mouth, Darcy noted
Lady Haverty’s frown. “Have you met Mrs. Darcy?” he asked out of
curiosity.
“I have not.” Lady Haverty’s disdain showed.
“I noted what appeared to be your disapproval.” His
statement held the inflection of a question.
Lady Haverty shifted her weight uncomfortably.
Finally, she spoke, but the lady guarded her words. “Mr. Darcy, you
are aware of my relationship with your mother and Lady Catherine.
We were very close as children; your mother and I shared our First
Season in Society. I was instrumental in introducing Lady Anne and
your father. They were such a happy couple, but they chose from
those of their own rank. I heard from several people you appear to
be happy with your choice, but I cannot imagine either your mother
or your father would approve of your bringing a person of such low
connections to your ancestral home as the Mistress of Pemberley.
Can you really say your wife deserves such a lofty station?”
“Mrs. Darcy has her sincere advocates, including my
sister.”
“Miss Darcy is an impressionable young lady, and
you must admit she has little point of reference.Your mother’s
acquaintances all admire Mrs. Darcy for bettering her lot with such
a sagacious match, but she cannot achieve such lofty aspirations.
Mrs. Darcy will need to prove herself to your parents’ colleagues;
just because she is your wife does not guarantee her a place in our
society, Mr. Darcy.”
Lady Haverty’s words ate away at Darcy’s instinct.
Part of what she said rang true. Elizabeth’s connections could not
match any of his acquaintances, and Darcy treasured the approval of
those with whom he always associated. His pride would not accept
their disapproval, and he wondered momentarily if there might be
some way to extricate himself from the situation. Then, a stab of
arrogance struck him; the fact anyone would disapprove of the woman
he chose irritated Darcy beyond compare.
“I am grieved you feel as you do, Lady Haverty.”
Darcy handed her a cup of tea. “Yet, I disagree; my parents placed
my happiness and that of my sister above social commitments and
relationships.”
As he said the words, Elizabeth stepped through the
open
door.“You sent for me, Sir?” Elizabeth made a quick curtsy.
“Yes, Mrs. Darcy, I have someone I would like you
to meet.” His breeding allowed him to stand and lead Elizabeth to a
seat next to him. Darcy planned to use this opportunity to observe
Elizabeth under the close scrutiny of Lady Haverty. “This is Lady
Haverty; her Ladyship was one of my mother’s closest
confidantes.”
Elizabeth made a proper curtsy and accepted the
seat Darcy offered. He had no idea Elizabeth heard much of his and
Lady Haverty’s conversation.The old Darcy would recognize
Elizabeth’s well-concealed amusement. Throughout the discourse,
Elizabeth maintained a most properly attentive pose to Lady
Haverty’s protracted cordial interest.The nervous prattle of her
Ladyship entertained Darcy, and his wife’s astute comments and
graciousness illuminated his opinion of Elizabeth. She wore a warm
smile and dropped her eyes appropriately, and no one could
criticize how Elizabeth’s look conveyed an earnest pleasure in
meeting someone from Darcy’s past. By the time the encounter
finished, Lady Haverty’s resolve weakened, and she presented a
promise they would meet again.
Before her Ladyship could take her leave, Elizabeth
subdolously excused her own withdrawal. “I beg your leave, Lady
Haverty. My sister Georgiana and I plan to call upon some of
Pemberley’s tenants this afternoon, and I must see to the
charitable supplies we will take with us. Please spend some more
time with my husband before you leave Pemberley. I find he is
excellent company with his close intimates.” Momentarily, Darcy
wondered about her words. Could Elizabeth mean he treated others,
including her, without civility? Elizabeth gave Darcy a warm smile,
but he could not tell her true thoughts.
Once in the hallway, Elizabeth, literally, rubbed
her cheeks. The smile she wore for Lady Haverty hurt Elizabeth’s
facial muscles, and Darcy’s doubting of her worth hurt Elizabeth’s
self-esteem. She understood her husband had no direct
memories of their relationship, but Elizabeth could not fathom how
Darcy might be reevaluating whether he thought her worthy to be his
wife. Darcy did not speak out against her; yet, he listened to Lady
Haverty’s expurgents and accepted them as possibilities. His
betrayal brought tears to her eyes. Using the knuckles of her
hands, Elizabeth flicked the tears away from her cheeks, took a
deep breath, squared her shoulders, and headed off to find
Georgiana. If her husband wanted an exemplary Mistress of
Pemberley, then Elizabeth would deliver.
Darcy sat on Cerberus atop one of the hills
overlooking Pemberley House. He rode out with Mr. Howard to survey
some of the property. Below he could see the carriage carrying his
wife and sister on their rounds to the tenants.The carriage, loaded
with various supplies, snaked its way toward the houses beyond the
far-reaching hedgerow.
“How often does my family visit the tenants?” Darcy
asked out of amused curiosity.
“Mrs. Darcy and your sister visit at least twice
weekly—generally, three times a week. Miss Darcy has a generous
nature, Sir; she seems to see this as a part of her duty to the
estate.”
“Do you not see Mrs. Darcy as having as generous a
nature as my sister?” Darcy’s voice held a bit of irritation. He
might not approve of much of Elizabeth’s consanguinity, but she was
still his wife, and he would not allow his steward to criticize
her.
“I beg your pardon, Mr. Darcy,” Mr. Howard cowered
under Darcy’s stare. “I chose my words poorly.” He glanced
nervously at the master. “Mrs. Darcy’s value to the estate cannot
be explained by how she fills the stomachs of the tenants, but how
she fills their spirits—their hearts—their belief in your dream for
this land.”
“Excuse me, Mr. Howard; you spoke in a similar vein
earlier.”
“I really know not how to explain it, Mr.
Darcy.When you chose to include Mrs. Darcy in the running of the
estate, I
admit to questioning your reason. Yet, Mrs. Darcy is exactly what
this estate needs. The people believe in her; they adore her.The
tenants might even riot against someone who opposes Mrs. Darcy.”
The man half laughed, trying to gauge his employer’s true
interest.
Darcy shifted impatiently in the saddle. It seemed
his wife, despite her lack of “breeding,” or possibly because of
it, created a bridge of understanding among his residentiaries. He
did not know what to make of the many reports he received regarding
Elizabeth. Unsettled, he turned his mount toward the open fields.
He rode hard, allowing the horse’s heat to create a warmth—a
feeling of release from the chaos of late. Darcy pulled up the
reins, slowing Cerberus to a meandering trot. Mr. Howard caught him
at last, and the men rode side by side. “Let us check Jefferson’s
place.” Darcy motioned to the small cottage close to the
stream.
As they dismounted, Mrs. Jefferson hustled out to
greet them, a child of less than two on her hip. “Mr. Darcy, Sir,”
she spoke quickly,“we be thankin’ the Lord to see ye safe.Ye honor
us with yur presence at our home, Sir.”
“Mrs. Jefferson,” Darcy’s voice held some caution,
“would your husband be about?”
“He be in the fields, Sir.”The woman wiped the
child’s dirty face with her apron. “Be there somethin’ wrong, Mr.
Darcy? Me man he be sorry for stirrin’ up troubles for Mrs. Darcy,
Sir.” She rushed through the apology.“He be frightened by anythin’
new—that be all it be, Sir. It be no respect for you, Sir.”
Mr. Howard stepped forward. “Mr. Darcy came not to
exact justice with your husband; we simply wish to check on Mr.
Jefferson’s progress.” Darcy allowed his steward to address the
woman’s concerns for he knew not of what she spoke.
She looked relieved. “Mr. Jefferson be plowin’
today, Sir.”
Darcy nodded toward their horses, indicating he
wished to leave. Mr. Howard instructed Mrs. Jefferson to tell her
husband they would call again soon, and then he joined Darcy in
the saddle. As they rode back toward the main house, Darcy asked,
“Would you care to explain that conversation to me, Mr.
Howard?”
His steward looked around nervously. “Mr. Jefferson
spoke out against your plan for the four-crop rotation. I could not
calm the fears; the men needed to hear from the voice of Pemberley.
Mrs. Darcy brokered no discontent. She told Jefferson if he did not
believe in the future of Pemberley—in your heir, Sir—and in your
dream, he could leave, but he could never return. Mrs. Darcy would
never welcome him here again, and his land would be divided among
his neighbors.”
Darcy laughed. “Mrs. Darcy possesses a strength of
character—a perfection—so to speak.” His estimation of the woman he
married continued in transition. Darcy knew Elizabeth could never
measure up to his family’s standards, and, no matter what she did,
he could never warrant his choice.Yet, by all accounts, his wife
demonstrated superb qualities when it came to how she served as
Pemberley’s mistress.There was the slight possibility he could
tolerate a life with her after all.
For five days, his cousin observed Darcy’s
interactions with Elizabeth, but Darcy treated her with all
civility. Comparing the current treatment with his previous
responses to his wife, one could easily observe the change in their
relationship. Darcy had, for example, yet to call her by her
familiar name; he always referred to Elizabeth as “Mrs. Darcy” or
“Madam.” Darcy reasoned calling her “Elizabeth” indicated a more
intimate coupling than they possessed; he reserved her given name
for when he developed a true allegiance to this woman.
Although Edward and Anne had noted Darcy withheld
calling Elizabeth by her name, Elizabeth ached each time he
addressed her, longing for the tenderness and the passion in his
voice when he called her such. To hear him call her “Lizzy”
would be select pleasure. Often she bit her bottom lip to keep
from screaming out at the injustice of losing her husband’s love
just as they began their life together.
Darcy’s cousins should have noted how easy
Elizabeth made it for Darcy. Generally, she took two of her meals
alone within her room, only appearing at the evening meal. During
the day, Elizabeth tended to correspondence, her sewing, reading,
and practicing her music. She had not continued helping with the
running of Pemberley; her duties as the estate’s mistress did not
include making decisions affecting the financial soundness of the
holdings. She limited her time to the running of the house and to
her charity work. At first, Darcy wondered why she withdrew from
the liberties he bequeathed to her, but with each day he celebrated
her relinquishing what was rightfully his as the estate’s master.
Elizabeth did not force him to interact with her any more than
necessary, and she did not demand what he once freely gave to
her.
Darcy seemed content to live the quietness of his
life; he would prove he could be the man his father was; he could
do it all—alone and independent.
Assured of Darcy’s success, Edward and Anne
retreated to Rosings Park, leaving Darcy to fend for himself in
this fledgling relationship.At their departure, Elizabeth stood
beside him as his wife and made the necessary farewells. Darcy
appreciated her efforts, but his feelings had not changed, and his
memory had not returned.
To say Darcy held no memory of Elizabeth Bennet
Darcy would be a mistruth. Although he could not think of her as a
vital part of his life during his waking hours, each night she
invaded his dreams. He saw her smile—her fine eyes—her petite body.
She beckoned him to come to her, and Darcy took his delight in her
embrace. Often, he awoke with a start, shaken by his thoughts about
this woman. He often crawled out of the bed and sat before the
dying embers of the fire feeling both the
heat of his growing desire for her and his repugnance at having
such thoughts. A gentleman would not think such lubricious thoughts
about any woman, especially the woman he chose to be his wife. Did
he have such base thoughts of this woman because she was below him?
Did his dreams put Elizabeth in her proper place? However, no
matter what his reason told him, Elizabeth was more than a memory;
she waited for him in his dreams, and no matter what he did to
prevent falling asleep, eventually his dreams won out, and Darcy
lost himself in the desire found in her eyes and the passion of her
touch.
Darcy stood at the window; he watched Elizabeth
leave the garden and head away from the house. Her dog romped
beside her, making excursions to the water’s edge to chase the
waterfowl and yapping at the small animals and rodents found in the
underbrush. She carried a basket, and he watched as she lightly
swung it as she walked. For a change, Elizabeth did not look down
nor withdrawn; she walked with a purpose.
Surprised by her demeanor, he impulsively decided
to follow her. It took him nearly a quarter hour to find her,
having taken a wrong turn on the other side of the lake.When he did
finally espy her, Elizabeth sat on the bank of the stream, which
fed the lake. She casually tossed a stick to the dog to retrieve,
tugging it from the animal’s mouth and throwing it out further. A
mirthful giggle escaped her, and Darcy found himself smiling at the
image she presented.
Not realizing he was there, Elizabeth removed her
bonnet and loosened the simple knot in which she wore her hair,
allowing her auburn waves to cascade over her shoulders and down
her back. Darcy found her innocent choice enticing. Elizabeth
leaned back on her elbows, closed her eyes, and let the early
spring breeze blow her hair about.
At first, Darcy held back, not wishing to disturb
her, but finally he said,“May I join you?”
His presence obviously troubled Elizabeth, but
Darcy tried to take no note of the shift in her deportment.
“Certainly, Sir.” She sat up and began to twist her hair in a close
style.
“Why do you not leave it alone?” He gestured toward
her efforts.
She asked tentatively,“Are you sure, Sir?”
He forced himself to smile at her as he sat next to
her on the ground.“You have beautiful hair.”
Unsure how to react to Darcy’s soft expression,
Elizabeth hesitated before shaking out her hair and letting it fall
casually along her neck and shoulders.
“I have seen very little of you since my return to
Pemberley,” Darcy began after an awkward silence.
“I apologize if I offended you, Fitzwilliam.” Her
use of his name seemed natural; the way the word rolled off
Elizabeth’s tongue made Darcy feel as if she caressed him. “I
thought it best to give you time to determine what you want of
me.”
“And I sought you out today to determine whether
you wish to leave Pemberley—to establish yourself elsewhere.”
Tears welled in her eyes, and he noted Elizabeth
struggled to find her voice.“If it is your wish for me to do so.”
Elizabeth’s voice trembled, and a tear cascaded down her cheek
before she could brush it away.
“What is your wish, Madam?” Darcy tried to
control the intonation in his words.
Elizabeth looked away, afraid to meet his eyes or
to allow his words to undo her. “I am not sure I can learn to live
without your love, Fitzwilliam, but if you have no objections, for
some time, I considered Pemberley to be my home.” She brought her
eyes to rest on his countenance and to await his decision.
For a brief, fleeting moment, Darcy saw the same
look in Elizabeth’s eyes he saw in his dreams. “I would prefer to
allow us a chance to create a home for our family; beyond that, I
can offer you no promises. Obviously, though, we cannot find a
balance in our lives if we avoid each other.”
His words hurt Elizabeth deeply, but she tried to
control the unevenness in her voice before speaking.“Do you suppose
you could begin by calling me by my name? It hurts to be only Mrs.
Darcy to you.”
Darcy gave her half a smile and reached out to hook
a strand of hair behind her ear. Elizabeth fought the urge to kiss
the palm of his hand. In the past, she would not deny her impulsive
nature and would enjoy the pleasure of his touch, but this was a
Darcy she did not know. “You noted my reluctance to speak as
such?”
Elizabeth allowed herself the simple pleasure of
leaning her head into the touch of Darcy’s hand before saying,“I am
afraid, Sir, there is very little about you of which I take no
note.” She automatically gave him a teasing smile.
About that time, the dog returned from the water’s
edge, bounding up and sniffing at Darcy’s legs. “May I?” He
indicated the stick, and she nodded in affirmation. Darcy picked up
the stick, teased the animal with it, and then tossed it out for
the spaniel to retrieve.
“Go, Hero,” she instructed the animal before it
took off to capture the “prey.”
Darcy’s voice rose in inflection,“Hero?”
“From Shakespeare’s Much Ado about Nothing,”
Elizabeth stammered.“During our courtship, we once exchanged the
lines between Benedick and Beatrice. It seemed only appropriate,”
she bantered, and Darcy felt himself warm to her expression.
“Obviously, like its Greek name, the animal loves
the water.” He returned Elizabeth’s teasing tone.
“As long as she does not find a Leander and choose
to drown herself while chasing the waterfowl.” Elizabeth tried to
continue her light repartee with him; she remembered she originally
won Darcy by engaging him.“Of course, you warned me as such when
you talked Mr. Harvey into selling Hero.”
He asked innocently,“I gave you Hero?”
“One of my wedding gifts.” She offered Darcy a
winsome smile.
“I understand from Georgiana I also gave you a gun.
It seems I need to find more personal ways to celebrate our
marriage.” He looked at Elizabeth closely.
Elizabeth laughed spontaneously. “Actually, along
with my horse, the gifts were of what I asked. I never wanted the
jewels or the fancy gowns. Hero is a good companion on my walks. I
wanted the horse to be able to ride out across the estate with
you.”
Darcy wanted to see what else she knew so he asked,
“Do you believe Mr. Shakespeare chose Ariosto’s Orlando
Furioso as the basis for Hero’s and Claudio’s
characters?”
“It seems to me Spenser’s The Faerie Queene
is more likely the source.”
Darcy smiled with her response. “Delineating
Claudio and Don Pedro could come from Bandello’s La Prima Parte
de le Novelle.”
“I am afraid I am not familiar with that particular
piece.” Not wishing to demonstrate her lack of a formal education,
Elizabeth dropped her eyes. Then she recovered her voice, afraid to
let the moment pass. “Nothing and noting—so much
convergence on these words. Shakespeare recognized and reveled in
the possibilities.”
“Noting—observing—understanding and misreporting.”
Darcy moved in a bit closer where he could see only Elizabeth’s
face as he spoke. “I noted her not, but I looked on her,” (1.1.158)
he quoted Benedick’s line about Hero.
Elizabeth feigned innocence. “The sweetest lady
that ever I looked on.” (1.1.181)
“She is too low for a high praise, too brown for a
fair praise, and too little for a great praise.” (1.1.165) Darcy
enjoyed the recitation.
Elizabeth, on the other hand, wondered about his
choice of quotes. Could it mean Darcy thought her below him? “It is
the perfect play to teach how some people trust what they see
rather than what they believe in their hearts or know in their
minds. I once foolishly judged you on visual proof—my tendency to
see in others whatever character and experience I am predisposed to
see.” Elizabeth hoped her words struck a chord with Darcy.
“Neither Claudio nor Benedick really see Hero, do
they? Are your words a warning to see beyond what others
offer?”
“Society often leads one to think subjectivity of
perception as acceptable, while, in reality, adhering to convention
can distort a person’s views.” Elizabeth resisted the urge to
caress Darcy’s face as she spoke.
“I suppose there is some peril in noting
incorrectly,” he offered as he searched Elizabeth’s face for some
familiarity besides the images of her found in his dreams.“Are you
well—I mean, with the child?” he finally asked. Slowly, he placed
his hand on the swell of her abdomen.
“The changes are becoming more evident.” Elizabeth
rested her hand on top of Darcy’s; the corners of her lips turned
up briefly. If her Darcy made this gesture, it would be a very
intimate one, but with this Darcy, there was an oddity.
Uncomfortable with the intensity of his look, Elizabeth raised his
fingertips to her mouth and kissed them lightly. “It will be
several more months,” she laughed lightly.“Can you wait that
long?”
He sounded a bit petulant when he said, “I do not
like to wait; patience is not one of my virtues.”
“Well, it is one of mine,” she giggled lightly. “I
have many things to do before the arrival of our child.” She held
his hand in hers.
“I do also.” He looked away.“There is something of
which I would like to speak. I was thinking of taking Georgiana to
London for an abbreviated season before your lying in. That
would mean your being here alone.” Darcy waited to see Elizabeth’s
reaction.
“Fitzwilliam,” she gushed,“has Georgiana agreed to
this?”
“My sister knows her duty to her family.” Elizabeth
watched the warmth he displayed a few moments ago retreat; Darcy
now offered her a lecture on familial duty. “My sister and I
understand each other. Georgiana will do what is expected of her.
My sister’s world is different from what others may surmise.”
Without thinking about her response, Elizabeth
said, “Disdain and scorn ride sparkling in her eyes, misprising
what they look on.” (3.1.51)
Darcy asked incredulously, “Then you believe my
sister will refuse?”
Elizabeth blushed.“Georgiana will do her duty;
however, as your wife, I hope you will not force her to do
so.”
“You may say such things; our match brought you the
security you did not have before.”
Immediately, Elizabeth was on her feet. “Please
tell me you do not believe that is why I married you.”
“I have been told otherwise.” Darcy moved quickly
to dominate over her stance.
“That is not what I asked.”
“I have no waking memory of our relationship. I
must base my opinions on what I know.” He forced Elizabeth to turn
and look at him. “I must give Georgiana a chance at securing a
suitable match. I hoped as my wife you would support me on this
matter.”
“If the suitable match is a man my sister
can also affect, I will be happy to support you.” Elizabeth squared
her shoulders to let him know she would not relent. “However, if
Georgiana is not happy, I will be less inclined to see things your
way, Sir.” Elizabeth turned quickly and strode away, not bothering
to fix her
hair or to replace her bonnet. Hero darted past Darcy’s legs,
nearly knocking him off balance, scrambling after her
mistress.
“No waking memories,” he mumbled to her retreating
form, “none, whatsoever.” Despite feeling agitated because of the
confrontation, Darcy smiled from looking at her. Elizabeth’s auburn
curls bounced as she walked away, and Darcy tried to suppress an
urge to touch her hair and to revisit the feel of their entangled
hands.