CHAPTER 16
“A scheme of which every part promises
delight
can never be successful;
and general disappointment is only warded off
by the defence of some little peculiar vexation.”
can never be successful;
and general disappointment is only warded off
by the defence of some little peculiar vexation.”
Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice,
1813
“I have come to abduct you, my Husband.” Elizabeth
appeared before Darcy’s desk.They maintained a level of civility
the last two days, although strained by their heated discussion
that fateful afternoon.
“I am quite busy, Mrs. Darcy.” His voice held a
sense of frustration.
Elizabeth folded her arms across her chest and gave
him a look of like interception. “First, I know my spontaneity
drives your need to control your universe crazy, Fitzwilliam, but
you did express a desire to get to know me better. I wish to show
you some of the things I value in our life together. Please come
with me; the curricle awaits.”
Darcy leaned back in the chair to examine this
woman who was his wife. A smile betrayed his amusement when he
looked at her.“You said first. Am I to assume you have more
than one demand of me today?”
A laugh escaped her lips. “Second, you
promised to call me Elizabeth.”
“So I did, Elizabeth,” he emphasized the
last word. “Is this really necessary?” Darcy leaned forward and
looked at the
papers on his desk. “I have many things to address here.” He
picked up a stack of papers to highlight his point.
Elizabeth splayed her fingers and leaned down on
his desk. “Fitzwilliam, our life together—the one in which we raise
our child—should supersede any of these issues.” She gestured to
the papers. “These will wait for a few hours; people’s feelings
cannot be placed on hold.What is it to be, my Husband?”
Darcy knew she tossed down the gauntlet. Elizabeth
asked him what he valued most: the estate or their marriage.
Darcy’s natural instinct told him to choose the estate; it was an
area within his control—his wife was a different story. In the
short time since his return to Pemberley, Darcy’s emotional bond to
Elizabeth Bennet Darcy ran the gamut of highs and lows. A smile
began to creep into the corners of his mouth. He enjoyed how
Elizabeth refused to back down when she believed strongly in
something—how her eyes locked in on his and told him stories he
never heard. “I will get my beaver and coat,” he said at
last.
A like smile erupted from Elizabeth as she said,
“Thank you, Fitzwilliam.” She rushed from the room before he could
change his mind.
Outside, Darcy handed her into the curricle.
Elizabeth adjusted a blanket across both of their laps before he
took up the reins. “The weather in Derbyshire is more temperamental
than it is in Hertfordshire; it changes as often as I change my
mind.” She tucked the blanket in on the far side of Darcy’s lap,
forcing her to lean across his body to do so. With her mouth only
inches from his, Darcy fought the impulse to kiss her, but
Elizabeth’s presence sent a rush through him.“Is that better, my
Love?” she asked as she again looked deeply into Darcy’s
eyes.
“I am well, Mrs.—I mean, Elizabeth.”
“Good.” She adjusted a blanket across her own
lap.“I would not wish you to return to the troubles which beset you
of late.”
Turning her head to take in his profile, Elizabeth laced her arm
through Darcy’s as he picked up the reins. As he flicked them
across the horse’s hindquarters, she called, “Hero, come.” The
English Springer spaniel leapt into the vehicle and curled up
immediately at Elizabeth’s feet.
“The dog gives you great pleasure?” Darcy said with
some finality.
“The man who gave it to me because he knew I never
had a pet of my own gives me great pleasure.” Again, Elizabeth’s
closeness sent a shiver through him.“Are you chilled, my
Love?”
Her concern for him seemed genuine. “I am fine. I
just did not expect such frankness.”They sat looking deeply into
each other’s eyes.
“I would prefer if we could be truthful.We do not
have time to play games.We are married and must establish a life
together at Pemberley; yet, we must do so under absurd conditions.
Many of the assumptions we previously put aside may resurface. We
both once misconstrued the essence of each other; we have not the
time to hide our feelings.We may not like many of our encounters,
but we have no real choice, in my estimation.”
“You are a very astute woman, Elizabeth.” Darcy
forced himself to look away, having become lost in her eyes.“Where
would be our destination for the day?” He tried to sound
casual.
“I have something I want to show you, which I hope
will please you.” Elizabeth snuggled in closer to him to feel his
warmth. “I want to return to the glade behind the stream where we
talked the other day.”
“We return to the scene of the crime?”
Elizabeth dropped her eyes.“I am sorry we argued; I
should guard my tone.”
“But not your sentiments?”
“You know me. . . .” She stopped, and a nervous
laugh escaped. “That is just it; you do not know me, do you? I have
a tendency to speak before thinking. I would not say my
objections changed, but I would change my approach. I should use a
feather but instead use a hammer.” Darcy chuckled with her
metaphor. “Our disagreements are part of the legend of our
courtship.”
“I assume you refer to my first proposal?” Darcy’s
statement came out as a question.
“Ah, our infamous time at Hunsford. Do you remember
that day?”
“My sister tells me I insulted you?” Again, the
question returned.
“You were very fluent on your trials in
overcoming my family connections. I took offense because you
separated my dearest Jane and Mr. Bingley.Toss in the lies
Mr.Wickham fed me, and we were nearly in a state of
fisticuffs.”
Darcy stopped the curricle.“You jest?”
“We agreed to be frank,” she answered quickly. “I
certainly considered striking you for a few brief seconds. I kept
your letter where you defended yourself against my misplaced
accusations. You are welcome to read it if it will help you recover
some of that time.”
“I will believe you for now.”Then he flicked the
reins again to see where the day would lead.
“Let us stop here,” Elizabeth said softly at last,
turning the blanket back. Darcy came around to help her from the
curricle. He lifted her by the waist while she supported herself by
placing her hands on his shoulders.When he placed Elizabeth on the
ground in front of him, he hesitated in withdrawing his hands. Her
hands now rested on his chest, and she moved in instinctively to be
closer to him. “You are exceedingly handsome, my Husband,” she said
as she caressed Darcy’s cheek.
“It pleases me you are trying to make my transition
easier.” Darcy found he once again became lost in her eyes. He held
Elizabeth there next to him, unable to move. Darcy wanted to
kiss her, to take his rights as her husband, but a part of his
brain demanded he wait. No doubt Elizabeth would not refuse him;
her eyes told him as much, but it was indubitable for him to do so
without some affection for the woman. He could feel the tension
between them growing so he did the gentlemanly thing: He took her
hand and kissed the back of it lightly before hooking her arm in
his.
“Is our destination close by?” he asked to try to
distract his thoughts from kissing Elizabeth’s lips and from
caressing her body.
“Very close.” She motioned toward the tree line.
Elizabeth led him to a small glade behind the tree line created by
the natural bed of the stream leading to the lake. “I hoped to find
something more hidden, but when I saw this glade from the uppermost
windows of Pemberley, I knew it was the one.”
“The one?”
Elizabeth pushed back the low branches and stepped
into the open. Darcy followed but stopped short. “Elizabeth,” he
gasped,“when—how?”
Before him stood a field of wildflowers. Many
fledglings in their growth—but all of them with heads turned toward
the sun. Darcy took a few steps forward, looking about him in
disbelief. “The clearing—your mother’s favorite at Hunsford—you
honored me when you shared it. After your first proposal and the
letter, I wanted to bring something of you home with me.”
Elizabeth’s voice was soft and inviting. “I thought I would never
see you again; you left Rosings before I did. I returned to your
mother’s clearing and cut many of the flowers. I dried some for a
sachet, but for many of them I took them for the seeds. I planned
to plant them in the fall at Longbourn, but then you returned to me
so I brought them here.
“In November and December, I came here often,
bringing the seeds with me. I scattered some every time there came
a snow or a rain. I even elicited Mr. Howard’s help. Some of the
tenants helped plant the seeds; some even furnished seeds.With
your disappearance, the field became a place of solace—a place
where part of you could be here with me at Pemberley.” Elizabeth
tried to search Darcy’s face to judge his reaction to what she told
him. “I have a hedgerow of yellow rosebushes on the back side of
the field because you gave me yellow roses when we married. It has
a long way to go, but do you not think it to be beautiful?”
Elizabeth waited impatiently, trying to steel her nerves.“Please
say something, Fitzwilliam.”
Darcy closed his eyes and drank in the emotions
coursing through him. For a brief, fleeting moment he saw Elizabeth
turning round and round in a field of wildflowers. Her rich,
mellow eyes sparkled and filled Darcy with happiness. He loved
Elizabeth. The realization of admitting his feelings flashed
through his being; no more would he say he loved her eyes or loved
how she spoke her mind; no longer would he think of his feelings
being only a strong attraction; he loved Elizabeth. The memory
clearly played across his mind. Darcy turned back to her; tears
misted his eyes. He had trouble separating the memory of that
moment from the real woman currently standing in front of him. He
took Elizabeth in his arms. “You did all this for me?” He seemed
surprised by the depth of her devotion to him.
“We could not return to Rosings with Lady
Catherine’s objections so I thought I would bring Rosings to us—to
you. It is one of my favorite memories of our time there. Georgiana
helped, too.” She rushed through the words, afraid to let him
respond. “She was always jealous you shared your mother’s clearing
with me. Now we can enjoy it together. Would it please your
mother?” Elizabeth asked innocently.
Darcy pulled Elizabeth’s head to his chest as he
looked around at the early-blooming flowers. “It is a great gift
you give me and Pemberley,” he whispered in her ear. “It would
astound my mother you would think of this.You say we can see the
field from Pemberley?”
“From the baby’s nursery it is quite obvious. I
thought it would be a good story to share with our children.” She
wondered how Darcy would react to her reference to children,
indicating she wanted a future with him. All he did, however, was
stroke her head and kiss her forehead. They stood as such, her
hands caressing the muscles of his back within his waistcoat and
Darcy holding her tightly to him.
“Elizabeth,” he began at last, “I need more time; I
am not ready for all this.” His words held the sorrow he knew she
would feel when he released her.
Darcy heard her swallow hard, but when she raised
her face to look at him, other than the tears welling in her eyes,
no one would know Elizabeth felt anything besides joy. “Like the
clearing, it is a beginning, my Husband. I will wait for your love
to grow.”
Darcy could understand how he aligned himself with
Elizabeth Bennet. She possessed a fortitude he did not know could
be found in a woman, especially one so petite and lively. “The air
is cool today; let me get you back to the curricle before you
become chilled.” He coaxed her to walk with him.
Once Darcy placed Elizabeth in the curricle, he
tended to her needs, giving her his blanket also.Again, he resisted
his urge to kiss her, sure if he did, he would not want to stop
until he possessed her.The woman of his dreams and the woman in the
curricle could not be one and the same; he would not allow it to be
so.“Where to now, Elizabeth?”
“I need to call on Mrs. Fleming if you do not mind,
Sir.” Elizabeth reached to secure the basket she planned to give
the woman. “Her gout has her unable to get about this past week. I
just wish to check on her, and then we may return to
Pemberley.”
“How many of the tenants do you know,
Elizabeth?”
“Georgiana and I called on them all at least once;
some are more readily accessible because of the roads. When we
could not get through in a carriage, we sent some of the staff on
horseback with supplies. Our efforts began during the Festive
Season. We sectioned off the estate to better manage our time.”
Elizabeth seemed all businesslike when discussing the estate’s
cottagers.
“I appreciate your helping Georgiana to assume such
duties.”
“She has a very generous nature; when your sister
marries, her husband will have to guard against her giving away
everything he owns.” Elizabeth laughed at the image of Georgiana
handing over tapestries to the poor.
By now they were at the Fleming cottage, and Darcy
again helped Elizabeth from the curricle. He carried the basket of
supplies. When she knocked on the door, he heard cries of “Mrs.
Darcy be here” as several children scrambled to answer the door.
Having Darcy with her silenced the rabble, but as she stepped
through the open door, Darcy noted how Elizabeth reached out to
touch their heads or their faces and how she called each by
name.
“Mrs. Fleming,” she said softly as she advanced
toward the bed, “I hope you are feeling better.” Elizabeth sat on
the edge of the bed without being asked. Darcy surreptitiously
looked around the cottage; it was cleaner than most in which he had
been. He placed the basket on the table.
“Mrs. Darcy, ye be honoring us by comin’ to us
today,” Mrs. Fleming gushed, “and ye brought the Master with ye.
How blessed we be in yur doin’ so.”The woman beamed at being so
recognized.
“We brought some food for you and your
grandchildren,” Elizabeth gestured to the basket.“Is your son in
the fields?”
“He be so, Mrs. Darcy. Me son works hard to raise
the children and to take care of his old mum.”
“You must be very proud of him.We will not keep
you. I was concerned with your health.” Elizabeth stood to take her
leave.
Mrs. Fleming caught her hand. “The Master—he be
takin’ ye to Tissington for the well dressin’ this year?”
“Mr. Darcy and I have not discussed it, Mrs.
Fleming.” Elizabeth shot a glance at Darcy. “We have several
commitments including the marriage of Mr. Darcy’s cousins to which
we must attend.” Elizabeth knew Darcy would not be comfortable at
such a pagan gathering.
“Ye be lookin’ like the maids in the fields last
year. I be sayin’ so me self at the Festive Season
gatherin’.”
“I thank you, Mrs. Fleming,” Elizabeth smiled. “Mr.
Darcy and I will do our best. Please take care of yourself. There
are treats for the children for after dinner.”
“Mr. Darcy, yur wife be a special one,” Mrs.
Fleming called out to him.
“So I have noted, Mrs. Fleming.” Darcy extended his
hand to Elizabeth. She slipped her arm through his and returned to
the curricle.
“Tissington well dressing?” he asked once they were
on their way again.
“Hannah told me about last year’s mosaic when I was
here last August. At the tenant celebration, Georgiana and I
dressed as the two women in the mosaic dressed.Your sister wore the
rich brown earth tones while I dressed in the green found in
Derbyshire’s rolling hills. I wanted to create a mood to assure the
tenants Pemberley—the land—would always be there for them. Mrs.
Fleming made the connection and told the others. Pretty soon
Georgiana and I were part of the legend.” Elizabeth shifted, uneasy
about how Darcy would react to such out-and-out manipulation on her
part.
However, as he did that December afternoon, Darcy
found the retelling amusing. A temporary sensation of Elizabeth
interacting with his tenants in one of the public rooms at
Pemberley overcame his senses. He heard Mr. Howard’s voice.
“These people are not sophisticated, Mr. Darcy; they live their
hard lives based on their beliefs and their traditions. Old Mrs.
Fleming over there swears the mosaic art at the Tissington well
dressing this summer
was your wife and your sister.” As he did that day in
December, almost as if he relived the moment in his memory, he
turned to Elizabeth and asked,“And from where, may I ask, did you
learn such devious manipulations, Mrs. Darcy?” His smile portrayed
an unspoken interest.
“Should I respond as I did before?” Elizabeth
searched Darcy’s countenance for how far to push the memory.
“Please do,” Darcy said softly. By now they sat in
the carriageway before the house.
Elizabeth forced herself to breathe. An emotional
day, she knew not whether to allow herself to continue this trip
down “memory lane” with Darcy. Finally she said enticingly, “From
the master, my Love—from you.”
Darcy felt himself lost to her. The passion grew
quickly as he looked at her upturned face, and he again fought the
urge to kiss her. His breath came in short bursts. “You gave me a
great deal upon which to think, Elizabeth.”
He reached out and touched her chin with his index
finger. To a stranger, such a gesture might seem an insignificant
one, but Elizabeth knew Darcy only did such to those he most
closely affected. “I will see you at dinner,” she taunted him by
slowly parting her lips as if to kiss him. “Thank you,
Fitzwilliam.” A footman stepped forward to help Elizabeth from the
vehicle. Darcy watched as she started to climb the steps to
Pemberley. “Come, Hero,” she called without looking around. The dog
jumped about for her attention, while Elizabeth bent to pat its
head.“How is my good dog?” she laughed.“We had a full day, did we
not? A very full day.” She stood again and looked back briefly at
Darcy before entering the house.
Darcy let out the breath he did not realize he
held. A smile turned up the corners of his mouth as he, too,
climbed the steps to Pemberley.“A very full day,” he mumbled.“She
has no idea how full my day was.” With that, he allowed himself an
audible chuckle before handing his coat and beaver to the waiting
servant.
The days progressed as such. Darcy continued to
fight his recent recognition of the merits of Elizabeth Bennet
Darcy. She certainly had a way with other people; he would give her
that. His staff, his tenants, and his sister all offered Elizabeth
their respect; the people in Lambton spoke highly of her amiability
and her compassion. Other than Darcy himself, and, evidently, Lady
Catherine, Elizabeth won over everyone. Edward and Anne thought her
to be a good choice for Darcy; in an uncharacteristically lengthy
letter, Lord and Lady Pennington sang Elizabeth’s praises.
Yet, Darcy saw in the accounts what a deficit the
estate took when he brought Elizabeth to Pemberley as his wife.
Financially, she brought nothing of which to speak to his holdings,
and although she spent very little from the generous pin money
Darcy provided her, the estate lost value with the marriage.
Elizabeth’s thousand pounds from Mr. Bennet did not ease the
pecuniary differences.
Elizabeth’s manners impressed those below her—those
with country manners of their own, but members of the ton
would eat her alive for their dinner. Once they smelled her fear,
members of the ton would attack Elizabeth’s manners, her
bearing, and her connections. The mob mentality would overcome her,
and Darcy would be unable to help. Elizabeth’s inability to succeed
in London would reflect on his family and his sister’s chances of
an appropriate match. The more he thought about it, the more he
realized he must bring Georgiana to London this Season while
Elizabeth would have to remain behind. He could keep his wife in
Derbyshire where London’s finest could not evaluate her, and the
new Mrs. Darcy could not tarnish Georgiana’s chances.
However disagreeable Darcy found these
circumstances surrounding his wife, he could not withdraw his eyes
from her when she entered a room, and he began to concoct
situations about which he had to speak to Elizabeth. Every day he
rushed down to breakfast to be there when she entered the room; he
took pleasure in preparing a plate for her. Darcy sought her out
throughout the house, and he often found his thoughts drifted to
Elizabeth. Maybe having her at Pemberley without interruptions
would not be such a bad thing, at least for him. Possibly, he could
function in both worlds: in London’s social scene and as a country
gentleman. Darcy saw no real reason it could not happen. He could
have Elizabeth at Pemberley and live a life of a respected
landowner in London.The thoughts of such an arrangement pleased
him. He would spend several months a year at his London home, and
then he would return to Pemberley.A smile of pure pleasure crept
across his face, and Darcy leaned back in his chair to savor the
moment. He would go to London on Monday to arrange for Georgiana’s
abbreviated season; afterwards, he would return to Pemberley and
resume his husbandly rights with his wife. Elizabeth would not
refuse him; she conveyed her receptiveness quite clearly, and Darcy
would make her his again.
On the Saturday before his departure for London,
finding Elizabeth dressed to go out took Darcy by surprise when she
entered the breakfast room. His eyes shot up to meet hers when she
entered the room. “Good morning, Elizabeth,” he spoke her name
softly, giving it a special emphasis.
“Good morning, my Husband.” She offered him a
bright smile.“I hope you slept well, Sir.” Politeness hid her
question.
Darcy walked to the sideboard to refill his plate.
“I did, Madam.” Darcy, too, found himself smiling. “May I fix you
some tea?”
“May I have some chocolate?” Elizabeth half
teased.“I seem to have developed a taste for it these last few
months.”
“Certainly, Elizabeth.” Darcy brought her the
cup.
“The heir to Pemberley is restless today.”
Elizabeth gently stroked her ever-increasing abdomen.
Being alone with her in the breakfast room, Darcy
felt compelled to kneel next to her chair. “Are you pleased with
the child?” He examined Elizabeth’s countenance, searching for the
answer to a question he did not know how to ask. “I mean—are you .
. . ?” Darcy broke off, not wanting to know if having his child
meant something to her.
Elizabeth took Darcy’s hand and placed it over the
quickening movement. Her smile curled upward when the child’s
shifting moved against Darcy’s hand, and tears welled in his eyes.
“I told you before our child loves your touch.” Her voice softly
caressed Darcy’s ear as she leaned closer to him.
His hand moved gently, and he could not resist the
pull Elizabeth had on him. He let his other hand stroke her ankle
at the hem of her skirt, and he heard Elizabeth let out a little
gasp. “You did not answer my question, Elizabeth.” Darcy’s voice
took on a husky tone.
Elizabeth caressed the side of his face; she forced
herself not to even blink, afraid the least change would break the
spell between them. “I anticipate your happiness when the child
arrives; it will please me to see you holding your heir.” Elizabeth
slid her hand into his. Darcy’s other hand continued to stroke her
ankle, and slowly he moved his thumb up her calf.
“How can we make this work?” His words came out
jagged and breathy. “I feel I am cheating you out of happiness. You
want something from me I may never be able to give you.”
“I know you are the same man with whom I fell in
love.” Elizabeth craved Darcy’s touch. “The question is whether you
can love me again, my Husband. I must admit this is the most
difficult thing I ever did, and I do not know whether I am strong
enough to take your answer when you finally decide.”
Their gaze locked, and neither of them could
move—the desire thick between them. How long they would stay as
such one cannot know, but soon voices penetrated their thoughts,
forcing Darcy to withdraw once again. Elizabeth shifted
uncomfortably as Kitty and Georgiana entered the room.They bubbled
with excitement. Darcy looked up from the sidebar, to where he
pretended to examine the selections, to note his sister’s
appearance. He sheepishly remembered his earlier surprise at seeing
Elizabeth dressed to go out for the day.Wanting to know where
Elizabeth might be going and understanding she and his sister would
be going together, Darcy asked casually,“Do you intend to go out
today, Georgiana?”
Georgiana shot a quick glance at Elizabeth,
wondering how to answer her brother. Noting his sister’s
discomfort, Elizabeth answered for her. “We decided to make an
appearance at the Tissington Well Dressing Festival after all,
Fitzwilliam.” Elizabeth’s voice held a special caution in telling
her husband about their plans. She assumed he would disapprove, and
she did not want to lose the ground she made in earning his
attention once again.
“Surely, you are not in truth!” Darcy whirled
around to confront his wife.
“No, Sir, that is our plan. Mr. Ashford is to bless
the well; he asked Kitty to accompany him. I cannot allow my sister
to attend alone. I chose to represent the estate while securing my
sister’s reputation. I am sorry you disapprove, Fitzwilliam, but I
will not likely change my mind.” Elizabeth’s heart sank. She knew
her husband would withdraw from her; he would see her as
functioning as the Mistress of Pemberley only in the basest
form.
Darcy guarded his words, but his tone betrayed his
feelings. “These people are not sophisticated, Elizabeth. Well
dressing
ceremonies are based in deep-rooted heathenish superstitions.” He
literally puffed up with disdain.
Elizabeth allowed her eyes to lock with his—only
this time instead of desire, it was a test of will.“I realize these
people live hard lives based on their beliefs and their traditions.
I realize this celebration, although lacking in worldliness, is
important to them. I believe it is important to support our
Pemberley family—to understand them better.” Elizabeth did not
allow her eyes to falter even though she did not feel confident in
this confrontation with Darcy.
Georgiana and Kitty sat immobilized, afraid even to
breathe. They prayed Elizabeth would prevail, for both girls looked
forward to the outing; therefore, their composures lapsed when
Darcy said,“What if I forbid it?”The stare became an intense
battleground between Darcy and Elizabeth.
The moments crawled by before she answered him. “I
pray, my Husband, you do not choose to do so for we are at odds on
this issue. I know you have the legal right to control my use of
the coach, but please do not exercise that right, Fitzwilliam.We
have more important issues between us than a peasant
celebration.”
Her words said, Elizabeth waited, holding her
breath, trying to reason how she would react if Darcy went through
with his threat. Finally, he threw the napkin on the table and
stormed from the room.
The tension lessened, but did not totally
dissipate. “Ladies,” Elizabeth’s voice trembled, “please be ready
to leave as soon as you eat.We are to pick up Mr.Ashford at the
parsonage within the hour.” Elizabeth, having lost her appetite,
returned to her chambers. Legs shaking, she collapsed into a nearby
chair. “Please, Fitzwilliam,” she whispered before breaking into
tears.