CHAPTER 10
“Good-humoured, unaffected girls will not do
for a man who has
been used to sensible women.They are two distinct orders of being.”
been used to sensible women.They are two distinct orders of being.”
Jane Austen, Mansfield Park, 1814
Fitzwilliam Darcy continued to recover from his
wounds. A slight limp remained, but his strength returned. His
tall, muscular physique once again filled out his waistcoat and
breeches. A handsome man, Darcy’s presence filled a room. Along
with his return physically came a more pronounced haughty manner.
“Should we not consider an invitation for dinner for some of our
neighbors or at least the local cleric?” Darcy asked as he and Miss
Donnelly sat down to dinner.
“I prefer not to associate with my neighbors.” Miss
Donnelly spoke without guarding her words.
Darcy looked incredulous.“Not associate with your
neighbors? I understand a desire for solitude, but one cannot
ignore society’s demands for proper behavior!”
Miss Donnelly rued her words. She did not want
Darcy to mix with others from the community until after their
marriage.Too many people knew her family and their relatives. Her
ancestors were in the area for three generations. At Darling Hall,
she could control what information he learned about his past, but
she could not be sure of what others might say to him. “Many of my
neighbors possess country manners. Do not expect the local gentry
to offer much toward polite society.” Miss Donnelly took a smug
demeanor.
“Pardon me, Madam, what did you say?” Darcy shook
his head as her words interlaced with the shadows of his
memory.
“Is something the matter, Frederick?”
“Not exactly—I am afraid your words seemed familiar
in their phrasing.” Darcy’s countenance twisted in the effort to
remember.
“Shall I call for Conrad to come to assist you,
Sir?”
“No—no, I am fine.” The color returned to his face.
“I apologize if I startled you.” He shook his head to clear the
last vestiges of the memory. “We were speaking of country manners.
I concur—country manners are greatly lacking in a sense of decorum
and can often be viewed as vulgar. Yet, we must persevere if we are
to establish ourselves in the community.”
“But Frederick,” she started to protest.
“No, Madam,” Darcy stopped her short. “I will not
hear of it. We will become the standard bearers of fine society in
this area. I am a Lord’s son and will act as such.”
“Frederick, do you not think we should at least
wait until after we are wed?” Miss Donnelly tried to delay his
wishes.
“Again, I hear your concern, but we cannot hide.
Although our being in the same household is unusual, I think people
need to see we hold ourselves to a higher standard. It will keep
the local tongues from wagging, and we must officially announce our
engagement. I suggest within the fortnight.”
Miss Donnelly knew from the tone of Darcy’s voice
and his manner of speaking she would not be able to change his
mind. She would need another diversion. She did not answer Darcy
but simply lowered her eyes and nodded in affirmation.
“Then it is settled. You will take care of the
invitations tomorrow. Shall I speak to the household staff?”
“No, Frederick, I shall handle it,” she
mumbled.
“Very good, Madam.” He stood to take his leave so
he politely took her hand. “I thought I suggested you dispense with
wearing gloves when we are within our own home.”
She stammered,“I would prefer not to do so.”
“It is not a choice,” Darcy demanded, pulling one
of the gloves from her hand.
“No, please do not do that,” Miss Donnelly’s voice
rose in volume as she tried to push his hands away.
Darcy forcibly caught her wrist. “Miss Donnelly,
this is unacceptable. No woman of the ton wears gloves all
the time. If you are to be my wife, you will do what I tell you to
do.” He jerked the glove from her and pulled her hand to his mouth
to kiss the back of it. Miss Donnelly gasped with horror.“Was that
so terrible?” he smirked.
Miss Donnelly looked at the ungloved hand, which
Darcy still held in his two hands. “I . . . I am sorry,” she
mumbled. Then she dislodged her hand from his, gathered her skirt,
and ran toward her rooms. She screamed for the servants to bring
her hot water immediately.
Darcy stepped into the hallway, watching the woman
retreat. Her absurdity brought a smile to his face. “There goes my
blushing bride,” he chuckled.
Elizabeth Donnelly forced her hands into the water
once again.“Bring me another bar of soap,” she ordered the
maid.
“But Miss Donnelly,” the maid protested,“your hand
bleeds from so much hot water and soap already.”
“Do as I tell you,” she shrieked.
The maid ran from the room. “Yes, Miss Donnelly;
right away, Ma’am.”
Darcy made his way to his chambers.“Good evening,
Conrad,” he addressed the servant as the man scrambled to remove
Darcy’s boots.“It seems I upset Miss Donnelly.”
“So I heard, Sir.”The servant had an amused
look.
“I am afraid Miss Donnelly will see some more
changes. My father evidently raised me to oversee an estate, and it
is my intention to make Darling Hall the jewel of the area.”
“Yes, Sir,” Conrad’s smile became larger. “But Miss
Donnelly will not be easy to please.”
“Unfortunately, neither will I.” Darcy smiled
insolently with self-satisfaction.
“Miss Donnelly, I am not happy with how Mr.
Lansing is running this estate. It is my decision, when we marry,
that I shall find an appropriate replacement.”
“Frederick, I cannot release Mr. Lansing. He has
been with the estate for nearly ten years; he is one of my most
loyal servants.”
“If the man is incompetent, his loyalty is of
little use to us,” Darcy insisted, as he seated himself behind the
desk. “If you are uncomfortable with the task, I have no qualms in
completing it.”
“Frederick, you are changing everything about
Darling Hall. It is too much, Sir; I must protest.”
He laughed lightly. “You may protest all you wish,
but as your husband, I will have the final say. Darling Hall will
grow in its greatness.”
“Sir,” she started, but decided against continuing
the argument. Darcy sat down to address the estate books, and Miss
Donnelly went to find Mr. Lansing.
“You sent for me, Miss Donnelly.” Mr. Lansing
joined her in the drawing room.
“Please have a seat, Mr. Lansing.” She pointed
daintily to a chair across from her.
He slid into the chair.“Is there a problem,
Ma’am?”
“Mr. Lansing, Mr. Donnelly is not happy with your
work. He asked me to inform you after our marriage, your services
will no longer be required.”
Lansing began to laugh, lightly at first and then
fully engaged. “Miss Donnelly, this is absurd; you and I both know
there is no Mr. Donnelly. How can Mr. Donnelly release me from my
position?”
The woman stood and began to pace the floor. “Mr.
Lansing, if my intended decides to replace you, I have no choice
but to do as he says.”
Lansing crossed the room to stand in front of her.
“Miss Donnelly, we have an understanding. Part of that
understanding is I keep your secrets, and I keep my position
as your steward.”
“I know what you say is true, but I must go through
with the wedding.We both know the estate needs the money.What can I
do?” Her eyes beseeched him.
Lansing placed her gloved hand in his. “Come, Miss
Donnelly,” he said placatingly,“let us have a seat and reason out
the situation.” Lansing led her to adjoining chairs. Once they were
seated, he continued,“Let us summarize the situation and draw more
logical conclusions.”
Miss Donnelly took on a defeated position. She
began this farce on her own, but the complications made her wish
for a way out. “Mr. Donnelly wants us to invite our neighbors to
dinner.You know I cannot let that happen; too many people know my
family for that to occur. Now, he is speaking of releasing you and
other staff members. If I marry him, I become his property.”
Lansing knew he sat in the catbird seat—she would
do what he said. “Let us examine the options. First, you could
abandon your plan and tell Mr. Donnelly who he really is. Of
course, I do not imagine Mr. Donnelly will be too happy to
know you kept him from his family. His censure would, at a minimum,
be carried over to other members of the ton, and you would
lose your social standing in London and the community.”
“That is not an option I choose,” she
stammered.
“You could marry your Mr. Donnelly, and then let me
go. I, unfortunately, know of your deception and even have several
of Mr. Darcy’s personal items in my possession. I would be forced
to confront you in public, and you would be back to
option one. Of course, I must assume Mr. Darcy’s family would
gladly reward me for my honesty.” Lansing sat back in the chair,
leisurely slouching against the cushions.
His words forced Miss Donnelly to examine his
expression. Incredulously, she exclaimed,“You could not?”
“I could,” he stated matter-of-factly.“A third
option would be to move up the wedding date. Once you have Mr.
Donnelly’s name, do you really care if he leaves you? Your parents’
will says to marry; it says nothing about heirs or living
together.”
Miss Donnelly latched onto his words as a way out
of her predicament. “How do I convince Mr. Donnelly to move the
date? He is quite adamant about waiting.”
Lansing began to smile; he knew she would do what
he suggested. “Hopefully, Madam, you will forgive my forwardness in
saying the only way a man may be forced into a speedy marriage is
to commit a compromising act.”
He heard her gasp.“I cannot!You cannot suggest as
such!”
“By your own report, Mr. Donnelly has made
no advances other than to kiss your ungloved hand. If you are
engaged, that would not be a compromising situation. Even if
he were to kiss you, society would look the other way.”
The color faded from Miss Donnelly’s face. She
swallowed hard before saying, “I am astonished you would suggest
such a thing!”
“I do apologize; I overstepped my position as your
adviser on estate matters. Option one is the honest thing to do.”
Lansing tried to look contrite, but a smirk overtook his
face.
Miss Donnelly sat quietly for several minutes; then
she turned her head to stare off in space. Finally, she said, “I
would need a clergyman available to immediately perform the
service. I cannot let Mr. Lunsford deliver the vows; he would
spread the rumor of what happened. He tells his wife every
transgression he knows of his parish.”
Lansing restrained the laughter.“Do we know such a
man?”
“I believe I know a person; I met him briefly in
London. He has a living in Kent; his wife’s father is Sir William
Lucas, a man from Hertfordshire I met at the court of St. James.
The cleric fawns and brags, but his services could be procured for
this one time.” Miss Donnelly’s resolve took place. She still spoke
to the air rather than to Mr. Lansing, as if she thought out loud.
“I shall write him tomorrow. I am sure he will be pleased to
perform the wedding of the aristocracy.”
“Then what will you do to entice your cousin?”
Lansing mocked.
She straightened her shoulders and finally looked
at Lansing. “A lady would never discuss such things.” Her words
held bitterness.
Lansing stood. “A lady would never be in a
position where this conversation would occur. By your leave, Miss
Donnelly,” he whispered. He overtly reached out and caressed her
cheek in a mocking sign of affection before he exited.
Darcy sat in the drawing room with Miss Donnelly;
the evening was warm for early March so a fire was not lit in the
hearth. “Miss Donnelly, what do you think of Mr. Wordsworth’s new
volume?” Darcy asked, expecting a knowledgeable response.
“I am afraid, Sir, I have not read it.” She barely
looked up from her needlework.
Darcy looked up from the book.“What have you read
lately?”
“Very little—I do not like to read,” she mumbled as
she concentrated on her stitchery.
“You do not like to read?” Darcy seemed
shocked.
Again, she did not even raise her head. “No,
Sir.”
“How can you exist in the world without literature
and poetry to temper your soul?”
Elizabeth Donnelly finally looked at him seriously.
“It is of little significance. I read well enough to decipher Mr.
Lansing’s
reports.That is all which is necessary for my existence.”
“Then I assume you play the pianoforte or draw,” he
offered.
She laughed lightly. “I am afraid, Frederick, I
have few talents associated with accomplished young ladies.”
Before he thought about what he said, Darcy blurted
out, “My sister is quite accomplished on the pianoforte. I bought
her a new one for her birthday.”
Miss Donnelly froze; her needle suspended in
midair.“Your sister, Sir?” she nearly shrieked.
Darcy sat for a long time looking at her in
bewilderment before he spoke.“Do I have a sister?” he
whispered.
“No, Sir.” Miss Donnelly swallowed hard, not sure
if his memory suddenly returned.
Darcy’s hands shook.“Then why did I say that? It
seemed so logical and familiar at the time.” His voice broke with a
new fear.
“Possibly it is your brother’s wife of whom you
speak. She would be your sister in marriage.” Miss Donnelly grasped
at straws.
“Of course,” he nearly stuttered. “That has to be
it.” His eyes cleared once more. “Somewhere, I discussed the
qualities of an accomplished woman. I vaguely remember the
conversation on the edges of my memory.”
“That surely must be it,” she assured him.
“I received a letter confirming the arrival of the
cleric for whom I sent,” Miss Donnelly told Mr. Lansing one
afternoon. “He should be here by Saturday. I will press my cousin
to be married as soon as I am sure of the man’s arrival.”
“What will you do?” Lansing asked
offhandedly.
“I shall not discuss it with you,” she told him as
she closed the ledger in which she recorded expenses. “Yet, be
assured I have a plan.”
Darcy wondered about the life upon which he was to
embark at Darling Hall. At times, he seemed so self-assured—he saw
himself as the type who protected those he loved—a man who
brokered for peace and serenity, a dutiful man who knew his
position and his responsibility. He, obviously, knew something
about running an estate, and Darling Hall could use his insights.
He was a practical man—not one who sought recognition, but one who
expected respect.
Although he could enjoy fine company, Darcy did not
suppose he could tolerate those with false airs.Yet, as a Lord’s
son, he must give his dues to those of rank. As Lord Donnelly,
Darcy knew he must be used to a superior wealth. Tradition and duty
to family would be his mantle. He would marry Miss Donnelly, as he
gave his word to her, and do the dutiful thing to create a viable
estate and a home for his eventual heirs.
The suggestion of heirs brought Darcy to thoughts
of Elizabeth Donnelly. Of late, he held profound concerns about the
woman and his plan to marry her. Only two days ago, he forcibly
removed her as she, literally, beat the household’s elderly cook
because the old woman spilled a bowl of sauce, which stained the
rug in the breakfast room. Disciplining a servant as such made him
wonder how she might treat their children, who regularly could be
counted on to create similar messes. Add that to her lack of
interest in the finer things in life, her obsession with
cleanliness, her absolute trust in a man obviously not capable of
meeting his responsibility to the estate, and her colloquial
attitude, and Darcy began to consider whether his marriage to this
woman would be advisable when balanced against her few
attributes.
She certainly was not one most men would choose.
She had no apparent talents, and Miss Donnelly had her quirks. In
fact, she possessed only two redeeming qualities: a pretty face and
Darling Hall. The thoughts of her in his bed offered repulsive
images. I wonder if she will take her gloves off then? Yet,
he knew men often took a mistress if the home bed did not fulfill
their needs. Darcy could not imagine Elizabeth Donnelly would
much care. “She has a repugnance for anything of an intimate
nature,” he once told Conrad.
What Darcy had trouble justifying was his nightly
dreams. In those, he passionately romanced a different woman.Was
she his fantasy to replace the “cold” Miss Donnelly? In his dreams,
he took her deeply and completely, and the woman of his dreams
returned his passion. She consumed him. Always the same woman,
Darcy often woke feeling her breath on his neck or his heart racing
from the heat of her kiss.
In addition to dreams of his “lady,” he held
realities of previous conversations. Some dealt with the qualities
of accomplished women, his love of literature and music, his
knowledge of an estate, and a history in Hertfordshire. These were
fragments of his previous life, but Darcy could not put the puzzle
pieces together to form a new whole.Where did the answer lie? Part
of him wanted to be the dutiful son and possibly achieve his
father’s forgiveness. Marrying within the family and developing
Darling Hall could earn him respect and honor. Part of Darcy wanted
the relationship he found only in his dreams. Elizabeth Donnelly
would never bring forth any such passion. Oh, but to find such a
relationship would be unheard of in fine society.
He considered leaving, trying other options, but he
possessed no funds of his own. He found himself fully at Miss
Donnelly’s whims. In some ways, he was no better than Mr. Lansing,
at least in that regard. One moment, Darcy thought marrying Miss
Donnelly was the most logical thing to do; the next he wished to
run madly from the estate, warning all about the “crazy” world
found behind the walls of Darling Hall. Could he go through with
the marriage? Neither his dreams nor his reality could answer that
question.
So, each night he welcomed the dreams of the
unknown woman. She sustained him during his waking hours because
the woman was the one constant in his life.The daylight hours
brought him new realities, but the night brought a familiarity—a
need he could not fill during the day. He saw her eyes—a pair of
fine eyes—and an enigmatic smile, along with a raised eyebrow.
Darcy felt the heat of her mouth on his—a love that devoured his
reason. He imagined himself taking her into his arms along
walkways, deserted paths, gardens, conservatories, and in his bed.
She smiled at him, and he wanted her in a breathless desire. Darcy
knew Elizabeth Donnelly could never meet such needs—not in a
million years.
Georgiana Darcy first saw the familiar figure from
the window of her bedchamber, and her heart leapt into her throat.
She grabbed her pelisse and hurried down the central
staircase.
“Where are you off to?” Elizabeth called to
her.
“I believe I need some fresh air,” she returned the
call, but she did not stop. She was out the door and heading toward
the rise behind Pemberley.When she crossed the second clearing, the
figure stepped from a copse of Spanish oaks and pulled her within
the secrecy the trees offered. “I feared you would not come.” He
looked deeply into Georgiana’s eyes.
“Mr. Harrison, you should not be here; I should not
be here,” she stammered, feeling his closeness.
Harrison instinctively moved in closer. “I had to
see you; I heard about your Mr. Darcy.”
“Elizabeth is devastated; Fitzwilliam went to Hull,
but he never made it to his destination.” Georgiana dropped her
eyes, not wishing to tell Mr. Harrison the real reason for her
brother’s botched trip.
“Miss More wrote to me; that is why I am here,”
Harrison told her.“I had to see for myself that you and Mrs. Darcy
were all right.Would it be too much if I offered your sister my
help until her husband returns?”
“What about Hines Park?” Georgiana’s eyes did not
leave his face.
“Indirectly, your brother’s disappearance is my
fault. I wish to be of service to you and Mrs. Darcy in some
manner.” By now, Harrison could feel the heat of his need for
Georgiana Darcy.
“Elizabeth would never accept such self-censure
from you, Mr. Harrison. She would offer you no blame in
Fitzwilliam’s disappearance.”
He asked softly,“Would she accept my help?”
Georgiana could no longer look at the man without
touching him. “You may come to the house and ask my sister
yourself.” Georgiana dropped her eyes.
An elongated silence hung between them. “Miss
Darcy, please look at me,” he whispered. Georgiana slowly raised
her eyes to gaze lovingly on his face. “I like the man I see in
your eyes.” Harrison caressed her face. “A man could get lost in
your eyes.”
Georgiana’s smile grew with the knowledge he was
close to her after so long a separation.“Let me return to the house
before you call on the estate. It is best if we are not seen
together.”
“I am happy you said seen together rather
than be together.” Harrison offered her an unsure
look.
“Definitely seen together,” Georgiana
giggled. “I will greet you properly in my home, Sir.” She turned to
go, but in looking back, Georgiana impulsively mimicked his earlier
caress and traced the outline of his lips.