CHAPTER 1
“We have all a better guide in ourselves,
if we would attend to it, than any other person can be.”
if we would attend to it, than any other person can be.”
Jane Austen, Mansfield Park, 1817
The light streaked across the room through the
slit in the heavy drapes, piercing his eyes, and Fitzwilliam Darcy
reluctantly abandoned his dreams of Elizabeth Bennet. Ever since he
met her in Hertfordshire over a year ago, the woman possessed his
every thought—both waking and sleeping.This particular dream held
real possibilities: Elizabeth Bennet lay beside him in bed, her
legs wrapped across his body; she smiled her signature enigmatic
smile, and Darcy rolled toward her to cup her face in his hands.“I
love you, Fitzwilliam,” she whispered.
“You are bewitching.” He returned her smile and
lowered his head to kiss her lips.
Elizabeth wrapped her arms around his neck and
pulled her body closer to his, and Darcy felt himself becoming
aroused by her nearness. “Fitzwilliam,” she whispered as she kissed
along his jaw line. “I have something special to tell you; I hope
you will be pleased to know I am with child.”
The news ricocheted through his body. “A child,
Elizabeth—you are with child? My heir—an heir for Pemberley grows
within you. Everything.You are everything, I do so love you, my
Lizzy.”
The dream moved to the next level as he caressed
her tenderly and kissed the woman he loved more than life. The kiss
grew deeper and deeper, and Darcy could feel her passion
grow under his touch. She brought magic to his life and love to
his home.
“Fitzwilliam,” the voice crept into his
subconscious. The arm draped across him lightly rubbed his abdomen,
and his back felt the warmth of her body as it snuggled close to
his form. He forced his eyelids open to meet the new day, while he
instinctively clasped her arm to his body and held it close to him.
A smile flitted across his face as the realization of his dream
lived in the woman laying behind him in his bed.
“Umm,” he moaned as he loosened her hold on him so
he could turn to face her. “Are you awake already, my Love?” Darcy
moved the curls from her face.“It’s very early,” he whispered to
the air.
“I was dreaming about you,” she mumbled, fighting
to return to sleep.
He kissed her forehead. “I dreamed of you,
Elizabeth Bennet Darcy, since I saw you first in Meryton.”
“Do you mean when I was only tolerable?” A hint of
a smile turned up the corners of her mouth as she gave over to
being awake.
“Will I never live down that remark?” Darcy teased
as his kisses moved down the side of Elizabeth’s face.
Elizabeth kept her eyes closed although she now
felt fully awake.“Maybe in twenty or thirty years.”
“We will add your ‘last man in the world I could be
prevailed upon to marry’ to those phrases we wish to forget.” Darcy
found her upturned mouth and kissed it tenderly.
“Our child will wonder why his parents once were so
foolish.” Elizabeth’s free hand snaked around his waist and
caressed the small of Darcy’s back and down his hips.
Instinctively, his hand reached a similar point on her body as he
pulled her closer to him.
“Our child will know his parents married for love.”
He kissed along her neck and across her shoulder blade.
“Then you are truly happy, my Husband? A finer lady
would not please you more?”
Darcy’s hand cupped her face. “Remember, my Love, I
am sick of civility, of deference, and of officious attention; I
desire only the liveliness of your mind.”
Elizabeth’s smile and the desire in her eyes
encased him.“At the moment, Mr. Darcy, I doubt my mind has anything
to do with the warmth I feel coming from your body.”
“You are correct, Mrs. Darcy; I believe my
frivolous sensibilities are lost to you alone.” Darcy kissed
her passionately, his tongue searching her mouth.
“I love you, Fitzwilliam.”
Her words created an immediate need in him, and
Darcy’s hands began to search the intimate points on her body. Lost
to loving her, he groaned,“Lizzy.”
“You know that is the one word which drives me
crazy. I love the way you slur the z’s; it tells me how much
you desire me.” Her voice came out in gasps as his assault of her
body continued.“Say it again, please.”
“I love you, Lizzy,” he whispered in her ear.
“That is perfect—absolutely perfect.”
Darcy lay back in the tub, relaxing in the hot
water. Thoughts of Elizabeth clung to his memory; never had he felt
so satisfied with his life. So many years Darcy played the role of
the dutiful son—lived his life taking care of others. He never
trusted anyone else to address the concerns of his estate or to
protect and provide for his sister Georgiana. Yet, Darcy always
felt cheated by his life. He never allowed himself his own
moments of happiness. Until he met Elizabeth Bennet, Fitzwilliam
Darcy did his duty but ignored his dreams and his desires.
Elizabeth’s presence created a quagmire for him
from the beginning. A full gamut of emotions possessed him during
those months—fear, bewilderment, elation, depression, devastation,
happiness, and satisfaction. Now, he could not remember a time when
he did not love her and when Elizabeth was not his wife. Yet, in
reality, they had only been a couple for three months.
A smile turned up the corners of his mouth as
visions of Elizabeth appeared behind his closed eyes. When he first
dreamed of her, Darcy only saw her fine eyes or her enigmatic
smile.Those images flitted in and out of his subconscious, often
distracting and befuddling him because Elizabeth, by his early
assessment, lacked all the qualities he wanted in a wife. As
time progressed, thoughts of Elizabeth’s vivacity, as well as his
respect for her, grew, and Darcy began to picture her as a part of
his life. He often fell asleep with visions of Elizabeth Bennet
standing on the steps of Pemberley or walking with him and
Georgiana through his estate’s parkland.Those dreams of Elizabeth
lasted many months, and Darcy feared he would never know the
living, breathing Elizabeth Bennet.
Finally, he won her heart; then his dreams took on
a more intimate nature. He dreamed of Elizabeth in his bed and the
pure pleasure of taking her. However, none of those dreams came
close to the actual act of touching and feeling Elizabeth in his
embrace. He so needed her in his life. Darcy abandoned all the
“restrictions” of love; they shared love as it should happen
between a man and a woman—natural desire and respect. He knew not
how other gentlemen treated their wives, other than bar talk, which
he considered to be the alcohol and false pride speaking. He spent
his time with Elizabeth trying to please her before he took his own
pleasure, and Darcy welcomed her coming to him when she desired
him. Such love could not be contained by the proprieties of the
time.
“Do you plan to stay in your tub all day, my
Husband?” Elizabeth’s voice held strands of amusement as she stood
looking at the muscular frame of the man she loved.
“I could not get you out of my mind,” he said
before submerging. When he came out of the water, he called, “Would
you hand me a towel?”
Elizabeth’s eyes traced his frame when he stood.
“Maybe I should help you dry off.” Her voice betrayed her real
thoughts.
“As much as your offer pleases me,” he began,“we
still have a house full of guests.” Darcy took the towel she
offered and then stepped forward to kiss her lips gently. “Mmm, so
tempting.” He could not take his eyes from hers.“I swear,
Elizabeth, when we rid ourselves of these guests, I will never
invite another to my house. I want the pleasure of loving you all
day—every day.”
“Fitzwilliam, you are so not what I once thought.
How could I ever think you to be so proper?” She snickered as she
lightly touched the expanse of his chest and dabbed the water
dripping from his hair. “I will wait for you in the sitting room,”
Elizabeth said with a hesitation. “We will go down to breakfast
together.”
“I will only be a moment.” He kissed her cheek
while she caressed his chest. As she started to walk away from him,
Darcy grabbed his robe and quickly cinched it while he crossed the
room and caught her arm. “Elizabeth.” She turned to look at him,
and he cupped her face in his hand. “Do you have any idea what
effect you have on me?” His eyes searched her face, praying she
would understand him.
“You have a like effect on me, Sir.” Elizabeth went
on her tiptoes to nibble on his lower lip.
Both of them found their breath coming in short
gasps before they even touched each other. “We are coming back to
this room for an early afternoon nap; we are both very tired
today after staying up so late last evening.” He nearly whispered
the words because she never released him from her eyes.
A hint of a grin fell upon her face. “I am
exceedingly tired today, Fitzwilliam; we may need to spend several
hours resting, but for now I will be waiting in the sitting
room, my Love.”
Darcy released her arm to let Elizabeth leave, but
it took several moments for him to move.
Henry finally appeared.“Are you ready, Mr.
Darcy?”
Elizabeth sent his man in to help him dress.
“Yes, Henry, I am.”
As they descended the staircase to breakfast,
Darcy took her arm in his, but his eyes rested again on Elizabeth’s
face.“I never thought you could be more beautiful than you were on
our wedding day, but being with child becomes you, Mrs.
Darcy.”
Elizabeth blushed with his attention.“From
tolerable to beautiful—that is quite a change of heart, Mr. Darcy,”
she teased.
“I was always open-minded, my Love,” Darcy returned
the taunt.
“Oh—definitely,” she returned, “how could I have
ever doubted you?”
“Ah, the newly announced parents have risen for
the day,” Mr. Gardiner called as they entered the room.
“Yes, Uncle, we took longer coming down this
morning, but we could all use a few extra minutes’ sleep after our
joyful evening.” Elizabeth walked to him and offered up an
affectionate embrace.
Darcy asked from the side bar table, “May I fix you
a plate, Elizabeth?”
“Yes, Fitzwilliam, but please remember my delicate
constitution.” She moved to greet her aunt also.
“I doubt Mr. Darcy is likely to forget the delicacy
of her condition any time soon,” Jane Bingley teased as she carried
her husband’s plate to the table and returned for one of her
own.
“That is true, Mrs. Bingley.Your sister will have
to go some to top this gift.” Darcy’s eyes fell on his wife when he
said these words.“Only twins could outdo this one.”
“Twins!” Elizabeth exclaimed. “May I deal with only
one heir for Pemberley at a time, Sir?” Her tone told everyone his
familiarity in front of her family members did not offend
her.
“Listen to the two of you,” Charles Bingley
laughed. “Could anyone at this table ever think Darcy to be so
happy? Mrs. Darcy, he is a changed man.”
“I told him something similar just a few minutes
ago.” Elizabeth’s eyes sparkled, and Darcy’s eyebrow shot up,
anticipating her remark.“He is not so proper, after all,” she
teased.Visions of his body brought a flush to her cheeks.
“Well, I do not know about that,” Bingley chuckled.
“But he does seem to have found contentment.”
“My wife is an exceptional woman.” Darcy crossed to
place the plate on the table; then he kissed Elizabeth’s hand and
held the chair for her as she took her place at his table.“Would
you like tea, Madam?” He bowed slightly to indicate his attention
to her needs.
“May I have chocolate instead?” She grinned with
all his regard.
While the others found Darcy’s devotion to
Elizabeth amusing, he, meanwhile, whispered in her ear, “Anything,
Elizabeth.”
Georgiana Darcy and Kitty Bennet entered the room
together. Kitty anticipated the appearance of Clayton Ashford, the
young man who captured her attention the previous evening. Mr.
Ashford received a living from the Darcy family; he attended the
NewYear’s Eve dinner out of respect for his benefactor, but Ashford
found himself quickly involved in the celebration of Mrs. Darcy’s
announcement of an heir for Pemberley. Besides being happy for the
Darcys, Ashford realized an heir would bring a sense of stability
to the many tenants and businesses, which depended on this great
estate for
their existences. Of course, his own existence depended on the
Darcys’ continuing good standing.
Kitty Bennet’s attendance at the dinner proved to
be an unexpected pleasure for Ashford. Her hand in his during the
dance set gave Ashford his first sense of endearing contentment. He
did not know what true effect her presence had on him for he had
not acknowledged those thoughts of her yet; however, their
relationship invited further possibilities.
The object of his attention now filled her plate
while distractedly looking for Mr. Ashford to enter the room.When
he appeared, a singular thrill shot through her as he wished the
room a “Happy New Year,” but kept his eyes on Kitty’s face to judge
her reaction. She offered him a simple “good morning” and a nearly
invisible nod to the vacant chair beside her own, in hopes Ashford
would join her.
Georgiana Darcy, on the other hand, knew this day
would bring her a deprivation of Chadwick Harrison’s attention;
therefore, she did not anticipate the day, as did Kitty. Mr.
Harrison took an interest in Miss Darcy, but he promised Elizabeth
he would not declare his intentions until after Georgiana’s next
birthday.As Mr. Darcy’s only sister, Georgiana held high
expectations of a good match, and Mr. Harrison must prove himself
to her brother before asking for her hand in marriage. Harrison’s
presence at Pemberley this last month allowed Georgiana to get to
know him, and her regard for this stranger grew quickly.Today, he
planned to return to Hines Park, his estate; it would be some time
before they would see each other again.
When Mr. Harrison entered the breakfast room,
Georgiana (unlike Kitty, who readily met Mr. Ashford’s eyes)
dropped her glance, fearing she might betray her feelings for the
man, not only to him, but also to herself.Therefore, Harrison chose
the seat next to Mr. Bingley and across from Georgiana rather than
the empty one next to her. Although he promised Elizabeth Darcy he
would not approach Georgiana at this time, Harrison
would not miss the opportunity to talk to her and savor the last
of their interactions.
“Good morning, Miss Darcy,” he said with more
interest than necessary. Harrison did not know whether Georgiana
was aware of his arrangement with her sister, but he wanted her to
know his interest did not wane.
“Mr. Harrison—I hope you slept well.” Georgiana
allowed her eyes to rise to meet his briefly.
He leaned forward to speak to her alone.“I did;
thank you, Miss Darcy. It was certainly a momentous evening, was it
not?”
Georgiana let her smile rest on her brother and
Elizabeth.“I am so happy for Fitzwilliam. He deserves such elation
in his life; my brother put his world on hold to run this estate
and serve as my guardian. I could wish him such pleasure for the
rest of his days.” Georgiana’s voice held the pride of and respect
for her brother.
“I hope to replicate his accomplishments,” Harrison
offered. “Hines Park is not as large as Pemberley, but soon I hope
it reflects some of the lessons I learned here, and then I, too,
may think of starting a family of my own.” Harrison’s words
bordered on impropriety, but he felt a need to let Georgiana know
his dreams could be found in her.
She offered him a hint of a smile, which was more
than he could expect to receive under the constraints placed on him
by the Darcys. Yet, it held possibilities; he could set his dreams
based on the softness of Georgiana’s countenance.
Knowing when her birthday fell, he emphasized, “I
would hope to have everything in place by late summer.”
“You will be missed, Mr. Harrison.” Kitty said the
words Georgiana could not, and Georgiana shot her new friend a
“Thank you” when no one looked at them.
Darcy called from across the table, “When will you
depart, Mr. Harrison?”
“I planned to do so early this afternoon, Sir.
Hines Park is only a little over a two hours’ journey.”
“I am sure you are anxious to see your home again,”
Jane Bingley added.
“I am, Mrs. Bingley; yet, I will miss the new
friendships I formed at Pemberley.” Again, he hoped Georgiana would
understand his double meaning.
“I wonder where Anne and Edward could be,”
Elizabeth expressed her thoughts out loud.“You do not suppose Anne
is feeling poorly again.”
Georgiana assured her, “I saw her this morning; she
and Edward were going to take a short walk through the gardens
before they joined us. I am sure they will be here soon.”
Almost as if on cue, Edward and Anne entered the
room. “Edward, we began to worry,” Darcy called out to his
cousin.
“Anne wanted some fresh air before breakfast.”
Edward led Anne to a seat next to Mrs. Gardiner and leaned down to
speak to Anne privately.“I will fix you something.”
Anne barely whispered,“Just some toast and some
tea.”
Edward spoke to Anne as one might coax an obstinate
child.“Will you not try something a bit more than that? Please do
it for me.”
“For you,” she agreed and then caressed his
cheek.
Darcy joined his cousin at the side bar table. “How
is Anne really doing, Edward?” Darcy whispered as he shot a quick
glance at Anne de Bourgh.
“She was under our aunt’s scrutiny so long Anne
sometimes must be coaxed into vibrancy.” Edward’s face showed his
love for the adolescent-like woman.
“I would never, I fear, think of Anne as vibrant.”
Darcy’s words held regret he had for never helping Anne escape Lady
Catherine’s control. “However, Edward, I am sure with your love she
will be just that.”
“Thank you, Darcy.”
“For what?”
“For understanding I truly love Anne.” Edward’s
words sounded as if he had not been able to convince others of his
regard for his cousin.
“We always were more than cousins, Edward. I
sincerely pray for your happiness.” Edward gave Darcy a grateful
nod and returned to the table to join Anne.
“Mr. and Mrs. Darcy.” Clayton Ashford stood to take
his leave. “I am afraid I must depart. I thank you for sharing your
evening and your home with me.”
“We were pleased you could be here,” Elizabeth
offered. “You must come again soon. Would you be free tomorrow
evening for dinner?”
“I would, Mrs. Darcy. I thank you for the
invitation. May I also ask your permission to announce your good
tidings of an heir for Pemberley at this week’s services? I know
the community will rejoice with the news and offer their
prayers.”
“I have no objections, Mr.Ashford. Do you,
Fitzwilliam?”
“You are welcome to be our town crier,
Mr.Ashford.”
“Mr. Ashford, I will walk out with you.” Elizabeth
stood. “I think I must inform key staff members at Pemberley before
they hear our news from a tradesman in Lambton.”
“Mr. Ashford, may I have the coach brought around
to return you to town?” Elizabeth and Mr. Ashford stood in the main
entryway.
“No, thank you, Mrs. Darcy. I prefer to walk. I bid
you farewell until tomorrow evening.”With that said, he pulled on
his coat and departed down the lane toward Lambton.
Elizabeth worked her way to the study. She stopped
before entering the room to ask one of the maids to have Mrs.
Reynolds and Hannah come to her.
“Enter,” Elizabeth called at the light knock on
the study door.
“Mrs. Darcy, did you wish to see us?” Mrs. Reynolds
felt some agitation at being summoned to the study.
Elizabeth came from behind her husband’s desk to
greet them. “Yes, Mrs. Reynolds, please will the two of you come to
join me?” Elizabeth gestured to the chairs.
Both ladies took the seats she offered, but the
unusual situation bothered them.“Mrs. Darcy, have we done something
wrong?”
“Oh, Mrs. Reynolds, is that what you thought? I
apologize for giving you the wrong impression. On the
contrary—because Mr. Darcy and I value your service to me and to
the estate, we felt it appropriate to tell you something before the
news spreads through the community via Mr. Ashford.” Both women
took on the look all women have when their suspicions are about to
be confirmed. “Mr. Darcy and I hope to welcome our first child in
late July.”
“Oh, Mrs. Darcy,” Hannah squealed.“I am so happy to
hear this. I suspected as much by the way you picked at your food
lately.This is great news.”
As tears welled in her eyes, Mrs. Reynolds could
barely contain herself. “Mrs. Darcy, you are to let me take on
things; you are not to let Pemberley be a concern.The Master must
be beside himself with happiness.”
“He does seem quite content with the prospect, Mrs.
Reynolds. I wanted you two to be aware. Hannah, I will obviously
depend on you in a personal manner. I will need additional clothing
and some personal care in choices of food. Mrs. Reynolds, we must
prepare a nursery.Yet, all these little things were never my
concern in bringing you here.You are a part of the Pemberley
family, and you have an interest in what happens within our lives.
Mrs. Reynolds, you may tell other staff members as you see
fit.”
“This will be great news; the staff and the tenants
waited for a long time. It has been over seventeen years since
Pemberley knew such happiness. Master Fitzwilliam will have an heir
for
the estate. Pemberley will survive.” Mrs. Reynolds’s eyes misted
again with tears. She and Hannah stood to take their leave. “Bless
you, Mrs. Darcy. Everything will finally be happiness at
Pemberley.”
Elizabeth felt a bit overwhelmed with Mrs.
Reynolds’s reaction. She knew how important giving Darcy an heir
must be, but she never suspected her time would bring forth such
emotions. Recently, she came to understand the great responsibility
her husband assumed when he took over Pemberley after his father’s
death. Elizabeth also now possessed a better idea of how many
people depended on Darcy and the estate for their subsistence, yet
sometimes she still could not conceive how she fit into the
picture. Carrying Darcy’s child gave Elizabeth a new acceptance of
what all he and this estate meant to hundreds of people at
Pemberley, but also to those in Lambton and at Kensington Place.
She married into responsibility. Immersed deep in these thoughts,
Elizabeth seated herself behind Darcy’s desk to pen a letter to her
parents.
1 January
Papa and Mama,
It is New Year’s Day at Pemberley.We had a
glorious celebration last evening with a few close friends.Although
our party was small, our joy at being in our own home could not be
expressed. Mr. Darcy gave up celebrating the Festive Season at
Pemberley after the deaths of his parents. Opening up the estate
once again told him this was a beginning; his previous sadness
could be no more.You will be happy to know Jane and Mr. Bingley,
along with Kitty, arrived safely. Having my dearest sisters with me
renewed my energies.
Mr. Harrison will end his stay with us today and
return to Hines Park; his astute insights will be greatly missed.
Colonel Fitzwilliam and Anne de Bourgh are with us for a few days
before they travel on to his father’s estate.They will officially
announce
their engagement at his parents’ anniversary party.We will all
travel to Matlock to join in their celebration. Uncle and Aunt
Gardiner and their children are happy to visit her family and
friends in Lambton, as well as spend time with us. Mr. Darcy enjoys
Uncle Gardiner’s company; I believe my dear Fitzwilliam misses his
father’s counsel, and my uncle serves that purpose of a more mature
voice in his life.
Georgiana and I successfully orchestrated the
tenant celebration at Pemberley.The steward, Mr. Howard, claims we
created goodwill between the tenants and the Darcy family. My
regard for Mr. Darcy’s caring nature grew during this celebration.
Hearing his tenants tell of the many ways he served them gave me
great pride in having married such a man. It is amazing to me he
knows all their names and all their histories; he treats them
exceptionally well. It bothers me I ever so misjudged him.
Georgiana continues to open herself up to new possibilities; I hope
she and Kitty will become good friends.
When Jane and Mr. Bingley return to Netherfield,
I request Kitty be allowed to stay with me here at Pemberley. I am
in need of my sister’s help because Mr. Darcy and I shall become
parents in late summer; having Kitty with me would give me great
pleasure during this time. Fitzwilliam plans to secure tutors for
Kitty while she is with us. Of course, Mama, having Kitty here will
expose her to eligible young men. In fact, our new vicar already
shows an interest in her.
I must close now as our guests await my return.
I miss all my dear family and pray to see you soon.
Your loving daughter,
E. D.
E. D.
Elizabeth also wrote to Charlotte.
1 January
My dearest Charlotte,
I will write more at a later date, but I must
tell you my happy news. Mr. Darcy and I expect our first child in
late July. Because I know Lady Catherine will likely be displeased
when she learns of this, I wanted you and Mr. Collins to know
before she did. She is likely to learn soon for Colonel Fitzwilliam
and Miss de Bourgh are guests in our home. I am sure Anne will
write to her mother. I realize you rejoice in my happiness even if
Mr. Collins’s position prevents your saying so.You are as always in
my thoughts.
Elizabeth Darcy
She closed both letters with wax and pressed the
Darcy seal in each before writing the directions on the outside.
Elizabeth moved from behind the desk to stand by the glass doors
leading to the gardens; she stood there for several minutes before
Darcy found her. He watched her before approaching; if she ever
realized how many times per day he took pleasure in just looking at
her, Elizabeth might become uncomfortable around him. Darcy could
give himself no greater satisfaction than to memorize her
form.“There you are, my Love,” he said as he came up behind her and
encircled her waist with his arms.
Elizabeth leaned back to feel the warmth of his
body. He heard her emit a light moan as he kissed the side of her
neck.“I was just enjoying the view.”
“Pemberley in the spring and early summer must
resemble Heaven because I know of no place more beautiful. I cannot
wait for you to see it; you will love it as I do.”
“I already love it, Fitzwilliam.” She turned to
face him directly.“I was just thinking about how much a part of my
life you and Pemberley have become. I wrote my parents about our
unexpected gift and asked for Kitty to stay with us; as I did so, I
felt guilty for not being homesick for Longbourn. How is it I lived
at Longbourn for over twenty years and at Pemberley
for less than two months, but it is Pemberley of which I think
when someone says home?”
“I do not know how to explain it because I feel as
such, too. When my mother died, so did life at Pemberley. Now, with
you here, it lives again. It is no longer just a fine
house—it is my home.We, obviously, belong
together—our fatum.”
“I do so love you, Fitzwilliam.” Her arms snaked
around his neck, and Elizabeth leaned in to rest her head on his
chest. For some time, Darcy held her there, stroking her hair and
feeling how she melded into him. Finally, she agreed they must
rejoin their guests. “Fitzwilliam, before we go, may I ask you a
couple of things?”
“Of course, Elizabeth.”
“First, I would like to employ tutors for Kitty
while she is with us. She is not as shallow as is Lydia, and Jane
and I wish to help her become less provocative.”
“I have no problem with the idea. I realize making
a good match may depend on such training for your sister. It is our
duty to help her find an appropriate mate.”
Elizabeth smiled at him.“Thank you, my Love.
Secondly, I have been thinking about your teaching me about
Pemberley. Should not Georgiana also be made aware of how to run
the estate?”
“I am not sure what you mean, Elizabeth.”
“I realize with the jointure Pemberley is mine
until my death if something happens to you, but I would want it to
also belong to Georgiana—at least, as long as she wants to be here.
I would feel uncomfortable if I made decisions for her family’s
estate without her input. Plus, do you not think it would be to her
advantage if she knew about estate business, in general? When she
chooses to marry, no man would be able to fool her into believing
his worth is more than it actually is. Some men would object to her
knowing their business, but a man who
respects our sister for herself rather than her thirty thousand
pounds would not.”
“I see. So you believe I should approach my sister
on this idea?” Deep in thought, Darcy finally released her and took
a few steps toward the window.
“I wish you would, Sir, if you believe it has any
merit.” As Darcy always saw Georgiana as needing protection,
Elizabeth seemed tentative about how he would react to such a
proposal for his sister.
“Let me think about how it might be handled.
Georgiana’s natural instinct is not as adventurous as is yours, my
Love; she may not see such knowledge as being part of her
realm.”
“Georgiana simply wants your respect for her worth.
I believe she would welcome an opportunity to learn about
Pemberley.”
“Mr. Harrison said a few days ago I was blessed to
have two progressive-thinking women in my household,” Darcy added
as he turned back to embrace his wife once more.
“Did he now?” Elizabeth teased, knowing she was
serious with him too long. “What did he mean by progressive,
do you suppose?” She went up on her tiptoes to brush Darcy’s lips
with hers.
Darcy’s passion quickly rose just being near his
wife. “I hope my sister is not progressive in the same way
as you right now, my Love.”
“Oh, do you believe, Sir, there is more than one
meaning for the word?”
“Certainly.” His hands began to caress Elizabeth’s
back as he kissed her neck. “Progressive may mean
‘improving,’ which seems appropriate for my sister. She improves
each day under your influence, Elizabeth.”
“And what of me, Sir? How may you consider me to be
progressive?” Her challenge offered him a warning of
choosing
the right words. “Do you see your wife as too
forward-moving and too liberal?”
“Not at all, Madam.” Darcy found an interest in the
curls that draped down from her hair.“Your progressive
nature means you are dynamic and spirited.You consume
my mind.”
Elizabeth laughed with a cackle, which began deep
within her. “Fitzwilliam, I admit you handled that quite well. I
always took delight in your ability to twist the English language
to prove your point.”
A full smile overspread Darcy’s face. “Truthfully,
my Love, our verbal swordplay was one of the first things that
attracted me to you. I used to say things to provoke a response
just to hear you address me directly.”
“Fitzwilliam Darcy, you did not!” She seemed
shocked by this disclosure.
“I am afraid, my Dear, I did.” His eyes twinkled,
realizing her reaction to his words.
Elizabeth relished his early attempts to win her
attention. “Tell me, Sir, when did you so manipulate me?”
“Do you recall Miss Bingley’s litany of qualities
of an accomplished woman?”
“Of course, how could I forget? She wished to let
me know I could be found wanting.” Elizabeth shifted her weight,
indicating she still felt limited when she recalled the
words.
“Oh, my Love, do not even begin,” he cautioned. “I
know how you think.You want for nothing. It is Miss Bingley who
lacks any real worth.” Darcy saw her shoot him an incredulous
stare.“Do you not recall to Miss Bingley’s list I added extensive
reading to improve one’s mind? Caroline never reads unless forced
to do so. I knew you were a voracious reader. I assumed you would
understand my reference.”
“You forget—I thought you hated me then.”
“That still amazes me, Elizabeth; I could not take
my eyes from you.You played havoc with my emotions that evening,
my Love. You stood beside Mr. Bingley as we played cards. When you
offered your attentions to Charles, I said something to provoke you
to draw your attention to me—to force you to look in my eyes.”
Darcy caressed her jaw line with the back of his hand.
“It could not be so.Why did I not see your
desires?” Elizabeth shook her head in disbelief.
Darcy chuckled; how often they misunderstood each
other in those early days of their relationship took on comic
effects in hindsight, although his misery at the time nearly
destroyed him.“Do you remember my comment of knowing only a half
dozen women who were truly accomplished? I knew you would never let
that comment go by.”
“It seems, Sir, you knew me better than even I
did.” Elizabeth kissed him tenderly.
“If I knew you as well as I should have, it would
not have taken us so long to find each other.” Elizabeth saw the
remorse drift into his eyes.
“None of that, Mr. Darcy.” She massaged the frown
lines in his forehead.“We agreed we went through all we did so we
could be happy now. Do not remember the bad; it never
existed.”
Darcy drew Elizabeth near where he could feel the
contours of her body next to his; her warmth brought him comfort.
“As long as you never consider leaving me alone again,
Elizabeth.”
“How could I ever leave you, Fitzwilliam? You
possess my heart.” Her kiss this time made him want her, and
Darcy’s hand searched the neckline of her dress, running his finger
along the top of her breast. She finally broke the embrace.“My
goodness, Sir, you are dynamic, or is that
progressive, today?”
He began to laugh. “We will continue this later,
Madam, in our room.”
“I am anticipating the pleasure, Sir. Let us rejoin
our guests now.” She took his proffered arm to leave the
room.
“I said it before, but we will invite no one else
to our home, Elizabeth. Believe my words.” They both knew the irony
of their relationship. They needed close family and friends to
sustain them, but solitary interludes held a real appeal.