EMILY GREENSTREET
One afternoon all five of them were sitting
cross-legged in a circle in the vast empty middle of the Sea. It
was a baking hot summer day, and they had gone out there with the
intention of attempting a ridiculously elaborate piece of
collaborative magic, a five-person spell that, if it worked, would
sharpen their vision and hearing and increase their physical
strength for a couple of hours. It was Viking magic, battlefield
magic designed for a raiding party, and as far as any of them knew
it hadn’t been tried in roughly a millennium. Josh, who was
directing their efforts, confessed that he wasn’t completely sure
it had ever worked in the first place. Those Viking shamans did a
lot of for empty boasting.
They had started drinking early, over lunch. Even
though Josh said everything was ready at noon—done deal, good to
go, let’s hook it up—by the time he actually gave them their
handouts, spiral-ring pages of Old Norse chants scratched out in
ballpoint in Josh’s neat, tiny runic script, and prepared the
ground by pouring out a weaving, branching knot in black sand on
the grass, it was almost four. There was singing involved, and
neither Janet nor Quentin could carry a tune, and they kept
cracking each other up and having to start over.
Finally they got all the way through it, and they
sat around staring at the grass and the sky and the backs of their
hands and the clock tower in the distance, trying to tell if
anything was different. Quentin jogged to the edge of the forest to
pee, and when he got back Janet was talking about somebody named
Emily Greenstreet.
“Don’t tell me you knew her,” Eliot said.
“I didn’t. But remember I roomed with that
cow Emma Curtis during First Year? I was talking to her cousin last
week when I was home, she lives near my parents in L.A. She was
here then. Told me the whole story.”
“Really.”
“And now you’re going to tell us,” Josh said.
“It’s all a big secret, though. You can’t tell
anybody.”
“Emma wasn’t a cow,” Josh said. “Or if she was she
was a hot cow. She’s like one of those wagyu cows. Did she
ever pay you back for that dress she threw up on?” He was lying on
his back, staring up into the cloudless sky. He didn’t seem to care
if the spell had worked or not.
“No, she didn’t. And now she’s gone to Tajikistan
or something to save the vanishing Asiatic grasshopper. Or
something. Cow.”
“Who’s Emily Greenstreet?” Alice asked.
“Emily Greenstreet,” Janet said grandly, savoring
the rich, satisfying piece of gossip she was about to impart, “was
the first person to leave Brakebills voluntarily in one hundred
fifty years.”
Her words floated up and drifted away like
cigarette smoke in the warm summer air. It was hot out in the
middle of the Sea, with no shade, but they were all too lazy to
move.
“She came to Brakebills about eight years ago. I
think she was from Connecticut, but not fancy Connecticut, with the
money and the Kennedy cousins and the Lyme disease. I think she was
from New Haven, or Bridge-port. She was quiet, sort of
mousy-looking—”
“How do you know she was mousy-looking?” Josh
asked.
“Sh!” Alice whacked Josh on the arm. “Don’t
antagonize her. I want to hear the story.” They were all lying on a
stripy blanket spread out over the ruins of Josh’s sand
pattern.
“I know because Emma’s cousin told me. Anyway, it’s
my story, and if I say she was mousy, then she had a tail and she
lived on Swiss fucking cheese.
“Emily Greenstreet was one of these girls that
nobody ever notices, who are only friends with other girls nobody
notices. Nobody likes or dislikes them. They have weak chins or
chicken-pox scars, or their glasses are too big. I know I’m being
mean. But you know, they’re just sort of at the edge of
everything.
“She was a good student. She kept busy and got by
in her boring little way until her Third Year, when she finally
distinguished herself by falling in love with one of her
professors.
“Everybody does it, of course. Or at least the
girls do, since we all have daddy complexes. But usually it’s just
a crush, and we get over it and move on to some loser guy our own
age. But not our Emily. She was deeply, passionately, delusionally
in love. Wuthering Heights love. She stood outside his
window at night. She drew little pictures of him in class. She
looked at the moon and cried. She drew little pictures of the moon
in class and cried at them.
“She become moody and depressed. She started
wearing black and listening to the Smiths and reading Camus in the
original whatever. Her eyes became interestingly pouchy and sunken.
She started hanging out at Woof.”
All groaned. Woof was a fountain in the Maze; its
official name was Van Pelt, after an eighteenth-century Dean, but
it depicted Romulus and Remus suckling from a she-wolf with many
dangling wolf-boobs, hence Woof. It was the chosen hangout of the
goths and the artsy crowd.
“Now she had a Secret, capital S, and
ironically it made her more attractive to people, because they
wanted to know what her Secret was. And sure enough, before long a
boy, some deeply unfortunate boy, fell in love with her.
“She didn’t love this boy back, since she was
savin’ all her lovin’ for Professor Sexyman, but he made her feel
pretty damn good, since nobody had ever been in love with her
before. She strung him along and flirted with him in public in the
hope that it would make her real love interest jealous.
“Now we turn to the third point in our little
triangle of love. By all rights the professor should have been
completely impervious to our Emily’s charms. He should have had an
avuncular little chuckle over it in the Senior Common Room and then
forgotten about it. She wasn’t even that hot. Maybe he was having a
midlife crisis, maybe he thought a liaison with Ms. Greenstreet
could restore to him some of his long-vanished youth. Who knows. He
was married, too, the idiot.
“We’ll never know exactly what happened or how far
it went, except that it went too far, and then Professor Sexyman
came to his senses, or got what he wanted, and he called it
off.
“Needless to say our Emily became even gothier and
weepier and more like a Gorey drawing than she already was, and her
boy became even more besotted and brought her presents and flowers
and was Supportive.
“Maybe you knew this, I don’t know, I didn’t, but
Woof used to be different from the other fountains. That’s why the
doomers started hanging out there in the first place. You wouldn’t
notice what was off about it, at first, but after a while you’d
realize that when you looked into it, you wouldn’t see your own
reflection, just empty sky. And maybe if the sky was cloudy on that
particular day, the sky in the fountain would be blue, or the other
way around. It definitely wasn’t a normal reflection. And every
once in a while you’d look into it and you’d see other faces
looking up at you, looking puzzled, as if they were looking into
some other fountain somewhere else and were weirded out because
they were seeing your face and not their own. Somebody must have
figured out a way to switch the reflections in two fountains, but
who did it and why, and how, and why the Dean didn’t change them
back, I have no idea.
“You have to wonder, too, if it was more than just
the reflections—if you could dive down into one pool and come up in
the other one, in this world or some other world. There’s always
been something off about those fountains. Did you know they were
here before Brakebills? They built the school to be near them, and
not the other way around. Or that’s what people say.”
Eliot snorted.
“Well that’s what people say, darling.
Anyway,” Janet went on, “the thing is, Emily started
spending a lot of time at Woof, just smoking and hanging out, and I
guess mooning over her little affair. She spent so much time there
that she started to recognize one of the faces in the fountain.
Somebody like her, who was spending a lot of time at the other
fountain, the one in the reflection. Let’s call her Doris. After a
while Emily and Doris got to noticing each other. They’d
acknowledge each other, a little wave, you know, just to be polite.
Probably Doris was a little mopey, too. They got to feeling like
kindred spirits.
“Emily and Doris worked out a way to communicate.
Again, the exact details have eluded your intrepid correspondent.
Maybe they held up signs or something. They must have had to be in
mirror writing, to make sense as reflections, or am I getting that
wrong?
“I don’t know how things worked in Woofland, where
Doris lived, maybe magic is different there. Or maybe Doris was
fucking with our Emily, maybe she was sick of hearing Emily whine
about her love life. Maybe there was something really wrong with
Doris, maybe she was something genuinely evil. But one day Doris
suggested that if Emily wanted her lover back, maybe her appearance
was the problem, and she should try changing it?”
A chill settled over the group, where they lay on
the sun-warm turf. Even Quentin knew that using magic to alter
one’s physical appearance never ended well. In the world of magical
theory it was a dead spot: something about the inextricable,
recursive connection between your face and who you were—your soul,
for lack of a better word—made it hellishly difficult and fatally
unpredictable. When Quentin had first gotten to Brakebills, he’d
wondered why everybody didn’t just make themselves ridiculously
good-looking. He’d looked at the kids with an obviously flawed
feature—like Gretchen with her leg, or Eliot with his twisted
jaw—and wondered why they didn’t get somebody to fix them up, like
Hermione with her teeth in Harry Potter. But in reality it
always ended in disaster.
“Poor Emily,” Janet said. “When she took down the
spell that Doris taught her through the fountain, she actually
thought she’d found it, the secret technique everybody else had
missed. It was elaborate and costly, but it really looked like it
might work. After a few weeks of laying the groundwork, she put it
together one night by herself in her room.
“How do you think she felt when she looked in the
mirror and saw what she’d done to herself ?” You could almost hear
a note of genuine sympathy in Janet’s hard voice. “I can’t imagine.
I really can’t.”
It was late enough in the afternoon now that the
shadows from the forest had almost stretched out from the western
edge of the Sea far enough to lap at the edge of their
blanket.
“Must have been she could still talk, because she
got word to her boy that she was in trouble, and he came to her
room, and after much preliminary whispering through the keyhole she
let him in. And we have to give our boy credit. It must have been
bad, very bad, but he stuck by her. She wouldn’t let him go to the
faculty—Dunleavy was still Dean, and she would have kicked Emily
out without thinking about it.
“So he told her to stay there, don’t move, don’t do
anything to make it worse, he would go to the library and see what
he could find.
“He came back just before dawn, thinking he had it
pretty much worked out. You can imagine the scene. They’d both been
up all night. They’re sitting cross-legged on her little bed, her
with her scrambled head, him with about eight books open around him
on the covers. He’s mixed up a few reagents in cereal bowls from
the dining hall. She’s leaning what’s left of her forehead against
the wall, trying to keep cool. The blue in the window is getting
brighter and brighter, they’ve got to take care of this soon. She’d
probably gone past panic and regret at this point. But not past
hope.
“But then think about his state of mind. In a way,
for him, it was the perfect thing to have happen. This is his
golden moment, his chance to be the hero, to save her and win her
love, or at least some pity sex. It’s his chance to be strong for
her, which is the only thing he’s ever wanted to do.
“But I don’t know, I think he’d had enough time at
this point, maybe he’d figured out what was really going on. I’m
guessing the dime had finally dropped. She’d taken a terrible
chance, and he had to know she hadn’t done it for him.
“Either way he was in no shape to be doing major
wizardry. He was tired and scared and in over his head, and I think
his heart must have been broken a little, too. Maybe he just wanted
it too badly. He launched into the repair spell, which I happen to
know which one it was, it was from the Major Arcana, Renaissance
stuff. Big energies. It got away from him in the worst possible
way. It took him over, took his body away. Right in front of her
eyes, he burned up screaming. Blue fire. He became a
niffin.”
That’s what Fogg was talking about that night in
the infirmary, Quen tin thought. About losing control. Apparently
the others knew what the word meant, niffin. They stared at
Janet like they’d been turned to stone.
“Well. Emily freaked out, I mean freaked
out. Barricaded the door, wouldn’t let anybody in until her beloved
professor himself showed up. By that point the whole school was
awake. I can only imagine how he felt, since in a way the whole
thing was his fault. He can’t have been too proud of himself. I
suppose he would have had to try to banish the niffin if it
didn’t want to leave. I don’t know if even he could have. I don’t
think those things really have an upper limit.
“Anyway, he kept his head, kept everybody else out
of the room. He put her face back, right there on the spot, which
cannot have been easy. Whatever else he was he must have been some
magician, because that spell that came through the fountain, that
was a nasty piece of work. And she probably twisted it up even more
in the casting, too. But he parsed it on the fly and made her
reasonably presentable, though I hear she’s never been quite the
way she was. Not like she’s deformed or anything, just different.
Probably if you hadn’t met her you would never know.
“And that’s pretty much it. I can’t even imagine
what they told the boy’s parents. I hear he was from a magical
family, so they probably got some version of the truth. But, you
know, the clean version.”
There was a long silence. A bell was clanging far
away, a boat on the river. The shadow from the trees had flooded
all the way over them, deliciously cool in the late-summer
afternoon.
Alice cleared her throat. “What happened to the
professor?”
“You haven’t figured it out?” Janet didn’t bother
to conceal her glee. “They gave him a choice: resign in disgrace .
. . or transfer to Antarctica. Brakebills South. Guess which one he
took.”
“Oh my God,” Josh said. “It was Mayakovsky.”
“That explains a hell of a lot,” Quentin
said.
“Doesn’t it though? Doesn’t it just?”
“So what happened to Emily Greenstreet?” Alice
asked. “She just left school?” There was a trace of ground steel in
her voice. Quentin wasn’t totally sure where it was coming from.
“What happened to her? Did they send her to a normal school?”
“I hear she does something businessy in Manhattan,”
Janet said. “They set her up with an easy corporate job, I don’t
know, management consulting or something. We own part of some big
firm. Lots of magic to cover up the fact that she doesn’t do
anything. She just sits in an office and surfs the Web all day. I
think part of her just didn’t survive what happened, you
know?”
After that even Janet stopped talking. Quentin let
himself drift among the clouds. He felt spinny from the wine, like
the Earth had come untightened and was wobbling loose on its
gimbaled base. Apparently he wasn’t the only one, because when Josh
stood up after a few minutes he immediately lost his balance and
fell over again on the turf. There was scattered applause.
But then he stood up again, steadied himself, did a
slow, deep knee bend, and executed a perfect standing backflip. He
stuck the landing and straightened up, beaming.
“It worked,” he said. “I can’t believe it. I take
back everything bad I ever said about Viking shamans! It fucking
worked!”
The spell had worked, though for some reason Josh
was the only one who got anything out of it. As they picked up the
picnic things and shook the sand out of the blanket, Josh did laps
around the field, whooping and making huge superhero leaps in the
fading light.
“I am a Viking warrior! Cower before my might!
Cower! The strength of Thor and all his mighty hosts flows through
me! And I fucked your mother! I . . . fucked . . . your . . .
motherrrrrrrrrr!”
“He’s so happy,” Eliot said dryly. “It’s like he
cooked something and it came out looking like the picture in the
cookbook.”
Eventually Josh disappeared in search of other
people to show off to, loudly singing “The Battle Hymn of the
Republic.” Janet and Eliot straggled off in the direction of the
Cottage, Alice and Quentin toward the House, sunburnt and sleepy
and still half drunk. Quentin had already made up his mind to nap
through dinner.
“He’s going to hurt somebody,” he said. “Probably
himself.”
“There’s some damage resistance built in.
Strengthening the skin and the skeleton. He could put his fist
through a wall and probably not break anything.”
“Probably. If he can, he will.”
Alice was even more quiet than usual. It wasn’t
until they were deep in the twilight alleys of the Maze that
Quentin saw that her face was slick with tears. His heart went
cold.
“Alice. Alice, sweetheart.” He stopped and turned
her to face him. “What is it?”
She pressed her face miserably into his
shoulder.
“Why did she have to tell that story?” she said.
“Why? Why is she like that?”
Quentin immediately felt guilty for having enjoyed
it. It was a horrible story. But there was something
irresistibly gothic about it, too.
“She’s just a gossip,” he said. “She doesn’t mean
anything.”
“Doesn’t she?” She pulled back, fiercely wiping her
tears with the backs of her hands. “Doesn’t she? I always thought
my brother died in a car crash.”
“Your brother?” Quentin froze. “I don’t
understand.”
“He was eight years older than me. My parents told
me he died in a car crash. But that was him, I’m sure it
was.”
“I don’t understand. You think he was that boy in
the story?”
She nodded. “I think he was. I know he was.” Her
eyes were red and rubbed with rage and hurt.
“Jesus. Look, it’s just a story. There’s no way she
could know.”
“She knows.” Alice kept walking. “It all works out,
the timing of it. And he was like that. Charlie—he was always
falling in love with people. He would have tried to save her
himself. He would have done that.” She shook her head bitterly. “He
was stupid that way.”
“Maybe she didn’t know. Maybe Janet didn’t realize
it was him.”
“That’s what she wants everybody to think! So you
won’t realize what a howling cunt she is!”
Howling was a big word at Brakebills that
year. Quentin was about to keep defending Janet when something else
clicked.
“That’s why you weren’t Invited here,” he said
quietly. “It has to be. Because of what happened to your
brother.”
She nodded, her eyes unfocused now, her relentless
brain chewing away at this wrinkle, fitting other things into the
bleak new picture it created.
“They didn’t want anything to happen to me. As if
it would. God, why is everybody else in the world but us so fucking
stupid?”
They stopped a few yards short of the edge of the
Maze, in the deep shadow that pooled where the hedges grew close
together, as if they couldn’t face the daylight again, not quite
yet.
“At least now I know,” she said. “But why did she
tell that story, Q? She knew it would hurt me. Why would she do
that?”
He shook his head. The idea of conflict within
their little clique made him uncomfortable. He wanted to explain it
away. He wanted everything to be perfect.
“She’s just bitter,” he said finally, “because
you’re the pretty one.”
Alice snorted.
“She’s bitter because we’re happy,” she said, “and
she’s in love with Eliot. Always has been. And he doesn’t love
her.”
She started walking again.
“What? Wait.” Quentin shook his head, as if that
would make all the pieces fit together again. “Why would she want
Eliot?”
“Because she can’t have him?” Alice said bitterly,
without looking back at him. “And she has to have everything? I’m
surprised she hasn’t come after you. What, you think she hasn’t
slept with Josh?”
They left the Maze and climbed the stairs to the
rear terrace, lit by the yellow light coming through the French
doors and littered with premature autumn leaves. Alice cleaned
herself up as best she could with the heels of her hands. She
didn’t wear much makeup anyway. Quentin stood by and silently
handed her tissues to blow her nose with, adrift in his own
thoughts. It never failed to astonish him, then or ever, how much
of the world around him was mysterious and hidden from view.