THIRTY-EIGHT
Over the next seven days, Tommy’s madness reached
new heights. As a rule, getting out of his face on drugs blotted
out all of the bad stuff, but the sight of James, Maria, Freddie
and Sarah playing happy families was eating away at him, like
maggots. Apart from Alfie, he had nothing. No bird, no money coming
in, no close family, Jack fucking shit. While everybody else’s
lives were so wonderfully fucking happy, all he had to thank God
for was his best mate being locked up and a poxy cocaine
addiction.
With his mood and behaviour at an all-time low, he
demanded Alfie go back to his mum’s for the time being.
‘Please, Dad, I don’t wanna live with Mum. Please
let me stay with you.’
Tommy refused and made him pack his stuff and leave
immediately. He knew he was losing his sanity and he didn’t want
his son to witness it. He hadn’t washed, shaved, or changed his
clothes for days – all he’d done was drink, smoke and snort.
With Alfie out of the way, he ordered up some
crack. He rarely smoked the pipe in front of his boy any more.
Snorting coke he could get away with, but inhaling rocks was heavy
shit. With his first lug, he shut his eyes and smiled. He felt
better now and was ready to make plans. Maria was a trappy cow and
he was determined to shut that pretty mouth of hers once and for
all.
James sat in the Harvester with Maria and the
girls. They often ate at the same restaurant, as it was Tara’s and
Lily’s favourite.
‘Can I have some more salad, Daddy?’ asked Lily,
thrusting her bowl his way.
Maria and James both burst out laughing. She was
only six years old and went through more lettuce than a fucking
rabbit. James took her hand and led her back to the salad bar. Lily
was a proper Daddy’s girl, whereas Tara was all for Maria. The
girls’ personalities were chalk and cheese. Tara was very feminine
and loved anything girly, while Lily was the complete opposite.
Unlike her sister, she took no interest in dancing, fashion and
pretty dolls, and was more into climbing trees and playing football
with the boys.
‘Is that enough for yer?’ James said, showing her
the bowl.
Studying the contents, she put her hands on her
hips. ‘You haven’t put the pink sauce on, Daddy.’
James laughed at the annoyance in her voice. His
mum had got her spot-on: ‘I’m telling yer now, James, she’s six
going on sixteen. You’ll have your hands full with her; she’s a
cowson, you mark my words,’ she told him.
Maria smiled as father and daughter returned to the
table. She loved eating out with James and the girls, and her
family life was everything that she’d dreamed it would be. James
was a great provider, a wonderful dad and she was so bloody happy
with him. They’d recently decided to try for another baby; it had
been his idea and, even though he hadn’t admitted it, she knew that
he was desperate for a boy.
‘I need to go for a pee,’ Lily announced.
Telling Tara to take her sister to the toilet,
Maria turned to James.
‘What time you off tonight?’
James sighed. ‘About ten.’
Maria said nothing, but he knew what she was
thinking. He hated leaving his family for days at a time, just as
much as Maria hated the situation. They’d spoken about his choice
of career a lot lately. The money had been fantastic over the
years, but they’d both agreed it was probably time for a
change.
‘You’re not gonna get away with it forever, James.
One of these days your luck’s gonna run out and I’ll be visiting
you in prison,’ Maria said.
He’d taken her words on board and had spoken to
Freddie about his dilemma. Surprisingly, Freddie felt exactly the
same way. ‘Sarah’s been on my case for ages – I’m so glad you said
something, I wanted to tell you I’d been having doubts, but I
didn’t know how to broach the subject.’
It had been decided that they would have a proper
chat about their future on their next trip. Both had money behind
them and if they pooled it together, they’d hopefully have enough
to set up a decent, legitimate business. With contacts in the
building trade, they’d had a vague chat about becoming property
developers. Nothing was set in stone yet, but they had some good
ideas of how to get things started.
‘I think we should get Christmas out of the way and
tell Bobby our decision in the New Year,’ James told Freddie.
Freddie hadn’t said much about the subject since,
and James knew the reason why. Telling his uncle wasn’t going to be
easy; Bobby Adams was not gonna be a happy bunny.
Over in Stepney, Maureen had problems of her own.
‘Johnny,’ she shouted as she knocked on her grandson’s bedroom
door. ‘Dinner’s ready, love. I’ve cooked you your favourite, spag
bol.’
Johnny lifted the quilt from over his head.
‘Thanks, Nan, I’ll have it later.’
Not knowing what to say to entice him out of the
room, Maureen walked away. She knew that he wouldn’t eat it later –
he’d throw it in the bin, like all the rest of the dinners he kept
pretending to eat. Not hungry herself, Maureen dished a plate up
for Ethel.
‘I’ve done you some dinner, Mum.’
Ethel looked at the tray in horror. ‘I ain’t eating
that shit, it looks like a plate of fuckin’ worms.’
Maureen put it on the sofa beside her. The old cow
would eat it in a minute, she’d put her house on it.
Face etched with worry, Maureen sat opposite her.
It was a week now since Susan’s funeral and Johnny had barely eaten
or come out of his bedroom. The job that he usually adored had gone
by the wayside as well. It was as though he’d put his whole life on
hold.
Seeing Ethel tuck into her plate of worms, Maureen
smiled for the first time in days. Ethel might be a cantankerous
old fucker, but she had a way of cheering Maureen up. As Ethel
wolfed the lot, Maureen took the empty plate away from her.
‘Nice was it? I thought you didn’t like spaghetti
bolognaise?’
Ethel eyed her with sarcasm. ‘It was fucking
rotten,’ she insisted.
Maureen got a cloth and wiped what she’d dropped
off her cardigan. ‘With a mouth as big as yours, I’m surprised you
can miss it,’ she said sarcastically.
Ethel playfully walloped her. She loved her Maureen
more than anyone in the world, and without her she’d be shunted off
to God’s waiting room. She hated them fucking homes. Poor old
souls, all sitting there in their own shit and piss, waiting to
die.
Maureen poured her a Guinness and sat down next to
her. ‘What we gonna do about Johnny, Mum? His boss keeps ringing up
and he’s gonna have to go back to work next week. He still won’t
come out of his room, I don’t know what else to do to help
him.’
Ethel knew exactly what to do. ‘Ring his fucking
father; it’s about time he stood up to his responsibilities. ’Ere,
give us that phone, I’ll ring the no-good bastard for yer.’
Maureen refused to give Ethel the phone, but
thought about her idea. Johnny needed guidance and Royston should
bloody well take responsibility for once.
She smiled at Ethel. ‘Do you know what? I think you
might be right, Mum. I’ll ring him tomorrow morning – hopefully
he’ll be at work then. I don’t wanna ring him while he’s at home
with his family; she’s a funny one that Jamaican bird he
married.’
Sipping her drink, Ethel had a smug expression
plastered across her wise old face. She might no longer be a spring
chicken, but she was always fucking right.
Tommy didn’t bother going to bed that night, he was
far too excited to be able to sleep. He looked at the clock: 5
a.m., which meant he still had three hours to kill. Opening up the
piece of foil, he chipped off another piece of rock and set it up
on top of the bottle. Setting it alight, he inhaled deeply through
the straw. As he felt the cocaine flow through his body, he lay on
the carpet and pictured Maria’s face.
Last night he’d done a bit of spying and he knew
that James had gone away. He’d borrowed his mate’s work van and had
hidden in the back of it. The windows were blacked out to stave off
thieves nicking any tools that may be inside. In other words, you
could see out, but couldn’t see in.
Tommy was on cloud nine as he watched his brother
load the sleeping bag and all the camping equipment. It was obvious
that he was going on a run and, from past experience, Tommy was
sure that James would be away for a couple of days at least.
Smiling like the Cheshire Cat, he’d clambered into
the front seat and calmly driven away. Once back home, he’d got his
thinking cap on. He wasn’t exactly sure what he was going to do to
Maria, but obviously he’d have to wait until she’d taken the kids
to school and was indoors alone. He wasn’t planning on physically
hurting her. He just wanted to frighten the living daylights out of
the foul-mouthed whore, or watch her beg in terror for a couple of
hours – that would be good enough revenge. At least then she
wouldn’t be so fucking cocky in the future. As long as he didn’t
lose his temper and mark her, she would have to keep his visit
quiet.
There was no way she’d say anything to James. How
could she? She’d be far too worried about her sordid past coming
back to haunt her.
Pouring himself another large scotch, Tommy smiled
to himself. He couldn’t wait to see the look of horror on that
pretty little face of hers. Fucking bitch. What goes around comes
around.
‘Look at the bloody state of you, Lily. What have
you been doing?’
Lily said nothing. She’d been playing outside in
the garden, but daren’t admit it, as she was banned from going out
there of a morning. Unfortunately, she had fallen into a puddle of
mud, hence her mother’s anger.
‘Go upstairs and quickly get changed. Hurry up,
else you’ll be late for school.’
Exasperated by her tomboy of a daughter, Maria
turned to Tara and smiled. ‘Do you want me to plait your hair while
we’re waiting for madam?’
‘Yes please, Mummy.’
Maria was deep in thought as she brushed her
daughter’s hair. She loved the girls equally, but wished Lily would
be more feminine, like Tara. It would save her an awful lot of
washing and ironing, as she was such a dirty little mare.
‘I’m ready, Mum.’
Looking at Lily, both Maria and Tara burst out
laughing. She’d changed her school uniform, but still looked like a
bundle of shit tied up ugly. With one sock up and one down, one
bunchie in and one out, she looked like Orphan Annie.
Maria straightened her out and cuddled her. ‘What
am I gonna do with you, eh?’
Lily shook her head. ‘I don’t really know,
Mummy.’
Maria saw the girls into the back of the four-wheel
drive and checked that their belts were on. Hearing them giggle and
chat was her favourite part of the journey. For complete opposites,
they got on extremely well together and rarely ever argued.
Glancing into her mirror, she smiled as she hit the
accelerator.
Tommy watched with interest from the back of the
van. Sneering to himself, he pulled faces as they drove past. They
couldn’t see him, obviously, with the blackened windows, but
secretly mocking them made him giggle.
Crouching down behind the two front seats, he
opened his goody bag. He’d come well prepared: he had scotch,
lager, puff and cocaine. He hadn’t brought the pipe, just the
powder. Preparing a couple of lines, he did them and took a swig
from the whisky bottle. She’d be back soon, the slag, and then the
party could really start.
Maria had her own little routine of a morning and,
after dropping the girls off, would regularly head off to her local
gym to participate in a class or two. Today she’d done body combat
and, having sweated like a pig for the past hour, she couldn’t wait
to get home and have a nice soak in the bath.
Usually, she had a coffee and a chinwag at the gym,
but today she was in a rush, as she’d invited her newfound friends
over for lunch.
Last week she’d had lunch at Lavinia’s beautiful
home. Now it was time to return the offer and she was determined to
get it right. She’d always hated cooking and wasn’t very good at it
but, determined to impress, she’d bought a recipe book. She didn’t
want to attempt anything too difficult, and with James’s input and
advice, she’d decided on garlic mussels for starters, salade
Niçoise for main and fresh fruit salad for dessert. Desperate to
get things spot-on, she’d spent ages choosing the wine.
‘How fucking much?’ James joked as he footed the
bill.
She laughed. These women served up the finest of
everything in their houses and she was determined to follow in
their footsteps. She may not have been brought up in or around
class, but it was never too late to learn. As her mother always
said, ‘When in Rome, do as the Romans do.’
Pulling up on her drive, Maria grabbed her bag and
ran up the path. Her guests were due to arrive in less than two
hours and she needed to get her arse in gear.
As Tommy watched her go into the house, he noticed
that he was sweating with nerves. He knew what the problem was: too
much coke always made him feel paranoid and, as usual, he’d
overdone it.
Rolling a joint, he lit it and knocked back the
scotch. He needed to bring himself down before he did anything. Two
joints and half a litre later, he felt the coke wear off and the
paranoia leave his body. Checking that nobody was about, he crept
out of the van.
He walked up the path and rang the doorbell. There
was no answer, so he rang it again.
‘Who is it?’ he heard the bitch shout.
Smiling, he said nothing.
‘Is that you, girls?’ he heard her say.
‘Yes,’ he said imitating a girlie voice.
‘Hang on a sec, I’m just getting out of the
bath.’
Tommy couldn’t believe his luck. He’d sounded like
the big bad wolf in ‘Little Red Riding Hood’, and the silly tart
was probably half naked as well.
As her footsteps moved nearer, his heart began to
beat faster. When she opened the door, he smiled at the look of
horror on her face.
Barging his way in, he kicked the door shut and put
his hand over her mouth to stop her screaming.
‘Surprise, surprise, you fuckin’ slag.’