14
The next day I found my car with four slashed
tyres and a deep scratch – the work of a knife or a screwdriver –
running the whole length of the body.
Rather than anger at the damage, I felt humiliated.
I found myself reflecting on what it is like for someone to come
home and find the place turned upside down by burglars. Next I
thought of all the petty thieves I had defended and got off.
Lastly, it occurred to me that my brain was turning
to pulp and I was becoming pathetic. So, luckily, I dropped moral
speculation and made an attempt to be practical.
I called up a client of mine who had a certain
reputation in criminal circles in Bari and the surrounding
province. He came to the office and I told him the story, including
the street-fight. I said I didn’t want to go to the police or the
carabinieri, but I would if these people forced my hand. In my
opinion we were even. I would pay for the damage to the car and
they, whoever they were, could nurse their bruises and leave me to
get on with my work in peace.
My client said I was right. He also said that they
really ought to pay to repair my car and provide new tyres. I said
that I’d get the car done up and I didn’t want new tyres.
It had occurred to me that neither did I want a
summons for receiving stolen goods, seeing that they
certainly wouldn’t have gone and bought them from an authorized
dealer. But this I didn’t say.
All I wanted was for everyone to stay put and not
go making trouble for anyone else. He didn’t push the point, and
gave me a nod signifying respect. A different kind of respect from
that usually paid to a lawyer.
He said he’d let me know within two days.
He was as good as his word. He came back to the
office two days later and mentioned a name that carried weight in
certain circles. That person sent word offering his apologies for
what had happened. It had been an accident – two accidents in fact,
thought I, but let’s not split hairs – that would not be repeated.
He, however, was at my disposal should I need anything.
The story finished there.
Apart from the two million lire I had to fork out
to put the car in order.
A few days later I discovered the identity of the
new tenant in our building. Or rather, the tenantess.
About half-past nine in the evening I had just come
back from the gym and was about to thaw two chicken breasts, grill
them and prepare a salad, when the bell rang.
I spent a few seconds wondering what had happened.
Then it registered that it must be my own doorbell, and while on my
way to answer it I realized that this must be the first time anyone
had rung it since I’d been living here. I felt a pang of
melancholy, then I opened the door.
At last she’d found someone in. It was the fourth
time she’d tried my door but there was never any answer. Did I
really live alone? She was the new tenant, on the seventh floor.
She had introduced herself to all
the other tenants in the building, I was the last. Her name was
Margherita. Margherita, and I didn’t catch the surname.
She gave me her hand across the invisible frontier
of the doorway. It was a fine, masculine hand, large and
strong.
Certain women – and especially certain men – give
you a strong handshake but you realize at once that it’s for show.
They want to make themselves out to be decisive, no-nonsense
people, but the strength is only in the hand and arm. What I mean
is, it doesn’t come from inside. Some people can actually crush
your hand, but it’s as if they were doing body-building.
There are others, if only a few, who when they
shake your hand tell you that there’s something behind the muscles.
I held Margherita’s hand for maybe a second or two more than
necessary but she went on smiling.
Then I asked her awkwardly if she’d care to come
in. No, thank you, she had just stopped by to introduce herself.
She was actually on her way home after being out the whole day. She
had a mass of things to do, what with having just moved in. When
things were more organized, she’d ask me up for a cup of tea.
She had a good smell about her. A mixture of fresh
air, dry and clean, a masculine, leathery smell.
“Don’t be sad,” she said as she made for the
staircase.
Just like that.
When she was already out of sight I realized that I
had never really looked at her. I went back inside, half closed my
eyes and tried to reproduce her face in my mind. I couldn’t do it.
I wasn’t sure I’d recognize her if I saw her in the street.
In the kitchen the chicken breasts had thawed in
the microwave. But I no longer felt like having them
simply grilled, so I got out a recipe book I kept in the kitchen
but had never used.
Tasty chicken rissoles. That sounded just the job.
At least, the name did. I read the recipe and was glad to see I had
all the ingredients.
Before starting I opened a bottle of Salice
Salentino, tasted it, and then looked for a CD to listen to while I
was cooking.
White Ladder.
The syncopated rhythm of “Please Forgive Me”
started and then, almost at once, came the voice of David Gray. I
stayed near the speakers to listen until it got to the part of the
song I liked best.
I won’t ever have to lie
I won’t ever have to say goodbye ...
Every time I look at you
Every time I look at you.
I won’t ever have to say goodbye ...
Every time I look at you
Every time I look at you.
Then I went back to the kitchen and got down to
work.
I boiled the chicken and minced it, along with a
couple of ounces of cooked ham that had been in the fridge for some
days. Then I put the meat into a bowl together with an egg, some
grated Parmesan, nutmeg, salt and black pepper. I stirred the
mixture with a wooden spoon before kneading it with my hands,
having added some breadcrumbs. I shaped the mixture into rissoles
the size of an egg, then dipped them into beaten egg to which I’d
added salt and a little wine, then rolled them in breadcrumbs to
which I’d added another pinch of nutmeg, and finally sizzled them
in olive oil over a moderate flame.
I drained the rissoles – which smelled delicious –
on kitchen paper and prepared a salad with balsamic
vinegar dressing. I laid the table with a cloth, real plates, real
cutlery, and before sitting down to eat I went and changed the
CD.
Simon and Garfunkel. The Concert in Central
Park.
I pushed “skip” until number 16 came up. “The
Boxer.”
I stood and listened to it until the last verse. My
favourite.
In the clearing stands a boxer
And a fighter by his trade
And he carries the reminders
Of every glove that laid him down
Or cut him, till he cried out
In his anger and his shame
I’m leaving, I am leaving
But the fighter still remains ...
And a fighter by his trade
And he carries the reminders
Of every glove that laid him down
Or cut him, till he cried out
In his anger and his shame
I’m leaving, I am leaving
But the fighter still remains ...
Then I turned off the CD player and went to
eat.
The rissoles were excellent. So was the salad,
while the wine had a bouquet and reflections danced in the
glass.
I wasn’t sad that evening.