17
“That was a lovely film this evening. What are the
actors’ names again?”
“Harry is Billy Crystal. Sally, Meg Ryan.”
“Wait, how did it go ... the bit with the dream
about the Olympics?”
“ ‘Had my dream again where I’m making love, and
the Olympic judges are watching. I’d nailed the compulsories, so
this is it, the finals. I got a 9.8 from the Canadians, a perfect
10 from the Americans, and my mother, disguised as an East German
judge, gave me 5.6.’ ”
She bursts out laughing. How I love her laugh, I
thought.
A person’s laugh is important because you can’t
cheat. To know if someone is genuine or fake, the only sure way is
to watch – and listen to – his laugh. People who are really
worthwhile are the ones who know how to laugh.
She made me jump by touching my arm.
“Tell me your three favourite films.”
“Chariots of Fire, Big Wednesday,
Picnic at Hanging Rock.”
“You’re the first who’s ever answered like that ...
quickly. Without thinking.”
“This favourite film game is one I often play
myself. So you might say I was ready for it. What are yours?”
“Number one is Blade Runner. No doubt about
it.”
“ ‘I’ve seen things you people wouldn’t believe.
Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion. I
watched C-beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhauser gate. And
all those moments will be lost in time, like tears in rain. Time –
to – die.’ ”
“Well done. It’s said just like that. ‘Time – to –
die.’ With the words spaced out. And then he releases the
dove.”
I nodded and she went on talking.
“I’ll tell you the other films. American
Graffiti and Manhattan. Tomorrow perhaps I’ll tell you a
couple of others – Blade Runner is a fixture – but that’s
them for today. I’ve often said Metropolis, for
example.”
“Why these for today?”
“I don’t know. Come on, shall we go on
playing?”
“All right. Let’s try this game. An
extraterrestrial arrives on our planet and you have to give him an
example of what’s best on earth, so as to persuade him to stay. You
must offer him an object, a book, a song, a quote or, well there’d
also be films but we’ve already done those.”
“Good idea. I already know the quotation. It’s
Malraux: ‘The homeland of a man who can choose is where the biggest
clouds gather.’ ”
We remained for a moment in silence. When she was
on the point of speaking, I interrupted her.
“You must do me a favour. Will you?”
“Yes. What is it?”
“If you fall madly in love with me, I’d like you to
tell me at once. Don’t trust me to know instinctively. Please. Is
that all right with you?”
“Fair enough. Does the same hold good for
me?”
“Yes, it does. And now tell me the other things for
the Martian.”
“The book is The Catcher in the Rye. I’m
pretty doubtful about the song. ‘Because the Night’ by Patti Smith.
Or else ‘Suzanne’ by Leonard Cohen. Or ‘Ain’t No Cure
for Love’, by Cohen again. I don’t know. One of those.
Perhaps.”
“And the object?”
“A bicycle. Now tell me yours.”
“The quote is really a quick exchange. From On
the Road. It goes like this: ‘We gotta go and never stop going
till we get there.’ The reply: ‘Where we going, man?’ ‘I don’t know
but we gotta go.’ ”
“The book?”
“You’re sure not to know it. It’s The Foreign
Student, by a French writer—”
“I’ve read it. It’s the one about a young Frenchman
who goes to study in an American college in the 50s.”
“Nobody knows that book. You’re the first. What a
coincidence.”
Her eyes flashed for a moment in the darkness of
the car, like little knife blades.
We were parked on the cliffs, almost sheer above
the sea at Polignano. Outside it was February and very cold.
Not inside the car though. Inside the car, that
night, we seemed to be sheltered from everything.
“I’m glad I came out with you this evening. At the
last moment I was about to call you and say I wasn’t feeling up to
it. Then I thought you must have already left home and that anyway
it would be bad-mannered. So I said to myself: we’ll go to the
cinema and then I’ll ask him to take me home and I’ll get an early
night.”
“Why didn’t you want to go out?”
“I don’t want to talk about it now. I only wanted
to tell you I’m glad I came. And I’m glad I didn’t ask you to take
me home right after the cinema. Let’s play some more. I like it.
Tell me the song and the object.”
“The object is a fountain pen. The song is ‘Pezzi
di vetro.’ ”
“Can I say something about the book?”
“What is it?”
“I’m no longer sure about The Catcher in the
Rye.”
“You want to change?”
“Yes, I think so. The Little Prince. It
seems more appropriate, maybe. What does the fox say to the little
prince when he wants to be tamed?”
“ ‘The wheat fields have nothing to say to me. And
that is sad. But you have hair that is the colour of gold. Think
how wonderful that will be when you have tamed me! The grain, which
is also golden, will bring me back the thought of you. And I shall
love to listen to the wind in the wheat ...’ ”
She turned and looked at me. In her eyes was a
childlike wonder. She was very beautiful. “How do you manage to
remember everything by heart?”
“I don’t know. It’s always been like that. If I
like something, I only have to read it or hear it once and it
sticks in my mind. But The Little Prince I’ve read lots of
times. So it’s not really fair.”
“What do you think is the most important quality in
a person?”
“A sense of humour. If you have a sense of humour –
not irony or sarcasm, which are different things entirely – then
you don’t take yourself seriously. So you can’t be catty, you can’t
be stupid and you can’t be vulgar. If you think about it, it covers
almost everything. Do you know any people who have a sense of
humour?”
“Very few. On the other hand, I’ve met a lot of
them – men especially – who take themselves a hell of a lot too
seriously.”
She had a moment of hesitation, then added: “My
boyfriend is one of them.”
“What does your boyfriend do?”
“He’s an engineer.”
“Pompous person?”
“No. He can make you laugh, he’s nice. What I mean
is, he’s intelligent, he makes funny remarks and so on. But he can
only joke about other people. About himself he’s always
tremendously serious. No, he hasn’t got a sense of humour.”
Another pause, then she went on, “I’d like it if
you had a sense of humour.”
“I’d like to have one too. To tell the truth, in
view of what you’ve just said, I’d sell my mother and father to the
cannibals just to have one. Without taking myself seriously, of
course.”
She laughed again and we went on chatting like
that, in the car that protected us from the wind and the world. For
hours.
It was past four in the morning before we realized
that we ought to get back.
When we arrived outside her place, in the centre of
town, the sky was already beginning to lighten.
“If tomorrow you think you still want to come out
with me, phone me. If you call, I’ll give you a book.”
Sara took my chin between finger and thumb and gave
me a kiss on the lips. Then, without a word, she got out of the
car. A few seconds later she had disappeared through a shiny wooden
door.
I gave myself a couple of light punches in the
face, on one side and the other. Then I started up the car and
drove away, music playing full blast.
Ten years later there I was alone in my empty
office, with my memories and their heart-rending melody.
It was a long time since I’d been able to memorize
songs, passages in books or parts of films just by hearing or
reading them once.
Among the many things gone down the drain there was
also that.
So I had to go home at once, hoping that among the
books I had brought away with me I would find The Little
Prince. Because at that hour there were no bookshops open and I
was in a hurry, I couldn’t wait till the next morning.
It was there. I turned to near the end, where the
little prince is about to be bitten by the snake and is saying
farewell to his airman friend.
“In one of the stars I shall be living. In one
of them I shall be laughing. And so it will be as if all the stars
were laughing, when you look at the sky at night ... You – only you
– will have stars that can laugh!” ...
“And when your sorrow is comforted (time soothes
all sorrows) you will be content that you have known me. You will
always be my friend. You will want to laugh with me. And you will
sometimes open your window, so, for that pleasure ... And your
friends will be properly astonished to see you laughing as you look
up at the sky! Then you will say to them ‘Yes the stars always make
me laugh!’ And they will think you are crazy.”