CHAPTER LI
Mrs. Dobbs Broughton Piles her Fagots
The picture still progressed up in Mrs. Dobbs
Broughton’s room, and the secret was still kept, or supposed to be
kept. Miss Van Siever was, at any rate, certain that her mother had
heard nothing of it, and Mrs. Broughton reported from day to day
that her husband had not as yet interfered. Nevertheless, there was
in these days a great gloom upon the Dobbs Broughton household, so
much so that Conway Dalrymple had more than once suggested to Mrs.
Broughton that the work should be discontinued. But the mistress of
the house would not consent to this. In answer to these offers, she
was wont to declare in somewhat mysterious language, that any
misery coming upon herself was a matter of moment to nobody—hardly
even to herself, as she was quite prepared to encounter moral and
social death without delay, if not an absolute physical demise; as
to which latter alternative, she seemed to think that even that
might not be so far distant as some people chose to believe. What
was the cause of the gloom over the house neither Conway Dalrymple
nor Miss Van Siever understood, and to speak the truth Mrs.
Broughton did not quite understand the cause herself. She knew well
enough, no doubt, that her husband came home always sullen, and
sometimes tipsy, and that things were not going well in the City.
She had never understood much about the City, being satisfied with
an assurance that had come to her in the early days from her
friends, that there was a mine of wealth in Hook Court, from whence
would always come for her use, house and furniture, a carriage and
horses, dresses and jewels, which latter, if not quite real, should
be manufactured of the best sham substitute known. Soon after her
brilliant marriage with Mr. Dobbs Broughton, she had discovered
that the carriage and horses, and the sham jewels, did not lift her
so completely into a terrestrial paradise as she had taught herself
to expect that they would do. Her brilliant drawing-room, with
Dobbs Broughton for a companion, was not an elysium. But though she
had found out early in her married life that something was still
wanting to her, she had by no means confessed to herself that the
carriage and horses and sham jewels were bad, and it can hardly be
said that she had repented. She had endeavoured to patch up matters
with a little romance, and then had fallen upon Conway
Dalrymple—meaning no harm. Indeed, love with her, as it never could
have meant much good, was not likely to mean much harm. That
somebody should pretend to love her, to which pretence she might
reply by a pretence of friendship—this was the little excitement
which she craved, and by which she had once flattered herself that
something of an elysium might yet be created for her. Mr. Dobbs
Broughton had unreasonably expressed a dislike to this innocent
amusement—very unreasonably, knowing, as he ought to have known,
that he himself did so very little towards providing the necessary
elysium by any qualities of his own. For a few weeks this
interference from her husband had enhanced the amusement, giving an
additional excitement to the game. She felt herself to be a woman
misunderstood and ill-used; and to some women there is nothing so
charming as a little mild ill-usage, which does not interfere with
their creature comforts, with their clothes, or their carriage, or
their sham jewels; but suffices to afford them the indulgence of a
grievance. Of late, however, Mr. Dobbs Broughton had become a
little too rough in his language, and things had gone
uncomfortably. She suspected that Conway Dalrymple was not the only
cause of all this. She had an idea that Mr. Musselboro and Mrs. Van
Siever had it in their power to make themselves unpleasant, and
that they were exercising this power. Of his business in the City
her husband never spoke to her, nor she to him. Her own fortune had
been very small, some couple of thousand pounds or so, and she
conceived that she had no pretext on which she could, unasked,
interrogate him about his money. She had no knowledge that marriage
of itself had given her the right to such interference; and had
such knowledge been hers she would have had no desire to interfere.
She hoped that the carriage and sham jewels would be continued to
her; but she did not know how to frame any question on the subject.
Touching the other difficulty—the Conway Dalrymple difficulty—she
had her ideas. The tenderness of her friendship had been trodden
upon by and outraged by the rough foot of an overbearing husband,
and she was ill-used. She would obey. It was becoming to her as a
wife that she should submit. She would give up Conway Dalrymple,
and would induce him—in spite of his violent attachment to
herself—to take a wife. She herself would choose a wife for him.
She herself would, with suicidal hands, destroy the romance of her
own life, since an overbearing, brutal husband demanded that it
should be destroyed. She would sacrifice her own feelings, and do
all in her power to bring Conway Dalrymple and Clara Van Siever
together. If, after that, some poet did not immortalise her
friendship in Byronic verse, she certainly would not get her due.
Perhaps Conway Dalrymple would himself become a poet in order that
this might be done properly. For it must be understood that, though
she expected Conway Dalrymple to marry, she expected also that he
should be Byronically wretched after his marriage on account of his
love for herself.
But there was certainly something wrong over
and beyond the Dalrymple difficulty. The servants were not as civil
as they used to be, and her husband, when she suggested to him a
little dinner-party, snubbed her most unmercifully. The giving of
dinner-parties had been his glory, and she had made the suggestion
simply with the view of pleasing him. “If the world were going
round the wrong way, a woman would still want a party,” he had
said, sneering at her. “It was of you I was thinking, Dobbs,” she
replied; “not of myself. I care little for such gatherings.” After
that she retired to her own room with a romantic tear in each eye,
and told herself that, had chance thrown Conway Dalrymple into her
way before she had seen Dobbs Broughton, she would have been the
happiest woman in the world. She sat for a while looking into
vacancy, and thinking that it would be very nice to break her
heart. How should she set about it? Should she take to her bed and
grow thin? She would begin by eating no dinner for ever so may days
together. At lunch her husband was never present, and therefore the
broken heart could be displayed at dinner without much positive
suffering. In the meantime she would implore Conway Dalrymple to
get himself married with as little delay as possible, and she would
lay upon him her positive order to restrain himself from any word
of affection addressed to herself. She, at any rate, would be pure,
high-minded, and self-sacrificing—although romantic and poetic
also, as was her nature.
The picture was progressing, and so also, as
it had come about, was the love-affair between the artist and his
model. Conway Dalrymple had begun to think that he might, after
all, do worse than make Clara Van Siever his wife. Clara Van Siever
was handsome, and undoubtedly clever, and Clara Van Siever’s mother
was certainly rich. And, in addition to this, the young lady
herself began to like the man into whose society she was thrown.
The affair seemed to flourish, and Mrs. Dobbs Broughton should have
been delighted. She told Clara, with a very serious air, that she
was delighted, bidding Clara, at the same time, to be very
cautious, as men were so fickle, and as Conway Dalrymple, though
the best fellow in the world, was not, perhaps, altogether free
from that common vice of men. Indeed, it might have been surmised,
from a word or two which Mrs. Broughton allowed to escape, that she
considered poor Conway to be more than ordinarily afflicted in that
way. Miss Van Siever at first only pouted, and said that there was
nothing in it. “There is something in it, my dear, certainly,” said
Mrs. Dobbs Broughton; “and there can be no earthly reason why there
should not be a great deal in it.” “There is nothing in it,” said
Miss Van Siever, impetuously; “and if you will continue to speak of
Mr. Dalrymple in that way, I must give up the picture.” “As for
that,” said Mrs. Broughton, “I conceive that we are both of us
bound to the young man now, seeing that he has given so much time
to the work.” “I am not bound to him at all,” said Miss Van
Siever.
Mrs. Broughton also told Conway Dalrymple
that she was delighted—oh, so much delighted! He had obtained
permission to come in one morning before the time of sitting, so
that he might work at his canvas independently of his model. As was
his custom, he made his own way upstairs and commenced his work
alone—having been expressly told by Mrs. Broughton that she would
not come to him till she brought Clara with her. But she did go up
to the room in which the artist was painting, without waiting for
Miss Van Siever. Indeed, she was at this time so anxious as to the
future welfare of her two young friends that she could not restrain
herself from speaking either to the one or to the other, whenever
any opportunity for such speech came round. To have left Conway
Dalrymple at work upstairs without going to him was impossible to
her. So she went, and then took the opportunity of expressing to
her friend her ideas as to his past and future conduct.
“Yes, it is very good; very good, indeed,”
she said, standing before the easel, and looking at the
half-completed work. “I do not know that you ever did anything
better.”
“I never can tell myself till a picture is
finished whether it is going to be good or not,” said Dalrymple,
thinking really of his picture and of nothing else.
“I am sure this will be good,” she said, “and
I suppose it is because you have thrown so much heart into it. It
is not mere industry that will produce good work, nor yet skill,
nor even genius; more than this is required. The heart of the
artist must be thrust with all its gushing tides into the
performance.” By this time he knew all the tones of her voice and
their various meanings, and immediately became aware that at the
present moment she was intent upon something beyond the picture.
She was preparing for a little scene, and was going to give him
some advice. He understood it all, but as he was really desirous of
working at his canvas, and was rather averse to having a scene at
the moment, he made a little attempt to disconcert her. “It is the
heart that gives success,” she said, while he was considering how
he might best put an extinguisher upon her romance for the
occasion.
“Not at all, Mrs. Broughton; success depends
on elbow-grease.”
“On what, Conway?”
“On elbow-grease—hard work, that is—and I
must work hard now if I mean to take advantage of to-day’s sitting.
The truth is, I don’t give enough hours of work to it.” And he
leaned upon his stick, and daubed away briskly at the background,
and then stood for a moment looking at his canvas with his head a
little on one side, as though he could not withdraw his attention
for a moment from the thing he was doing.
“You mean to say, Conway, that you would
rather that I should not speak to you.”
“Oh, no, Mrs. Broughton, I did not mean that
at all.”
“I won’t interrupt you at your work. What I
have to say is perhaps of no great moment. Indeed, words between
you and me never can have much importance now. Can they,
Conway?”
“I don’t see that at all,” said he, still
working away with his brush.
“Do you not? I do. They should never amount
to more—they can never amount to more than the common ordinary
courtesies of life; what I call the greetings and good-byings of
conversation.” She said this in a low, melancholy tone of voice,
not intending to be in any degree jocose. “How seldom is it that
conversation between ordinary friends goes beyond that.”
“Don’t you think it does?” said Conway,
stepping back and taking another look at his picture. “I find
myself talking to all manner of people about all manner of
things.”
“You are different from me. I cannot talk to
all manner of people.”
“Politics, you know, and art, and a little
scandal, and the wars, with a dozen other things, make talking easy
enough, I think. I grant you this, that it is very often a great
bore. Hardly a day passes that I don’t wish to cut out somebody’s
tongue.”
“Do you wish to cut out my tongue,
Conway?”
He began to perceive that she was determined
to talk about herself, and that there was no remedy. He dreaded it,
not because he did not like the woman, but from a conviction that
she was going to make some comparison between herself and Clara Van
Siever. In his ordinary humour he liked a little pretence at
romance, and was rather good at that sort of love-making which in
truth means anything but love. But just now he was really thinking
of matrimony, and had on this very morning acknowledged to himself
that he had become sufficiently attached to Clara Van Siever to
justify him in asking her to be his wife. In his present mood he
was not anxious for one of those tilts with blunted swords and
half-severed lances in the lists of Cupid of which Mrs. Dobbs
Broughton was so fond. Nevertheless, if she insisted that he should
now descend into the arena and go through the paraphernalia of a
mock tournament, he must obey her. It is the hardship of men that
when called upon by women for romance, they are bound to be
romantic, whether the opportunity serves them or not. A man must
produce romance, or at least submit to it, when duly summoned, even
though he should have a sore throat or a headache. He is a brute if
he decline such an encounter—and feels that, should he so decline
persistently, he will ever after be treated as a brute. There are
many Potiphar’s wives who never dream of any mischief, and Josephs
who are very anxious to escape, though they are asked to return
only whisper for whisper. Mrs. Dobbs Broughton had asked him
whether he wished that her tongue should be cut out, and he had of
course replied that her words had always been a joy to him—never a
trouble. It occurred to him as he made his little speech that it
would only have served her right if he had answered her quite in
another strain; but she was a woman, and was young and pretty, and
was entitled to flattery. “They have always been a joy to me,” he
said, repeating his last words as he strove to continue his
work.
“A deadly joy,” she replied, not quite
knowing what she herself meant. “A deadly joy, Conway. I wish with
all my heart that we had never known each other.”
“I do not. I will never wish away the
happiness of my life, even should it be followed by misery.”
“You are a man, and if trouble comes upon
you, you can bear it on your own shoulders. A woman suffers more,
just because another’s shoulders may have to bear the
burden.”
“When she has got a husband, you mean?”
“Yes—when she has a husband.”
“It’s the same with a man when he has a
wife.” Hitherto the conversation had had so much of milk-and-water
in its composition that Dalrymple found himself able to keep it up
and go on with his background at the same time. If she could only
be kept in the same dim cloud of sentiment, if the hot rays of the
sun of romance could be kept from breaking through the mist till
Miss Van Siever should come, it might still be well. He had known
her to wander about within the clouds for an hour together, without
being able to find her way into the light. “It’s all the same with
a man when he has got a wife,” he said. “Of course one has to
suffer for two, when one, so to say, is two.”
“And what happens when one has to suffer for
three?” she asked.
“You mean when a woman has children?”
“I mean nothing of the kind, Conway; and you
must know that I do not, unless your feelings are indeed blunted.
But worldly success has, I suppose, blunted them.”
“I rather fancy not,” he said. “I think they
are pretty nearly as sharp as ever.”
“I know mine are. Oh, how I wish I could rid
myself of them! But it cannot be done. Age will not blunt them—I am
sure of that,” said Mrs. Broughton. “I wish it would.”
He had determined not to talk about herself
if the subject could be in any way avoided; but now he felt that he
was driven up into a corner—now he was forced to speak to her of
her own personality. “You have no experience yet as to that. How
can you say what age will do?”
“Age does not go by years,” said Mrs. Dobbs
Broughton. “We all know that. ‘His hair was grey, but not with
years.’ Look here, Conway,” and she moved back her tresses from off
her temples to show him that there were grey hairs behind. He did
not see them; and had they been very visible she might not perhaps
have been so ready to exhibit them. “No one can say that length of
years has blanched them. I have no secrets from you about my age.
One should not be grey before one has reached thirty.”
“I did not see a changed hair.”
“‘Twas the fault of your eyes, then, for
there are plenty of them. And what is it has made them grey?”
“They say hot rooms will do it.”
“Hot rooms! No, Conway, it does not come from
heated atmosphere. It comes from a cold heart, a chilled heart, a
frozen heart, a heart that is all ice.” She was getting out of the
cloud into the heat now, and he could only hope that Miss Van
Siever would come soon. “The world is beginning with you, Conway,
and you are as old as I am. It is ending with me, and yet I am as
young as you are. But I do not know why I talk of all this. It is
simply folly—utter folly. I had not meant to speak of myself; but I
did wish to say a few words to you of your own future. I suppose I
may still speak to you as a friend?”
“I hope you will always do that.”
“Nay—I will make no such promise. That I will
always have a friend’s feeling for you, a friend’s interest in your
welfare, a friend’s triumph in your success—that I will promise.
But friendly words, Conway, are sometimes misunderstood.”
“Never by me,” said he.
“No, not by you—certainly not by you. I did
not mean that. I did not expect that you should misinterpret them.”
Then she laughed hysterically—a little low, gurgling, hysterical
laugh; and after that she wiped her eyes, and then she smiled, and
then she put her hand very gently upon his shoulder. “Thank God,
Conway, we are quite safe there—are we not?”
He had made a blunder, and it was necessary
that he should correct it. His watch was lying in the trough of his
easel, and he looked at it and wondered why Miss Van Siever was not
there. He had tripped, and he must make a little struggle and
recover his step. “As I said before, it shall never be
misunderstood by me. I have never been vain enough to suppose for a
moment that there was any other feeling—not for a moment. You women
can be so careful, while we men are always off our guard! A man
loves because he cannot help it; but a woman has been careful, and
answers him—with friendship. Perhaps I am wrong to say that I never
thought of winning anything more; but I never think of winning more
now.” Why the mischief didn’t Miss Van Siever come! In another five
minutes, despite himself, he would be on his knees, making a mock
declaration, and she would be pouring forth the vial of her mock
wrath, or giving him mock counsel as to the restraint of his
passion. He had gone through it all before, and was tired of it;
but for his life he did not know how to help himself.
“Conway,” said she, gravely, “how dare you
address me in such language.”
“Of course it is very wrong; I know
that.”
“I’m not speaking of myself now. I have
learned to think so little of myself, as even to be indifferent to
the feeling of the injury you are doing me. My life is a blank, and
I almost think that nothing can hurt me further. I have not heart
left enough to break; no, not enough to be broken. It is not of
myself that I am thinking, when I ask you how you dare to address
my in such language. Do you not know that it is an injury to
another?”
“To what other?” asked Conway Dalrymple,
whose mind was becoming rather confused, and who was not quite sure
whether the other one was Mr. Dobbs Broughton, or somebody
else.
“To that poor girl who is coming here now,
who is devoted to you, and to whom, I do not doubt, you have
uttered words which ought to have made it impossible for you to
speak to me as you spoke not a moment since.”
Things were becoming very grave and
difficult. They would have been very grave, indeed, had not some
god saved him by sending Miss Van Siever to his rescue at this
moment. He was beginning to think what he would say in answer to
the accusation now made, when his eager ear caught the sound of her
step upon the stairs; and before the pause in the conversation
which the circumstances admitted had given place to the necessity
for further speech, Miss Van Siever had knocked at the door and had
entered the room. He was rejoiced, and I think that Mrs. Broughton
did not regret the interference. It is always well that these
little dangerous scenes should be brought to sudden ends. The last
details of such romances, if drawn out to their natural
conclusions, are apt to be uncomfortable, if not dull. She did not
want him to go down on his knees, knowing that the getting up again
is always awkward.
“Clara, I began to think you were never
coming,” said Mrs. Broughton, with her sweetest smile.
“I began to think so myself also,” said
Clara. “And I believe this must be the last sitting, or, at any
rate, the last but one.”
“Is anything the matter at home?” said Mrs.
Broughton, clasping her hands together.
“Nothing very much; mamma asked me a question
or two this morning, and I said I was coming here. Had she asked me
why, I should have told her.”
“But what did she ask? What did she
say?”
“She does not always make herself very
intelligible. She complains without telling you what she complains
of. But she muttered something about artists which was not
complimentary, and I suppose therefore that she has a suspicion.
She stayed ever so late this morning, and we left the house
together. She will ask some direct question to-night, or before
long, and then there will be an end of it.”
“Let us make the best of our time, then,”
said Dalrymple; and the sitting was arranged; Miss Van Siever went
down on her knees with her hammer in her hand, and the work began.
Mrs. Broughton had twisted a turban round Clara’s head, as she
always did on these occasions, and assisted to arrange the drapery.
She used to tell herself as she did so, that she was like Isaac,
piling the fagots for her own sacrifice. Only Isaac had piled them
in ignorance, and she piled them conscious of the sacrificial
flames. And Isaac had been saved; whereas it was impossible that
the catching of any ram in any thicket could save her. But,
nevertheless, she arranged the drapery with all her skill, piling
the fagots ever so high for her own pyre. In the meantime Conway
Dalrymple painted away, thinking more of his picture than he did of
one woman or of the other.
After a while when Mrs. Broughton had piled
the fagots as high as she could pile them, she got up from her seat
and prepared to leave the room. Much of the piling consisted, of
course, in her own absence during a portion of these sittings.
“Conway,” she said, as she went, “if this is to be the last
sitting, or the last but one, you should make the most of it.” Then
she threw upon him a very peculiar glance over the head of the
kneeling Jael, and withdrew. Jael, who in those moments would be
thinking more of the fatigue of her position than of anything else,
did not at all take home to herself the peculiar meaning of her
friend’s words. Conway Dalrymple understood them thoroughly, and
thought that he might as well take the advice given to him. He had
made up his mind to propose to Miss Van Siever, and why should he
not do so now? He went on with his brush for a couple of minutes
without saying a word, working as well as he could work, and then
resolved that he would at once begin the other task. “Miss Van
Siever,” he said, “I am afraid you are tired?”
“Not more than usually tired. It is fatiguing
to be slaying Sisera by the hour together. I do get to hate this
block.” The block was the dummy by which the form of Sisera was
supposed to be typified.
“Another sitting will about finish it,” said
he, “so that you need not positively distress yourself now. Will
you rest yourself for a minute or two?” He had already perceived
that the attitude in which Clara was posed before him was not one
in which an offer of marriage could be received and replied to with
advantage.
“Thank you, I am not tired yet,” said Clara,
not changing the fixed glance of national wrath with which she
regarded her wooden Sisera as she held her hammer on high.
“But I am. There; we will rest for a moment.”
Dalrymple was aware that Mrs. Dobbs Broughton, though she was very
assiduous in piling her fagots, never piled them for long together.
If he did not make haste she would be back upon them before he
could get his word spoken. When he put down his brush, and got up
from his chair, and stretched out his arm as a man does when he
ceases for a moment from his work, Clara of course got up also, and
seated herself. She was used to her turban and her drapery, and
therefore thought not of it at all; and he also was used to it,
seeing her in it two or three times a week; but now that he
intended to accomplish a special purpose, the turban and the
drapery seemed to be in the way. “I do so hope you will like the
picture,” he said, as he was thinking of this.
“I don’t think I shall. But you will
understand that it is natural that a girl should not like herself
in such a portraiture as that.”
“I don’t know why. I can understand that you
specially should not like the picture; but I think that most women
in London in your place would at any rate say that they did.”
“Are you angry with me?”
“What; for telling the truth? No, indeed.” He
was standing opposite to his easel, looking at the canvas, shifting
his head about so as to change the lights, and observing critically
this blemish and that; and yet he was all the while thinking how he
had best carry out his purpose. “It will have been a prosperous
picture to me,” he said at last, “if it leads to the success of
which I am ambitious.”
“I am told that all you do is successful
now—merely because you do it. That is the worst of success.”
“What is the worst of success?”
“That when won by merit it leads to further
success, for the gaining of which no merit is necessary.”
“It may be so in my case. If it is not, I
shall have a very poor chance. Clara, I think you must know that I
am not talking about my pictures.”
“I thought you were.”
“Indeed I am not. As for success in my
profession, far as I am from thinking I merit it, I feel tolerably
certain that I shall obtain it.”
“You have obtained it.”
“I am in the way of doing so. Perhaps one out
of ten struggling artists is successful, and for him the profession
is very charming. It is certainly a sad feeling that there is so
much of chance in the distribution of the prizes. It is a lottery.
But one cannot complain of that when one has drawn the prize.”
Dalrymple was not a man without self-possession, nor was he readily
abashed, but he found it easier to talk of his possession than to
make his offer. The turban was his difficulty. He had told himself
over and over again within the last five minutes, that he would
have long since said what he had to say had it not been for the
turban. He had been painting all his life from living models—from
women dressed up in this or that costume, to suit the necessities
of his picture—but he had never made love to any of them. They had
been simply models to him, and now he found that there was a
difficulty. “Of that prize,” he said, “I have made myself tolerably
sure; but as to the other prize, I do not know. I wonder whether I
am to have that.” Of course Miss Van Siever understood well what
was the prize of which he was speaking; and as she was a young
woman with a will and purpose of her own, no doubt she was already
prepared with an answer. But it was necessary that the question
should be put to her in properly distinct terms. Conway Dalrymple
certainly had not put his question in properly distinct terms at
present. She did not choose to make any answer to his last words;
and therefore simply suggested that as time was pressing he had
better go on with his work. “I am quite ready now,” said she.
“Stop half a moment. How much more you are
thinking of the picture than I am! I do not care twopence for the
picture. I will slit the canvas from top to bottom without a
groan—without a single inner groan—if you will let me.”
“For heaven’s sake do nothing of the kind!
Why should you?”
“Just to show you that it is not for the sake
of the picture that I come here. Clara—” Then the door was opened,
and Isaac appeared, very weary, having been piling fagots with
assiduity, till human nature could pile no more. Conway Dalrymple,
who had made his way almost up to Clara’s seat, turned round
sharply towards his easel, in anger at having been disturbed. He
should have been more grateful for all that his Isaac had done for
him, and have recognised the fact that the fault had been with
himself. Mrs. Broughton had been twelve minutes out of the room.
She had counted them to be fifteen—having no doubt made a mistake
as to three—and had told herself that with such a one as Conway
Dalrymple, with so much of the work ready done to his hand for him,
fifteen minutes should have been amply sufficient. When we reflect
what her own thoughts must have been during the interval—what it is
to have to pile up such fagots as those, how she was, as it were,
giving away a fresh morsel of her own heart during each minute that
she allowed Clara and Conway Dalrymple to remain together, it
cannot surprise us that her eyes should have become dizzy, and that
she should not have counted the minutes with accurate correctness.
Dalrymple turned to his picture angrily, but Miss Van Siever kept
her seat and did not show the slightest emotion.
“My friends,” said Mrs. Broughton, “this will
not do. This is not working; this is not sitting.”
“Mr. Dalrymple had been explaining to me the
precarious nature of an artist’s profession,” said Clara.
“It is not precarious with him,” said Mrs.
Dobbs Broughton, sententiously.
“Not in a general way, perhaps; but to prove
the truth of his words he was going to treat Jael worse than Jael
treats Sisera.”
“I was going to slit the picture from the top
to the bottom.”
“And why?” said Mrs. Broughton, putting up
her hands to heaven in tragic horror.
“Just to show Miss Van Siever how little I
care about it.”
“And how little you care about her, too,”
said Mrs. Broughton.
“She might take that as she liked.” After
this there was another genuine sitting, and the real work went on
as though there had been no episode. Jael fixed her face, and held
her hammer as though her mind and heart were solely bent on seeming
to be slaying Sisera. Dalrymple turned his eyes from the canvas to
the model, and from the model to the canvas, working with his hand
all the while, as though that last pathetic “Clara” had never been
uttered; and Mrs. Dobbs Broughton reclined on a sofa, looking at
them and thinking of her own singularly romantic position, till her
mind was filled with a poetic frenzy. In one moment she resolved
that she would hate Clara as woman was never hated by woman; and
then there were daggers, and poison-cups, and strangling cords in
her eye. In the next she was as firmly determined that she would
love Mrs. Conway Dalrymple as woman never was loved by woman; and
then she saw herself kneeling by a cradle, and tenderly nursing a
baby, of which Conway was to be the father and Clara the mother.
And so she went to sleep.
For some time Dalrymple did not observe this;
but at last there was a little sound—even the ill-nature of Miss
Demolines could hardly have called it a snore—and he became aware
that for practical purposes he and Miss Van Siever were again alone
together. “Clara,” he said in a whisper. Mrs. Broughton instantly
aroused herself from her slumbers, and rubbed her eyes. “Dear,
dear, dear,” she said, “I declare it’s past one. I’m afraid I must
turn you both out. One more sitting, I suppose, will finish it,
Conway?”
“Yes, one more,” said he. It was always
understood that he and Clara should not leave the house together,
and therefore he remained painting when she left the room. “And
now, Conway,” said Mrs. Broughton, “I suppose that all is
over?”
“I don’t know what you mean by all being
over.”
“No—of course not. You look at it in another
light, no doubt. Everything is beginning for you. But you must
pardon me, for my heart is distracted—distracted—distracted!” Then
she sat down upon the floor, and burst into tears. What was he to
do? He thought that the woman should either give him up altogether,
or not give him up. All this fuss about it was irrational! He would
not have made love to Clara Van Siever in her room if she had not
told him to do so!
“Maria,” he said, in a very grave voice, “any
sacrifice that is required on my part on your behalf I am ready to
make.”
“No, sir; the sacrifices shall all be made by
me. It is the part of a woman to be ever sacrificial!” Poor Mrs.
Dobbs Broughton! “You shall give up nothing. The world is at your
feet, and you shall have everything—youth, beauty, wealth, station,
love—love; and friendship also, if you will accept it from one so
poor, so broken, so secluded as I shall be.” At each of the last
words there had been a desperate sob; and as she was still
crouching in the middle of the room, looking up into Dalrymple’s
face while he stood over her, the scene was one which had much in
it that transcended the doings of everyday life, much that would be
ever memorable, and much, I have no doubt, that was thoroughly
enjoyed by the principal actor. As for Conway Dalrymple, he was so
second-rate a personage in the whole thing, that it mattered little
whether he enjoyed it or not. I don’t think he did enjoy it. “And
now, Conway,” she said, “I will give you some advice. And when in
after-days you shall remember this interview, and reflect how that
advice was given you—with what solemnity,”—here she clasped both
her hands together—”I think that you will follow it. Clara Van
Siever will now become your wife.”
“I do not know that at all,” said
Dalrymple.
“Clara Van Siever will now become your wife,”
repeated Mrs. Broughton in a louder voice, impatient of opposition.
“Love her. Cleave to her. Make her flesh of your flesh and bone of
your bone. But rule her! Yes, rule her! Let her be your second
self, but not your first self. Rule her! Love her. Cleave to her.
Do not leave her alone, to feed on her own thoughts as I have
done—as I have been forced to do. Now go. No, Conway, not a word; I
will not hear a word. You must go, or I must.” Then she rose
quickly from her lowly attitude, and prepared herself for a dart at
the door. It was better by far that he should go, and so he
went.
An American when he has spent a pleasant day
will tell you that he has had “a good time”. I think that Mrs.
Dobbs Broughton, if she had ever spoken the truth of that day’s
employment, would have acknowledged that she had had “a good time”.
I think that she enjoyed her morning’s work. But as for Conway
Dalrymple, I doubt whether he did enjoy his morning’s work. “A man
may have too much of this sort of thing, and then he becomes very
sick of his cake.” Such was the nature of his thoughts as he
returned to his own abode.