XX
The Minister in a
Maze
As the minister departed,
in advance of Hester Prynne and little Pearl, he threw a backward
glance; half expecting that he should discover only some faintly
traced features or outline of the mother and the child, slowly
fading into the twilight of the woods. So great a vicissitude in
his life could not at once be received as real. But there was
Hester, clad in her gray robe, still standing beside the
tree-trunk, which some blast had overthrown a long antiquity ago,
and which time had ever since been covering with moss, so that
these two fated ones, with earth’s heaviest burden on them, might
there sit down together, and find a single hour’s rest and solace.
And there was Pearl, too, lightly dancing from the margin of the
brook,—now that the intrusive third person was gone,—and taking her
old place by her mother’s side. So the minister had not fallen
asleep, and dreamed!
In order to free his mind from this
indistinctness and duplicity of impression, which vexed it with a
strange disquietude, he recalled and more thoroughly defined the
plans which Hester and himself had sketched for their departure. It
had been determined between them, that the Old World, with its
crowds and cities, offered them a more eligible shelter and
concealment than the wilds of New England, or all America, with its
alternatives of an Indian wigwam, or the few settlements of
Europeans, scattered thinly along the seaboard. Not to speak of the
clergyman’s health, so inadequate to sustain the hardships of a
forest life, his native gifts, his culture, and his entire
development would secure him a home only in the midst of
civilization and refinement; the higher the state, the more
delicately adapted to it the man. In furtherance of this choice, it
so happened that a ship lay in the harbour; one of those
questionable cruisers, frequent at that day, which, without being
absolutely outlaws of the deep, yet roamed over its surface with a
remarkable irresponsibility of character. This vessel had recently
arrived from the Spanish Main, and, within three days’ time, would
sail for Bristol. Hester Prynne—whose vocation, as a self-enlisted
Sister of Charity, had brought her acquainted with the captain and
crew—could take upon herself to secure the passage of two
individuals and a child, with all the secrecy which circumstances
rendered more than desirable.
The minister had inquired of Hester, with no
little interest, the precise time at which the vessel might be
expected to depart. It would probably be on the fourth day from the
present. “That is most fortunate!” he had then said to himself.
Now, why the Reverend Mr. Dimmesdale considered it so very
fortunate, we hesitate to reveal. Nevertheless,—to hold nothing
back from the reader,—it was because, on the third day from the
present, he was to preach the Election Sermon; and, as such an
occasion formed an honorable epoch in the life of a New England
clergyman, he could not have chanced upon a more suitable mode and
time of terminating his professional career. “At least, they shall
say of me,” thought this exemplary man, “that I leave no public
duty unperformed, nor ill performed!” Sad, indeed, that an
introspection so profound and acute as this poor minister’s should
be so miserably deceived! We have had, and may still have, worse
things to tell of him; but none, we apprehend, so pitiably weak; no
evidence, at once so slight and irrefragable, of a subtle disease,
that had long since begun to eat into the real substance of his
character. No man, for any considerable period, can wear one face
to himself, and another to the multitude, without finally getting
bewildered as to which may be the true.
The excitement of Mr. Dimmesdale’s feelings, as
he returned from his interview with Hester, lent him unaccustomed
physical energy, and hurried him townward at a rapid pace. The
pathway among the woods seemed wilder, more uncouth with its rude
natural obstacles, and less trodden by the foot of man, than he
remembered it on his outward journey. But he leaped across the
plashy places, thrust himself through the clinging underbrush,
climbed the ascent, plunged into the hollow, and overcame, in
short, all the difficulties of the track, with an unweariable
activity that astonished him. He could not but recall how feebly,
and with what frequent pauses for breath, he had toiled over the
same ground only two days before. As he drew near the town, he took
an impression of change from the series of familiar objects that
presented themselves. It seemed not yesterday, not one, nor two,
but many days, or even years ago, since he had quitted them. There,
indeed, was each former trace of the street, as he remembered it,
and all the peculiarities of the houses, with the due multitude of
gable-peaks, and a weathercock at every point where his memory
suggested one. Not the less, however, came this importunately
obtrusive sense of change. The same was true as regarded the
acquaintances whom he met, and all the well-known shapes of human
life, about the little town. They looked neither older nor younger,
now; the beards of the aged were no whiter, nor could the creeping
babe of yesterday walk on his feet today; it was impossible to
describe in what respect they differed from the individuals on whom
he had so recently bestowed a parting glance; and yet the
minister’s deepest sense seemed to inform him of their mutability.
A similar impression struck him most remarkably, as he passed under
the walls of his own church. The edifice had so very strange, and
yet so familiar, an aspect, that Mr. Dimmesdale’s mind vibrated
between two ideas; either that he had seen it only in a dream
hitherto, or that he was merely dreaming about it now.
This phenomenon, in the various shapes which it
assumed, indicated no external change, but so sudden and important
a change in the spectator of the familiar scene, that the
intervening space of a single day had operated on his consciousness
like the lapse of years. The minister’s own will, and Hester’s
will, and the fate that grew between them, had wrought this
transformation. It was the same town as heretofore; but the same
minister returned not from the forest. He might have said to the
friends who greeted him,—“I am not the man for whom you take me! I
left him yonder in the forest, withdrawn into a secret dell, by a
mossy tree-trunk, and near a melancholy brook! Go, seek your
minister, and see if his emaciated figure, his thin cheek, his
white, heavy, pain-wrinkled brow, be not flung down there like a
cast-off garment!” His friends, no doubt, would still have insisted
with him,—“Thou art thyself the man!”—but the error would have been
their own, not his.
Before Mr. Dimmesdale reached home, his inner
man gave him other evidences of a revolution in the sphere of
thought and feeling. In truth, nothing short of a total change of
dynasty and moral code, in that interior kingdom, was adequate to
account for the impulses now communicated to the unfortunate and
startled minister. At every step he was incited to do some strange,
wild, wicked thing or other, with a sense that it would be at once
involuntary and intentional; in spite of himself, yet growing out
of a profounder self than that which opposed the impulse. For
instance, he met one of his own deacons. The good old man addressed
him with the paternal affection and patriarchal privilege, which
his venerable age, his upright and holy character, and his station
in the Church, entitled him to use; and, conjoined with this, the
deep, almost worshipping respect, which the minister’s professional
and private claims alike demanded. Never was there a more beautiful
example of how the majesty of age and wisdom may comport with the
obeisance and respect enjoined upon it, as from a lower social rank
and inferior order of endowment, towards a higher. Now, during a
conversation of some two or three moments between the Reverend Mr.
Dimmesdale and this excellent and hoary-bearded deacon, it was only
by the most careful self-control that the former could refrain from
uttering certain blasphemous suggestions that rose into his mind,
respecting the communion-supper. He absolutely trembled and turned
pale as ashes, lest his tongue should wag itself, in utterance of
these horrible matters, and plead his own consent for so doing,
without his having fairly given it. And, even with this terror in
his heart, he could hardly avoid laughing to imagine how the
sanctified old patriarchal deacon would have been petrified by his
minister’s impiety!
Again, another incident of the same nature.
Hurrying along the street, the Reverend Mr. Dimmesdale encountered
the eldest female member of his church; a most pious and exemplary
old dame; poor, widowed, lonely, and with a heart as full of
reminiscences about her dead husband and children, and her dead
friends of long ago, as a burial-ground is full of storied
gravestones. Yet all this, which would else have been such heavy
sorrow, was made almost a solemn joy to her devout old soul by
religious consolations and the truths of Scripture, wherewith she
had fed herself continually for more than thirty years. And, since
Mr. Dimmesdale had taken her in charge, the good grandam’s chief
earthly comfort—which, unless it had been likewise a heavenly
comfort, could have been none at all—was to meet her pastor,
whether casually, or of set purpose, and be refreshed with a word
of warm, fragrant, heaven-breathing Gospel truth from his beloved
lips into her dulled, but rapturously attentive ear. But, on this
occasion, up to the moment of putting his lips to the old woman’s
ear, Mr. Dimmesdale, as the great enemy of souls would have it,
could recall no text of Scripture, nor aught else, except a brief,
pithy, and, as it then appeared to him, unanswerable argument
against the immortality of the human soul. The instilment thereof
into her mind would probably have caused this aged sister to drop
down dead, at once, as by the effect of an intensely poisonous
infusion. What he really did whisper, the minister could never
afterwards recollect. There was, perhaps, a fortunate disorder in
his utterance, which failed to impart any distinct idea to the good
widow’s comprehension, or which Providence interpreted after a
method of its own. Assuredly, as the minister looked back, he
beheld an expression of divine gratitude and ecstasy that seemed
like the shine of the celestial city on her face, so wrinkled and
ashy pale.
Again, a third instance. After parting from the
old church-member, he met the youngest sister of them all. It was a
maiden newly won—and won by the Reverend Mr. Dimmesdale’s own
sermon, on the Sabbath after his vigil—to barter the transitory
pleasures of the world for the heavenly hope, that was to assume
brighter substance as life grew dark around her, and which would
gild the utter gloom with final glory. She was fair and pure as a
lily that had bloomed in Paradise. The minister knew well that he
was himself enshrined within the stainless sanctity of her heart,
which hung its snowy curtains about his image, imparting to
religion the warmth of love, and to love a religious purity. Satan,
that afternoon, had surely led the poor young girl away from her
mother’s side, and thrown her into the pathway of this sorely
tempted, or—shall we not rather say?—this lost and desperate man.
As she drew nigh, the arch-fiend whispered him to condense into
small compass and drop into her tender bosom a germ of evil that
would be sure to blossom darkly soon, and bear black fruit betimes.
Such was his sense of power over this virgin soul, trusting him as
she did, that the minister felt potent to blight all the field of
innocence with but one wicked look, and develop all its opposite
with but a word. So—with a mightier struggle than he had yet
sustained—he held his Geneva cloak before his face, and hurried
onward, making no sign of recognition, and leaving the young sister
to digest his rudeness as she might. She ransacked her
conscience,—which was full of harmless little matters, like her
pocket or her work-bag,—and took herself to task, poor thing, for a
thousand imaginary faults; and went about her household duties with
swollen eyelids the next morning.
Before the minister had time to celebrate his
victory over this last temptation, he was conscious of another
impulse, more ludicrous, and almost as horrible. It was,—we blush
to tell it,—it was to stop short in the road, and teach some wicked
words to a knot of little Puritan children who were playing there,
and had but just begun to talk. Denying himself this freak, as
unworthy of his cloth, he met a drunken seaman, one of the ship’s
crew from the Spanish Main. And, here, since he had so valiantly
forborne all other wickedness, poor Mr. Dimmesdale longed, at
least, to shake hands with the tarry blackguard, and recreate
himself with a few improper jests, such as dissolute sailors so
abound with, and a volley of good, round, solid, satisfactory, and
heaven-defying oaths! It was not so much a better principle, as
partly his natural good taste, and still more his buckramedy habit of
clerical decorum, that carried him safely through the latter
crisis.
“What is it that haunts and tempts me thus?”
cried the minister to himself, at length, pausing in the street,
and striking his hand against his forehead. “Am I mad? or am I
given over utterly to the fiend? Did I make a contract with him in
the forest, and sign it with my blood? And does he now summon me to
its fulfilment, by suggesting the performance of every wickedness
which his most foul imagination can conceive?”
At the moment when the Reverend Mr. Dimmesdale
thus communed with himself, and struck his forehead with his hand,
old Mistress Hibbins, the reputed witch-lady, is said to have been
passing by. She made a very grand appearance; having on a high
head-dress, a rich gown of velvet, and a ruff done up with the
famous yellow starch, of which Ann Turner,1 her especial friend,
had taught her the secret, before this last good lady had been
hanged for Sir Thomas Overbury’s murder. Whether the witch had read
the minister’s thoughts, or no, she came to a full stop, looked
shrewdly into his face, smiled craftily, and-though little given to
converse with clergymen—began a conversation.
“So, reverend Sir, you have made a visit into
the forest,” observed the witch-lady, nodding her high head-dress
at him. “The next time, I pray you to allow me only a fair warning,
and I shall be proud to bear you company. Without taking overmuch
upon myself, my good word will go far towards gaining any strange
gentleman a fair reception from yonder potentate you wot of!”
“I profess, madam,” answered the clergyman, with
a grave obeisance, such as the lady’s rank demanded, and his own
good-breeding made imperative,—“I profess, on my conscience and
character, that I am utterly bewildered as touching the purport of
your words! I went not into the forest to seek a potentate; neither
do I, at any future time, design a visit thither, with a view to
gaining the favor of such personage. My one sufficient object was
to greet that pious friend of mine, the Apostle Eliot, and rejoice
with him over the many precious souls he hath won from
heathendom!”
“Ha, ha, ha!” cackled the old witch-lady, still
nodding her high head-dress at the minister. “Well, well, we must
needs talk thus in the daytime! You carry it off like an old hand!
But at midnight, and in the forest, we shall have other talk
together!”
She passed on with her aged stateliness, but
often turning back her head and smiling at him, like one willing to
recognize a secret intimacy of connection.
“Have I then sold myself,” thought the minister,
“to the fiend whom, if men say true, this yellow-starched and
velveted old hag has chosen for her prince and master!”
The wretched minister! He had made a bargain
very like it! Tempted by a dream of happiness, he had yielded
himself with deliberate choice, as he had never done before, to
what he knew was deadly sin. And the infectious poison of that sin
had been thus rapidly diffused throughout his moral system. It had
stupefied all blessed impulses, and awakened into vivid life the
whole brotherhood of bad ones. Scorn, bitterness, unprovoked
malignity, gratuitous desire of ill, ridicule of whatever was good
and holy, all awoke, to tempt, even while they frightened him. And
his encounter with old Mistress Hibbins, if it were a real
incident, did but show his sympathy and fellowship with wicked
mortals and the world of perverted spirits.
He had by this time reached his dwelling, on the
edge of the burial-ground, and, hastening up the stairs, took
refuge in his study. The minister was glad to have reached this
shelter, without first betraying himself to the world by any of
those strange and wicked eccentricities to which he had been
continually impelled while passing through the streets. He entered
the accustomed room, and looked around him on its books, its
windows, its fireplace, and the tapestried comfort of the walls,
with the same perception of strangeness that had haunted him
throughout his walk from the forest-dell into the town, and
thitherward. Here he had studied and written; here, gone through
fast and vigil, and come forth half alive; here, striven to pray;
here, borne a hundred thousand agonies! There was the Bible, in its
rich old Hebrew, with Moses and the Prophets speaking to him, and
God’s voice through all! There, on the table, with the inky pen
beside it, was an unfinished sermon, with a sentence broken in the
midst, where his thoughts had ceased to gush out upon the page two
days before. He knew that it was himself, the thin and
white-cheeked minister, who had done and suffered these things, and
written thus far into the Election Sermon! But he seemed to stand
apart, and eye this former self with scornful, pitying, but
half-envious curiosity. That self was gone! Another man had
returned out of the forest; a wiser one; with a knowledge of hidden
mysteries which the simplicity of the former never could have
reached. A bitter kind of knowledge that!
While occupied with these reflections, a knock
came at the door of the study, and the minister said, “Come
in!”—not wholly devoid of an idea that he might behold an evil
spirit. And so he did! It was old Roger Chillingworth that entered.
The minister stood, white and speechless, with one hand on the
Hebrew Scriptures, and the other spread upon his breast.
“Welcome home, reverend Sir!” said the
physician. “And how found you that godly man, the Apostle Eliot?
But methinks, dear Sir, you look pale; as if the travel through the
wilderness had been too sore for you. Will not my aid be requisite
to put you in heart and strength to preach your Election
Sermon?”
“Nay, I think not so,” rejoined the Reverend Mr.
Dimmesdale. “My journey, and the sight of the holy Apostle yonder,
and the free air which I have breathed, have done me good, after so
long confinement in my study. I think to need no more of your
drugs, my kind physician, good though they be, and administered by
a friendly hand.”
All this time, Roger Chillingworth was looking
at the minister with the grave and intent regard of a physician
towards his patient. But, in spite of this outward show, the latter
was almost convinced of the old man’s knowledge, or, at least, his
confident suspicion, with respect to his own interview with Hester
Prynne. The physician knew, then, that, in the minister’s regard,
he was no longer a trusted friend, but his bitterest enemy. So much
being known, it would appear natural that a part of it should be
expressed. It is singular, however, how long a time often passes
before words embody things; and with what security two persons, who
choose to avoid a certain subject, may approach its very verge, and
retire without disturbing it. Thus, the minister felt no
apprehension that Roger Chillingworth would touch, in express
words, upon the real position which they sustained towards one
another. Yet did the physician, in his dark way, creep frightfully
near the secret.
“Were it not better,” said he, “that you use my
poor skill to-night? Verily, dear Sir, we must take pains to make
you strong and vigorous for this occasion of the Election
discourse. The people look for great things from you; apprehending
that another year may come about, and find their pastor
gone.”
“Yea, to another world,” replied the minister,
with pious resignation. “Heaven grant it be a better one; for, in
good sooth, I hardly think to tarry with my flock through the
flitting seasons of another year! But, touching your medicine, kind
Sir, in my present frame of body I need it not.”
“I joy to hear it,” answered the physician. “It
may be that my remedies, so long administered in vain, begin now to
take due effect. Happy man were I, and well deserving of New
England’s gratitude, could I achieve this cure!”
“I thank you from my heart, most watchful
friend,” said the Reverend Mr. Dimmesdale, with a solemn smile. “I
thank you, and can but requite your good deeds with my
prayers.”
“A good man’s prayers are golden recompense!”
rejoined old Roger Chillingworth, as he took his leave. “Yea, they
are the current gold coin of the New Jerusalem, with the King’s own
mint-mark on them!”
Left alone, the minister summoned a servant of
the house, and requested food, which, being set before him, he ate
with ravenous appetite. Then, flinging the already written pages of
the Election Sermon into the fire, he forthwith began another,
which he wrote with such an impulsive flow of thought and emotion,
that he fancied himself inspired; and only wondered that Heaven
should see fit to transmit the grand and solemn music of its
oracles through so foul an organ-pipe as he. However, leaving that
mystery to solve itself, or go unsolved for ever, he drove his task
onward, with earnest haste and ecstasy. Thus the night fled away,
as if it were a winged steed, and he careering on it; morning came,
and peeped blushing through the curtains; and at last sunrise threw
a golden beam into the study, and laid it right across the
minister’s bedazzled eyes. There he was, with the pen still between
his fingers, and a vast, immeasurable tract of written space behind
him!