VI
Pearl
We have as yet hardly
spoken of the infant; that little creature, whose innocent life had
sprung, by the inscrutable decree of Providence, a lovely and
immortal flower, out of the rank luxuriance of a guilty passion.
How strange it seemed to the sad woman, as she watched the growth,
and the beauty that became every day more brilliant, and the
intelligence that threw its quivering sunshine over the tiny
features of this child! Her Pearl!—For so had Hester called her;
not as a name expressive of her aspect, which had nothing of the
calm, white, unimpassioned lustre that would be indicated by the
comparison. But she named the infant “Pearl,” as being of great
price,—purchased with all she had,—her mother’s only treasure! How
strange, indeed! Man had marked this woman’s sin by a scarlet
letter, which had such potent and disastrous efficacy that no human
sympathy could reach her, save it were sinful like herself. God, as
a direct consequence of the sin which man thus punished, had given
her a lovely child, whose place was on that same dishonored bosom,
to connect her parent for ever with the race and descent of
mortals, and to be finally a blessed soul in heaven! Yet these
thoughts affected Hester Prynne less with hope than apprehension.
She knew that her deed had been evil; she could have no faith,
therefore, that its result would be for good. Day after day, she
looked fearfully into the child’s expanding nature; ever dreading
to detect some dark arid wild peculiarity, that should correspond
with the guiltiness to which she owed her being.
Certainly, there was no physical defect. By its
perfect shape, its vigor, and its natural dexterity in the use of
all its untried limbs, the infant was worthy to have been brought
forth in Eden; worthy to have been left there, to be the plaything
of the angels, after the world’s first parents were driven out. The
child had a native grace which does not invariably coexist with
faultless beauty; its attire, however simple, always impressed the
beholder as if it were the very garb that precisely became it best.
But little Pearl was not clad in rustic weeds. Her mother, with a
morbid purpose that may be better understood hereafter, had bought
the richest tissues that could be procured, and allowed her
imaginative faculty its full play in the arrangement and decoration
of the dresses which the child wore, before the public eye. So
magnificent was the small figure, when thus arrayed, and such was
the splendor of Pearl’s own proper beauty, shining through the
gorgeous robes which might have extinguished a paler loveliness,
that there was an absolute circle of radiance around her, on the
darksome cottage-floor. And yet a russet gown, torn and soiled with
the child’s rude play, made a picture of her just as perfect.
Pearl’s aspect was imbued with a spell of infinite variety; in this
one child there were many children, comprehending the full scope
between the wild-flower prettiness of a peasant-baby, and the pomp,
in little, of an infant princess. Throughout all, however, there
was a trait of passion, a certain depth of hue, which she never
lost; and if, in any of her changes, she had grown fainter or
paler, she would have ceased to be herself;—it would have been no
longer Pearl!
This outward mutability indicated, and did not
more than fairly express, the various properties of her inner life.
Her nature appeared to possess depth, too, as well as variety;
but—or else Hester’s fears deceived her—it lacked reference and
adaptation to the world into which she was born. The child could
not be made amenable to rules. In giving her existence, a great law
had been broken; and the result was a being, whose elements were
perhaps beautiful and brilliant, but all in disorder; or with an
order peculiar to themselves, amidst which the point of variety and
arrangement was difficult or impossible to be discovered. Hester
could only account for the child’s character—and even then, most
vaguely and imperfectly—by recalling what she herself had been,
during that momentous period while Pearl was imbibing her soul from
the spiritual world, and her bodily frame from its material of
earth. The mother’s impassioned state had been the medium through
which were transmitted to the unborn infant the rays of its moral
life; and, however white and clear originally, they had taken the
deep stains of crimson and gold, the fiery lustre, the black
shadow, and the untempered light, of the intervening substance.
Above all, the warfare of Hester’s spirit, at that epoch, was
perpetuated in Pearl. She could recognize her wild, desperate,
defiant mood, the flightiness of her temper, and even some of the
very cloud-shapes of gloom and despondency that had brooded in her
heart. They were now illuminated by the morning radiance of a young
child’s disposition, but, later in the day of earthly existence,
might be prolific of the storm and whirlwind.
The discipline of the family, in those days, was
of a far more rigid kind than now. The frown, the harsh rebuke, the
frequent application of the rod, enjoined by Scriptural authority,
were used, not merely in the way of punishment for actual offences,
but as a wholesome regimen for the growth and promotion of all
childish virtues. Hester Prynne, nevertheless, the lonely mother of
this one child, ran little risk of erring on the side of undue
severity. Mindful, however, of her own errors and misfortunes, she
early sought to impose a tender, but strict, control over the
infant immortality that was committed to her charge. But the task
was beyond her skill. After testing both smiles and frowns, and
proving that neither mode of treatment possessed any calculable
influence, Hester was ultimately compelled to stand aside, and
permit the child to be swayed by her own impulses. Physical
compulsion or restraint was effectual, of course, while it lasted.
As to any other kind of discipline, whether addressed to her mind
or heart, little Pearl might or might not be within its reach, in
accordance with the caprice that ruled the moment. Her mother,
while Pearl was yet an infant, grew acquainted with a certain
peculiar look, that warned her when it would be labor thrown away
to insist, persuade, or plead. It was a look so intelligent, yet
inexplicable, so perverse, sometimes so malicious, but generally
accompanied by a wild flow of spirits, that Hester could not help
questioning, at such moments, whether Pearl was a human child. She
seemed rather an airy sprite, which, after playing its fantastic
sports for a little while upon the cottage-floor, would flit away
with a mocking smile. Whenever that look appeared in her wild,
bright, deeply black eyes, it invested her with a strange
remoteness and intangibility; it was as if she were hovering in the
air and might vanish, like a glimmering light that comes we know
not whence, and goes we know not whither. Beholding it, Hester was
constrained to rush towards the child,—to pursue the little elf in
the flight which she invariably began,—to snatch her to her bosom,
with a close pressure and earnest kisses,—not so much from
overflowing love, as to assure herself that Pearl was flesh and
blood, and not utterly delusive. But Pearl’s laugh, when she was
caught, though full of merriment and music, made her mother more
doubtful than before.
Heart-smitten at this bewildering and baffling
spell, that so often came between herself and her sole treasure,
whom she had bought so dear, and who was all her world, Hester
sometimes burst into passionate tears. Then, perhaps,—for there was
no foreseeing how it might affect her,—Pearl would frown, and
clench her little fist, and harden her small features into a stern,
unsympathizing look of discontent. Not seldom, she would laugh
anew, and louder than before, like a thing incapable and
unintelligent of human sorrow. Or—but this more rarely happened—she
would be convulsed with a rage of grief, and sob out her love for
her mother, in broken words, and seem intent on proving that she
had a heart, by breaking it. Yet Hester was hardly safe in
confiding herself to that gusty tenderness; it passed, as suddenly
as it came. Brooding over all these matters, the mother felt like
one who has evoked a spirit, but, by some irregularity in the
process of conjuration, has failed to win the master-word that
should control this new and incomprehensible intelligence. Her only
real comfort was when the child lay in the placidity of sleep. Then
she was sure of her, and tasted hours of quiet, sad, delicious
happiness; until—perhaps with that perverse expression glimmering
from beneath her opening lids—little Pearl awoke!
How soon—with what strange rapidity, indeed!—did
Pearl arrive at an age that was capable of social intercourse,
beyond the mother’s ever-ready smile and nonsense-words! And then
what a happiness would it have been, could Hester Prynne have heard
her clear, bird-like voice mingling with the uproar of other
childish voices, and have distinguished and unravelled her own
darling’s tones, amid all the entangled outcry of a group of
sportive children! But this could never be. Pearl was a born
outcast of the infantile world. An imp of evil, emblem and product
of sin, she had no right among christened infants. Nothing was more
remarkable than the instinct, as it seemed, with which the child
comprehended her loneliness; the destiny that had drawn an
inviolable circle round about her; the whole peculiarity, in short,
of her position in respect to other children. Never, since her
release from prison, had Hester met the public gaze without her. In
all her walks about the town, Pearl, too, was there; first as the
babe in arms, and afterwards as the little girl, small companion of
her mother, holding a forefinger with her whole grasp, and tripping
along at the rate of three or four footsteps to one of Hester’s.
She saw the children of the settlement, on the grassy margin of the
street, or at the domestic thresholds, disporting themselves in
such grim fashion as the Puritanic nurture would permit; playing at
going to church, perchance; or at scourging Quakers; or taking
scalps in a sham-fight with the Indians; or scaring one another
with freaks of imitative witchcraft. Pearl saw, and gazed intently,
but never sought to make acquaintance. If spoken to, she would not
speak again. If the children gathered about her, as they sometimes
did, Pearl would grow positively terrible in her puny wrath,
snatching up stones to fling at them, with shrill, incoherent
exclamations that made her mother tremble, because they had so much
the sound of a witch’s anathemas in some unknown tongue.
The truth was, that the little Puritans, being
of the most intolerant brood that ever lived, had got a vague idea
of something outlandish, unearthly, or at variance with ordinary
fashions, in the mother and child; and therefore scorned them in
their hearts, and not unfrequently reviled them with their tongues.
Pearl felt the sentiment, and requited it with the bitterest hatred
that can be supposed to rankle in a childish bosom. These outbreaks
of a fierce temper had a kind of value, and even comfort, for her
mother; because there was at least an intelligible earnestness in
the mood, instead of the fitful caprice that so often thwarted her
in the child’s manifestations. It appalled her, nevertheless, to
discern here, again, a shadowy reflection of the evil that had
existed in herself. All this enmity and passion had Pearl
inherited, by inalienable right, out of Hester’s heart. Mother and
daughter stood together in the same circle of seclusion from human
society; and in the nature of the child seemed to be perpetuated
those unquiet elements that had distracted Hester Prynne before
Pearl’s birth, but had since begun to be soothed away by the
softening influences of maternity.
At home, within and around her mother’s cottage,
Pearl wanted not a wide and various circle of acquaintance. The
spell of life went forth from her ever creative spirit, and
communicated itself to a thousand objects, as a torch kindles a
flame wherever it may be applied. The unlikeliest materials, a
stick, a bunch of rags, a flower, were the puppets of Pearl’s
witchcraft, and, without undergoing any outward change, became
spiritually adapted to whatever drama occupied the stage of her
inner world. Her one baby-voice served a multitude of imaginary
personages, old and young, to talk withal. The pine-trees, aged,
black, and solemn, and flinging groans and other melancholy
utterances on the breeze, needed little transformation to figure as
Puritan elders; the ugliest weeds of the garden were their
children, whom Pearl smote down and uprooted, most unmercifully. It
was wonderful, the vast variety of forms into which she threw her
intellect, with no continuity, indeed, but darting up and dancing,
always in a state of preternatural activity,—soon sinking down, as
if exhausted by so rapid and feverish a tide of life, -and
succeeded by other shapes of a similar wild energy. It was like
nothing so much as the phantasmagoric play of the northern lights.
In the mere exercise of the fancy, however, and the sportiveness of
a growing mind, there might be little more than was observable in
other children of bright faculties; except as Pearl, in the dearth
of human playmates, was thrown more upon the visionary throng which
she created. The singularity lay in the hostile feelings with which
the child regarded all these offspring of her own heart and mind.
She never created a friend, but seemed always to be sowing
broadcast the dragon’s teeth, whence sprung a harvest of armed
enemies, against whom she rushed to battle. It was inexpressibly
sad—then what depth of sorrow to a mother, who felt in her own
heart the cause!—to observe, in one so young, this constant
recognition of an adverse world, and so fierce a training of the
energies that were to make good her cause, in the contest that must
ensue.
Gazing at Pearl, Hester Prynne often dropped her
work upon her knees, and cried out, with an agony which she would
fain have hidden, but which made utterance for itself, betwixt
speech and a groan,—“O Father in Heaven,—if Thou art still my
Father,—what is this being which I have brought into the world!”
And Pearl, overhearing the ejaculation, or aware, through some more
subtile channel, of those throbs of anguish, would turn her vivid
and beautiful little face upon her mother, smile with sprite-like
intelligence, and resume her play.
One peculiarity of the child’s deportment
remains yet to be told. The very first thing which she had noticed,
in her life, was—what?—not the mother’s smile, responding to it, as
other babies do, by that faint, embryo smile of the little mouth,
remembered so doubtfully afterwards, and with such fond discussion
whether it were indeed a smile. By no means! But that first object
of which Pearl seemed to become aware was,—shall we say it?—the
scarlet letter on Hester’s bosom! One day, as her mother stooped
over the cradle, the infant’s eyes had been caught by the
glimmering of the gold embroidery about the letter; and, putting up
her little hand, she grasped at it, smiling, not doubtfully, but
with a decided gleam that gave her face the look of a much older
child. Then, gasping for breath, did Hester Prynne clutch the fatal
token, instinctively endeavouring to tear it away; so infinite was
the torture inflicted by the intelligent touch of Pearl’s
baby-hand. Again, as if her mother’s agonized gesture were meant
only to make sport for her, did little Pearl look into her eyes,
and smile! From that epoch, except when the child was asleep,
Hester had never felt a moment’s safety; not a moment’s calm
enjoyment of her. Weeks, it is true, would sometimes elapse, during
which Pearl’s gaze might never once be fixed upon the scarlet
letter; but then, again, it would come at unawares, like the stroke
of sudden death, and always with that peculiar smile, and odd
expression of the eyes.
Once, this freakish, elvish cast came into the
child’s eyes, while Hester was looking at her own image in them, as
mothers are fond of doing; and, suddenly,—for women in solitude,
and with troubled hearts, are pestered with unaccountable
delusions,—she fancied that she beheld, not her own miniature
portrait, but another face in the small black mirror of Pearl’s
eye. It was a face, fiend-like, full of smiling malice, yet bearing
the semblance of features that she had known full well, though
seldom with a smile, and never with malice, in them. It was as if
an evil spirit possessed the child, and had just then peeped forth
in mockery. Many a time afterwards had Hester been tortured, though
less vividly, by the same illusion.
In the afternoon of a certain summer’s day,
after Pearl grew big enough to run about, she amused herself with
gathering handfuls of wild-flowers, and flinging them, one by one,
at her mother’s bosom; dancing up and down, like a little elf,
whenever she hit the scarlet letter. Hester’s first motion had been
to cover her bosom with her clasped hands. But, whether from pride
or resignation, or a feeling that her penance might best be wrought
out by this unutterable pain, she resisted the impulse, and sat
erect, pale as death, looking sadly into little Pearl’s wild eyes.
Still came the battery of flowers, almost invariably hitting the
mark, and covering the mother’s breast with hurts for which she
could find no balm in this world, nor knew how to seek it in
another. At last, her shot being all expended, the child stood
still and gazed at Hester, with that littte, laughing image of a
fiend peeping out—or, whether it peeped or no, her mother so
imagined it—from the unsearchable abyss of her black eyes.
“Child, what art thou?” cried the mother.
“O, I am your little Pearl!” answered the
child.
But, while she said it, Pearl laughed and began
to dance up and down, with the humorsome gesticulation of a little
imp, whose next freak might be to fly up the chimney.
“Art thou my child, in very truth?” asked
Hester.
Nor did she put the question altogether idly,
but, for the moment, with a portion of genuine earnestness; for,
such was Pearl’s wonderful intelligence, that her mother half
doubted whether she were not acquainted with the secret spell of
her existence, and might not now reveal herself.
“Yes; I am little Pearl!” repeated the child,
continuing her antics.
“Thou art not my child! Thou art no Pearl of
mine!” said the mother, half playfully; for it was often the case
that a sportive impulse came over her, in the midst of her deepest
suffering. “Tell me, then, what thou art, and who sent thee
hither?”
“Tell me, mother!” said the child, seriously,
coming up to Hester, and pressing herself close to her knees. “Do
thou tell me!”
“Thy Heavenly Father sent thee!” answered Hester
Prynne.
But she said it with a hesitation that did not
escape the acuteness of the child. Whether moved only by her
ordinary freakishness, or because an evil spirit prompted her, she
put up her small forefinger, and touched the scarlet letter.
“He did not send me!” cried she, positively. “I
have no Heavenly Father!”
“Hush, Pearl, hush! Thou must not talk so!”
answered the mother, suppressing a groan. “He sent us all into this
world. He sent even me, thy mother. Then, much more, thee! Or, if
not, thou strange and elfish child, whence didst thou come?”
“Tell me! Tell me!” repeated Pearl, no longer
seriously, but laughing, and capering about the floor. “It is thou
that must tell me!”
But Hester could not resolve the query, being
herself in a dismal labyrinth of doubt. She remembered—betwixt a
smile and a shudder—the talk of the neighbouring townspeople; who,
seeking vainly elsewhere for the child’s paternity, and observing
some of her odd attributes, had given out that poor little Pearl
was a demon offspring; such as, ever since old Catholic times, had
occasionally been seen on earth, through the agency of their
mothers’ sin, and to promote some foul and wicked purpose. Luther,
according to the scandal of his monkish enemies, was a brat of that
hellish breed; nor was Pearl the only child to whom this
inauspicious origin was assigned, among the New England
Puritans.