XII
The Minister’s
Vigil
Walking in the shadow of
a dream, as it were, and perhaps actually under the influence of a
species of somnambulism, Mr. Dimmesdale reached the spot, where,
now so long since, Hester Prynne had lived through her first hour
of public ignominy. The same platform or scaffold, black and
weather-stained with the storm or sunshine of seven long years, and
foot-worn, too, with the tread of many culprits who had since
ascended it, remained standing beneath the balcony of the
meeting-house. The minister went up the steps.
It was an obscure night of early May. An
unvaried pall of cloud muffled the whole expanse of sky from zenith
to horizon. If the same multitude which had stood as eyewitnesses
while Hester Prynne sustained her punishment could now have been
summoned forth, they would have discerned no face above the
platform, nor hardly the outline of a human shape, in the dark gray
of the midnight. But the town was all asleep. There was no peril of
discovery. The minister might stand there, if it so pleased him,
until morning should redden in the east, without other risk than
that the dank and chill night-air would creep into his frame, and
stiffen his joints with rheumatism, and clog his throat with
catarrh and cough; thereby defrauding the expectant audience of
to-morrow’s prayer and sermon. No eye could see him, save that
ever-wakeful one which had seen him in his closet, wielding the
bloody scourge. Why, then, had he come hither? Was it but the
mockery of penitence? A mockery, indeed, but in which his soul
trifled with itself! A mockery at which angels blushed and wept,
while fiends rejoiced, with jeering laughter! He had been driven
hither by the impulse of that Remorse which dogged him everywhere,
and whose own sister and closely linked companion was that
Cowardice which invariably drew him back, with her tremulous gripe,
just when the other impulse had hurried him to the verge of a
disclosure. Poor, miserable man! what right had infirmity like his
to burden itself with crime? Crime is for the iron-nerved, who have
their choice either to endure it, or, if it press too hard, to
exert their fierce and savage strength for a good purpose, and
fling it off at once! This feeble and most sensitive of spirits
could do neither, yet continually did one thing or another, which
intertwined, in the same inextricable knot, the agony of
heaven-defying guilt and vain repentance.
And thus, while standing on the scaffold, in
this vain show of expiation, Mr. Dimmesdale was overcome with a
great horror of mind, as if the universe were gazing at a scarlet
token on his naked breast, right over his heart. On that spot, in
very truth, there was, and there had long been, the gnawing and
poisonous tooth of bodily pain. Without any effort of his will, or
power to restrain himself, he shrieked aloud; an outcry that went
pealing through the night, and was beaten back from one house to
another, and reverberated from the hills in the background; as if a
company of devils detecting so much misery and terror in it, had
made a plaything of the sound, and were bandying it to and
fro.
“It is done!” muttered the minister, covering
his face with his hands. “The whole town will awake and hurry
forth, and find me here!”
But it was not so. The shriek had perhaps
sounded with a far greater power, to his own startled ears, than it
actually possessed. The town did not awake; or, if it did, the
drowsy slumberers mistook the cry either for something frightful in
a dream, or for the noise of witches; whose voices, at that period,
were often heard to pass over the settlements or lonely cottages,
as they rode with Satan through the air. The clergyman therefore,
hearing no symptoms of disturbance, uncovered his eyes and looked
about him. At one of the chamber-windows of Governor Bellingham’s
mansion which stood at some distance, on the line of another
street, he beheld the appearance of the old magistrate himself,
with a lamp in his hand, a white night-cap on his head, and a long
white gown enveloping his figure. He looked like a ghost, evoked
unseasonably from the grave. The cry had evidently startled him. At
another window of the same house, moreover, appeared old Mistress
Hibbins, the Governor’s sister, also with her a lamp, which, even
thus far off, revealed the expression of her sour and discontented
face. She thrust forth her head from the lattice, and looked
anxiously upward. Beyond the shadow of a doubt, this venerable
witch-lady had heard Mr. Dimmesdale’s outcry, and interpreted it,
with its multitudinous echoes and reverberations, as the clamor of
the fiends and night-hags, with whom she was well known to make
excursions into the forest.
Detecting the gleam of Governor Bellingham’s
lamp, the old lady quickly extinguished her own, and vanished.
Possibly, she went up among the clouds. The minister saw nothing
further of her motions. The magistrate, after a wary observation of
the darkness—into which, nevertheless, he could see but little
farther than he might into a millstone—retired from the
window.
The minister grew comparatively calm. His eyes,
however, were soon greeted by a little, glimmering light, which, at
first a long way off, was approaching up the street. It threw a
gleam of recognition on here a post, and there a garden-fence, and
here a latticed window-pane, and there a pump, with its full trough
of water, and here, again, an arched door of oak, with an iron
knocker, and a rough log for the door-step. The Reverend Mr,
Dimmesdale noted all these minute particulars, even while firmly
convinced that the doom of his existence was stealing onward, in
the footsteps which he now heard; and that the gleam of the lantern
would fall upon him, in a few moments more, and reveal his
long-hidden secret. As the light drew nearer, he beheld, within its
illuminated circle, his brother clergyman,—or, to speak more
accurately, his professional father, as well as highly valued
friend,—the Reverend Mr. Wilson; who, as Mr. Dimmesdale now
conjectured, had been praying at the bedside of some dying man. And
so he had. The good old minister came freshly from the
death-chamber of Governor Winthrop,1 who had passed from
earth to heaven within that very hour. And now, surrounded, like
the saint-like personages of olden times, with a radiant halo, that
glorified him amid this gloomy night of sin,—as if the departed
Governor had left him an inheritance of his glory, or as if he had
caught upon himself the distant shine of the celestial city, while
looking thitherward to see the triumphant pilgrim pass within its
gates,—now, in short, good Father Wilson was moving homeward,
aiding his footsteps with a lighted lantern! The glimmer of this
luminary suggested the above conceits to Mr. Dimmesdale, who
smiled,—nay, almost laughed at them,—and then wondered if he were
going mad.
As the Reverend Mr. Wilson passed beside the
scaffold, closely muffling his Geneva cloak about him with one arm,
and holding the lantern before his breast with the other, the
minister could hardly restrain himself from speaking.
“A good evening to you, venerable Father Wilson!
Come up hither, I pray you, and pass a pleasant hour with
me!”
Good heavens! Had Mr. Dimmesdale actually
spoken? For one instant, he believed that these words had passed
his lips. But they were uttered only within his imagination. The
venerable Father Wilson continued to step slowly onward, looking
carefully at the muddy pathway before his feet, and never once
turning his head towards the guilty platform. When the light of the
glimmering lantern had faded quite away, the minister discovered,
by the faintness which came over him, that the last few moments had
been a crisis of terrible anxiety; although his mind had made an
involuntary effort to relieve itself by a kind of lurid
playfulness.
Shortly afterwards, the like grisly sense of the
humorous again stole in among the solemn phantoms of his thought.
He felt his limbs growing stiff with the unaccustomed chilliness of
the night, and doubted whether he should be able to descend the
steps of the scaffold. Morning would break, and find him there. The
neighbourhood would begin to rouse itself. The earliest riser,
coming forth in the dim twilight, would perceive a vaguely defined
figure aloft on the place of shame; and, half crazed betwixt alarm
and curiosity, would go, knocking from door to door, summoning all
the people to behold the ghost—as he needs must think it—of some
defunct transgressor. A dusky tumult would flap its wings from one
house to another. Then—the morning light still waxing stronger—old
patriarchs would rise up in great haste, each in his flannel gown,
and matronly dames, without pausing to put off their night-gear.
The whole tribe of decorous personages, who had never heretofore
been seen with a single hair of their heads awry, would start into
public view, with the disorder of a nightmare in their aspects. Old
Governor Bellingham would come grimly forth, with his King James’s
ruff fastened askew; and Mistress Hibbins, with some twigs of the
forest clinging to her skirts, and looking sourer than ever, as
having hardly got a wink of sleep after her night ride; and good
Father Wilson, too, after spending half the night at death-bed, and
liking ill to be disturbed, thus early, out of his dreams about the
glorified saints. Hither, likewise, would come the elders and
deacons of Mr. Dimmesdale’s church, and the young virgins who so
idolized their minister, and had made a shrine for him in their
white bosoms; which, now, by the by, in their hurry and confusion,
they would scantly have given themselves time to cover with their
kerchiefs. All people, in a word, would come stumbling over their
thresholds, and turning up their amazed and horror-stricken visages
around the scaffold. Whom would they discern there, with the red
eastern light upon his brow? Whom, but the Reverend Arthur
Dimmesdale, half frozen to death, overwhelmed with shame, and
standing where Hester Prynne had stood!
Carried away by the grotesque horror of this
picture, the minister, unawares, and to his own infinite alarm,
burst into a great peal of laughter. It was immediately responded
to by a light, airy, childish laugh, in which, with a thrill of the
heart,—but he knew not whether of exquisite pain, or pleasure as
acute—he recognized the tones of little Pearl.
“Pearl! Little Pearl!” cried he, after a
moment’s pause; then, suppressing his voice,—“Hester! Hester
Prynne! Are you there?”
“Yes; it is Hester Prynne!” she replied, in a
tone of surprise; and the minister heard her footsteps approaching
from the sidewalk, along which she had been passing.—“It is I, and
my little Pearl.”
“Whence come you, Hester?” asked the minister.
“What sent you hither?”
“I have been watching at a death-bed,” answered
Hester Prynne;—“at Governor Winthrop’s death-bed, and have taken
his measure for a robe, and am now going homeward to my
dwelling.”
“Come up hither, Hester, thou and little Pearl,”
said the Reverend Mr. Dimmesdale. “Ye have both been here before,
but I was not with you. Come up hither once again, and we will
stand all three together!”
She silently ascended the steps, and stood on
the platform, holding little Pearl by the hand. The minister felt
for the child’s other hand, and took it. The moment that he did so,
there came what seemed a tumultuous rush of new life, other life
than his own, pouring like a torrent into his heart, and hurrying
through all his veins, as if the mother and the child were
communicating their vital warmth to his half-torpid system. The
three formed an electric chain.
“Minister!” whispered little Pearl.
“What wouldst thou say, child?” asked Mr.
Dimmesdale.
“Wilt thou stand here with mother and me,
to-morrow noontide?” inquired Pearl.
“Nay; not so, my little Pearl!” answered the
minister; for, with the new energy of the moment, all the dread of
public exposure, that had so long been the anguish of his life, had
returned upon him; and he was already trembling at the conjunction
in which—with a strange joy, nevertheless—he now found himself.
“Not so, my child. I shall, indeed, stand with thy mother and thee
one other day, but not to-morrow!”
Pearl laughed, and attempted to pull away her
hand. But the minister held it fast.
“A moment longer, my child!” said he.
“But wilt thou promise,” asked Pearl, “to take
my hand, and mother’s hand, to-morrow noontide?”
“Not then, Pearl,” said the minister, “but
another time!”
“And what other time?” persisted the
child.
“At the great judgment day!” whispered the
minister,—and, strangely enough, the sense that he was a
professional teacher of the truth impelled him to answer the child
so. “Then, and there, before the judgment-seat, thy mother, and
thou, and I, must stand together! But the daylight of this world
shall not see our meeting!”
Pearl laughed again.
But, before Mr. Dimmesdale had done speaking, a
light gleamed far and wide over all the muffled sky. It was
doubtless caused by one of those meteors, which the night-watcher
may so often observe burning out to waste, in the vacant regions of
the atmosphere. So powerful was its radiance, that it thoroughly
illuminated the dense medium of cloud betwixt the sky and earth.
The great vault brightened, like the dome of an immense lamp. It
showed the familiar scene of the street, with the distinctness of
mid-day, but also with the awfulness that is always imparted to
familiar objects by an unaccustomed light. The wooden houses, with
their jutting stories and quaint gable-peaks; the door-steps and
thresholds, with the early grass springing up about them; the
garden-plots, black with freshly turned earth; the wheel-track,
little worn, and, even in the market-place, margined with green on
either side;—all were visible, but with a singularity of aspect
that seemed to give another moral interpretation to the things of
this world than they had ever borne before. And there stood the
minister, with his hand over his heart; and Hester Prynne, with the
embroidered letter glimmering on her bosom; and little Pearl,
herself a symbol, and the connecting link between those two. They
stood in the noon of that strange and solemn splendor, as if it
were the light that is to reveal all secrets, and the day-break
that shall unite all who belong to one another.
There was witchcraft in little Pearl’s eyes; and
her face, as she glanced upward at the minister, wore that naughty
smile which made its expression frequently so elvish. She withdrew
her hand from Mr. Dimmesdale’s, and pointed across the street. But
he clasped both his hands over his breast, and cast his eyes
towards the zenith.
Nothing was more common, in those days, than to
interpret all meteoric appearances, and other natural phenomena,
that occurred with less regularity than the rise and set of sun and
moon, as so many revelations from a supernatural source. Thus, a
blazing spear, a sword of flame, a bow, or a sheaf of arrows, seen
in the midnight sky, prefigured Indian warfare. Pestilence was
known to have been foreboded by a shower of crimson light. We doubt
whether any marked event, for good or evil, ever befell New
England, from its settlement down to Revolutionary times, of which
the inhabitants had not been previously warned by some spectacle of
this nature. Not seldom, it had been seen by multitudes. Oftener,
however, its credibility rested on the faith of some lonely
eyewitness, who beheld the wonder through the colored, magnifying,
and distorting medium of his imagination, and shaped it more
distinctly in his after-thought. It was, indeed, a majestic idea,
that the destiny of nations should be revealed, in these awful
hieroglyphics, on the cope of heaven. A scroll so wide might not be
deemed too expansive for Providence to write a people’s doom upon.
The belief was a favorite one with our forefathers, as betokening
that their infant commonwealth was under a celestial guardianship
of peculiar intimacy and strictness. But what shall we say, when an
individual discovers a revelation, addressed to himself alone, on
the same vast sheet of record! In such a case, it could only be the
symptom of a highly disordered mental state, when a man, rendered
morbidly self-contemplative by long, intense, and secret pain, had
extended his egotism over the whole expanse of nature, until the
firmament itself should appear no more than a fitting page for his
soul’s history and fate.
We impute it, therefore, solely to the disease
in his own eye and heart, that the minister, looking upward to the
zenith, beheld there the appearance of an immense letter,—the
letter A,—marked out in lines of dull red light. Not but the meteor
may have shown itself at that point, burning duskily through a veil
of cloud; but with no such shape as his guilty imagination gave it;
or, at least, with so little definiteness, that another’s guilt
might have seen another symbol in it.
There was a singular circumstance that
characterized Mr. Dimmesdale’s psychological state, at this moment.
All the time that he gazed upward to the zenith, he was,
nevertheless, perfectly aware that little Pearl was pointing her
finger towards old Roger Chillingworth, who stood at no great
distance from the scaffold. The minister appeared to see him, with
the same glance that discerned the miraculous letter. To his
features, as to all other objects, the meteoric light imparted a
new expression; or it might well be that the physician was not
careful then, as at all other times, to hide the malevolence with
which he looked upon his victim. Certainly, if the meteor kindled
up the sky, and disclosed the earth, with an awfulness that
admonished Hester Prynne and the clergyman of the day of judgment,
then might Roger Chillingworth have passed with them for the
arch-fiend, standing there, with a smile and scowl, to claim his
own. So vivid was the expression, or so intense the minister’s
perception of it, that it seemed still to remain painted on the
darkness, after the meteor had vanished, with an effect as if the
street and all things else were at once annihilated.
“Who is that man, Hester?” gasped Mr.
Dimmesdale, overcome with terror. “I shiver at him! Dost thou know
the man? I hate him, Hester!”
She remembered her oath, and was silent.
“I tell thee, my soul shivers at him,” muttered
the minister again. “Who is he? Who is he? Canst thou do nothing
for me? I have a nameless horror of the man.”
“Minister,” said little Pearl, “I can tell thee
who he is!”
“Quickly, then, child!” said the minister,
bending his ear close to her lips. “Quickly!—and as low as thou
canst whisper.”
Pearl mumbled something into his ear, that
sounded, indeed, like human language, but was only such gibberish
as children may be heard amusing themselves with, by the hour
together. At all events, if it involved any secret information in
regard to old Roger Chillingworth, it was in a tongue unknown to
the erudite clergyman, and did but increase the bewilderment of his
mind. The elvish child then laughed aloud.
“Dost thou mock me now?” said the
minister.
“Thou wast not bold!—thou wast not true!”
answered the child. “Thou wouldst not promise to take my hand, and
mother’s hand, to-morrow noontide!”
“Worthy Sir,” said the physician, who had now
advanced to the foot of the platform. “Pious Master Dimmesdale! can
this be you? Well, well, indeed! We men of study, whose heads are
in our books, have need to be straitly looked after! We dream in
our waking moments, and walk in our sleep. Come, good Sir, and my
dear friend, I pray you, let me lead you home!”
“How knewest thou that I was here?” asked the
minister, fearfully.
“Verily, and in good faith,” answered Roger
Chillingworth, “I knew nothing of the matter. I had spent the
better part of the night at the bedside of the worshipful Governor
Winthrop, doing what my poor skill might to give him ease. He going
home to a better world, I, likewise, was on my way homeward, when
this strange light shone out. Come with me, I beseech you, Reverend
Sir; else you will be poorly able to do Sabbath duty to-morrow.
Aha! see now, how they trouble the brain,—these books!—these books!
You should study less, good Sir, and take a little pastime; or
these night-whimseys will grow upon you!”
“I will go home with you,” said Mr.
Dimmesdale.
With a chill despondency, like one awaking, all
nerveless, from an ugly dream, he yielded himself to the physician,
and was led away.
The next day, however, being the Sabbath, he
preached a discourse which was held to be the richest and most
powerful, and the most replete with heavenly influences, that had
ever proceeded from his lips. Souls, it is said, more souls than
one, were brought to the truth by the efficacy of that sermon, and
vowed within themselves to cherish a holy gratitude towards Mr.
Dimmesdale throughout the long hereafter. But, as he came down the
pulpit-steps, the gray-bearded sexton met him, holding up a black
glove, which the minister recognized as his own.
“It was found,” said the sexton, “this morning,
on the scaffold, where evil-doers are set up to public shame. Satan
dropped it there, I take it, intending a scurrilous jest against
your reverence. But, indeed, he was blind and foolish, as he ever
and always is. A pure hand needs no glove to cover it!”
“Thank you, my good friend,” said the minister
gravely, but startled at heart; for, so confused was his
remembrance, that he had almost brought himself to look at the
events of the past night as visionary. “Yes, it seems to be my
glove indeed!”
“And, since Satan saw fit to steal it, your
reverence must needs handle him without gloves, henceforward,”
remarked the old sexton, grimly smiling. “But did your reverence
hear of the portent that was seen last night? A great red letter in
the sky,—the letter A,—which we interpret to stand for Angel. For,
as our good Governor Winthrop was made an angel this past night, it
was doubtless held fit that there should be some notice
thereof!”
“No,” answered the minister. “I had not heard of
it.”