XV
Hester and Pearl
So Roger Chillingworth-a
deformed old figure, with a face that haunted men’s memories longer
than they liked!—took leave of Hester Prynne, and went stooping
away along the earth. He gathered here and there an herb, or
grubbed up a root, and put it into the basket on his arm. His gray
beard almost touched the ground, as he crept onward. Hester gazed
after him a little while, looking with a half-fantastic curiosity
to see whether the tender grass of early spring would not be
blighted beneath him, and show the wavering track of his footsteps,
sere and brown, across its cheerful verdure. She wondered what sort
of herbs they were, which the old man was so sedulous to gather.
Would not the earth, quickened to an evil purpose by the sympathy
of his eye, greet him with poisonous shrubs, of species hitherto
unknown, that would start up under his fingers? Or might it suffice
him, that every wholesome growth should be converted into something
deleterious and malignant at his touch? Did the sun, which shone so
brightly everywhere else, really fall upon him? Or was there, as it
rather seemed, a circle of ominous shadow moving along with his
deformity, whichever way he turned himself? And whither was he now
going? Would he not suddenly sink into the earth, leaving a barren
and blasted spot, where, in due course of time, would be seen
deadly nightshade, dogwood, hen-bane, and whatever else of
vegetable wickedness the climate could produce, all flourishing
with hideous luxuriance? Or would he spread bat’s wings and flee
away, looking so much the uglier, the higher he rose towards
heaven?
“Be it sin or no,” said Hester Prynne bitterly,
as she still gazed after him, “I hate the man!”
She upbraided herself for the sentiment, but
could not overcome or lessen it. Attempting to do so, she thought
of those long-past days, in a distant land, when he used to emerge
at eventide from the seclusion of his study, and sit down in the
fire-light of their home, and in the light of her nuptial smile. He
needed to bask himself in that smile, he said, in order that the
chill of so many lonely hours among his books might be taken off
the scholar’s heart. Such scenes had once appeared not otherwise
than happy, but now, as viewed through the dismal medium of her
subsequent life, they classed themselves among her ugliest
remembrances. She marvelled how such scenes could have been! She
marvelled how she could ever have been wrought upon to marry him!
She deemed it her crime most to be repented of, that she had ever
endured, and reciprocated, the lukewarm grasp of his hand, and had
suffered the smile of her lips and eyes to mingle and melt into his
own. And it seemed a fouler offence committed by Roger
Chillingworth, than any which had since been done him, that, in the
time when her heart knew no better, he had persuaded her to fancy
herself happy by his side.
“Yes, I hate him!” repeated Hester, more
bitterly than before. “He betrayed me! He has done me worse wrong
than I did him!”
Let men tremble to win the hand of woman, unless
they win along with it the utmost passion of her heart! Else it may
be their miserable fortune, as it was Roger Chillingworth’s, when
some mightier touch than their own may have awakened all her
sensibilities, to be reproached even for the calm content, the
marble image of happiness, which they will have imposed upon her as
the warm reality. But Hester ought long ago to have done with this
injustice. What did it betoken? Had seven long years, under the
torture of the scarlet letter, inflicted so much of misery, and
wrought out no repentance?
The emotions of that brief space, while she
stood gazing after the crooked figure of old Roger Chillingworth,
threw a dark light on Hester’s state of mind, revealing much that
she might not otherwise have acknowledged to herself.
He being gone, she summoned back her
child.
“Pearl! Little Pearl! Where are you?”
Pearl, whose activity of spirit never flagged,
had been at no loss for amusement while her mother talked with the
old gatherer of herbs. At first, as already told, she had flirted
fancifully with her own image in a pool of water, beckoning the
phantom forth, and—as it declined to venture—seeking a passage for
herself into its sphere of impalpable earth and unattainable sky.
Soon finding, however, that either she or the image was unreal, she
turned elsewhere for better pastime. She made little boats out of
birch-bark, and freighted them with snail-shells, and sent out more
ventures on the mighty deep than any merchant in New England; but
the larger part of them foundered near the shore. She seized a live
horseshoe by the tail, and made prize of several five-fingers, and
laid out a jelly-fish to melt in the warm sun. Then she took up the
white foam, that streaked the line of the advancing tide, and threw
it upon the breeze, scampering after it with winged footsteps, to
catch the great snow-flakes ere they fell. Perceiving a flock of
beach-birds, that fed and fluttered along the shore, the naughty
child picked up her apron full of pebbles, and, creeping from rock
to rock after these small sea-fowl, displayed remarkable dexterity
in pelting them. One little gray bird, with a white breast, Pearl
was almost sure, had been hit by a pebble and fluttered away with a
broken wing. But then the elf-child sighed, and gave up her sport;
because it grieved her to have done harm to a little being that was
as wild as the sea-breeze, or as wild as Pearl herself.
Her final employment was to gather sea-weed, of
various kinds, and make herself a scarf, or mantle, and a
head-dress, and thus assume the aspect of a little mermaid. She
inherited her mother’s gift for devising drapery and costume. As
the last touch to her mermaid’s garb, Pearl took some eel-grass,
and imitated, as best she could, on her own bosom, the decoration
with which she was so familiar on her mother’s. A letter, —the
letter A,—but freshly green, instead of scarlet! The child bent her
chin upon her breast, and contemplated this device with strange
interest; even as if the one only thing for which she had been sent
into the world was to make out its hidden import.
“I wonder if mother will ask me what it means!”
thought Pearl.
Just then, she heard her mother’s voice, and,
flitting along as lightly as one of the little sea-birds, appeared,
before Hester Prynne, dancing, laughing, and pointing her finger to
the ornament upon her bosom.
“My little Pearl,” said Hester, after a moment’s
silence, “the green letter, and on thy childish bosom, has no
purport. But dost thou know, my child, what this letter means which
thy mother is doomed to wear?”
“Yes, mother,” said the child. “It is the great
letter A. Thou hast taught it me in the horn-book.”
Hester looked steadily into her little face;
but, though there was that singular expression which she had so
often remarked in her black eyes, she could not satisfy herself
whether Pearl really attached any meaning to the symbol. She felt a
morbid desire to ascertain the point.
“Dost thou know, child, wherefore thy mother
wears this letter?”
“Truly do I!” answered Pearl, looking brightly
into her mother’s face. “It is for the same reason that the
minister keeps his hand over his heart!”
“And what reason is that?” asked Hester, half
smiling at the absurd incongruity of the child’s observation; but,
on second thoughts, turning pale. “What has the letter to do with
any heart, save mine?”
“Nay, mother, I have told all I know,” said
Pearl, more seriously than she was wont to speak. “Ask yonder old
man whom thou hast been talking with! It may be he can tell. But in
good earnest now, mother dear, what does this scarlet letter
mean?—and why dost thou wear it on thy bosom?—and why does the
minister keep his hand over his heart?”
She took her mother’s hand in both her own, and
gazed into her eyes with an earnestness that was seldom seen in her
wild and capricious character. The thought occurred to Hester, that
the child might really be seeking to approach her with childlike
confidence, and doing what she could, and as intelligently as she
knew how, to establish a meeting-point of sympathy. It showed Pearl
in an unwonted aspect. Heretofore, the mother, while loving her
child with the intensity of a sole affection, had schooled herself
to hope for little other return than the waywardness of an April
breeze; which spends its time in airy sport, and has its gusts of
inexplicable passion, and is petulant in its best of moods, and
chills oftener than caresses you, when you take it to your bosom;
in requital of which misdemeanours, it will sometimes, of its own
vague purpose, kiss your cheek with a kind of doubtful tenderness,
and play gently with your hair, and then begone about its other
idle business, leaving a dreamy pleasure at your heart. And this,
moreover, was a mother’s estimate of the child’s disposition. Any
other observer might have seen few but unamiable traits, and have
given them a far darker coloring. But now the idea came strongly
into Hester’s mind, that Pearl, with her remarkable precocity and
acuteness, might already have approached the age when she could be
made a friend, and intrusted with as much of her mother’s sorrows
as could be imparted, without irreverence either to the parent or
the child. In the little chaos of Pearl’s character, there might be
seen emerging—and could have been, from the very first—the stedfast
principles of an unflinching courage,—an uncontrollable will,—a
sturdy pride, which might be disciplined into self-respect—and a
bitter scorn of many things, which, when examined, might be found
to have the taint of falsehood in them. She possessed affections,
too, though hitherto acrid and disagreeable, as are the richest
flavors of unripe fruit. With all these sterling attributes,
thought Hester, the evil which she inherited from her mother must
be great indeed, if a noble woman do not grow out of this elfish
child.
Pearl’s inevitable tendency to hover about the
enigma of the scarlet letter seemed an innate quality of her being.
From the earliest epoch of her conscious life, she had entered upon
this as her appointed mission. Hester had often fancied that
Providence had a design of justice and retribution, in endowing the
child with this marked propensity; but never, until now, had she
bethought herself to ask, whether, linked with that design, there
might not likewise be a purpose of mercy and beneficence. If little
Pearl were entertained with faith and trust, as a spirit-messenger
no less than an earthly child, might it not be her errand to soothe
away the sorrow that lay cold in her mother’s heart, and converted
it into a tomb?—and to help her to overcome the passion, once so
wild, and even yet neither dead nor asleep, but only imprisoned
within the same tomb-like heart?
Such were some of the thoughts that now stirred
in Hester’s mind, with as much vivacity of impression as if they
had actually been whispered into her ear. And there was little
Pearl, all this while, holding her mother’s hand in both her own,
and turning her face upward, while she put these searching
questions, once and again, and still a third time.
“What does the letter mean, mother?—and why dost
thou wear it?—and why does the minister keep his hand over his
heart?”
“What shall I say?” thought Hester to
herself.—“No! If this be the price of the child’s sympathy, I
cannot pay it!”
Then she spoke aloud.
“Silly Pearl,” said she, “what questions are
these? There are many things in this world that a child must not
ask about. What know I of the minister’s heart? And as for the
scarlet letter, I wear it for the sake of its gold thread!”
In all the seven bygone years, Hester Prynne had
never before been false to the symbol on her bosom. It may be that
it was the talisman of a stern and severe, but yet a guardian
spirit, who now forsook her; as recognizing that, in spite of his
strict watch over her heart, some new evil had crept into it, or
some old one had never been expelled. As for little Pearl, the
earnestness soon passed out of her face.
But the child did not see fit to let the matter
drop. Two or three times, as her mother and she went homeward, and
as often at supper-time, and while Hester was putting her to bed,
and once after she seemed to be fairly asleep, Pearl looked up,
with mischief gleaming in her black eyes.
“Mother,” said she, “what does the scarlet
letter mean?”
And the next morning, the first indication the
child gave of being awake was by popping up her head from the
pillow, and making that other inquiry, which she had so
unaccountably connected with her investigations about the scarlet
letter:—
“Mother!—Mother!—Why does the minister keep his
hand over his heart?”
“Hold thy tongue, naughty child!” answered her
mother, with an asperity that she had never permitted to herself
before. “Do not tease me; else I shall shut thee into the dark
closet!”