V
Hester at Her
Needle
Hester Prynne’s term of
confinement was now at an end. Her prison-door was thrown open, and
she came forth into the sunshine, which, falling on all alike,
seemed, to her sick and morbid heart, as if meant for no other
purpose than to reveal the scarlet letter on her breast. Perhaps
there was a more real torture in her first unattended footsteps
from the threshold of the prison, than even in the procession and
spectacle that have been described, where she was made the common
infamy, at which all mankind was summoned to point its finger.
Then, she was supported by an unnatural tension of the nerves, and
by all the combative energy of her character, which enabled her to
convert the scene into a kind of lurid triumph. It was, moreover, a
separate and insulated event, to occur but once in her lifetime,
and to meet which, therefore, reckless of economy, she might call
up the vital strength that would have sufficed for many quiet
years. The very law that condemned her—a giant of stern features,
but with vigor to support, as well as to annihilate, in his iron
arm—had held her up, through the terrible ordeal of her ignominy.
But now, with this unattended walk from her prison-door, began the
daily custom, and she must either sustain and carry it forward by
the ordinary resources of her nature, or sink beneath it. She could
no longer borrow from the future, to help her through the present
grief. To-morrow would bring its own trial with it; so would the
next day, and so would the next; each its own trial, and yet the
very same that was now so unutterably grievous to be borne. The
days of the far-off future would toil onward, still with the same
burden for her to take up, and bear along with her, but never to
fling down; for the accumulating days, and added years, would pile
up their misery upon the heap of shame. Throughout them all, giving
up her individuality, she would become the general symbol at which
the preacher and moralist might point, and in which they might
vivify and embody their images of woman’s frailty and sinful
passion. Thus the young and pure would be taught to look at her,
with the scarlet letter flaming on her breast,—at her, the child of
honorable parents,—at her, the mother of a babe, that would
hereafter be a woman,—at her, who had once been innocent, —as the
figure, the body, the reality of sin. And over her grave, the
infamy that she must carry thither would be her only
monument.
It may seem marvellous, that, with the world
before her,—kept by no restrictive clause of her condemnation
within the limits of the Puritan settlement, so remote and so
obscure,—free to return to her birth-place, or to any other
European land, and there hide her character and identity under a
new exterior, as completely as if emerging into another state of
being,—and having also the passes of the dark, inscrutable forest
open to her, where the wildness of her nature might assimilate
itself with a people whose customs and life were alien from the law
that had condemned her,—it may seem marvellous, that this woman
should still call that place her home, where, and where only, she
must needs be the type of shame. But there is a fatality, a feeling
so irresistible and inevitable that it has the force of doom, which
almost invariably compels human beings to linger around and haunt,
ghost-like, the spot where some great and marked event has given
the color to their lifetime; and still the more irresistibly, the
darker the tinge that saddens it. Her sin, her ignominy, were the
roots which she had struck into the soil. It was as if a new birth,
with stronger assimilations than the first, had converted the
forest-land, still so uncongenial to every other pilgrim and
wanderer, into Hester Prynne’s wild and dreary, but life-long home.
All other scenes of earth—even that village of rural England, where
happy infancy and stainless maidenhood seemed yet to be in her
mother’s keeping, like garments put off long ago—were foreign to
her, in comparison. The chain that bound her here was of iron
links, and galling to her inmost soul, but never could be
broken.
It might be, too,—doubtless it was so, although
she hid the secret from herself, and grew pale whenever it
struggled out of her heart, like a serpent from its hole,—it might
be that another feeling kept her within the scene and pathway that
had been so fatal. There dwelt, there trode the feet of one with
whom she deemed herself connected in a union, that, unrecognized on
earth, would bring them together before the bar of final judgment,
and make that their marriage-altar, for a joint futurity of endless
retribution. Over and over again, the tempter of souls had thrust
this idea upon Hester’s contemplation, and laughed at the
passionate and desperate joy with which she seized, and then strove
to cast it from her. She barely looked the idea in the face, and
hastened to bar it in its dungeon. What she compelled herself to
believe,—what, finally, she reasoned upon, as her motive for
continuing a resident of New England,—was half a truth, and half a
self-delusion. Here, she said to herself, had been the scene of her
guilt, and here should be the scene of her earthly punishment; and
so, perchance, the torture of her daily shame would at length purge
her soul, and work out another purity than that which she had lost;
more saint-like, because the result of martyrdom.
Hester Prynne, therefore, did not flee. On the
outskirts of the town, within the verge of the peninsula, but not
in close vicinity to any other habitation, there was a small
thatched cottage. It had been built by an earlier settler, and
abandoned, because the soil about it was too sterile for
cultivation, while its comparative remoteness put it out of the
sphere of that social activity which already marked the habits of
the emigrants. It stood on the shore, looking across a basin of the
sea at the forest-covered hills, towards the west. A clump of
scrubby trees, such as alone grew on the peninsula, did not so much
conceal the cottage from view, as seem to denote that here was some
object which would fain have been, or at least ought to be,
concealed. In this little, lonesome dwelling, with some slender
means that she possessed, and by the license of the magistrates,
who still kept an inquisitorial watch over her, Hester established
herself, with her infant child. A mystic shadow of suspicion
immediately attached itself to the spot. Children, too young to
comprehend wherefore this woman should be shut out from the sphere
of human charities, would creep nigh enough to behold her plying
her needle at the cottage-window, or standing in the door-way, or
laboring in her little garden, or coming forth along the pathway
that led townward; and, discerning the scarlet letter on her
breast, would scamper off, with a strange, contagious fear.
Lonely as was Hester’s situation, and without a
friend on earth who dared to show himself, she, however, incurred
no risk of want. She possessed an art that sufficed, even in a land
that afforded comparatively little scope for its exercise, to
supply food for her thriving infant and herself. It was the
art—then, as now, almost the only one within a woman’s grasp—of
needle-work. She bore on her breast, in the curiously embroidered
letter, a specimen of her delicate and imaginative skill, of which
the dames of a court might gladly have availed themselves, to add
the richer and more spiritual adornment of human ingenuity to their
fabrics of silk and gold. Here, indeed, in the sable simplicity
that generally characterized the Puritanic modes of dress, there
might be an infrequent call for the finer productions of her
handiwork. Yet the taste of the age, demanding whatever was
elaborate in compositions of this kind, did not fail to extend its
influence over our stern progenitors, who had cast behind them so
many fashions which it might seem harder to dispense with. Public
ceremonies, such as ordinations, the installation of magistrates,
and all that could give majesty to the forms in which a new
government manifested itself to the people, were, as a matter of
policy, marked by a stately and well-conducted ceremonial, and a
sombre, but yet a studied magnificence. Deep ruffs, painfully
wrought bands, and gorgeously embroidered gloves, were all deemed
necessary to the official state of men assuming the reins of power;
and were readily allowed to individuals dignified by rank or
wealth, even while sumptuary laws forbade these and similar
extravagances to the plebeian order. In the array of funerals,
too,—whether for the apparel of the dead body, or to typify, by
manifold emblematic devices of sable cloth and snowy lawn, the
sorrow of the survivors,—there was a frequent and characteristic
demand for such labor as Hester Prynne could supply. Baby-linen—for
babies then wore robes of state—afforded still another possibility
of toil and emolument.
By degrees, nor very slowly, her handiwork
became what would now be termed the fashion. Whether from
commiseration for a woman of so miserable a destiny; or from the
morbid curiosity that gives a fictitious value even to common or
worthless things; or by whatever other intangible circumstance was
then, as now, sufficient to bestow, on some persons, what others
might seek in vain; or because Hester really filled a gap which
must otherwise have remained vacant; it is certain that she had
ready and fairly requited employment for as many hours as she saw
fit to occupy with her needle. Vanity, it may be, chose to mortify
itself, by putting on, for ceremonials of pomp and state, the
garments that had been wrought by her sinful hands. Her needle-work
was seen on the ruff of the Governor; military men wore it on their
scarfs, and the minister on his band; it decked the baby’s little
cap; it was shut up, to be mildewed and moulder away, in the
coffins of the dead. But it is not recorded that, in a single
instance, her skill was called in aid to embroider the white veil
which was to cover the pure blushes of a bride. The exception
indicated the ever relentless vigor with which society frowned upon
her sin.
Hester sought not to acquire any thing beyond a
subsistence, of the plainest and most ascetic description, for
herself, and a simple abundance for her child. Her own dress was of
the coarsest materials and the most sombre hue; with only that one
ornament,—the scarlet letter,—which it was her doom to wear. The
child’s attire, on the other hand, was distinguished by a fanciful,
or, we might rather say, a fantastic ingenuity, which served,
indeed, to heighten the airy charm that early began to develop
itself in the little girl, but which appeared to have also a deeper
meaning. We may speak further of it hereafter. Except for that
small expenditure in the decoration of her infant, Hester bestowed
all her superfluous means in charity, on wretches less miserable
than herself, and who not unfrequently insulted the hand that fed
them. Much of the time, which she might readily have applied to the
better efforts of her art, she employed in making coarse garments
for the poor. It is probable that there was an idea of penance in
this mode of occupation, and that she offered up a real sacrifice
of enjoyment, in devoting so many hours to such rude handiwork. She
had in her nature a rich, voluptuous, Oriental characteristic,—a
taste for the gorgeously beautiful, which, save in the exquisite
productions of her needle, found nothing else, in all the
possibilities of her life, to exercise itself upon. Women derive a
pleasure, incomprehensible to the other sex, from the delicate toil
of the needle. To Hester Prynne it might have been a mode of
expressing, and therefore soothing, the passion of her life. Like
all other joys, she rejected it as sin. This morbid meddling of
conscience with an immaterial matter betokened, it is to be feared,
no genuine and stedfast penitence, but something doubtful,
something that might be deeply wrong, beneath.
In this manner, Hester Prynne came to have a
part to perform in the world. With her native energy of character,
and rare capacity, it could not entirely cast her off, although it
had set a mark upon her, more intolerable to a woman’s heart than
that which branded the brow of Cain.q In all her
intercourse with society, however, there was nothing that made her
feel as if she belonged to it. Every gesture, every word, and even
the silence of those with whom she came in contact, implied, and
often expressed, that she was banished, and as much alone as if she
inhabited another sphere, or communicated with the common nature by
other organs and senses than the rest of human kind. She stood
apart from mortal interests, yet close beside them, like a ghost
that revisits the familiar fireside, and can no longer make itself
seen or felt; no more smile with the household joy, nor mourn with
the kindred sorrow; or, should it succeed in manifesting its
forbidden sympathy, awakening only terror and horrible repugnance.
These emotions, in fact, and its bitterest scorn besides, seemed to
be the sole portion that she retained in the universal heart. It
was not an age of delicacy; and her position, although she
understood it well, and was in little danger of forgetting it, was
often brought before her vivid self-perception, like a new anguish,
by the rudest touch upon the tenderest spot. The poor, as we have
already said, whom she sought out to be the objects of her bounty,
often reviled the hand that was stretched forth to succor them.
Dames of elevated rank, likewise, whose doors she entered in the
way of her occupation, were accustomed to distil drops of
bitterness into her heart; sometimes through that alchemy of quiet
malice, by which women can concoct a subtile poison from ordinary
trifles; and sometimes, also, by a coarser expression, that fell
upon the sufferer’s defenceless breast like a rough blow upon an
ulcerated wound. Hester had schooled herself long and well; she
never responded to these attacks, save by a flush of crimson that
rose irrepressibly over her pale cheek, and again subsided into the
depths of her bosom. She was patient,—a martyr, indeed,—but she
forbore to pray for her enemies; lest, in spite of her forgiving
aspirations, the words of the blessing should stubbornly twist
themselves into a curse.
Continually, and in a thousand other ways, did
she feel the innumerable throbs of anguish that had been so
cunningly contrived for her by the undying, the ever-active
sentence of the Puritan tribunal. Clergymen paused in the street to
address words of exhortation, that brought a crowd, with its
mingled grin and frown, around the poor, sinful woman. If she
entered a church, trusting to share the Sabbath smile of the
Universal Father, it was often her mishap to find herself the text
of the discourse. She grew to have a dread of children; for they
had imbibed from their parents a vague idea of something horrible
in this dreary woman, gliding silently through the town, with never
any companion but one only child. Therefore, first allowing her to
pass, they pursued her at a distance with shrill cries, and the
utterance of a word that had no distinct purport to their own
minds, but was none the less terrible to her, as proceeding from
lips that babbled it unconsciously. It seemed to argue so wide a
diffusion of her shame, that all nature knew of it; it could have
caused her no deeper pang, had the leaves of the trees whispered
the dark story among themselves,—had the summer breeze murmured
about it,—had the wintry blast shrieked it aloud! Another peculiar
torture was felt in the gaze of a new eye. When strangers looked
curiously at the scarlet letter,—and none ever failed to do
so,—they branded it afresh into Hester’s soul; so that, oftentimes,
she could scarcely refrain, yet always did refrain, from covering
the symbol with her hand. But then, again, an accustomed eye had
likewise its own anguish to inflict. Its cool stare of familiarity
was intolerable. From first to last, in short, Hester Prynne had
always this dreadful agony in feeling a human eye upon the token;
the spot never grew callous; it seemed, on the contrary, to grow
more sensitive with daily torture.
But sometimes, once in many days, or perchance
in many months, she felt an eye—a human eye—upon the ignominious
brand, that seemed to give a momentary relief, as if half of her
agony were shared. The next instant, back it all rushed again, with
still a deeper throb of pain; for, in that brief interval, she had
sinned anew. Had Hester sinned alone?
Her imagination was somewhat affected, and, had
she been of a softer moral and intellectual fibre, would have been
still more so, by the strange and solitary anguish of her life.
Walking to and fro, with those lonely footsteps, in the little
world with which she was outwardly connected, it now and then
appeared to Hester,—if altogether fancy, it was nevertheless too
potent to be resisted,—she felt or fancied, then, that the scarlet
letter had endowed her with a new sense. She shuddered to believe,
yet could not help believing, that it gave her a sympathetic
knowledge of the hidden sin in other hearts. She was
terror-stricken by the revelations that were thus made. What were
they? Could they be other than the insidious whispers of the bad
angel, who would fain have persuaded the struggling woman, as yet
only half his victim, that the outward guise of purity was but a
lie, and that, if truth were everywhere to be shown, a scarlet
letter would blaze forth on many a bosom besides Hester Prynne’s?
Or, must she receive those intimations—so obscure, yet so
distinct—as truth? In all her miserable experience, there was
nothing else so awful and so loathsome as this sense. It perplexed,
as well as shocked her, by the irreverent inopportuneness of the
occasions that brought it into vivid action. Sometimes, the red
infamy upon her breast would give a sympathetic throb, as she
passed near a venerable minister or magistrate, the model of piety
and justice, to whom that age of antique reverence looked up, as to
a mortal man in fellowship with angels. “What evil thing is at
hand?” would Hester say to herself. Lifting her reluctant eyes,
there would be nothing human within the scope of view, save the
form of this earthly saint! Again, a mystic sisterhood would
contumaciously assert itself, as she met the sanctified frown of
some matron, who, according to the rumor of all tongues, had kept
cold snow within her bosom throughout life. That unsunned snow in
the matron’s bosom, and the burning shame on Hester Prynne’s, what
had the two in common? Or, once more, the electric thrill would
give her warning,—“Behold, Hester, here is a companion!”—and,
looking up, she would detect the eyes of a young maiden glancing at
the scarlet letter, shyly and aside, and quickly averted, with a
faint, chill crimson in her cheeks; as if her purity were somewhat
sullied by that momentary glance. O Fiend, whose talisman was that
fatal symbol, wouldst thou leave nothing, whether in youth or age,
for this poor sinner to revere?—Such loss of faith is ever one of
the saddest results of sin. Be it accepted as a proof that all was
not corrupt in this poor victim of her own frailty, and man’s hard
law, that Hester Prynne yet struggled to believe that no
fellow-mortal was guilty like herself.
The vulgar, who, in those dreary old times, were
always contributing a grotesque horror to what interested their
imaginations, had a story about the scarlet letter which we might
readily work up into a terrific legend. They averred, that the
symbol was not mere scarlet cloth, tinged in an earthly dye-pot,
but was red-hot with infernal fire, and could be seen glowing all
alight, whenever Hester Prynne walked abroad in the night-time. And
we must needs say, it seared Hester’s bosom so deeply, that perhaps
there was more truth in the rumor than our modern incredulity may
be inclined to admit.