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I was still in my bathroom, applying makeup
to my black eye, when my buzzer rang.
I went to my front door and pressed the button that
would let my visitor into the building. I didn’t bother to use the
intercom, since I knew who my guest was. I opened my door so he
could let himself into my apartment.
I was back in front of the bathroom mirror when
Leischneudel Drysdale came bounding up the stairs of my building,
paused to knock courteously on my open door, then entered the
apartment in response to my invitation—which he could hear easily,
since my bathroom was only about four feet away from my front
door.
“Hi, Esther. How’s your eye?” Leischneudel stuck
his head into the open bathroom door and took a good look at me.
“Hey, I can hardly see the bruise.”
“Good,” I said. “That’s the idea. Want something to
drink before we go?”
“I’ll help myself,” he said genially. “You finish
what you’re doing.”
He went to search my refrigerator, having become
comfortable in my modest home during the weeks we’d been working
together. Leischneudel, who came from a small town in Pennsylvania,
had evidently doted on his grandfather; having inherited the old
man’s name, he had decided not to change it upon becoming an actor
and moving to New York.
He was well-cast as the apple-cheeked and
perpetually helpless Aubrey in The Vampyre. A blond,
blueeyed, prettily handsome young man, Leischneudel was only a
couple of inches taller than my 5 foot 6. Although as fair-skinned
as he, I’m brown-haired and brown-eyed, and we really didn’t look
like siblings. Nonetheless, the casting seemed to work well
onstage. Perhaps because offstage, I had quickly developed an
older-sister sort of relationship with him.
Although he was a good actor who’d gotten some work
in the two years he’d been in the Big Apple, Leischneudel was
unprepared for all the attention The Vampyre was getting,
and he felt overwhelmed by it. He was intimidated by the volatile
fans outside the theater. Inside the theater, he was also
intimidated by our cranky wardrobe mistress, our bipolar stage
manager, and our melodramatic fellow actors.
For the past few days, he had insisted on escorting
me to and from work each night because of how unpredictable the
crowds outside the theater had become—though, given the frightened
way he clung to me, I thought it was questionable who was escorting
whom. However, I had appreciated his company last night, shaken as
I was after being mauled by one of Daemon’s crazed fans.
Leischneudel had accompanied me home, stayed with me while I iced
my sore eye, and chatted with me until I had felt calm enough to
bid him good night and then go straight to sleep.
From the kitchen, he now called, “Is it okay if I
finish this juice? It expired yesterday.”
“Go ahead,” I said absently, dabbing gingerly at my
tender skin.
Leischneudel returned to the bathroom a few moments
later and watched me make the finishing touches to my eye as he
sipped from his glass of juice.
Glancing at him, I noticed that he was
unconsciously making a strange face and tilting his head at an odd
angle. “Is something wrong?” I asked.
“Oh. The humming.” He gestured to the fluorescent
light over my bathroom mirror. “It sets my teeth on edge.”
I didn’t hear any humming. But I knew that
Leischneudel had suffered from delicate health for much of his
life, and I’d certainly realized by now that he was more sensitive
than I—in multiple ways. With that thought in mind, I realized
there were dark circles under his eyes today. “You look tired. Is
this schedule killing you?”
Although Daemon Ravel as Lord Ruthven was the star
of the play, Leischneudel’s character was the protagonist of
Polidori’s story, and he went through the most dramatic changes
during the course of the show: Aubrey falls in love, grieves
heartbrokenly over his sweetheart’s death, comes to realize that
his trusted friend is a monster, has a nervous breakdown, succumbs
to a raging fever, goes mad with grief and guilt when his sister is
murdered, and dies just before the curtain comes down. It was
draining to do so many performances of a role like that in just a
few days.
Leischneudel waved aside my concern. “It’s not the
show. It’s Mimi.” When I stared at him blankly, he reminded me, “My
cat.”
“Oh! Right.” I went back to applying makeup. “What
about her?”
“She woke me up really early this morning,
crying. Her face was all swollen and tender. Abscessed
tooth.”
“Did you take her to the vet?”
He nodded. “We were there for hours. Then I
decided I’d better leave her there overnight. She’ll need someone
to keep an eye on her, and we’ll be working most of the night
again.”
“Will she be all right?”
“Yes,” he said. “But the bills for her treatment
may kill me.”
I smiled. I recalled that Leischneudel had found
Mimi starving on the street soon after he’d moved to New York. This
wasn’t his first anecdote about the expense of caring for her, but
he obviously doted on her.
“Anyhow, that’s why I didn’t really get any sleep.”
Seeing my concerned expression, he made a dismissive gesture. “I’ll
be okay.”
Like most actors, he was interested in makeup and
costume, so he asked what I was using on my bruise, and he studied
the combination of colors I had applied to conceal the purple-blue
discoloration.
As I peered at my reflection, he said to me, “It
looks fine. Add a little mascara and a touch of blush, and no one
will notice.” He added with an envious sigh, “You’re so lucky, with
those cheekbones.”
They were my best feature. And fortunately, they
could be emphasized enough to distract from an eye which, despite
Leischneudel’s assurances, still looked a little discolored. I’d
have to apply my stage makeup heavily tonight. “I’m just glad it’s
not swollen,” I said. “That would be hard to conceal. You were
right about applying ice last night.”
“Does it hurt much?” he asked
sympathetically.
I shrugged. “A little sore. Not too bad. Luckily,
Jane punches like a girl.”
My attacker had been dressed like my character,
Miss Jane Aubrey. One of the eccentricities of this show was that
many of the people in our audience were in costume. There was a
wide variety of goth and vampire outfits each night, as well as a
significant number of people in Regency costume. A few of the male
fans dressed up like the fashionable Lord Ruthven—and those tight,
high-waisted Regency trousers were an ill-advised choice for some
of them. Hardly any of the fans came dressed as Ianthe or Aubrey,
presumably because those characters were victims rather than
vampires. To my surprise, though, many female fans dressed up like
my character. Leischneudel and I referred to those fans as “the
Janes.” I had grown used to them by now, but I had found it a
little unnerving at first to keep bumping into carbon copies of
myself (some of them less recognizable than others) every night.
The girl who’d punched me last night looked more like me than most
of them did.
“I hope she’s not there again tonight,”
Leischneudel said.
“Me, too,” I agreed. “She hurtled at full speed
straight across the thick dark line that separates rude from crazy.
I’d much rather we didn’t meet again.”
Satisfied with my makeup, I left the bathroom and
headed for my bedroom. Leischneudel trailed behind me. I live in
the West Thirties in Manhattan. It’s a convenient location, if not
an elegant one. The apartment, which was in perpetual need of
maintenance that seldom got done, had certainly seen better days;
but it was rent-controlled, which was a huge advantage to a
struggling actress. It was also spacious by Manhattan standards, in
the sense that I had a second bedroom; granted, it was only the
size of a walk-in closet (which was essentially what I used it
for), but it was an enviable luxury for a person of my limited
means. The apartment was furnished and decorated with things I’d
found at thrift stores and inherited from friends fleeing New York
for a saner, more affordable life elsewhere. It was home, and I was
comfortable there.
Leischneudel sat on my double bed while I puttered
around the bedroom, filling my tote bag with various things I’d
want with me at work for another two-performance shift that
wouldn’t end until the wee hours of the morning.
“I can’t believe Daemon took that Jane home with
him after she attacked you!” Leischneudel said, still scandalized
by last night’s events.
Recalling the insolent way Daemon had winked at me
when he loaded my overwrought look-alike into his limousine last
night renewed my irritation with the celebrity vampire. “I
can believe it,” I grumbled.
Indeed, that had a lot to do with why the cops had
resisted my innovative suggestion that they arrest my attacker.
Daemon had volunteered to take charge of her, and everyone but me
considered that a perfectly satisfactory solution to the problem.
(Leischneudel missed all of this, having gone in search of the cab
we had called. I was attacked when exiting the stage door about a
minute behind him.) If the star of the show could soothe the crazed
fan (and, indeed, Jane calmed down as soon as Daemon put his arm
around her and cooed sweet nothings into her ear), then the cops
wouldn’t have to arrest and book yet another girl who wasn’t
exactly dressed right for the lock-up, and that suited them just
fine.
No one present pretended not to know exactly what
“soothing” the young woman would entail. Daemon had a well-earned
reputation for picking up female fans for casual sex. It was one of
the reasons so many of them waited outside the stage door for him
each night.
At three o’clock in the morning, having just
performed two shows back-to-back, I was too exhausted to do much
more than glare irritably at the cops with my remaining good eye
while they waved Daemon off as he bundled the clinging Jane into
his waiting car, under the envious gazes of dozens of other
fans—some of whom were also dressed just like my character.
This job was a little surreal.
“When Daemon does things like that, he just
encourages that sort of behavior,” Leischneudel said. “Now other
unbalanced girls hanging around the theater will think the way to,
er, meet Daemon is to attack you.”
This hadn’t occurred to me before. I paused in my
packing as I realized that Leischneudel might well be right.
“Great. Thanks to Daemon rewarding a fan with sex for punching me,
more lust-crazed vampire groupies are bound to attack me before our
run is over. That’s just wonderful.”
I’d like to kill the Nocturne-swilling creep for
this. I pictured opening the coffin he reputedly slept in, inside
his sunless Soho loft, and driving a wooden stake right through his
narcissistic little heart.
“I won’t let it happen,” my companion assured
me.
“Huh?” Indulging in my satisfying vision of
Daemon’s startled expression when I staked him, I’d lost track of
the conversation for a moment. “What?”
“I’ll stick right by your side outside the theater
from now on. No one else will hurt you, Esther. I promise.”
“I appreciate that, Leischneudel.” I stuffed a few
more things into my bag and said grumpily, “But, good grief, why
me? I’m playing the plain spinster in this show, not the ravishing
young beauty. I should be fully clothed and pitied by the audience,
not envied and assaulted. Why me?”
“Because you’re playing Jane,” Leischneudel said.
“And she’s the woman Ruthven really loves.”
I gave him an incredulous look as I picked up my
tote bag. “He kills her on their wedding night.”
“Ah, but he marries her,” Leischneudel
pointed out, following me as I exited the bedroom.
“Marrying her doesn’t make murdering her more
romantic.” I went into the kitchen, which was basically the same
room as the living room, separated from it by a counter.
“But why does he marry her?” Leischneudel
argued. “He doesn’t marry Ianthe, after all.”
“He marries Jane to torment her brother. And
probably to get his hands on her money.” I opened the refrigerator
and pulled out a couple of water bottles to pack in my tote. “Want
one?”
“No, thanks. I brought my own.” He nodded toward
the daypack he’d left sitting by my door when he arrived. Then he
said, “You’re so cynical about love, Esther!”
“Oh, come on. Ruthven seduces and lies to a naive
woman, he destroys her weak-minded brother, and then he murders
her.” I shook my head. “You’re calling that love?”
“Well, no,” he admitted. “But the fans are
calling it love. They think Ruthven has reluctant feelings for
Jane.”
“According to Daemon—who plays him, after
all—Ruthven has hunger pangs for her. That’s not the same thing.” I
packed a few protein-rich snacks into my tote, along with the
water, then closed the bag. “Ready to go?”
Leischneudel nodded, and I picked up my keys and
put on my jacket. He scooped up his daypack and preceded me out the
front door, then paused and waited while I locked it behind
us.
I followed him down the stairs as he said, “The
fans think Ruthven proposes marriage to Jane because he wants to
change.”
“It’s not an emotional scene,” I pointed out as he
held open the front door of the building for me. “Not in that
sense, I mean. He’s seducing her in the proposal scene. Also
dominating her. Jane is as intimidated as she is aroused. She’s too
scared to say no.”
Early November now, it was dark and chilly as we
set out for the theater.
“He doesn’t have to offer her marriage,”
Leischneudel said, walking down the windy street toward Ninth
Avenue, where we would catch a cab heading downtown. “It’s clear
from Jane’s behavior in that scene that Ruthven could have whatever
he wants, then and there.”
I didn’t disagree, since that was indeed the way
the scene was written and the way we played it.
“But he doesn’t feed on her or sleep with her
then,” my companion continued. “Sure, it’s what he did with Ianthe
when he had the opportunity—”
“Then killed her.” I thought the theme of Ruthven
murdering every woman he seduced seemed to be getting
glossed over in this interpretation.
“But when he could ruin Jane, even kill her ...
instead, he convinces her to commit to him. To agree to marry
him.”
“Completely different situation. Jane’s got money
and no boyfriend,” I said. “Whereas Ianthe’s got no money and a
boyfriend—you.”
Leischneudel said, “But we know Ruthven has used
and discarded plenty of other women besides Ianthe. Jane is
the one he decides to marry, though. The one and only!”
“That’s why there are so many girls dressed
like me—like Jane—at the theater every night?” I said in amazement,
never having thought of it this way. “Because Ruthven
marries her before he rips open her neck and dumps her
exsanguinated corpse on the stage?”
“Yes.”
“Okay, those fans aren’t just lustful, they’re
crazy,” I said, hunching inside my jacket as the wind whipped down
the street. “Is that really what they want in a lover?”
“Well, maybe not the ‘rips open her neck’ part,”
Leischneudel conceded. “Though there’s definitely a lot of interest
in the way he bites you in the final scene.”
“And he’d better watch his step. That’s been
getting a little too real lately.” Fortunately, though, despite his
vampire persona, Daemon didn’t have fangs.
“But female fans identify with Jane,” Leischneudel
said, “because she’s the one woman who finds a place in Ruthven’s
tormented heart.”
“Which doesn’t stop him from killing her,” I
reminded him as we reached Ninth Avenue.
Leischneudel stepped up to the curb and stuck out
his arm to hail a cab. Until recently, I had taken the subway to
the theater every evening. But walking through the throng of people
outside the Hamburg had become too chaotic and stressful over the
course of the past week. So now I arrived at work by cab, getting
dropped off as close to the stage door as possible.
Raising his voice to be heard above the roar of the
cars careening down the avenue, Leischneudel continued, “Ruthven
reaches a turning point, a fork in the road when he falls for
Jane.”
I rolled my eyes. “He doesn’t fall
for—”
“He thinks he can change course, find a new path.
But then Aubrey returns to England, sees them together, and loses
his mind. Ruthven realizes he was wrong. He is what he is, and he
can’t change. He destroys everything he touches. That’s his
curse. That’s what it means to be The Vampyre. So he accepts
his destiny to destroy Jane, too.”
“Accepts it, embraces it, and sails full steam
ahead with it,” I said as a cab pulled up to the curb.
“But it’s not what he wants in his heart. Not deep
down.” Leischneudel opened the car door for me. “That’s what the
fans think, anyhow.”
I climbed into the cab. Leischneudel gave
instructions to the driver, then got in next to me and closed the
door. The taxi leaped back into the flow of traffic, wheels
screeching dramatically as we raced to catch the next green light
on Ninth, heading down to the Village.
I said to Leischneudel, “Are you serious? The fans
are reading all that into the play?”
“Some of them are.” He added with a smile, “The
ones who dress up like Jane, anyhow.”
“That interpretation is quite a stretch. I mean,
I’d like the play a lot better if it were actually that
interesting.”
“Me, too,” he agreed.
“But honestly, I still think it’s just a gothic
melodrama about three not-very-bright people who get preyed on by a
hungry, oversexed vampire.”
“I know,” said Leischneudel, who had struggled hard
in rehearsal to understand why his character fell into a
self-destructive decline and let his sister be victimized, rather
than exposing Ruthven as a lecher and a murderer. “But wouldn’t it
be nice if we were in a play as good as the one the fans think
they’re watching?”
“Indeed.” After a moment it occurred to me that
Leischneudel was so terrified of the fans that (despite the
touching promise he had made this evening to protect me from them)
he usually hid behind me whenever we saw them. So I said, “Wait a
minute. How do you know what the fans are saying?”
“Fan blogs,” he said. “I took my laptop to the
vet’s today. And I had a lot of time on my hands while they
treated Mimi.”
“This is what the fans talk about online?
Ruthven’s hidden depths?”
Leischneudel laughed at my incredulous tone. “Among
other things. They talk a lot about Daemon, too, of course. About
his lifestyle, about his career, and about wanting to, um, meet
him. They also talk about us—the other actors in the show—which is
sometimes interesting . . . and sometimes embarrassing.”
“Let me guess,” I said dryly. “Your
trousers?”
“Sometimes.” He cleared his throat.
Leischneudel was well-proportioned, and his costume
fit him like a second skin.
He continued, “Mostly, they talk a lot about being
vampires, or wanting to be vampires, or what they think vampires
are like. They also talk about wanting to, um, get personal with a
vampire.”
“No kidding?” I said dryly.
“They parse every scene in the play, particularly
the ones with Daemon, analyzing every line, every movement, and
every glance to a degree that’s either scholarly or obsessive—I
can’t quite decide.”
“I’m voting for obsessive,” I said.
“And some of them talk about wishing they were
Jane.”
“Not that I’d want to spoil a good blog discussion
with finicky details,” I said, “but Jane gets murdered at the age
of twenty-four.”
“Maybe some of the fans think it would be worth
dying young, to get bitten by Ruthven—or Daemon—in the final
embrace.” Leischneudel shrugged. “Or maybe they fantasize that he’d
turn them, and they’d become his undead true love.”
“Good grief.” I thought over everything he had
said. “Well, if those fans are so hot for Daemon—or the ‘vampire
lifestyle,’ or whatever—that they’re idealizing a one-dimensional
villain like Ruthven and interpreting him as a complex and tortured
character ... I guess that explains a lot about the show’s
popularity.”
Leischneudel leaned forward to peer ahead, through
the cab’s windshield. “Speaking of which . . .”
“What’s going on here?” the driver asked as we
approached the street the theater was on.
I rolled down my window to look ahead and saw that
the crowd was even bigger tonight than it had been on the previous
two nights. As our cab pulled up to the police barricade blocking
the side street, flashbulbs started going off in my face—making me
glad I had taken the trouble to apply makeup to my bruised
eye.
A thick crowd of people gathered around the taxi as
soon as it came to a halt. Some of them were wearing ordinary
street clothing, but others wore costumes so elaborate they would
need special assistance to maneuver their butts into their theater
seats later—if they’d been able to get tickets to one of tonight’s
sold-out performances. Some of the costumes were
professional-looking creations that included fanciful wings,
spiderwebs, hooves, or talons. Other fans were wearing all-purpose
goth or bondage outfits—some of which were less than perfectly
flattering to the wearers.
Our cab driver flinched and uttered a startled
curse when two people whose costumes were disturbingly realistic
imitations of bloodless corpses flung themselves across the
windshield of the car to peer inside at all of us. I hastily rolled
up my window when a toothy monster tried to reach into the car to
grab me.
Another flashbulb went off in my face as someone
tried to capture the moment. Since the fans surely knew the sight
of Daemon’s car by now, I supposed they were rushing our cab
because they were just eager to catch a glimpse of anyone
associated with the show.
A cape-clad creature with a rotting face thudded
its fist on the hood of the car.
The cab driver sputtered, “Who are these ... these
. . .”
A growling, hissing vampire suddenly tried to open
Leischneudel’s locked door. My startled companion scooted closer to
me.
Our agitated driver said, “What are these
... these . . .”
“These,” I said wearily, “are the
vamparazzi.”