22
Rob sighed as he crossed out the name on the whiteboard. It was late afternoon, and his shift was almost over. Despite the blinds being closed, it was still way too hot in his small office, and he was sweating. He and Jackson were staring at the incident board on the wall. He crossed out the name, Ted. “That’s the last of Ruth’s lodgers accounted for. He’s in San Quentin.”
Jackson frowned at the board. “So who does that leave us with?”
“No one—or the whole town. Take your pick.”
“This makes no sense at all, does it?” Jackson looked. “We’ve eliminated all the suspects, including your sister, and we’re still turning up blank.”
Rob sat down heavily behind his desk and shoved a hand through his damp hair. “Maybe it is just random acts of vandalism after all. Some kids who’ve heard the old stories and thought it would be fun to mess around with Ally now that she’s back.”
“I suppose that could be it, but it feels way more personal to me. Do you get that?”
Rob nodded. “Yeah, like someone really wants to hurt her.” He grabbed his hat. “I’m going to talk to Lauren one more time, and then I’m going to take Ally her keys.”
“Try and persuade her to come to our place tonight.”
“I already asked her.” Rob paused in the doorway. “You okay with that?”
Jackson grimaced. “I’m hoping she didn’t mean that shit she said about me.”
“I don’t think she did. She was worried about you this morning.”
“Yeah?” Jackson smiled. “Good to know. I can work with that.”
“Then I’ll catch you later.”
 
Ally swallowed hard and stared at Jane’s smiling face. “Um, Jane? What’s with the knife?”
“Oh, I brought that because I thought you might not want to talk to me. It’s quite sharp.”
Ally retreated slowly toward the back door. “I’m happy to talk to you, so could you just put it away?”
“The back door is double locked, Ally, and you don’t have the key—Rob does. I saw him leave with it. You won’t be able to unlock it before I get to you.”
Ally went still. “Okay, so can we just talk?”
Jane patted the table. “Come and sit down, then.”
Ally didn’t really want to go anywhere near Jane, but she had little choice. As she took her seat, she scanned the countertops again for her cell.
“Ally, I’m not stupid. I took your cell phone when I broke the glass last night. I wasn’t very happy to see you’d changed the locks, but at least I got that. I thought it might come in handy.”
Ally studied Jane’s pleasant face. “So this was about Rob all along?”
Jane smiled. “Not all of it. He’s obviously not the man I took him for if he’s hooked up with you again, is he?”
“So, what else?”
“I think you know, Ally. Why else did you mention ghosts on the phone? Taunting me like that was not a good idea. I refuse to be blackmailed by scum like you.”
Fear curdled in Ally’s gut, but she concentrated on looking relaxed. Surely the longer she kept Jane talking, the more likely she’d find a way out of this nightmarish situation.
“I’m not sure what you mean.”
Ally jumped as Jane pointed the knife straight at her. “Don’t lie to me.” Jane paused to push a stray hair back from her face. “Rob was coming around to the idea of marrying me quite nicely before you turned up with your slutty ways.” She sniffed. “I’m not surprised Jackson was sniffing around you, but I thought better of Rob.”
“Why don’t you like Jackson?”
Jane opened her eyes wide at Ally. “I told you why. Because he wants Rob all to himself.”
“You also told me you hated him because he killed Susan.”
Jane shrugged. “Well that was just to make you suspicious of him. Unfortunately, it didn’t work, but I had to try.”
Ally bit down hard on her lip. She felt as if she’d strayed into an alternate universe. Jane seemed far too calm and relaxed to be contemplating harm, but she had a knife. . . .
“So this is all about Rob. Don’t you think you’re being a bit overdramatic? Can’t we all just sit down and talk it through like adults?”
Jane’s smile disappeared. “It’s about my life and my future with the man I love, Ally. I don’t think that’s being melodramatic at all.”
“I really don’t know what you’re after, Jane. If you wanted to scare me into leaving Spring Falls, you’ve pretty much achieved your aim. I’m terrified.”
Jane leaned forward. “You’ll be leaving, one way or another, but not until you give me what I’m looking for.”
“Which is?” Ally hissed when the tip of the knife cut her cheek. She instinctively recoiled and pushed herself away from the table.
Jane stood up and looked reproachful. “I want the journal.”
Ally held her hand to her burning cheek and edged away from Jane. “Didn’t you already take that?”
“I took your mom’s journal where she talked about that night, but the pages I wanted were ripped out.”
“What pages?” Ally glanced at the doorway into the hall. Could she reach that before Jane and get to the front door? She wasn’t sure.
For the first time, Jane looked agitated. “Your mom was writing stuff about me and what happened to Susan.” Her frown deepened. “After Susan’s death, I came back here and told your mom that if she talked to the police about me being there, I’d tell them that you were with Susan when she died.”
Ally stretched out her hand for a piece of paper towel to mop up the blood rolling down her face. “But I had an alibi.”
“Your mom was so drunk, she didn’t know anything, so she agreed to keep quiet. But now you’re back disturbing everything, and I just know you’re going to find those pages and give them to Rob, and I can’t have that.”
There was a slightly hysterical note in Jane’s voice that made Ally want to run like hell. Instead, she edged toward the doorway. “Then I think I might’ve found what you’re looking for in the dining room. You can have the pages, okay? I don’t want them. I really don’t care what they say either. My mom wasn’t exactly the most reliable witness in the world.”
Jane blocked her path and brought the knife up to Ally’s throat. “Nice try, Ally, but I’m coming with you. We’ll retrieve the pages together.”
Keeping the knife angled against Ally’s neck, Jane picked up her purse and nudged Ally forward. “Where exactly did you find them?”
“They were down the back of the drawers. I found them when I was putting all the stuff back after you broke in.”
Jane stiffened. “I didn’t ‘break in.’ I just borrowed your back door key in case I needed to get my pie dish and you weren’t home.”
Ally had nothing to say to that. Apparently Jane could justify the craziest actions imaginable.
“Did you read them?” Jane asked.
“No.” Ally tried to sound relaxed. “I only found them this morning, so I haven’t had a chance. If you take them, you’ll be the only one who knows what’s written there.”
“I can’t take that chance, Ally. Your mom probably told you all about it.”
“I haven’t spoken to my mom in ten years.”
Jane put her purse on the now-cleared table, right next to the monitor and keyboard. She gestured Ally forward to the desk. “Give them to me.”
Ally hated having to turn slightly away from Jane, who was fishing for something in her purse again. It seemed that no one was coming to save her, so she’d have to do something to help herself. She opened the second drawer, which was full of her mother’s black journals.
“Give me a minute, Jane. I put it right under all these books.”
She picked up a stack of about ten journals, spun around, and threw them at Jane’s face. As Jane shrieked and lunged for her, Ally shoved the nearest chair across Jane’s path and ran for the front door. She flung it open and spotted Rob’s patrol car pulling into the drive.
Jane was behind her now, the knife blade glinting in the sun as she raised her arm. Ally saw Rob’s startled face as he flung open the door of his car and faced them, his gun leveled at Jane.
“Put the knife down, Jane.”
“Or you’ll shoot?” Jane smiled and grabbed Ally’s braid, yanking her closer. “Shoot Ally. She deserves it, not me. I’m just trying to clear up a few things around here.”
Rob remained still, his pale gaze fixed on Jane. “Let Ally go and drop the knife. Then we’ll talk, okay?”
Ally swallowed convulsively as Rob’s gaze flicked over her and then fixed unerringly on Jane. “Drop the knife, Jane.”
“Well, for goodness’ sake, there’s no need to get so serious, Rob!” Jane tossed the knife away and released her hold on Ally’s braid. Ally fell to her knees and forced herself to breathe. “Ally’s just overreacting!”
Another patrol car rounded the corner at speed, and Jane’s gaze narrowed. “I hope that’s not Jackson. If he’d gotten here sooner, I might have held on to that knife so he could watch me stick it in you, Sheriff.”
Rob moved forward and kicked the knife away toward the gutter. “You going to come down to the station quietly, Jane?”
Jane frowned. “Why do I need to go anywhere? Ally’s going to give me the pages, so everything’s okay now. I didn’t really hurt her. It’s just a scratch.”
Rob stared at Jane. She sounded so normal, it was downright weird. He held open the door of his car. “Humor me, okay?”
Jane sighed. “Well, can Ally get my purse? I left it in the dining room on the table, and I hate not to have it with me.”
“I’ll make sure you get your purse.” Rob motioned her toward the car. “I just want to ask you a few questions.”
Jane got into the back of the car and then froze and tried to grab his arm. “But Ally hasn’t given me the pages. I can’t go yet.” Rob pushed her back into the car, expertly handcuffed her wrists behind her, and shut the door. Her face contorted with rage as she realized she couldn’t get out, and she started banging her shoulder against the glass.
Rob moved to where Ally still sat on the driveway, hugging her knees. “You okay, honey?”
“I . . .” She looked at him and shook her head. “What the hell is up with that woman?”
“I have no idea, but she sounds completely nuts to me.” He touched Ally’s bloodied face and realized his fingers were shaking. “Do you need to go to the ER?”
A shadow loomed over them, and, thank God, Jackson was there. He had the knife in a plastic evidence bag, which he handed to Rob. “Take Jane in. Ally can fill me in on the details.”
Rob helped Ally stand up. Despite the heat, she was shivering. He didn’t want to leave her, but he knew he had no choice. “Yeah, take her inside, Jackson, and look after her. She needs it.”
“Sure.”
Jane was red-faced and screaming now, all composure gone as she banged on the window. When he got into the car, Rob braced himself for a tirade of abuse, but Jane seemed perfectly normal again. He kept himself busy on the short drive, arranging for immediate backup from the county mental health department.
 
Jackson put his arm around Ally and walked her back into the house. She was shaking so violently he wanted to take her someplace quiet and just hold her. But he knew Rob would expect him to get some of the official details out of the way before he succumbed to his softer side.
She paused at the door of the dining room, and he noted the overturned chair and the journals scattered all over the floor. A big flowery purse sat on the table next to the computer. “So Jane had a knife, and you threw the book at her, literally, right?”
“I threw a whole pile of books at her, and then I blocked her by pulling the chair over. It gave me just enough time to get to the front door before she could get to me.”
Jackson squeezed her shoulders. “You did great, Ally. The worst thing to do is to try and get the knife off someone. Unless you know what you’re doing, you usually end up hurting yourself.”
She gulped in a breath. “I remembered something about that from the self-defense classes I took when I lived in New York. I knew the best thing was to keep her away from me and run like hell.”
Jackson kissed the top of her head and set the chair upright. He pulled a thin pair of gloves out of his back pocket and opened Jane’s purse. He took out a heavy plastic bag and showed it to Ally.
“Hell, she had a gun in here too.” He realized he sounded almost as shaken as Ally did. All-too-familiar gruesome images of what he and Rob might have found at the house if they hadn’t gotten there fast enough flashed through his brain.
“Somehow that doesn’t surprise me.” Ally sat down with a thump on one of the chairs. “She’d probably worked out a plan to shoot me and make it look like suicide or something.”
Jackson left the purse and turned back to Ally. She looked exhausted and no wonder. She’d had a hell of an afternoon. He crouched down in front of her and touched her knee. “I know you probably don’t want to talk about this right now, but I need to know what she was after.”
“I understand.” Jackson waited as Ally visibly composed herself. “At first I thought she just wanted to run me out of town because she’s obsessed with Rob.” She glanced down at him. “That’s why she doesn’t like you either, Jackson. But then I realized it was a lot more complicated than that. She thinks my mom wrote incriminating stuff about her and Susan in her journal.”
Jackson frowned. “But didn’t she take that journal?”
“Apparently my mom had already ripped the crucial pages out, and Jane wanted them back.” Ally shook her head. “I feel like such a fool. I invited Jane in this afternoon. I had no idea all this crazy stuff was floating around in her head. She thought I’d found the pages and was trying to blackmail her.” Jackson winced as her grip tightened on his fingers. “It’s got me wondering about whether my mom deliberately made me leave that night.”
“Your mom?”
“Jane said she threatened to tell the police that I left this house with Susan on the night she died.” Ally studied his face. “Maybe Ruth tried to drive me away to keep me safe.”
Ally got up and headed for the boarded-up fireplace. “My mom left me a message in her last journal asking me to set the past straight.” She studied the painted-over boards. “When I was a kid, she used to pretend to play hide-and-seek with me so that I learned how to stash her drugs.” She winced, and inwardly Jackson cringed with her.
She gestured at the fireplace. “Do you think you could break this open for me?”
Jackson eyed the plywood. “Sure. I’ve got a pry bar in my car.”
It took him less than five minutes to pull the old plywood away from the gaping hole. He stood back to let Ally kneel on the brick hearth. She reached her arm up inside the chimney and felt around for something.
“There’s a little ledge right here. . . .” Her expression changed. “Oh God . . .”
He moved closer as she pulled down a faded pink backpack and laid it on the brick.
“This was my backpack when I was a kid,” Ally whispered.
Jackson touched her shoulder. “Let me open it, okay? I have gloves on.” He unzipped the top all the way around and peered into the pinkish glow of the interior. He carefully drew out an old teddy bear and a plastic container.
“That teddy was mine,” Ally said. She sounded resigned. “It’s probably got my mom’s drug supply still in the back.”
Jackson turned the teddy over, undid the buttons on the back of the dress, and slid his fingers into the cavity beneath.
“Not drugs, Ally. Money.” He showed her the thick roll of one-hundred-dollar bills tied with an elastic band. “Interesting place to keep your savings.” He put the teddy down and rested the rolled bills on its chest. He turned his attention to the sealed container, which seemed to contain lots of smaller bagged items. When he opened the lid, he grimaced at the faint smell. “That’s definitely weed, but it doesn’t smell too fresh to me.”
Ally squeezed his shoulder. “That’s probably why my mom agreed to go along with Jane. She didn’t want the police in the house anyway because of the drugs. Is there anything else?”
Jackson refocused his tangled thoughts and picked up the teddy bear again. Something crackled and he pulled out two folded pieces of paper.
Ally let out a long breath. “That must be what Jane was looking for.”
“I’d say so.”
Jackson got up and grabbed the evidence bags he’d gotten from his car when he got the pry bar. “Let’s put all this stuff away until we can get it to Rob.”
“Yes.” Ally sounded dazed. “I’m not sure I want to deal with it at the moment.”
Jackson took her hand and drew her into his arms. “It’s okay, Ally. Everything will be all right now.”
She didn’t say anything, just buried her face into his shoulder and held on. Jackson drew her even closer and rested his cheek on her hair. He was quite happy to stay like that for the rest of his life. Eventually she looked up at him, her expression rueful.
“I’m sorry. I’m behaving like a girl, aren’t I?”
“You are a girl, and considering what you’ve had to deal with recently, you’ve done good.”
She let go of him and headed for the kitchen. “Do I need to go down to the sheriff’s department and make a statement?”
“Yeah, at some point that would be great, but there’s no rush.”
She swung around to look at him, her face resolute. “I’d like to get it over with as soon as possible.”
He nodded. “I’ll call Rob, tell him what we found and ask him what he’d like us to do.” He paused as she kept staring at him. “What?”
“You’re always so nice to me, Jackson, and I really don’t deserve it.”
“I like you.” He shrugged, still unable to use the other L-word and not sure she could handle hearing it right now. “I always have.”
She reached for him and cupped his cheek, her gray eyes full of tears. “Weird, because I like you too.”
He briefly touched her fingers in response and struggled to find the right words. “How about you put on some coffee? Seeing as neither of us can drink responsibly, we need something to get us through this.”
Her smile flickered out. “Sure, that’s a great idea.”
He went to leave and then turned back to her and yanked her right into his arms. He kissed her with a thoroughness that drew an instant response from her, making him hard and ready to fuck her until she clung to him and begged him never to stop.
He managed to pull away. “Shit, I’m sorry. That’s not exactly appropriate, is it?”
She licked her lips. “You behaving like a caveman and staking a claim on your woman? Sometimes you and Rob are just the same.”
He nipped her lower lip. “I want you to be my woman—mine and Rob’s. Do you get that? Do you understand?”
She stared into his eyes. “I hear you, Jackson, but we’re all so emotionally screwed up at the moment, what with Jane and my mom and everything. . . . I can’t bring myself to just let go, because at this moment if I did, I’d just want you to take me to bed, strip me naked, and fuck my brains out.”
Jackson’s cock kicked hard against his uniform pants. “Don’t say things like that, Ally,” he said hoarsely. “Not fair.”
“Because you’d do it, wouldn’t you? And that goes against everything you’ve been trained to do, which just illustrates my point that we’re not emotionally ready to deal with this yet.”
Jackson took some long, slow breaths. “Okay.”
“Okay?” Ally raised her eyebrows.
“I’m going to let you go and I’ll call Rob right now.” Jackson took himself back into the dining room and radioed Rob. The scent of coffee drifted down the hallway to him as he waited to be patched through.
“Hey.”
Rob’s calm voice steadied Jackson immediately.
“Boss, we found a whole bunch of stuff hidden up the chimney, including pages from Ruth Kendal’s journal.” Jackson glanced at the bagged-up items on the table and saw the teddy bear. Emotion clawed at his throat at the thought of Susan, who hadn’t deserved any of this, hadn’t deserved to be treated like shit by him and certainly hadn’t deserved to die. . . .
“Jackson?”
He tried to turn his focus back to what Rob needed to hear. “Yeah, so Ally wants to come in and give you her statement. Do you want me to go ahead and bring her?”
“Sure, if that’s what she wants. We have Jane secured, so Ally won’t have to see her.”
“Okay, we’ll be there in about half an hour.” Jackson shut off the connection and went back to the kitchen. Ally sat at the table drinking her coffee. She looked up at him when he came in.
“Jackson, what’s wrong?”
He sat down heavily in the chair and covered his face with his hands. “What the fuck do I know about loving someone? Look what I did to Susan. How the fuck do I dare think I can love you?”
He was aware of Ally moving and then felt her hand on his knee as she knelt in front of him. “Jackson, it wasn’t your fault.”
“I let her down, Ally. She was so mad at me, and she was right to be mad. She told me that she’d figured out I wanted Rob and that I should’ve been brave enough to stand up for what I wanted and not drag you and her into my mess.” He forced himself to look at her. “She was so fucking smart and honest and funny. I can’t believe she went and killed herself. I just can’t.”
“Susan made her own choices, Jackson. And whatever really happened that night, we can be sure Jane had a hand in it somewhere.” Her eyes widened. “Hell, Jane was here, wasn’t she? My mom must have written about her. She’s the person Susan was seen with.”
“Yeah, but . . .” Jackson swallowed hard. “Shit, I . . .”
Ally wrapped her arms around him, and something inside him, something he’d held so deep through all the long, lonely years, seemed to shatter. He leaned into her shoulder and allowed himself to cry.
“It’s okay, Jackson,” Ally whispered as she stroked his hair. “It really is going to be okay.”