21
Even though she was sandwiched between Jackson and Rob, Ally managed to wiggle out of the bed and head for the bathroom in Rob’s part of the house. She studied her ravaged and swollen face in the mirror and wanted to groan. She also surveyed her clothes. How the hell could she go straight to work wearing a pair of shorts and a thin top with no bra?
She shut the door to the bathroom and turned on the shower, waited until the water ran hot, and stepped inside. How she had ended up back in Jackson’s bed with both men making love to her was still a mystery. The last thing she remembered was trying to sleep and fighting off the desire to crawl back to the guys. Maybe that was what she’d done? But, no, she had a faint memory of Rob carrying her, his voice soothing as he kissed away her tears.
Ally closed her eyes and rested her forehead against the wall, letting the water stream down her back. She’d woken up from a hot dream of them fucking her and just carried the dream into reality. Their lovemaking had been as fierce and raunchy as she wanted, both men responding to her desire to blot out the fear and take her to another place where all she’d been able to think about was what they were doing to her.
Someone tapped on the glass door, and she jumped and spluttered in the water.
“Ally, you okay?”
It was Rob. He was naked and tousled, his blue eyes full of concern as he studied her.
“I’m fine.”
He nodded and pressed his palm against the glass as if he wished it weren’t separating them. “I’ll take you home so you can check out the damage, okay?”
She nodded at him, too overwhelmed to speak, and for once he didn’t press her. Ally finished her shower and got dressed in the only clothes she had. When she reached the kitchen, Rob was making breakfast. He pointed at a seat at the table.
“Eat.”
Ally sat and he put a mug of coffee and a piece of brown toast in front of her. She concentrated on forcing the toast down while Rob took another mug of coffee that she assumed was for Jackson back through the house. She swallowed hard. Jackson probably didn’t want to see her after the awful thing she’d said about him last night.
Rob came back in and buckled on his heavy belt. “You ready to go?”
Ally managed to speak. “I’m supposed to be at work.”
“I know. Jackson’s going to talk to Lauren before he clocks in for his shift.”
Ally stood up and looked uncertainly down the hallway. “Is Jackson okay?”
“He’ll get over himself.”
“I didn’t mean what I said,” Ally blurted out.
“I’m sure he knows that, honey.” Rob held the back door open. “Are you coming?”
There was nothing else to do but follow Rob out into the bright morning sunshine and get into his truck. Ally huddled down in the seat and watched the houses pass by. Someone in Spring Falls didn’t want her there, and it could be anyone. A rock could come right through Rob’s windshield at any moment.
Ally shivered and Rob’s narrowed gaze flicked over her again. “You cold?”
“A little.” She tried to smile. “I’ll need to get some clean clothes before I go on to work.”
“Sure.”
Ally tensed as they pulled into her driveway. From the front, the house looked its normal shabby self. Rob shut off the engine and walked around to open her door.
“Do you want to stay in the truck? I can check out the damage and get you some clothes if you give me your new keys.”
Ally fished out her keys. “Oh, God, Rob, we changed the locks. That’s why the person couldn’t get in and smashed the glass instead.”
“Yeah, that makes sense.” Rob held out his hand. “You coming?”
Ally took a deep breath. She refused to let this beat her. She took Rob’s proffered hand and he smiled.
“Good girl.”
She ignored him and went toward the side gate, her fingers entwined with his, her heart beating erratically. She could hardly bear to look.
“Yeah,” Rob said. “Someone couldn’t get in and pitched a hissy fit all right.” He walked closer and removed the plywood that was duct-taped over the gaping hole in the back door’s glass panel. “Threw one of your plant pots right through the glass to try and get to the new lock.”
Ally peered over his shoulder. “At least the damage isn’t too bad.”
“It isn’t. You’ll be fine once you’ve cleaned up a bit and I fit the new glass.” Rob nodded at the door. “Why don’t you open up so that we can see the damage?”
With shaking hands, Ally unlocked the back door and let it swing open. Rob touched her arm. “Let me go in first. I’ve got boots on. I’ll get the vacuum and brushes, okay?”
Ally let him crunch through the broken glass to her storage cupboard and waited until he returned with the cleaning stuff. She moved forward to help, and he held up his hand. “Look, let me do this while you go get dressed.”
“Are you sure?”
His smile made her heart turn over. “It’s the least I can do.”
“Are you going to check for fingerprints or anything?”
Rob was crouched down on his haunches, the dustpan and brush in his hand. “Jeff checked the outside last night before he boarded it up, but I’ll see if there are any fragments of the flower pot big enough to dust.” He cleared his throat. “Trouble is, there’s soil on everything and it’s extremely hard to get prints off terra-cotta anyway.”
Ally inched past him and headed to her bedroom. As she changed, she could hear the sounds of Rob clearing up, the clattering of glass, the low hum of the ancient vacuum cleaner. She repaired her face as best she could and brushed out her hair before braiding it again. She put on her jeans and a stouter pair of shoes and went back to join Rob in the kitchen.
He looked up at her from his position on the floor. “You got any gallon-size ziplock bags, Ally?”
“Sure.” She maneuvered around him to the right drawer and handed him the box, noticing that he’d pulled on a thick pair of gloves he must have gotten from his truck. “What did you find?”
“A few big fragments of clay pot. They might yield nothing, but at least we can have a look.”
The kitchen clock chimed seven times, and Ally winced. She was almost two hours late for her shift, and Lauren was not the most forgiving of employers.
“Ally, why don’t you go on in to work? Take my truck. I’ll finish up here and bring your keys back to the diner.”
She spun around to stare at Rob. Sometimes it seemed he could read her mind. “Thanks, but it’s okay. You’ll need your truck. I can walk in.”
He frowned. “Are you sure, honey? I could ask one of the guys to drive by and pick you up.”
She met his stare head-on. “I think I’d like to walk. It’s only ten minutes. I can’t hide forever.”
Rob stood up and walked across to her. “You’re a brave woman, Ms. Kendal.”
“No, I’m not. Look what I did last night, running to you and Jackson like a screeching baby.”
He kissed her nose. “I’m glad you came to me and so is Jackson.”
Ally hesitated. “Look, if there really is something serious going on between you guys, I’m okay with it. Jackson’s always wanted you, and I’m kind of glad that he’s finally getting what he wants.”
A smile kicked up the corner of Rob’s mouth. “I’m kind of glad too.”
Ally patted his smooth cheek. “To be honest, I never thought you’d go for it.”
Rob shrugged. “Jackson’s a special case. I guess I knew what he wanted all along, but I could never get my head around it until you came back.” He paused. “It’s like something inside me knew it would work if we were all together again.”
“That’s great.” Ally tried to keep her voice from trembling. She would be glad for them, she would.
“I realized a lot of things.” He lightly kissed her lips. “We’ll be talking about some of them as soon as this case is cleared up, so don’t even think about leaving town.”
“But if I went, you and Jackson could be happy together.”
“Yeah, right.” Rob’s faint smile died. “We’ll talk about it, okay? Now get to work before Lauren gets on my ass.”
Ally stood on tiptoe to kiss him and then turned away, her thoughts in turmoil, her emotions completely gutted. Could she really walk away and leave Rob and Jackson to their happy ever after? She put on her sunglasses and walked down to the corner of the street.
She should leave. Maybe her presence in Spring Falls had done some good after all. But what about her? Where would she go, and what did she have to look forward to? Ally swallowed a lump in her throat and looked resolutely toward the town center. She had friends. She had a place at college, and she would make damn sure she passed every single exam and aced every paper to fulfill her dream of becoming a teacher.
Jill would welcome her back to New York with open arms and put her up for as long as she needed. She could even look up Dave and go backpacking around the country. Surely after facing Spring Falls, she could face anything?
By the time she reached the diner, she was way too hot and glad to duck inside the kitchen, which was hot in a different way, but at least had some air-conditioning. Fig waved his spatula at her, his face flushed as he flipped half a dozen pancakes.
Ally put her apron on and headed for the front of the diner. She hated how vulnerable she suddenly felt, like any of the folks eating their breakfast might jump up and try to throttle her.
“Everything all right, Ally?”
Ally almost jumped out of her skin as Lauren came up behind her. “I’m sorry I’m late.”
Lauren frowned. “Jackson said someone smashed your kitchen window in.” She touched Ally’s shoulder. “Are you okay?”
Ally blinked at Lauren. “I’m . . . fine, thanks. I can work the two extra hours after the end of my shift.”
Lauren waved a hand. “There’s no need. You go home and rest up, okay?”
Ally stared after her boss. What had just happened? Had Lauren actually been pleasant to her? She grabbed her spray bottle and hurried toward the first booth.
“Good morning, Ally.” She turned to see an elderly couple who lived down the street from her ensconced in the next booth. They came in every weekday morning to take advantage of the senior specials. “You’re late today. Did you have an appointment?”
“Morning, Mr. and Mrs. Ford.” Ally smiled. Living in a small town meant any changes in your routine were always noted and commented upon. “Just a problem with some broken glass I had to clean up before I left the house.”
Mrs. Ford nudged her husband in the ribs. “I told you I heard something last night. I thought about calling that nice sheriff. Did you get burgled, dear?”
“No, thank goodness. I had new locks installed last week.”
“Now that’s an excellent idea.” Mrs. Ford nodded and poked her husband again. “We should do that, George.” Mr. Ford grunted something and returned his attention to his eggs. “Well, I’m glad that you’re okay, Ally dear. We wouldn’t want anything to hurt you. It’s always a treat to see your smiling face.”
Ally turned back to her work, aware all at once that no one in New York would ever notice or care if she came into work on time or not. Spring Falls had its downside, but perhaps everyone wasn’t out to get her after all.
 
Ally left work around one and walked back through the mainly deserted streets. It was approaching ninety-five degrees, and most sensible folks had retreated into their air-conditioned homes and cars. She couldn’t begin to imagine how anyone had survived out here back in the gold rush days of the last century.
Rob had left word with Lauren that it was all clear to go home, although he hadn’t left her back door keys. As she walked up the street, she studied the bland façade of the ranch house. Did it feel like a home? She felt as unsafe and unsettled there as she had when she was a kid.
Outside the actual house, there had been good times with Rob, Jackson, and Lauren. She’d been lucky to have them as friends. They’d been her family, and they’d made her life far more bearable. Ally gripped her keys in her fist and approached the peeling cream paint on the front door. The door opened easily, and she went into the cool darkness of the hallway.
The house would have to go.
The thought crystallized in Ally’s brain, and she let out her breath. Even if she kept a base in Spring Falls, she couldn’t live here. With the money her mom had left her in the bank, she could put the house on the market and take the best offer available without worrying about every cent. It was time to call a Realtor and talk about putting it on the market.
Ally progressed farther down the hall and into the kitchen. The glass in the door had been repaired, and there was no sign of any damage. A note from Rob was propped up against the ancient toaster. She read it out loud.
“ ‘All clear here. But come over and spend the night anyway—Rob and Jackson.’ ” He’d added three Xs and three interlinked hearts; that made her smile, which was probably exactly what he’d intended.
She propped the note up on the table and hesitated by the phone. Hadn’t Jane said something about having a friend who was a Realtor? Maybe she should call Jane and get the number now while she was still determined to sell the place. She looked around the countertops. Where the hell was her cell phone? Had Rob put it somewhere safe for her? After a quick fruitless search, she used the landline to dial Jane’s number, which she’d found stuck on the refrigerator under the pizza delivery service flyer.
“Hey, Jane?”
“Yes, it’s me. What can I do for you, Ally?”
Ally propped her hip on the edge of the table. “I was wondering if you had the number of that Realtor friend of yours handy.”
“Alison Haymore? Yes, I’m sure I have it here somewhere.” There was a rustling sound. “Have you decided to sell the house already?”
“I’m thinking about it.”
“You’re leaving town?”
Ally smiled at the hope in Jane’s voice. “Well, I’m not sure about that yet, but I really want to get rid of the house.”
“Why’s that?”
Despite the heat, Ally shivered. “Because it’s full of ghosts.”
There was a pause before Jane replied, “Darn it, I can’t find the number. I’ll go look for it, and then I’ll bring it over, okay?”
“Sure. I’m not going anywhere until nine tonight.”
“Great, well, I’ll drop in later, then. Bye!”
Ally disconnected and then got herself a cold glass of water. She’d shower, finish reading Ruth’s journal, and wait for Jane to turn up.
 
Two hours later, Ally was almost finished reading. Ruth’s struggle with the cancer that had eventually killed her made Ally sad. She was just about to close the book when she noticed there was another page of text, and it was addressed directly to her. She turned the page and started to read.
 
Dear Ally, I hope you get to read these journals of mine and don’t just throw them in the trash. There’s a lot of junk in this house, and I can’t seem to stop it growing. My friends want to help me clear it out, but if I let them do that, things might emerge that I’d rather not deal with. I’m hoping you’ll deal with them for me, Ally, which is a lot to ask from a mother who sucked at mothering and let you down. But then, I’ve always been a coward. Perhaps you can set things right. Do you remember when you were a little girl and I taught you how to play hide-and-seek with that favorite teddy of yours? You didn’t realize I’d stuff my drugs in the back of the teddy so that if we got busted, the cops wouldn’t look there. Pathetic, I know. I’m almost ashamed to write it. But there it is. Find the teddy, find the truth, and do what you think best.
Ally closed the book and studied the black cover, her mind scrolling back through the years to picture the ragged teddy her mother was talking about. It was the bear Ruth had bought her at the zoo. She closed her eyes and evened out her breathing. Where had she hidden the thing? Her mother had always told her the best places, and Ally hadn’t realized why.
What was her mother talking about anyway? What had she concealed, and why? Ally raised her head and stared blindly at the wall. It all made a terrible kind of sense now. Someone was after something in the house, and her mother was suggesting she had something to hide, but what?
The doorbell rang, startling Ally. She put the book away and went to open the front door. Jane was there, her smile beaming, her flowery pink dress making her look as fresh and cool as a morning breeze.
“Hey, Ally. I was going out, anyway, so I thought I’d bring the phone number by.” Jane walked down the hall and into the kitchen, her head bent as she riffled through her large flowered purse. “I have a flyer here somewhere with a discount on it.”
“That’s great, Jane.” Ally followed her guest, her thoughts still far away.
Jane glanced at the back door. “I see you got everything fixed up nicely.”
“Yeah, Rob was very kind and did the glass for me.”
“Rob did?” Jane put her purse on the table and continued to rummage through it. “Darn it, I know I put the thing in here.” Her gaze fell on the note Ally had left on the table. “Oh.”
For some reason, Ally wanted to snatch the piece of paper away before Jane finished reading it.
Jane abandoned her search. “Why would Rob invite you to stay at his house when you’re leaving?”
Ally shrugged. “He’s just doing his job.”
“You think he invites everyone involved in a crime scene to stay over?”
Ally sat down at the table. “Rob and I have been friends for years. He’s a bit overprotective.”
Jane took the seat opposite Ally, her cheeks now flushed, her mouth set in a firm, unyielding line. “You’re seeing him again, aren’t you?”
“I’m . . .” Ally wanted to squirm in her seat. “It’s not like we’re going out or anything, Jane. We just have a few things to sort out before I leave.” Wow, that sounded lame even to Ally.
“So you’re going to sell this house and move in with Rob?”
“That’s not what I said. Selling this house has nothing to do with him.”
Jane fiddled with the handles of her purse. “I suppose I should’ve seen it coming, really. I know what you’re doing with Rob, Ally. I’ve seen you.”
“And I know you won’t believe me, but it doesn’t mean anything.”
“Because it’s just sex?”
“Yeah.” Ally felt awful. “I know for you there’s probably no difference between being in a relationship and just having sex, but for Rob and me, it’s different.”
Jane’s lip wobbled. “That’s a lie, Ally. The kinds of lies men tell themselves so that they can get what they want from women. My dad was like that with my mom. I never thought I’d hear you use the same perverted logic.”
Ally couldn’t answer. Trouble was, it was a lie. Ally knew she’d never been able to separate the sex from the love with Rob or with Jackson. She knew that whatever he claimed, Rob felt the same too.
She took a deep breath. “You’re right, Jane. I didn’t come back here to hurt anyone. I came to make amends, but I’ve realized that I do care for Rob.”
“And now you won’t be leaving.” Jane opened her purse and pulled out a tissue to dab at her eyes.
“I’m not sure what I’ll be doing yet. I’m still intending to go to college in the fall. That’s the truth, Jane.”
Jane sighed and dropped the tissue back in her bag. “Well, you’ve made things very complicated for me, haven’t you?”
“I’m sure if you just talk to Rob, he’ll tell you how he really feels.”
“It’s not just about Rob.” She gestured at the note. “That message has two men’s names on it.”
Something in Jane’s tone made Ally look up from her contemplation of the table. “Well, I know you don’t approve of Jackson, either, but that doesn’t have anything to do with your issues with Rob, does it?”
“You’re sleeping with both of them, Ally. Of course it does.”
“How do you know that?”
Jane made a tiny gesture of distaste. “I saw them both pawing you through the window of the diner.”
A cold lump formed somewhere in the region of Ally’s chest. “You were watching us?”
“I was walking my dog like any other citizen has a right to do and had to put up with that porn show.”
Ally felt herself blush. Jane must have gotten up pretty close to see through the blinds. There was nothing she could say about that night that wouldn’t infuriate Jane. The most obvious question as to whether Jane had hurled a rock through the window to express her disapproval screamed danger.
Needing something to do to stave off her agitation, Ally got to her feet and went across to the refrigerator. How the hell could she contact Rob or Jackson without her cell phone? “Would you like a drink, Jane? I’m parched.”
“I don’t think so, Ally.”
Ally turned back to Jane, and her throat went dry. Jane had produced a rather wicked-looking knife from her purse.
“I think I’d rather you tell me the truth.”