15
Ally checked the time on her cell phone and glanced back at the arrivals gate. Rob was due back any minute. When Jackson had been called in for an extra shift, she’d borrowed his truck and volunteered to pick Rob up from the Sacramento airport. It was another hot and steamy day, so she’d worn a simple patterned halter-neck dress and sandals, her hair loose on her shoulders. It was nice not to be cleaning something and having to wear her oldest clothes for work.
A crowd of travelers surged through the gate, and Ally had no trouble spotting Rob, who towered over most people. He wasn’t in uniform and had settled for an olive green T-shirt and khaki shorts. Ally waved at him. He instantly turned toward her, his bag slung over his shoulder.
“Ally.”
“Jackson was delayed at the last minute. I hope you don’t mind me coming instead.”
Something flickered in the depths of his light blue eyes as his mouth curved into a smile. “I’d much rather see you coming any day.”
Ally found herself unable to look away as his mouth descended on hers and he kissed her as if they were alone and naked in his bedroom. His bag thumped down onto the floor and he caged her in his embrace. She forgot where they were as his hand edged down over her ass and flirted with the hem of her short skirt.
An announcement crackled over the public-address system, and Rob wrenched his mouth away from hers. His expression was grim. “We’d better get going.”
“Okay,” Ally said breathlessly.
He picked up his bag, took her hand, and started purposefully toward the parking lot.
She tugged at his hand. “I parked inside because of the heat. We need to use the stairs or take the elevator to level four.”
Rob changed direction and soon they were climbing the echoing staircase to the parking garage’s fourth level. Ally let him lead her, her fingers held firmly in his grasp, her heart pounding. He pushed open the door, and they were in the quiet of the far left corner of the parking garage.
“My truck or yours?”
“Jackson’s, actually.” Ally pointed it out. “It’s over there.”
“Keys?”
Ally handed them over, and Rob stowed his bag in the back and then turned back to Ally. She was in his arms before she even realized his intention, his mouth voracious and demanding over hers. “I’ve been thinking about you all week, thinking about fucking you.” His hand slid under her skirt and tugged at the thin lace of her panties. “Are you wet for me?”
Ally tried to see past him to the rest of the garage, but she couldn’t, and she didn’t really want to. Having Rob touching her in such a public place turned her on, and he probably knew it. “Yes.” Two of his fingers plunged inside her, and she gasped and grabbed hold of his arm.
He ripped the seam of her panties and they slid down her legs. “I can’t wait, Ally. I need to be inside you right now.”
He backed her against the low wall at the edge of the structure and bent her over it. She felt warm air on her ass cheeks as he flipped up her skirt, the sound of his zipper, and then . . . God, he was inside her, shoving himself deep, making her breathe hard through the sudden impalement.
She opened her eyes and looked down, and was amazed to see that there was no one staring up at them. Rob slid a hand inside the top of her dress and palmed her breast, pinching her nipple hard. She came for him and tried to scream, but his other hand came up to cover her mouth and she writhed in silence.
He kept up the fast pace, slamming his length from tip to balls into her wetter and wetter sex. Even through her desire, she heard the sound of the elevator doors open and voices echoing, coming closer and closer.
Rob took his hand away from her breast and fingered her clit. He nipped her ear and murmured, “You’re going to come for me now, while these people walk right by us.”
She wanted to argue with him, but he had her pinned to the wall, his big body covering hers, his hands and cock dictating all her emotions. The voices drew closer, and he kept fucking her until she couldn’t think of anything else, would have turned on him if he’d dared to stop.
She climaxed so hard she started to shake and writhe under him, her teeth biting into his restraining hand, which made him curse.
“You okay there, sir?”
She closed her eyes as Rob stroked her hair. “Yeah, sure. My wife’s suffering from morning sickness. You know what that’s like—when you gotta puke, you gotta puke. Sorry to disturb you.”
“No problem. We just wanted to make sure everything was okay.” A woman’s voice this time, the tone warmer and more concerned.
Rob kissed the back of Ally’s neck. “You okay, honey?”
She managed a weak nod and a wave and Rob chuckled. “She’s a bit embarrassed. You know how it is.”
“I sure do.” The woman laughed. “Well, I hope everything goes okay.”
“Thanks, ma’am. I’ll take care of her.”
Their voices faded and Rob continued to stand over her, his cock still throbbing deep inside her. A car started up and moved past them. Ally guessed Rob was giving their unwanted friends a cheery wave. Silence fell back over the space, and Ally started to breathe again. Rob pinched her clit and circled his hips.
“I’m not done yet and neither are you.”
Ally groaned as he drew back, until just the crown of his cock was inside her, and then he slammed himself all the way back in. He did it again, his fingers squeezing her clit, and she came. With a curse, he started hammering into her, each stroke lifting her hips, exposing more of her sex to his powerful thrusts.
He climaxed, uttering a low, guttural roar as he bit down on the side of her neck. “Ally . . .” He collapsed over her for a moment and then moved away, scooped her up in his arms, and dumped her into the truck. She sat there quivering while he went around and got into the driver’s seat.
Ally blinked as they emerged into the bright sunlight and waited while Rob paid the parking fee. She wondered if she looked as disheveled as she felt, her panties gone and her sex swollen and wet from Rob’s ministrations. She glanced across at him as he chatted with the ticket guy. Despite the faint sheen of sweat on his skin, he looked as if he’d been doing nothing more strenuous than walking up a few flights of stairs.
They pulled away and Rob headed for the exit. “Do you have to work today?”
“No.”
“Then let’s take the long way home.” Rob disregarded the entrance to the freeway and headed back under the bridge toward the much smaller and slower back road. Ally sat back in the seat and tried to relax. Rob put his hand on her thigh.
“Open your legs for me.”
“I’m going to get Jackson’s seat all damp.”
Rob squeezed her thigh. “Just do it. I can guarantee he won’t give a damn.”
Ally relaxed her thighs, and Rob’s hand slipped between them. He groaned as he encountered the slick wetness. “I like this, like you being all wet from my come.” His fingertip grazed her clit and she shuddered. “I wish you could feel like this all the time.”
“Wet with no panties?”
Rob flexed his fingers. “Yeah. Totally naked would be even better.”
“I don’t think the airport authorities would like that somehow.”
He didn’t answer, just pushed one long finger inside her and held it deep. “Touch your clit, honey. Make yourself come around my finger.” Ally couldn’t ignore the dark command of his tone, and her hand slid to her lap. “Move your skirt out of the way. I want to see you.”
Ally pulled her already crumpled cotton skirt to one side and stared down, entranced, at his big strong hand, which disappeared between her legs and inside her body. She tucked her fingers under his palm and found her swollen clit.
“Before you start, undo my belt, unzip my shorts, and let my cock out.”
Ally hurried to comply, but he didn’t even look at her, his gaze fixed firmly on the road in front of them. His cock was already half erect and wet at the tip, and she couldn’t help but smooth a finger over it. He shuddered but still didn’t look down.
“Stroke your clit, Ally.”
She slowly circled her own pulsing wet bud and felt Rob’s finger push against the smooth walls of her sheath. She touched herself again, and her hips almost came off the seat. “I’m really sensitive . . . ,” she moaned.
“I told you what to do, Ally. Now do it.”
She stroked herself again, got into the slick motion, and started to moan with every fresh stab of sensation that seemed to radiate from her clit to his encased finger. He didn’t help her, making her do all the work of rising to meet him, of pushing herself against the palm of his hand in desperate supplication.
“Harder, Ally.” He pressed his hand down, trapping hers over her clit, and ground his palm into her working knuckles. Her climax made her back arch, and Rob kept rubbing her until she came again. He took his hand away from her crotch and cupped the back of her head. “Now take my cock in your mouth and keep it there.”
She fought the constraints of the seat belt as she leaned across his lap and opened her mouth wide to take him inside. She started to suck him, and his grip tightened on her hair. “Just hold me. Don’t make me come.”
 
Rob didn’t dare look down. Ally had relaxed her mouth as he continued to grow, his thick length crowding down her throat forcing her to breathe through her nose. Every jolt of the truck pushed him farther in and made him want to curse. There was no way he wasn’t going to explode soon, and he had an aversion to losing control when he was driving. He saw a sign for a motel and sped up a little.
He pulled off the highway and into the parking lot. The motel looked like it had faded away in the bright sunlight, its paintwork drab, the asphalt gray and the white lines that designated the parking spaces hopeful haphazard dots. He carefully disengaged his cock from Ally’s mouth.
“Stay here.”
He managed to make himself presentable and strolled into the reception area of the motel, where a lone teenager chewed gum and stared up at a baseball game on the small TV.
“Hey, I need a room.”
“Sure.” The guy didn’t take his eyes off the screen. “Thirty bucks a night.”
Rob peeled off three tens and laid them on the counter.
The boy pushed a book toward him. “Sign in here.” He pushed a large wooden keychain fashioned in the shape of a banana across the desk. “Here you go, room thirty-two. It’s just around the back in the shade.”
“Thanks.” Rob grabbed the key and headed back to the truck, which he had left running in the heat. He pulled around the low block of buildings and found the room. “Come on, honey.”
He unlocked the door and stepped into the faded chintzy orange glory of the seventies. At least everything looked clean, and it wasn’t as if they were staying long. He caught Ally by the shoulder and pulled her against him, and his cock immediately kicked up again. He bore her down onto the bed, spreading her legs with his as he fumbled with his zipper.
Yeah, this was what he wanted, being inside her, making her scream and whimper and beg him not to stop, to never stop, to fuck her until he ran out of come. She wrapped her legs around him and kept him close until he could no longer hold himself back and climaxed in long, shuddering spurts.
Eventually, he levered himself up on his elbows and looked down at her. “You okay?”
She nodded, her gaze fixed on his. He reached behind her neck and undid the ties of her halter neck. “Take the dress off.”
He did most of the work, pulling the now-crumpled cotton over her head, leaving her naked, her skin white against the orange bedcovers. Her long legs rested against his. He drew his T-shirt over his head and took off his shorts. They’d both already lost their sandals on the busily patterned carpet.
Before he tossed all their clothes onto a nearby chair, he slid his leather belt out of its loops. Ally licked her lips, and his cock twitched in anticipation. He knelt over her, the belt folded in his hand. “Hell, I can’t decide whether to use it as a collar on you or to spank you a little.” She swallowed convulsively, her nipples hardening into tight buds. “When you called the other night, you left me so hard I think you deserve to pay, don’t you?”
“What about Jackson? It was his idea to call you.”
“Don’t worry. Jackson will get his.” He pictured his best friend fucking Ally. He of all people knew just how to make Jackson sweat and beg.
“I just did what I was told.” She fluttered her eyelashes at him. “I thought you’d like that.”
Rob smiled at Ally. “Sure.” He reached forward and swirled a finger over her swollen clit and she flinched away from him. He didn’t retreat; instead, he did it again and watched as she caught her breath. “We need to work on that.”
He bent his head and licked her very gently until she started to relax. “Need to get you so that you can take all the loving me and Jackson want to give you.” Then he set his teeth on her clit, and she grabbed at his hair so hard his eyes watered. He backed off, leaving her gasping.
“Hands and knees, honey.”
He waited as she turned over and presented him with the sweet curve of her ass. He folded the belt in two and tapped her right ass cheek. “You enjoyed the thought of me alone in that bed thinking about what you and Jackson were getting up to, didn’t you?”
“Yes,” she whispered.
He raised the leather a little higher and spanked her a little harder. “I was hard all week after that.” Her hands fisted on the covers as he kept using the leather on her. He watched her carefully, aware of every twitch and moan, bringing her to a pitch where she was gasping his name with every precise blow.
“Spread your legs a little wider.”
He rubbed the leather in the thick wetness between her legs, back and forth, back and forth until she was arching her ass as if seeking his cock. He waited until she stilled and then used the leather belt right against her sex.
“Rob, oh God . . .” She screamed his name again, and the sound went straight to his groin. He smacked her pussy again, this time using the flat of his hand. “If you liked that, tell me to do it again.”
“Please, do it.” Her voice was muffled against the sheets, but he heard her just fine and obliged, a little harder this time. She started to climax, and he grabbed her hips and pulled her back, impaling her on his shaft, felt the strength of her climax squeezing him like a fist. He hammered into her again, aware that she hadn’t stopped coming and that he was gritting his teeth against the inevitable climax that was gathering in his balls.
With a groan, he held her tight and released into her. He had no energy left to hold himself up, and he fell on top of her, pushing her flat against the covers. After a while he rolled over, bringing her with him. Sunlight filtered through the partially closed drapes, and he stared up at the yellowing popcorn ceiling. She felt so right there, against his steadily pumping heart, that he didn’t want to leave.
His eyes started to close, and he threaded his fingers through her long hair, only to groan and bring them both to an upright position.
“Damn it, we’ve got to get back. Jackson will need his truck.”
Ally stayed curled in his lap, her breathing even, her face tranquil as if she hadn’t quite come down yet from the place he’d sent her, the place where her sexual needs were met by his dominance. He kissed the top of her head and carried her into the small bathroom.
“Ally, we need to wash up.”
“Okay.”
She smiled up at him, and the trust in her gray eyes made him feel half proud and half ashamed. He’d given her what she wanted in bed. Could he ever give her what she wanted in life? He wasn’t even sure if he knew anymore. She’d seemed set on getting out of town as fast as possible, and he hadn’t said anything to persuade her otherwise. But could he survive it if she left him again?
He turned on the faucets with more force than they needed, and water cascaded into the shallow peach sink. Ally bent forward to splash the water over her face. He’d promised himself that he wouldn’t push her into making decisions, and he intended to keep to that. Forcing her hand wouldn’t achieve what he wanted, but would he ever find the right words to make her stay?
 
Ally glanced across at Rob as he drove the truck into the deepening sunlight. He hadn’t said much more to her than the basic necessities. Within twenty minutes, they’d showered, put on their clothes, and gotten back in the truck to continue the journey. Ally stifled a yawn behind her hand, and Rob glanced at her for the first time.
“You want to go stretch out on the backseat?”
“No, I’m fine. It isn’t far now.”
“Yeah, about another five minutes.”
Ally gathered her resolve. “Are you okay, Rob?”
“Sure.”
“You seem a bit quiet.”
“I’m tired, honey. I’ve been traveling all day.”
“And then you had to fuck me as well.”
“That was a pleasure.”
“Really?”
“Sure.”
Ally fought a sigh. Men were so hard to have a conversation with. Rob’s lovemaking overwhelmed her, turned her into a needy, sex-obsessed woman, and she loved it. Loved what he could do to her with his hands, his mouth, his cock, his leather belt . . . She squirmed in her seat. Did he even care?
Rob stole a glance at her. “Are you sore?”
“A little.”
“But you’re okay with it.”
“Sure.”
“Now you sound like me.”
Ally smiled and looked out the window as the outskirts of Spring Falls appeared. It wasn’t even that late, about six according to the clock in the cab. “You can drop me off at the corner.”
“Hell, no. I’ll take you to your door.”
“Even if Jane sees you?”
He patted her knee. “I’m done with hiding. If anyone wants to talk to me about my relationship with you, I’ll meet them head-on.”
Ally bit down hard on her lip. “We don’t have a relationship. You told me that. You said it was all about sex and revenge.”
He turned the corner into her street, his keen gaze fixed on the houses. When he shut the engine off, the silence was deafening. He got out of the cab and came around to help her out. His expression was difficult to read, the grip on her arm more definite. He towed her around the side of the house and approached the back door, his key already out. She went past him into the kitchen and stood in the middle, her arms crossed over her breasts.
He swung toward her and then stopped and shoved his hands in his pockets. “It was never just about the sex, Ally. You’re the one who said you were going to run off again, not me. What kind of fool would want to get involved with a woman who has already made up her mind to leave?”
 
After Rob left, Ally couldn’t settle and found herself standing in the dining room staring at her mother’s desk. Something made her pick up the last of the journals and take them through to her bedroom. Even though she’d understood where Rob was coming from, his words had still hurt her. It was as if he still didn’t understand her at all.
She stared at the matte-black face of the journal. But was she any better? She’d steadfastly refused to believe that her mother could ever change, but from what everyone in Spring Falls was trying to tell her, maybe Ruth had. Reading a few of the entries in Ruth’s journal, painful as it was sure to be, might at least help solve that mystery once and for all. She opened the book in the middle and settled down to read. The entry was dated about three years previously.
 
I’m wondering what’s happened to Ally. She seems to have disappeared. If I try and contact her, I know she won’t answer me, and that’s my fault not hers. I’m worried, though, because in her pictures she’s been looking thinner and thinner and her eyes . . . her eyes look as dead as mine used to. I’m afraid she might be harming herself. And it’s my fault. It’s all my fault.
 
The words blurred and Ally realized she was crying. How dare Ruth be concerned about her? It was her mom’s fault, and she had no business making Ally feel bad as well. Ally swiped at the tears on her cheeks with the back of her hand and threw the book onto the floor.
She reached for a tissue, blew her nose, and stared at the journal. But it wasn’t all her mom’s fault, was it? The choices she’d made were her own, not Ruth’s, and she’d paid for them just as Ruth had.
“At least I didn’t have a kid or anyone who needed me,” she whispered. But was that true? She’d let her friends and her business acquaintances down. Wasn’t that just as selfish? Maybe not, but it hadn’t been very nice.
“Mirror, mirror on the wall, am I turning into my mom after all?” she murmured, and then found herself smiling at her own bad rhyme. Ally leaned over and picked up the book. When exactly had Ruth changed? Despite her tiredness, she knew it would be impossible to sleep. She replaced the book on the bedside table and went back to check out the desk in the dining room.
She switched on the lamp at the side of the desk and took a deep breath before starting to sort through the journals. They started when Ally was quite young but were very patchy and incomplete. Ally found a journal that covered the period from about two years after she’d left, and she sat down on the dusty carpet to read.
 
It’s stupid. Ally’s gone and I feel like there’s nothing left in my world. I thought it would be easier not having her around criticizing me all the time, but the weird thing is I miss it. At least she cared enough to try, even though I didn’t like to hear it.
I can’t even say it’s her fault I drink anymore either. I just like to drink. I’m going to talk to Dr. Shalvis tomorrow. Things have got to change.
 
When Ally closed the book, her eyes were stinging again. How weird that Ruth’s words echoed Ally’s earlier ones. It seemed that her departure had eventually led to Ruth deciding to quit alcohol and drugs for good. It hadn’t been an instant moment of revelation, but a gradual progression of her mother realizing that without Ally’s presence, there was no one who really loved her.
Ally stuffed the journal back into the drawer and shut it with a bang. As if Ruth had ever cared that Ally had loved her . . . She’d never seemed to notice. And she’d stopped loving Ruth anyway . . . hadn’t she?
Too exhausted to think anymore, Ally made her way to bed. Despite everything, she knew she was going to keep on reading. Her mother’s words might open up old wounds, but she’d learned that sometimes that needed to happen in order for a person to move on. She was trying the same thing with Rob and Jackson, wasn’t she? Ally halted at the dining room door and looked back at the darkened room. If she’d replied to Ruth’s messages, would she and her mother have found peace? Pain seized her heart. It was too late to find out. Her mother was dead.