Twenty-six
SIXTEEN YEARS EARLIER
1802
La Pomme d’Or, Paris
HAWKER HUNG IN THE NIGHT, BALANCING AGAINST the
side of the building, just touching the windowsill. He heard Owl
inside her room, being busy, making the little rustles a woman
makes, getting ready for bed. When he was sure there was nobody
with her, he scratched at the shutters.
She came to let him in, wearing a peignoir the
color of peaches over her night shift.
For five years they’d been lovers, and he never got
tired of the sight of her. Her hair was loose down her shoulders in
honey-dark rivers. Her feet were pink and bare on the floorboards.
She looked cross.
He crouched on the window ledge. “I keep expecting
to find you in some pretty apartment on the Rue St. Denis.” He knew
every fingerhold on the shutter and the open casement. A good
thing. He was clumsy tonight. “But it’s the same pokey old
attic.”
“It is a very safe attic, mon vieux. There
is nowhere in Paris so well-guarded as an expensive brothel.”
“Yet here I am, getting in without let or
hindrance.”
“You, of course, are the exception to many rules.
It is a pity you will break your neck one of these days, showing
off. It will be mourned by all the women of Europe. A more sensible
man would simply—”
“Walk in the front door. I know. That takes all the
fun out of it.” Even if he wanted to tell the world he was in
Paris, he wasn’t dressed to stroll into a place like the Pomme
d’Or. They’d looked at him twice even in the livery stable where
he’d left his horse.
He stumbled when his feet found the floor. His legs
were giving way now that they knew he was at the end of the road.
“Am I welcome?”
“If you were not welcome, I would not have opened
the window. Or perhaps I would have opened the window and then
pushed you to a sudden death on the stones of the courtyard. In
either case, you would receive the hint.” He could smell the clean
bright smell of her. Lavender. “You may give that extremely dusty
coat to me, if you please. You have been rolling in the dust.
Fighting?”
“Falling off a damned horse.”
“I will be tactful and not point out how maladroit
you are.” She took the cuff of his left sleeve and began to ease it
downward. He didn’t wear a tight fashionable coat. It came right
off. She made one of those disapproving French shrugs. “You are
hurt. Why did you fall off a damned horse? And where?”
“Careful. That’s sore. I fell off . . . somewhere.”
He honestly didn’t remember. He’d been moving for ten days
straight, eating in the saddle, sleeping rolled in a blanket in the
bushes. “I think it was yesterday. I was going downhill.”
“You have no affinity for horses. That is strange
in an Englishman.”
Two floors downstairs, somebody tinkled away at a
piano. Skillful about it, for all he knew. They had one of the best
pianists in France working in La Pomme d’Or. It went along with the
best food and the best paintings on the wall. The best women.
Justine wasn’t one of the women. The French Police
Secrète hadn’t made her a whore, though they might have tried it.
She was Owl, who confounded them all and went her own way. So far
as he knew, the only man she slept with was him.
He never told her he didn’t go to other women. For
five years it had been only her. Nobody else. Nobody, not even when
it was months that went by without seeing her. He wouldn’t have
admitted that under torture.
She slipped his coat down over his shoulders and
down his arms. Unbuttoned his waistcoat. His senses filled up with
swirls of the apricot color she wore and the sweep of her hair.
Everything about her flowed like water.
He’d have let her hurt his ribs, just for the
pleasure of feeling her hands on him. But she didn’t hurt when she
undressed him. She was neat and quick, getting his shirt untucked,
pulling it off over his head.
His shirt joined his coat and waistcoat on the
floor. She ran her fingers lightly over his chest, up and down his
ribs. “You look as if you have been laid upon the road to be
trampled by an advancing army. You have many bruises, for one
thing. They are very ugly.”
“You, on the other hand, are luminous as daybreak.
Exquisite as . . .”
“Sit,” she said. “On the bed. And be silent. I do
not wish you to collapse facedown on the floor and become even more
inconvenient to me. You have burned yourself away to nothing at
all.”
Pain jabbed in his side when he sank down. Linen
sheets on the bed and one light blanket. Everything was orderly,
simple, well arranged. Everything said “Owl.”
He sighed out a deep breath. “It was a long
ride.”
“So you fall from the horse because you are
exhausted. I am all out of patience with you.” Her hands were light
on his shoulders. “If you are determined to kill yourself, ask me
to do it. I would earn great praise in certain quarters if I
brought you down. Have you broken any bones? There is a surgeon
downstairs in the parlor tonight, only half drunk. I can bring him
to you.”
“There are two hundred and six bones in the human
body and not one of them is broken. Remarkable, isn’t it?” Who’d
told him how many bones a man had? Doyle maybe. Or Pax. They
carried that kind of useless information in their heads.
Her breasts, small, perfect, and kissable, rose and
fell, about six inches from his mouth. He wanted to start, right
there, and taste his way across her body. He wanted to put his head
down onto her breasts and fall asleep. “Feels like I’ve been beaten
with rods. Very Turkish.”
“One may expect you to explore such novelties. You
are very stupid to fall off horses, but I do not suppose you will
change.”
“For you, my sweet—”
“Oh, be silent. Your boots demonstrate all the
reasons women should not entertain men in their rooms. I will
remove them so you do not suffer doing it. I am a marvel of
sensitivity every time I am with you. I astound myself
sometimes.”
He must have closed his eyes. When he opened them,
she was at his feet, taking his boot in her hands. The sight of
her, kneeling between his legs with her hair spread out over the
edible, edible silk on her shoulders . . . He couldn’t have found
words anywhere on earth, in any language.
Inevitable, wasn’t it? He could barely move, but he
managed to get roused up like a rabbit. He was almost too tired to
talk, but he wasn’t too tired to spring up hard, pointing to Owl
like a compass seeking north. What they had between them was
natural as breathing. Always. Every time.
He didn’t try to touch her, just looked. That was
the joy of being a man. Looking was its own reward. Hunger welled
up, and it felt warm and fine.
“You are not entirely exhausted.” Dry words from
Owl. She took on the second boot, being gentle. “Do you plan to use
this particular yard of gallantry, perhaps?”
He laughed. She could make him laugh. “I’m filthy.
I don’t belong in any woman’s bed, least of all yours. But, damn, I
want you.”
“So I see. I am vastly flattered.” When she stood,
silk like apricots, like peaches, flowed across his thighs. Cool
yellow fire, infinitely tempting. “You are in several sorts of pain
tonight, are you not? I will get you a brandy.”
She kept brandy on the shelf with her books. Wasted
on him, of course. He’d never told her he liked gin better. He
could admit he’d killed an Austrian captain, who needed it, but he
wouldn’t tell her he drank gin by choice. She’d think worse of
him.
“This particular brandy, they make near my old home
from the lees of the grape harvest. It is very potent.” She gave
one of her fugitive grins and went looking for a glass.
Women move different from men. Their joints don’t
fit as tight. They glide from place to place without any obvious
assistance in the way of bones and muscle involved.
Narrow and clever feet slipped in and out of the
slit in the peignoir, not making a sound on the floorboards. Her
toes were naked and pink as raspberries. One day soon, when he
didn’t ache so much, he was going to kiss her toes. Take them into
his mouth and suck on them, one by one. She’d twitch when he did
that. He liked it when she twitched. “I kiss your hands and feet,
gnädige Fräulein.”
“That is very pretty. Your German accent has
improved. Here. You will see this is the cut crystal you gave me in
Vienna. I took a fancy to it and brought it back home with me.” She
held the glass till he had it firmly in both hands. “Tell me why
you have tormented yourself and several horses, racing to Paris. It
is not merely to see me.”
“Oh. The usual. Civilization is coming to an end.
War is imminent. The sky is falling and we have to go tack it up
again.”
He’d gone to Service headquarters first, to the new
house over on the Left Bank. He’d dropped a copy of the letter in
Pax’s lap two hours ago. Carruthers was already calling in agents.
Setting them to work.
His job was to tell the French. That was his
assignment from London.
The Service knew he had a line into the French
Secret Police. They didn’t know it was Owl. Nobody knew about him
and Owl.
Owl said, “And what is the usual?”
“It’s not good. Give me a minute.” He sipped
eau-de-vie, which was strong enough to lift his brain case. “But
I’m carrying one piece of good news. Hand me my coat, could
you?”
The package was wrapped in his handkerchief and
wedged into an inner pocket, beside his left-hand knife. He’d tried
to protect it when he fell, but it looked a little flat. He slit
the twine and handed it over.
Owl let brown paper wrapping drop to the floor.
Pulled the end of a thin blue ribbon and let it fall. Slipped the
lid off. She stood, holding the little painted box with the tips of
her fingers. The ride from London was worth it, just to see her
face go unguarded like that.
His small, unofficial commission. It wasn’t the
first time he’d played courier. “Rock cakes, they’re called. In
Sévie’s case, one of those appropriate names. She sends her love
and that letter. I’ll tell her you enjoyed them, when she
asks.”
“You may do so, because I will.” She ran a finger
over the little brown cakes, then picked the folded letter from the
side. “Drink the brandy. You’re shaking.”
She slid the lid back into place and set the box on
the table, on top of the letter, so it was hidden. She wouldn’t
read it at once. She’d save it for later, savoring the moment as
long as possible. He knew her so well.
“Just tired.” He drank again. “Last time you gave
me brandy was outside Zurich.”
“When you came to warn me, in a benevolent manner.
You were exhausted that time as well.”
“And on the run.”
“We both were. It is remarkable how often we manage
to annoy the same people.”
“The Austrians are easily annoyed.”
“C’est vrai. Now, tell me why you have come
from England. What matter is so serious you barely trust yourself
to speak of it?”
“In my coat. I’ll show you.”
Owl did not hand him his jacket. She ransacked the
pockets herself. If she hadn’t been French, and blue-blooded and a
spy, she would have been an ornament to any gang in London.
He sat on the bed and let the brandy sear his mouth
where he’d bit his lip, falling. It didn’t stop the shivering in
his muscles. Didn’t clear his head.
“One passport,” she muttered, “in the name of
Pierre Thibault, harmless citizen of Rouen. That is you. A
handkerchief. One of your knives.”
“I know what I’m carrying. Nothing interesting.” He
brought nothing into this house she couldn’t see. Nothing the whole
French Secret Police couldn’t print in the newspaper.
“Do you know, you are almost stupid with not
sleeping.” She turned the coat over. “Now I find another of your
knives. I do not know any man who has such a fascination with
knives. A candle stub and a tinderbox. We are prepared for all
eventualities, are we not? Playing cards. A set of picklocks. And
one book . . . which seems to be a very dull survey of mining sites
in France, published in Lyon. I do not suppose this is a clever
work of codes.”
“It’s just a book about mines. What you want is in
the front of that.”
“Ah.” She came to stand beside him while she opened
the letter. “This is in English.”
“It was written by an Englishman. The British
embassy is full of them.”
“Do not be facile.” She read the letter quickly,
from beginning to end, then looked over the second page more
carefully. “There is much about buying a horse and complaints about
his mistress. He finishes . . . he has overheard a plot and is it
not curious? This Englishman, this John—”
“Millian. The Honorable John Millian, attached to
the embassy in Paris.”
“He claims to have overheard a conversation while
he is at dinner somewhere—”
“The Palais Royale.”
“He does not say which restaurant or café in the
precincts of the Palais Royale, so it is useless. He does not say
who spoke, so it becomes more useless. He records only part of what
he has heard. He also spells it wrong. Why have you brought me
this?”
“Because three days after writing that letter and
sending it off to London, Millian fell out a window and splattered
his brains across the Rue de l’Aiguillerie.”
“Ah. That is unfortunate.”
“Particularly for John Millian. He took a dozen
strands of hair down to the street with him, torn out by the roots,
clenched in his fist.”
“He was not alone when he fell.”
“So we assume. The letter got sent to London, and
it struck his friend in the Foreign Office as so interesting, he
sat on his thumbs for a month before he brought the letter to us.
To the Service.”
“Who send you posthaste to deal with it, at last.
We are always called in when it is almost too late.”
Three candles lit the room. She went to the closest
and studied the effect of light shining through the paper. “There
is no writing hidden. You will tell me there is no British code
involved.”
“None.”
“I see no French code words. We are left with the
dozen words your Monsieur Millian overheard.” She frowned as she
read, “‘La Dame est prête.’ That does not tell us so much.
Only that the woman is ready.”
“If that’s even what he heard.”
“We must trust it is, or we have nothing at all.
Next, one says, ‘À Tours.’ That is the city of Tours, I
think. And then, ‘L’Anglais arrange tout.’”
“There’s an Englishman who’ll arrange
everything.”
“How nice for them,” she said. “Then we learn,
‘Le fou va aller à Paris.’ The fool is going to Paris. This
means nothing.”
“Except we’re about to get another fool in Paris, a
commodity with which the city is plentifully supplied.”
“None of this says anything useful. The
conspirators in the Palais Royale might as well have remained
silent. They end with, ‘Patiente. Napoléon va mourir en août.
C’est certain.’”
“He predicts Napoleon will die in August.”
“But he will not. We will make sure of that. Your
Monsieur Millian spells French vilely.”
“The least of his faults. He also didn’t speak
French very well. There’s no telling what he actually heard.”
“‘The woman is ready.’ So a woman is involved. That
is one solid bit of information. Tours is another, as is the
Englishman who arranges everything. But the meat of this nut is
that Napoleon will be attacked in August.”
“Now you know what we know.”
“It is already August.”
“Yes.” He closed his eyes. He’d memorized every pen
stroke of the letter.
“So slight a messenger, this letter, to tell us of
so great a disaster. You know what will happen if Napoleon is
attacked by an Englishman.”
“We’ll be at war again.” The treaty patched up
between England and France had lasted for a year. It wouldn’t hold
forever, but any day men weren’t shooting at each other was a good
day for somebody.
“War. Within a week,” Owl agreed.
Armies in the field. Thousands of men dead.
“Casus belli. Doyle called it that.” Always
had a way to wrap things up in some dead language, Doyle did. The
cause of war. Casus belli.
That was why he was ordered to bring this letter to
the French Secret Police. After ten years of fighting, rational men
on both sides were sick of it.
“I will copy this.” She folded the letter. “Several
times. There are people I must inform. Give me your glass. You are
finished with it.”
“What? Oh. Yes.” He put it in her hands. He should
stand up and walk around to keep himself awake. Ask what the French
knew about the plot, if anything. Put his shirt on. Leave. Find a
bed at headquarters. Carruthers would want to talk to him. When he
yawned and started to get up, Owl shoved him back to the bed.
“You will wait and not go wandering off into the
night. You will probably fall into the Seine and drown.”
He yawned again. Bone-cracking yawn. “I’m not fit
to stay here. I should—”
“You should sit and be quiet. I must read this
again.” She studied him impatiently. “No. Lie down. You need not go
anywhere, and I may have questions for you again. This is all you
have? This one letter?”
“One letter. A couple mouthfuls of words spilled
out in a Palais Royale restaurant or gaming den in front of a
damned idiot who barely spoke French.”
“It is not much to work with.”
“It’s so close to nothing it amounts to the same
thing. The gods must love war. They’re making it hard to stop this
one.”
He let her bully him into lying down. Let himself
fall across the blanket. Let her swing his legs up on the bed. His
muscles had turned to jelly and it didn’t seem worthwhile trying to
get up. He closed his eyes.
Not a soft bed. Justine didn’t sleep in a soft bed.
But the linen was worn silky by the turning of her body, night
after night. The pillow smelled of her.
Paper crackled. Owl sat at the table, reading.
Checking the words again and again.
She said, “I do not think it possible your Monsieur
Millian made a mistake in the word Anglais. He will have
heard it often.”
“He probably got that part right.”
“It may be code. ‘The Englishman arranges
everything’ may speak of the arrival of some émigré or the storage
of spikes and guns in a warehouse in Dijon. There are hordes of
disgruntled royalists. This may be yet another band, with no
living, breathing Englishman involved at all.”
“Hope so.”
He heard her uncork a bottle. Then the scratch of
pen on paper. “August.”
“Today’s the tenth.” He didn’t have to tell her
that.
“If it is to be in August, we have no more than
twenty-one days.” Her pen continued. “I will be canny in choosing
where to place this information. There are men in my service who
would like the war to resume, just as there are Englishmen who wish
that.”
“Yes.”
She came to him, rising from her chair, crossing
the room. Silk slithered like water spilled along his bare arm when
she pulled the blanket across him. Like being licked. He was so
tired. Too tired to say anything.
SHE copied Monsieur Millian’s letter six times, in
a fair approximation of his handwriting, in the exact lines and
spacing he used, in case this turned out to be a cypher that
depended on the placement of words. These would go to the three men
most senior in her service, immediately. She must also take a copy
to Leblanc, who would be useless but must be included. She would
send one copy to Soulier, the Police Secrète’s chief in London. She
would keep one copy herself.
Napoleon must not die.
This filled her mind as she wrote the first copy
and the second—the utmost seriousness of this task. Napoleon was
all that held France together. He was the great man of this age. He
renounced the worst excesses of the Republic but kept the great
gains. Because Napoleon held France, all men could vote. The Jew,
the Black, the poorest peasant in the field—every one of them was
French and free. He even invited the émigrés back to France,
without penalty, if they would only renounce the special privileges
of noble blood.
The Republic had been purchased with rivers of
blood. Only Napoleon could preserve it.
She would protect him and the Republic.
She tried not to think of Hawker while she wrote.
It is a discipline to set aside pain and do one’s work. It makes
one strong.
After an hour, she finished and set the last pages
aside to dry.
She held the quill, watching a drop of ink gather
at the tip. My lover is an Englishman. This cannot
continue.
Her bed was so full of Hawker. His body
disconcerted her, always, with its fierce energies concentrated
inside his skin. He lay on his back, half naked, his head turned
toward her, his arm across his chest upon the sheet. She did not
think he had broken any ribs, but he was holding pain inside him as
he slept.
He lay, sunk fathoms deep in exhaustion. All the
deadly knowledge of his blood and bone was quiescent. He was like a
well-honed sword someone had carefully set down. Sometimes she
forgot how beautiful he was when they had been apart for a long
time.
The gathering of ink at the end of her pen would
drop in an instant and make a mess of this clean sheet of paper. It
would be stupid to let that happen, would it not? She touched quill
to the lip of the ink bottle.
His country and mine will fight again. It is
inevitable.
France, every day, showed the world that men could
be free. The kings of Europe could not permit this. They were
resolved to destroy the Republic. If an Englishman schemed to kill
Napoleon, it was part of a larger plot to topple everyone into
war.
We will be enemies when war comes.
Hawker made not the least noise or movement when he
slept. It was as if he had trained himself to concealment, always
and everywhere. He was the least trusting man she knew, but he
trusted her. He should not. It pierced her like a knife that he
would sleep so deeply in her bed. It was the last time he would do
so.
It is over. We are no longer heedless children
to take these wild risks.
She was the one who must end it. She was the
practical one.
Now that the moment had come, she found she could
not say the words to him. She slid a new sheet of paper forward,
choosing a kind that was cheap and common everywhere. By habit, she
wrote in an elegant hand that was not her own, and she did not
address him by name. Such reasonable precaution was second nature.
Letters can be a source of endless inconvenience.
My friend,
Our time together is finished. We have known
from the beginning that this day would arrive when we would set
aside what has been between us. Let us part now, while there are
still no regrets or consequences.
I will send you any news I have of this new
matter. You know how to leave messages for me.
C
C for chouette. “Little owl.” He
sometimes called her that.
She rose. She folded Hawker’s clothing and left it
on a chair. She brushed her hair in front of the mirror. She had
thought when women spoke of their heart breaking it was merely a
way of speaking. It was not. Very distinctly, in her chest, she
felt the crack inside her.
She would sleep alone from now on. There was no one
else she wanted.
She folded the several copies of Mr. Millian’s
letter together to take with her and laid the original in the
center of the table for Hawker to find.
Her words to Hawker were quite dry. She set the
letter on top of his clothing and left him.